Disclaimer: The characters are Masashi Kishimoto's property, I own the OCs.
WARNING: EXPLICIT SCENE IN THE CHAPTER.
Characters age:
Akane: 18 (51)
Itachi: 17 1/2 ( 34 1/2)
Shisui: 21
Naruto / Sasuke: 12
Kakashi: 26
When he woke up, Akane was still sleeping soundly in his arms. He kissed her head, the lump in his throat less painful than the night before.
He wanted her to talk; he had gotten more than he had bargained for. Clearly, Akane had had a lot on her mind regarding him for decades and never had had the opportunity to tell him any of it. Itachi strongly thought that if she had ripped his heart out his chest it would have hurt less but…he had gotten what he wanted.
She was not wrong. He did die and let others deal with the aftermath of his actions when it came to Sasuke. He was aware she had to have had a part to play in it as well, even if she was grieving him too. He never wanted Sasuke to show her his memories though, he did not want Akane to ever fear him.
Then there was the whole…narrative she had of their relationship. He knew he had a lot to be blamed for, and he knew fully well that he struggled with talking about his emotions. He had never thought Akane would believe that he did not love her and that he had lied to her because…
He had not told her everything, and he knew he probably should have. He was so focused on his brother and the fact it was his burden to bear that he had failed to see maybe he could have asked her for help. He knew everything went downhill when he died, but even in the brief time he was brought back, he had never thought Akane would have been able to help him. He had no choice but to accept the resentment that had grown in her through the years.
Itachi had never lied to her though. He had lied a lot, to people he loved and others he had to work with, but he had always been honest with Akane. He had not told her everything, it was a fact, but he had never lied to her in what he had told her, or how he acted toward her. He felt like he could be himself around her, as much as he could back then, so the idea of lying to her had never crossed his mind.
He really, truly, deeply was in love with her.
She didn't believe him. He had kept her in the dark willingly. The idea of getting her involved in his clan disappeared when he was told she had been attacked by members of his clan. He…desperately wanted to protect her from harm, but in the end, it had led her to believe he didn't love her and that their whole relationship was just…pretend on his part. He wanted to protect her, and what they had because it was theirs and he knew his clan would try to destroy it, they had after all. He knew Madara would have tried something; after all he had told him he knew her for longer than him apparently. Shisui had asked him to keep an eye on her, but he wanted to protect her because he loved her more than…
It was in human nature to see the negative more than the positive. He thought that he had become better in showing how he was feeling yet…
It was so painful to hear her say she knew she was not in his priorities and that she was not enough. She was more than enough to him, and she was in his priorities. She really was. Sure, she was not from Konoha or from his clan, and sure he had told her that before. He regretted it every day.
He regretted it even more now she was convinced that they were not part of the same world and that he would move on, fall in love, and have children with another woman. He wanted that with her. He was hers too, she had the most intimate part of his being, heart, body and soul but she did not see that. She just…saw how he made her feel like she was the least important thing in his life.
He tried so hard to protect her and shield her from harm that in return, she saw he didn't rely on her, so she didn't rely on him and then…she stopped trying. He couldn't blame her, why would she keep trying when she kept being hurt by him in eleven years?
How ironic was it that he was trying to protect her just to hear her say he was the one who needed someone to fight for him and that she had sent her brother's file and another file to Tsunade-sama? He knew he could rely on people, and he knew he could rely on her for personal things yet when it came to anything shinobi-related he just…couldn't. How was he supposed to protect her if she was neck-deep in something like he was?
Wasn't it selfish of him though? He had to spend five years without knowing where she was or what she was doing. Did she have to do that to? It was understandable she didn't want to sit back without knowing anymore, especially now she…wanted to pull her own weight as she had put it.
He didn't know what was worst to be honest. Akane didn't see him as a reliable or trusty boyfriend, thought she was not that important to him, and despite still being in love with him she didn't want to be with him again. What Shinobu had told him came back in his mind. Safe and reliable. It irked him to know she had been right.
If Akane saw him as safe and reliable, then maybe…maybe she would reconsider her narrative of him not being in love with her.
How was he supposed to do that? She was not in Konoha anymore, how was he supposed to make her see he could be reliable and that he didn't care that she was not born in Konoha or part of his clan? It didn't make her any less important. If anything, it made her see him for him. At least it used to.
Akane stirred in his arms and raised her head, blinking sleepily. He looked down at her. There were a few seconds that went by before she stood up.
"I have my appointment and then we're leaving." He could still see the dried tears on her cheeks. He had never seen her cried so much before. She opened her mouth but went to the bathroom instead.
After spilling her heart out, she didn't push him away when he hugged her and held her though the night. There was a chance of her being embarrassed by it, who knew.
"Itachi." He looked up at her when she left the bathroom, now dressed for the day. "I…said a lot of things last night. I had not planned for it to come out at once or anything but…well, we still are going to work together and I'm sure you're still involved in Naru's life so we can't just stay out of each of each other's lives so…let's just…pull through."
"Hn." She pursed her lips. "I don't…want you out of my life."
"Are you sure?"
"Certain. You have every right to feel the way you feel. How I deal with it is my own issue." He wouldn't have the issue if he had just been…better. "But I don't want you out of my life."
"Oh. Well, huh…that's good to hear."
"Is there any pain at all?" Itachi asked me quietly. I shook my head, jumping up and down. "You don't need to jump." I shrugged.
"I'm going to avoid going through the Land of Fire, so I guess once we're done with the Land of Earth, we'll go our own way." He didn't say anything. "I'm going to buy some food."
"Hn."
He was quiet and thoughtful. I had told him a lot of things last night, I guess he needed to process. He bought some rations as well and we left the Land of Iron without a word. It took two days to cross the Land of Earth and arrive in the Land of Waterfalls. From there I'd go to the Land of Frost to get a boat.
I had travelled almost the entire continent.
"Where are you going?" I asked Itachi when we reached a sign signaling the direction for the Land of Fire.
"I'm going to see you off." I raised a brow at him. "Please."
"There's not much to see you know." He looked down. "Alright. Let's go then."
He didn't say much more; he'd offer me food from his rations because he knew I liked them and small gestures like this. Four days after we left the Land of Iron, we stopped at the border of the Land of Rice. I pointed at a cave at night when rain started to pour.
"They're everywhere," I told him. He shook his head and went in it, and I followed him. The rain intensified, like the wind and thunder could be heard. "Damn, a thunderstorm." He made a fire.
"It's May, it happens often around here at this time of year." He made a fire.
We ate quietly and night settled. I was laying down, my legs against the wall of the cave while Itachi was looking at the pouring rain.
"How is your family?" I asked him.
"They're good now." I blinked and sat normally, facing him. He looked down. "A couple of years ago, a few members of my clan tried to kill my father and the Hokage. I knew for the Hokage so there was no casualty there. They blew my father's office up though, and my mom and Sasuke were there." I gulped. "Sasuke was fine but my mother…she miscarried my sister." To say I was shocked was an understatement. Itachi glanced at me when I didn't say anything.
I was…horrified. I couldn't imagine how it felt to lose your baby.
"Apparently, they had started talking about it a few years before and then…she didn't want to try again after that."
"…I'm sorry that happened," I whispered.
"I saw my father acting as her husband, it was…strange."
"Huh? Fugaku-sensei always got embarrassed when we brought her up. He always said I was right when I'd compliment her." Itachi shot me a dubious look. "It's true. I guess when you and Sasuke are around, he switches to 'father mode' in priority."
"I guess. It was…strange to say the least." He rested his arms on his raised knees. "Other than that, they're okay. Sasuke and Naruto graduated and are genin."
"Yeah, that didn't change. Sakura and Kakashi?" He nodded.
"What are you planning to do for Kiri?" I raised a brow. "It is what you are doing, isn't it? Trying to put an end to the regime."
"Oh, yes, it is." I leaned against the wall. "I'm sure Minato-san will tell you soon enough." He smiled wryly.
"Of course." I furrowed my brows.
"What?"
"Nothing." I moved closer to him.
"What is it?" I stopped next to him, sitting on my heels. He pursed his lips and shook his head. "You don't have to feel like you can't say what you're thinking, that's what I did after all."
"What's going on there?" I blinked. "I know…that there's something, I've known since the Exams but…"
"I didn't tell you on purpose." He looked down. "But…not really because of what I said. Today I can actually tell you more than back then." I gulped. "I know the aftermath of the war and what went down, it's…a shit show. Telling you everything back then wouldn't have done any good, I thought your clan's survival would be more important, and should be. You can't really change things on the long run if you don't deal with the smaller stuff."
"Sure." I pursed my lips.
"Did…Tobi ever mention me?" He seemed taken back for a second.
"He did. When we were broken up, he said he knew about you and that I wasn't his original choice for the Akatsuki. He was frustrated Shisui had gotten you out." I sighed a little.
"It's too long of a story but…he manipulates Yagura and has been for years, probably since I was around five or six." Itachi frowned and fully turned to me. "And…it's not Madara."
"…is he the Uchiha who was on a team with Kakashi-san?" I nodded. "He knew you as a toddler."
"Yup."
"Why train you as a weapon in Kiri? Why Kiri?" I sighed.
"I have no clue and ask Minato-san. He knows everything and will explain in a clearer way than me." I looked down. "I idolized him as a kid, he kept saying he'd be the first Uchiha to be the Hokage and I was in awe. I wish I knew why he seems eager to train me through Yagura, but most of all, I want to release Yagura from his hold. He doesn't deserve to be remembered as a tyrant when he was the first victim in this." I glanced at him. "Oh, and he was behind the Kyuubi as well." Itachi slowly pinched the bridge of his nose.
"I'm starting to see the picture you and the Hokage are trying to prevent." I nodded and made a storage seal on the ground. I clenched my hand on it and handed it to Itachi. "'Otsutsukis'?"
"I found this in my clan's library in the forbidden section where I found a scroll about Yuureis. All my predecessors documented their lives, I should start doing it," I added more quietly to myself. "Anyway, it is not cursed, but I already know the gist of it so…it should be more useful to you for later."
"I can't open it."
"Sure you ca…"
"No, I can't. It's a blood seal, isn't it?" I frowned and looked at it.
"Oh right." I grabbed an empty vial, cut my finger open and filled it a little. "Here, use it with yours and it should work."
"…why do you have to be cryptic all the time?" I raised a brow. "Never mind."
"You don't have to be so thoughtful about what I said." He scoffed.
"It's hard not to be when I finally see how I messed up the one thing I thought I had more or less succeeded in my life." Oh.
"What's done is done Itachi, you can't change the past. Well…except if you summon the Shinigami you can, but then what you thought was your past becomes your present and then your new future, which is different from your actual past and…" He put his hand on my mouth.
"I get it." I tilted my head on the side when I realized he was staring.
Slowly, his hand went to my cheek and his thumb started to caress it. My brain was telling me to remove his hand and move away because I didn't want to fall back in his arms again. However, my eyes were hypnotized by his, my throat was dry, my palms moist and my heart was close to beating out of my chest. His onyx eyes fell to my lips, and I licked them instinctively. His eyes became darker. My gaze fell to his lips, defined and so, so attractive.
He was so, so attractive.
"Itachi…" I whispered when I saw his face was getting closer to mine. I barely had the time to put my hands on his shoulders that we were kissing.
It was short, and sweet. It was merely a touch of the lips really. However, when we looked at each other in the eyes when we broke it, my boundaries crumbled too easily, and we were kissing again, harder and more passionately this time.
Hell, when were my kisses with Itachi not passionate?
He pulled me on his lap, hugging me tightly. My hand was on his chest, my fingers clenched in his flak jacket while my other hand was in his hair. His tongue was not leaving mine alone and gave it all its attention.
I moaned when he touched my butt.
Screw what I had told him. It was true, but right now I wanted him to screw me. From the hardness I could feel, he wanted the same thing.
He broke the kiss, a sense of urgency in his eyes. He looked at me up and down like a starved animal, barely grazing me. Then he grabbed the bottom of my flak jacket and removed it before he threw it on the other side of the cave.
His lips were in my neck, and he lay me down on the ground. He left me only to grab his backpack and put it under my head before he resumed his work.
"Itachi…" I whispered when he started to fondle my breast over my top. I moved my head to the side, giving him more room and he started kissing my skin everywhere he could, sucking on it to get me to moan.
He pulled the zipper of my bodysuit down to my navel and his warm hand was directly on my breast, pinching my nipple softly; his other hand imitated it, and I leaned my head back, my hands on his back and my legs raised around him. I moaned again when he licked me from the base of my neck to my ear and started teasing me there.
I gasped when I felt his boner against my crotch.
"Ita…Ita…"
"I missed you so much," he whispered hotly in my ear. I arched my back when his right hand slipped beneath my body suit and panties to rub my clit.
He leaned his forehead against mine, his burning eyes not leaving me. I swallowed my own saliva with difficulty and was panting against him. I hugged his neck tightly, almost holding onto him as he kept rubbing my clit like he knew I liked.
"You're so wet," he murmured against my skin.
"…you're hard, we're even," I whispered back.
He slipped one, then two fingers in me and I nibbled on his neck to keep myself from moaning too loud. There was like a growl coming from the back of his throat and he made sure to use his palm to keep giving my clit attention as he was pumping his fingers in and out of me. He curled his fingers a few times until I gasped. I felt him smirking and he kept touching the spot, knowing it was driving me crazy.
He leaned on his hand, towering me as he watched me writhing in pleasure with lustful eyes. God he was hot. He moved his fingers faster and I held onto his arms as I arched my back even more when I came.
"Yes!" I moaned, feeling pleasure crash over me in waves. Shivers ran all over my body as I was panting heavily. Itachi leaned toward me and kissed me on the lips before he gathered me in his arms. "That…huh…"
"Hum?"
"That was interesting." He chuckled briefly and I blushed faintly at feeling his chest vibrating against my face because of it.
"Sure, let's call it 'interesting'." I looked down, the bulge in his pants still very much here. I had no idea when, but Itachi was shirtless now, his jacket and jounin shirt on the other side of the fire. I gulped, my throat now dry and looked up, my hand on his bare chest.
I flushed a deep crimson when I saw him licking his fingers.
"Akane." I blinked at him. He lowered his face toward mine and nuzzled his nose against mine, making me cup his cheek in my hand. "Do you want to continue?"
"Do you have a condom?" It seemed like it brought him back to reality because he just looked at me without really looking at me. After a few seconds, he just buried his face in my hair in defeat.
"I don't." I smiled a little, disappointed myself.
"It can't be helped. I ca…"
"I know." I looked at him with a raised brow. "Penetration is not necessary."
He turned me toward the wall, lowered my pants to my knees and instructed me to keep my legs together but not too tight. I did and gulped when I heard him open his pants. I curled my toes when his hand was back to my crotch to push my bodysuit aside, like my panties to expose me. It was…cold but so hot at the same time.
Itachi started to fondle one of my breasts again, holding onto it. His other hand went back to my clit.
"Look at me." I leaned my head on his shoulder to look at him with lustful eyes. "Good girl." His lips swallowed my moan as I felt his dick rubbing itself alongside my entrance between my thighs.
It was so hot, almost burning me with desire. Itachi kept thrusting his hips against me, the friction building pleasure inside of me again. I gasped in the kiss and put my hand down, so I'd add to his own pleasure. He moaned a little and broke the kiss, leaning his forehead against the crown of my head. Instead of touching me, he grabbed my hips firmly and quickened his pace.
I climaxed shortly after, my hand holding onto his nape. He came maybe a second later, shooting his release on the ground in front of us. I was shaking against him, his arms holding me firmly against him, but so was he.
I ended up sitting against him, we kissed each other gently while his hands kept roaming over me. After a few minutes, I shifted myself. My legs were over his thigh so I could roam my hands on his naked chest and back.
When Itachi opened his eyes the next morning, he instinctively reached out for Akane. He wasn't expecting what had happened the night before but was more than happy about it. He'd dream of touching her again and she was all he could think about when he was pleasuring himself. He had dreamed of touching her and feeling her shake under his touch.
Despite everything she had said, she was as eager as him to touch him. She had said she was still in love with him; if she had wanted to stop, he would have. She had not and…
He was drawn to her like a moth to a flame and even if he didn't like the implications of Akane wearing a kunoichi outfit from Kiri, he couldn't deny she was sexier in it than the one in Konoha. The black slinky bodysuit with baggier pants did wonder for her figure, which was fitter than before. He did not know why she would have body image issues, her breasts fitted perfectly in the palm of his hands, and she was…just intoxicating.
His only regret was that he did not have a condom and had to…think of something else.
"Stupid Akane, you're so stupid…" He opened an eye to see her on her knees against the wall of the cave, slowly bumping her head against it. Itachi glanced behind him and noticed the sun had just started to rise.
"Akane?" She jumped but didn't look at him. He sat down and debated whether he should approach her or not.
The contrast between her speech and her feelings and having sex, because even if had not been able to be inside of her and entirely feel her, it was sex to him, probably was making her confused.
"I'm not easy," she stated loudly. He raised a brow. "I'm not…I'm not easy, I don't do that with any man who…" He frowned.
"I hope not." He sighed a little. Was it what it was? She was afraid he would think she was easy? "I have never thought that."
"…good." She took a deep breath. "It didn't mean anything."
"Hn."
"What I said still stand, I don't want to be in a relationship with you again." Deep down, he was sure she enjoyed twisting the knife she had put in his broken heart. "Sure, I'm still very attracted to you and think of you when I touch myself bu…" He raised a brow.
"I am honored." She glared at him furiously above her shoulder, letting him see her burning cheeks. She looked wrathful but it was from embarrassment more than anything.
It felt good to hear her say those things though.
"We should go, my boat leaves tonight." The atmosphere was broken.
He had to say goodbye.
They picked up their belongings and left. Itachi's eyes would go to her every now and then as they'd walk. They reached the harbor an hour before Akane's boat left and once she had her ticket, showing her forehead protector to get a discount, they faced each other.
"So, it was good to see you, you're still in one piece so that's good." She was being awkward. "I haven't asked but…they can do something about…you know, your disease?"
"Yes, it's being dealt with currently." She sighed in relief.
"Thank God." Why would she have a guilty look in her eyes? "I should go. I'll probably see you around, so take care. Don't die again." He nodded.
"Be careful," he whispered to her. She blinked, surprised, but nodded.
He didn't know if she felt him, but he found himself a spot from where he could watch her boat until it sailed. Only when it disappeared on the horizon did he leave, his heart heavy.
"So, I don't know much about how it is now, but in my opinion, we should hear about them soon. They have an army of shinobi under mind control, I doubt it's only for protection."
"I see," Yagura said, tapping his nail against his desk. "You have a mission." Screw the fact I had just gotten back. "With Mangetsu, you're going to the Land of Waves."
"For?"
"Kill Gato and bring me Kubukiribocho back." I frowned. "There has been spotting of Zabuza there. Kill him, get his head and get the sword."
"Can we leave tomorrow?" He frowned and I showed myself. "I just…"
"Get change, pack, shower if you want but then leave," he said, standing up. "You can sleep on the boat Uzumaki, can't you?" I bowed.
"Of course, my apologies Mizukage-sama."
"Good." He sat back down. "Go, I'll get Mangetsu and he'll go get you." I nodded.
As I was taking a hot, well-needed shower, I leaned my head against the shower wall and sighed. Seeing Itachi had broken me out of Bloody Mist rhythm.
There was no rest for the wicked people we were.
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