Emily took a deep breath as she sat on a couch in a small office they had been using, she opened the letter looking at the beautifully neat handwriting in her hands.

'Emily,

I know you guys are going to be mad at me but I have to do this. Its my fault he's taking these women and its me he wants… I know you will find us so I just have stall long enough for you to do that so he cant hurt anyone else.

I don't know if I'll make it so if I don't I need to be honest. I love you Emily Elizabeth Prentiss. So much. I guess it's just scary you know? You're my best friend and I couldn't lose you. I cant pin point exactly when i fell in love you but it was probably somewhere between girls nights with Pen and shit take away on a case but it was the night out, my birthday, that's when I knew, we never talked about it and honestly you were so drunk I'm not even sure if you remember but I felt… alive… special even. So here it is, I love you.

Please tell Garcia I love her, she has been my best friend for years, a literal ray of sunshine, you tell her to always have kitten pics and collect the things that make her smile. Its our little secret but I get her a pen from every city we visit, a novelty one of course, you have to continue that tradition… it makes her smile so much. She's going to be hurt that she's had to go through my life tell her im sorry and she'll always be my best friend. Make sure she knows I am not mad at her over it.

Derek… I know he's mad at me but you have to be there for him no matter how much he tries to take it out on me okay? He's a great guy, just a little bone headed sometimes but its an act. He's more sensitive then he lets on. He's going to need a new running partner and yes, I know Emily Prentiss says Saturday's are for donuts and wine but do it for me… he likes the competition.

Hotch and Rossi you have to watch for, I know you and Rossi have this weird dad daughter relationship going on anyway but they're both the same… maybe its an age thing I don't know but Hotch wont talk, he doesn't show his emotions… years working close with him though I have learnt the secret is burger, fries and strawberry milkshake (Maybe ill tell you about that one day… maybe…) you have to make sure Rossi continues with the cooking lessons, he complains but he loves it really, makes him feel good and it's good for the rest of the team too… especially after a rough case.

Now Reid… I worry about Spence. He doesn't talk to people and he's going to so angry with me, everyone leaves him, but I had to do this… I did. He shuts down and it worries me, he can be kinda mean too so don't let him okay? Remind him that you all love him and are there for him… let him tell you his facts and never stop sharing Russian books with him. He wont ever admit it to you but he loves when you guys go to see movies or read in Russian , don't ever stop doing that you have to promise.

And you… god Emily I know you still haven't fully let your guard down with us and I guess it's hypocritical for me to say that now given what's gone on… you have to talk to people Emily. Do not lock yourself down over this, I know you. I know you try to be strong but you don't have to be, not all the time anyway.

Anyway, I really do have to go now, I am sorry I want honest with you all but I had to do this.

Forever yours,

JJ x