Idiot.

I don't know why I'm surprised. Watanuki never thinks of himself. He's always selflessly sacrificing himself for others. It's a noble trait but it hurts everyone around him. Including me. I thought he understood after I gave him my eye…that we would share the burden. We would do things together.

But now…

He's taking over the shop. Alone.

I want more than anything to use this egg that Yuuko gave me, to free him from this choice. But that's just it. It's his choice. I can't change that. I made a choice to accept the loss of my eye but Watanuki couldn't live with that so he gave up his own eye to save mine. It was my choice to take the spider's curse and he took it away from me. I can't do that to him. Seeing his blind eye caused me more pain than being blinded myself because this was my fault. He's done it time and again to others and myself, disregarding our feelings in order to save us, so why can't I just do the same for him? Just take away his memories of Yuuko so he doesn't have to stay trapped in that shop forever.

But I just can't do it. It's not right.

And it hurts.

It hurts that he didn't even once think about how I felt about this. How this would affect the ones that care about him. He never does. He doesn't care, and I wish he did.

Because I care. So much. Too much. About him.

I made the choice and decided to follow him, to protect him, no matter what the cost. I would help him. But if he becomes the shop owner, I don't know what to do anymore. My devotion means nothing to him. I was never able to get through to him. All because he saw me as a rival for Himawari, but I was never interested in her. Only him.

And he never knew. I only cared about him.

I don't know what I'm going to do now. I can't protect him anymore if he does this. I can't save him from this fate. He will die alone waiting for Yuuko. And who the hell knows where she's at anymore or if she will ever return?

So I guess this is the end. The end of us. I have to support him in his decision and I will be there for him until I can no longer be. Help where I can. But I need to move on with my life, I need to live since he has chosen his path without me.

And that's just it. He doesn't want me. He never did. I am unneeded. Unwanted.

It is time for this Red String of Fate to unravel us two. How I wish he would choose to tie that string to mine once more.