This is from Geto Suguru to Gojo Satoru…
I wish I knew how to forget all that I know. All that I used to feel, all that I used to dream and everything else. I can't sleep or eat; you did not listen to me. You did not remember what I said. I told you what I needed. There is no one for me besides you, but you did not know that. How could you? I never said anything. I couldn't. For what and who I am, I cannot answer.
I do not remember the first time I saw you. But I do remember the moment I fell in love with you. I had never had anyone notice my sadness before. You came to me. You saw through me. You asked me if I was okay. It had never happened before, and it never happened again. I was 17 then, I am 26 now. I will never forget that it'll haunt me to my death. It will forever be engraved fresh in my mind, and only the flames of my funeral pyre will be able to burn it away.
They, the world, forgot about me. I did not care for them in return. I left everything, my family, my station. I forgot my purpose. But. But you are still here with me. You still reside in my desires. Your memory still comes to me in the moments between sleep and dreams.
Do you even know that you were my only love? My only love that was real. I never had you. And I somehow still lost you? How is this possible? Why was I made this way? Night descended into my life and spilled over into everything. Even my soul is gone now. Where do I go now? To whom should I talk? I am not in control of myself; I am spiralling. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. Come back to me and free me from me. Come back to me and fill myself with your essence. I want to erase myself. I don't want to be with you. I can't be with anyone anymore. I want to become you. I want you to know me from the inside. Come back to me and get to know me once again. Destroy me yourself if you don't like me. But God, come back to me.