Holy fuck... You all had a a lot to say about my last chapter... Yay... That was the goal... Background... I was Team Jacob... that does not mean that I am team Jose... I just wanted to see him get a nice send off... but he will be popping up again... Also it as a ode to Twilight, I was trying to be meta... (for those of you following from the beginning, this was going to be a series of short stories...one of which would have been CG as a vampire to add to the meta goodness... if you guys want to read something like that let me know...) so i am glad that came across... This next chapter is CG's reaction... This was way harder to write then I thought it would be... So complicated he is... I find myself listening to a lot of Ray Lamontagne whan i write CG's POV...
Thank you all again for reading and reviewing...
Also I am going to plug Darkness and White again... If you haven't yet please give it a shot...
I couldn't breathe, I couldn't think. My heart was beating out of my fucking chest and everything went to hell in an instant. Ana, my sweet Ana was betraying me.
"Christian…Don't." I could feel the weight of Elliot's grasp on my arm like a vice grip, pulling me back into my seat, his voice breaking through my rage. I sat there as I watched Ana get scooped up into this boys arms and she did nothing to stop him.
"What is happening over there right now has nothing to do with you brother…Not a damn thing… Kate just sent me a text that Jose is moving to New York…"
"Sir, your brother is right…" Taylor shifted uncomfortably in his seat, his knuckles white on the steering wheel.
"Like I give a fuck… I am going to tear his arms off… see how he can take photos then…" I tore my arm away from Elliot's, my eyes fixed on to Ana's mouth as she willingly kissed another man. A man she told me was like a brother to her. A long deep kiss, it was full of longing and need. I could feel myself dying; I didn't even know I was alive until I met Ana.
"He loves her…" Elliott yelled out as I opened the car door, one foot on the pavement. Of course he fucking loved her, she was perfect. "He as loved her for years… and he has every right to tell her how he feels… He is making his last stand…You going over there will only push her into his arms…" I halted a moment remembering that Ana was not my sub but she was my girlfriend.
"So what I just sit here and watch…"
"You sit here and wait… That's what you do you wait. You go over there now, seeing red like you are…you will lose her for sure…Trust me… you are new to this girlfriend thing…"
Doubt crept into my mind, maybe she loved him back. I was fifty shades of fucked up and Jose seemed like a more appropriate choice. Ana was an innocent; she deserved a peaceful life, something I knew I was unable to give her. I sat there watching as she clung to him for dear life, tears streaming from her face and I was powerless.
"What if she… chooses him?"
"Then she wasn't yours to begin with…Look he is walking away… Alone…" Ana is standing there in the light from the bar sign, cast in red and yellow. Her expression is full of pain and regret, for a moment I feel like she wants to go after him but then she pulls her cell phone out of her bag and a second later mind starts to ring.
"See…" Elliot smirks and sits back in his seat as I answer my phone.
"Ana…" I can see her face light up and relief wash over her at the sound of my voice as she leans against the brick wall.
"Ok thank god…Christian…I need to talk to you…" I can feel the anger pumping through my veins, where blood used to be. All I can think about is causing her pain, making her pay for this. Making her pay for making me feel so small and impotent. Sitting here watching her like a fool.
"Baby we are talking…" Elliott slaps me in the shoulder and mouths for me to be nice. I glare at him for a moment and he just shakes his head and returns to text who I can only assume to be Kate.
"No I mean in person… something has happened…and you need to know…Where are you?"
"I am about ten yards to your left Ana." Her head slowly lifts and turns, horror spreading across it. I can hear her gasp and see her bite her lip.
"You saw…" Her voice is trembling and I am not sure if is it's because she is scared she is going to lose me or just scared of me.
"That I did…" I clear my throat needlessly and I can see her jump. I can feel my control coming back as I straighten my shoulders.
"Christian… I… it… I mean…Jose…" I closed my eyes, his name was the last word I wanted to hear coming out of her mouth. I can feel my palm twitch, and my cock harden.
"Hang up the phone Ana… I am coming to collect you."
Everything is wrong… everything… His voice is so cold, so detached. I shiver as I watch him descend from the Audi, his long legs making their way towards me. He moves like a cat, graceful and quietly. Even like this I am stunned by his beauty, everything about him is perfect. Perfectly broken, perfectly fucked up and I can't imagine why I ever kissed Jose at all. I was Christian's, this was an undeniable fact. From the moment I met him, I was done.
"Hang up the phone Ana… I am coming to collect you."
His face in neutral, but his eyes are a dark black and I can read the anger and hurt buried beneath his cool exterior. I stand there frozen holding my breath with each step. He is standing mere inches from me, not a word passing between us and despite my fear and shame I can't tear my eyes away from his.
"Hey Ana… Katie still inside?" I manage to say hello my voice small and broken and point to the direction of the bar. I can tell he is unsure about leaving us alone; he just stands there for a few beats as time stands still.
"Ok, I am gonna go get her…Christian…behave yourself. Remember what I said…" He growls but still says nothing and now we are alone. He leans forward, his hands pressed against the brick wall on either side of my head and for a split second I think he is going to kiss me. I can feel that he wants too, his erection pressing into my belly. Instead he just shakes his head and pushes into me a little harder. I gasp, I feel uneasy in this small space, and I have to remind myself to breathe.
"Christian…" I finally speak, my voice pleading unable to take the tension a moment more.
"Don't Ana…What the fuck was that about?" His voice is so controlled it is eerie. I can tell he is trying to keep himself in check and I am grateful for whatever Elliott said.
"Jose… he is leaving… moving to New York tomorrow…He told me he loved me… and that he wanted me to go with him…" His eyes grew wide, his jaw slacked and I remembered my promise that I would never leave him. "But I told him no… I don't love him…" I couldn't get the words out quick enough.
"And then you fucking KISSED HIM!" The flood gates were opened, his anger was unleashed and if my back wasn't literally up against a wall I would have jumped back away from him.
"Yes I did…" I couldn't even look at him. He was so hurt, that is why he was so angry, and I had betrayed his trust.
"Why… tell me why…"
"I don't know… I mean he kissed me… he told me how he felt… we were saying goodbye… that is all that was…"
"That's a lie Ana... there was more to that kiss then just goodbye… and I got a front row fucking seat!"
"What do you want me to say… That I hated kissing him… I didn't… Kissing Jose was easy and you know there was no fear in it, no drama, no sadness… just a bunch of what if and if only…"
"So what you are saying is that kissing him was what… better then kissing me?! Be honest, do you love him Ana?"
"I love you… and when he kissed me I realized that you are the only person I ever want to kiss…Jose is an easy choice… but you are the right one…Please you have to believe me when I tell you that you are it for me…"
"I can't even look at you right now Ana." He turned his body away from me and far set in, he was walking away. I lunged forward pushing my body off the wall and grabbed his arm.
"Christian… Don't…Please…" I felt frantic and frenzied. This could not be happening. He stilled at my touch and turned to me very slowly, his jaw tight, his eyes dead.
"Don't what Ana…Leave you…You forget you promised never to leave me but I never promised that I wouldn't leave you." I gasped, feeling like he had punched me square in the belly. All of the air leaving my body and it took me a moment to regain a shred of my composure as the tears fell from my eyes.
"You don't mean that…Chris… you don't… I hurt you and I am sorry. But what happened between Jose and I had nothing to do with you. It was something that should have happened a long time ago… I am sorry that it happened at all… Please don't do this…Please don't leave me…"
"You left me Ana, the moment you accepted his kiss…You left me…" He ran his long fingers through his copper hair and finally looked me in my eyes. We were locked in a trance, gravity pulling our bodies together. I reached out and press my palms to his chest, his fingers wrapping around mine.
"I will never leave you again…Christian…never again…" His arms snake around my waist and pull me towards him and I know that everything is going to be ok. I can feel his breath on my neck and then the soft whisper of his lips.
"I can't kiss you Ana…I am going to fuck you tonight… but I can't kiss you." I can feel my heart break in my chest, a pain that radiates through my entire body. I know he plans on punishing me, and I know that I deserve it. I nod once, a tear falling from my cheek on to his coat and the dye has been cast. His thumb caresses my cheeks, wiping my tears away.
"Baby, don't cry…" I press my forehead to his chest and his finger knot in my hair. "I will forgive you… just not…yet…"
"You crazy kids kiss and make up yet… The night is young and Masion Gris waits for no man…" Elliott and Kate appeared, his arm draped over her shoulder and a cautious smile on Kate's face. Christian looks away from me and smiles at his brother and greets Kate warmly.
"Shall we Ana?" He takes my hand in his and leads us all back to the car, where Taylor has been watching and waiting.
