Thank you to everybody who read or review the last chapter. You're so wonderful. I'm really having fun now digging into the brand new material.

I will warn you now that there will be many text message and email chapters for awhile. This one is a hybrid between emails and actual in-person conversations. I want to get us to September sooner rather than later for reasons.

Part of this chapter runs concurrent with the previous one, so keep an eye on the dates of the emails. We're backtracking a little timewise so we can see things from Marc's perspective. I promise we'll get some more Betty and Daniel stuff later on. They're kind of adjusting to impending parenthood and the tabloids being awful, as you saw in the last chapter. If you remember the first story, none of it was from Betty's perspective until the very end. Not that much of it was from Daniel's perspective either. I kind of miss that.

Finally, I read through some of the previous email chapters, and I didn't find personal emails from Marc or Amanda. So, I created some new ones. Besides, I wanted a personal email for Amanda that Matt would not know.

All timestamps are EDT.

Chapter 38: Dear Mandy

From: Fashionista_Marc

To: Mandy_cakes

Time sent: 6/13/2010 22:21:12

Subject: I hope you are okay wherever you are

Dear Amanda:

I really do mean that. I just want you safe.

I tried to call, but your phone has been disconnected. I completely understand why, considering what I found in the trash. I would be calling a detective right now if Monique did not confirm you being somewhere safe. She won't tell me where you are, but I'm leaning towards London. Daniel won't confirm that you're there, but it makes sense that you're staying with your baby's daddy, mainly because your ex-boyfriend's mommy is fucking evil. We have tragic taste in men. The only good boyfriend I ever had, I ended up sabotaging the relationship because of my commitment issues.

Maybe I'm the horrible taste in men in that situation. Cliff can do so much better. So much better.

I decided to send this to your Mandy Cakes personal account instead of the Mode account because you probably still have access to this. I just want to know that you're okay wherever you are.

I'm not angry. Okay, I'm not angry at you. You're right; you have to protect your kids. That's what a parent is supposed to do. I didn't have that, but I've had much better examples since then. The Suarez family has helped immensely with my perspective about what a parent should do.

I'm mad at Matt. I may have punched him and was subsequently arrested. Matt's not pressing charges because even he feels like he deserves that punch. Although Jody found out about it. Let's just say I am delighted Daniel is paying for the good child custody lawyers. This is going to get ugly. I have a meeting Monday with the team. Fingers crossed it won't be a complete disaster.

Right now, Cliff has temporary custody of Jade. I'm okay with that because I trust Cliff entirely with my daughter. More than Jody, actually. Also, Cliff is letting me stay with him.

Anyway, write me when you can. I just want to know that you're safe. I'm worried. You're my best friend; I'm always going to worry.

PS: Thank you for leaving me the parenting books. They have come in handy.

XXXX

From: Fashionista_Marc

To: Mandy_cakes

Time sent: 6/15/2010 19:12:12

Subject: Just checking in to see how you are

Hey, I thought I would check in again. I still haven't heard from you.

I have the week off to bond with Jade and deal with my legal issues. Do you know about what happened to Jody? It's all over the Internet anyway. The yeti program was a sham, and she was stealing money from it for years. Yet her lawyers are going after me for the Matt thing despite not being charged with anything.

I don't know why Monique is letting me take this week off. She should be honeymooning, but she has other things to concern herself with. Good news Antonella is not pregnant. Bad news, they don't know why she keeps throwing up all the time. Cliff says Monique keeps Googling causes for a false positive pregnancy test. Now she's freaking out because one of the possibilities is cancer. There was a doctor's appointment today, but I haven't got a readout yet. I should probably call and ask her if I should go in tomorrow. Justin says that things are fine and that the temp team leader is following all my notes and that there's no need for me to rush back in.

Anyway, write me when you can. I just want to know that you're okay. I worry when I don't hear from you, you're my best friend. Just a quick hi would be good. I'm not mad at you for leaving. Although you could've called and I would have taken you to the airport at least. There would have been hugging and ugly crying. I think I deserve that much.

XXXX

"Do you feel better now?" Cliff asked as he approached Marc just as he sent off his second email. He probably read half of it behind Marc's back.

"I would feel better if Amanda would email me back or even just send a text. A phone call would also be useful. I understand her getting rid of her phone because of Matt and the evil mommy, but she could still let me know that she's okay. It's been three days." Amanda usually doesn't go this long without some sort of communication.

"I think she will when she is ready. Although Speaking of Matt, he just called."

"Nothing is good when that happens. Is Matt trying to get you to tell him where Amanda is because we don't actually know."

"No, he wanted to let me know that he was being evicted."

"Okay, maybe occasionally he does call bringing good news," Marc smirked.

"Except he noticed that a similar envelope was pushed under your door and since he still has a spare key, I asked him to look." Note to self, get back spare key, not that it probably matters.

"I'm getting evicted?" Marc asked

"Brawls between tenants are a little too much for apartments in Chelsea," Cliff remarked.

"That's just wonderful," Cliff said just as he placed baby Jade in his arms. Okay, he felt a little better now, cuddling his warm baby.

"How long do I have to get everything out?" He hoped it was until the end of the month. He might be able to find a place by then.

"A week. Matt said he would pay for storage." Marc rolled his eyes.

"It's obvious he is now sucking up to me so that I will put in a good word in with Amanda for him. Yep, I am so glad Daniel was the one who got her pregnant. So happy."

"I don't think he's necessarily that opportunistic." Marc just glared at Cliff.

"Maybe he is just a little. Although, I still say take his money.

"Well, of course, I'm going to take his money. Willie didn't raise a fool. I'm going to take Everything I can get from the weasel. I still can't stand him." Marc remarked.

"That's understandable. Matt did get you evicted."

"It could have also have been Troy. One of the neighbors texted me a picture of his latest "fuck you, Marc" graffiti on the side of the building." Marc told him.

"This isn't necessarily a bad thing. You were already looking at new places because of Jade. At least you can afford something nice now." Cliff said, trying to make Marc look at the bright side.

"But I wanted to take my time moving. Wilhelmina said she would help with a down payment if I wanted to buy something. She's in a good place financially thanks to the Mode sell going through." Along with their plan to take Renee's blackmail abilities away. Marc has been working on the article a little bit. Wilhelmina has already sent him a few notes to look over.

"You don't have to rush with trying to find a new place. You know you can just stay here. It might be for the best. You have full Jade access here, and I like splitting diaper duty with you."

"No one wants to do diaper duty alone." Marc joked. "And let's be honest, being here is the only way I'm going to get Jade access anytime soon. Because, despite being in jail right now, Jodi is still fighting me about custody." Marc is spent most of the last two days with his custody lawyers.

"I know she's looking at a minimum of five years with what we know so far. Maybe more if things keep coming out. Shouldn't she be focused on that in not keeping my daughter from me?"

"Honestly, she is more bitter about our breakup than we were. Which is why she did sleep with you in the first place as revenge."

"I'm bitter about it but mostly bitter at me. What was I thinking with Troy?"

"I'm sure extreme loneliness and decent oral skills." Cliff quipped.

"He wasn't that good. It might have been mostly fear of being alone. At least I now have Baby Jade until mommy gets out of jail."

"Which may not be anytime soon. They're not letting Jody make bail right now. Allegedly she's a flight risk." Cliff explained.

"Wilhelmina is a very protective grandmother," He tells Jade as he kisses her on the forehead.

"I think this could be Monique. Or even Brianna, nobody is pleased with Jody right now. She didn't even tell us she was in trouble or that the yeti program was dirty. I definitely would've kept you out of it if I knew. Although that might explain why she left the program so abruptly when she found out she was pregnant."

"And yet none of you are that surprised."

"When you force a student to have sex with you for a job placement, that never existed in the first place, you begin to question someone's character. Honestly, I was mostly still talking to her because of baby Jade. You needed somebody to be your advocate." Marc couldn't help but smile at Cliff's words.

"I thank you for that because that's probably the only reason I'm going to have any time with my kid," Marc told him morosely.

"You should know that Jody wants to meet with me Thursday," Cliff tells him.

"Why?"

"I'm not entirely sure. I think Jody was expecting to make bail at this point. She did surrender to the police and is a non-violent offender."

"I don't think she was expecting to piss off that many of her friends." And the Wyndham-West and the Hartley's were very powerful. Both Dominique and Troy were being held on a psychiatric hold at the moment. Troy got picked up after the graffiti incident.

"Especially friends that know a lot of judges. Monique is distraught."

"Have you talked to her today?" Marc asked. "How was the doctor's appointment today? Does she need me to come into work tomorrow?"

"Yes, we talked. They still don't know what's going on; although Dr. Pine is leaning toward Pseudocyesis, that may be caused by guilt. However, Dr. Pine did run more tests just to rule out some other more serious possibilities. They did give Antonella the good antinausea medicine and are going to set up an appointment with a highly recommended therapist." Cliff explained.

"That's good. Maybe Monique will at least stop Googling stuff."

"One can hope, at least. What happened with Molly kind of messed her up. Maybe she should see a therapist as well." Cliff suggested.

"Possibly." Marc was wondering if he should get a therapist. A lot has happened over the last few weeks, from the abusive boyfriend to the surprise baby, along with Amanda leaving. Maybe he could use a therapist.

"Also, I was told to tell you don't come in this week. The office is covered. Just bond with your child and maybe look into movers and storage units. Monique will call you later to talk about your new office space. When you don't have a baby cuddled against your chest." Cliff remarked.

"But that's the best part right now. I will call Monique later." It really was.

XXX

From: Fashionista_Marc

To: Mandy_cakes

Time sent: 6/17/2010 17:31:12

Subject: If you do come back to New York, you might have to find a new place to live

Dear Mandy cakes:

So, I thought I should let you know that Matt got us evicted. In case you being overseas is just a temporary thing, and you're planning to come back soon. We probably would have gotten evicted because of the stalker ex-boyfriend eventually. Me punching Matt because I was mad that you disappeared perhaps didn't help things. He is paying for all our stuff to go into storage.

Although I did see Justin putting together a bag of your best things yesterday that he took with him when I went to get everything I'm not putting into storage. I didn't ask Justin if he was taking them to London because Matt was there discussing logistics with Cliff. Matt is paying for everything. I think this is his latest scheme to get us to not hate him for driving you away. The movers will be there Saturday. We are doing all our communication through Cliff because it's safer that way.

Shockingly enough, Matt is not leaving Meade, although he won't be on the Mode floor. Monique gave him an office at the parenting magazine. Allegedly it was the only magazine that had extra space that wasn't Mode. I think she is a bit of a sadist.

I'm moving into what was going to be your office space once the nursery is done. Claire wants me to use it; besides, it's a lovely space. I am changing the color scheme a little bit. Also, I'm still making them put changing tables in all the men's restrooms. You should probably tell Daniel to do the same at Mode UK. He seems like someone that will be a hands-on dad.

I hope Jade gets to spend some time there in the nursery. Cliff is meeting with Jody today to see if he can get her to back off. Although punching Matt was rewarding, it's causing some issues. I'm worried.

I wish you were here. Yes, I understand why you're not, but again you could email me. It's been nearly six days. We've never gone this long without communication outside of when you were in the love bubble. I'm worried. Breaking up with Matt is fucked up its own, but with everything else and I am afraid and concerned about you. You know I love you.

Anyway, write back. Send a selfie or something, so I know you're okay.

Xxxxx

Marc stopped typing when he saw Cliff come through the front door of the apartment with take-out. Baby Jade was with him because today's meeting wasn't just for him to see Jody but for him to bring Jade to see Jody. There wasn't anything his lawyers could do to stop it. He wasn't on the birth certificate yet, although the DNA test results were back. Thank you, Monique, for using the same express service used to prove Daniel was the daddy.

"Exhausting, but Jody said that there have worked out a deal, and she's no longer considered a flight risk," Cliff explained, sitting dinner on the table. It was from Mark's favorite Thai place. He was a little worried Cliff was bringing him his favorite food.

"That's good. Does that mean she's going to be coming home soon?"

"Tomorrow. But only for a few weeks. Mostly to get her affairs in order." Cliff explained.

"So, we're going to have to give Jade back to her Friday? Marc wasn't looking forward to that at all.

"Not yet. That's part of what Jody and her legal team wanted to talk to me about."

"She wanted your advice on if she should take the deal?" Marc asked, curious, and concerned. "Or to get more dirt on me. You know how bad the last few meetings have been."

"She needed me to agree to do something, not that I would say no because I love baby Jade. But I need to know how you would feel about it before I say yes, but it concerns how things will go forward."

"You're worrying me."

"It's nothing to be worried about," Cliff said as he grabbed Marc's hand. "Would you Be okay if Jody signed over custody of Jade to me."

"I thought that's what she's doing right now, and I'm okay with it." He adores Cliff so much for agreeing to take care of Jade. He would hate for his baby girl to end up in the system.

"I mean permanently, even after Jody gets out, Jade would stay with me. I would legally be Jade's other dad/guardian."

"I think you need to explain things to me because I feel like I'm missing something." Marc excelled shakily. He was half tempted to grab his inhaler.

"Jody is angry at you and doesn't want you to have custody of Jade, at least not by yourself. But she's okay if we would co-parent Jade together." Marc almost wondered if Monique's fingerprints were on this idea as part of her matchmaking schemes. He feels like she's been too busy with Antonella to come up with this scheme.

"Will she stopped blocking my custody claims if I agree to this? Because I rather co-parent with you than her. Does this mean she's terminating her parental rights and giving them to you or Jody adding a third parent to this?" Marc asked, still somewhat confused.

"I think it's more about adding another person. She still wants visitation even when she's locked up."

"And then after?" Marc asked because he didn't want to go through this custody stuff again in a few years.

"Visitation on Holidays and weekends. We can let the lawyers figure it out the specifics." Who knows how long that would take. Better the lawyers than him and Jody because he doesn't even feel comfortable being in a room with her right now.

"How long is Jody going away? You said that she made a deal."

"The DA is offering four years, which can probably become two with good behavior. As long as nothing else comes out."

"Like the fact that she forced me to have sex with her while serving as my program mentor?" Cliff doesn't make eye contact with him. "This is really about me staying quiet?"

"The yeti stuff is a mess. Jody could spend twice as long in jail without a plea deal."

"She knows I can have her parental rights terminated. She's dangling the situation in front of me like a carrot." Because this would mean he would forever be connected to Cliff. Deep down in his heart, Marc knows this is what he really wants.

"But you won't terminate her rights completely." Cliff didn't even say it as a question. He knew him way too well.

"I should, but you're right, I won't. I feel like this is a trap. I don't know if Jody expects me to take the offer or not take the offer, but it's like she thinks she wins either way. Maybe she thinks I won't agree with this proposal because of our history." Jody can't know how much better things are between him and Cliff right now.

"Of all my exes, there's only one I have a better history with than you."

"That's just sad. I was a horrible boyfriend." Marc remarked.

"You're aware of your own faults. We get along much better than my own parents did postdivorce. It's part of the reason why neither was invited to the awards banquet last week."

"I don't think it would be hard to behave better. I wish Amanda was here so we can at least talk about it. She's a good sounding board for these sorts of things. She can pick up on all the angles. My only other friend is 16," and Marc wasn't dragging Justin into this. There was also Wilhelmina, but Wilhelmina was more of a parent, and he already knows how she feels about this.

"Although Justin probably understands the importance of a stable custody arrangement better than most." Cliff may have a point there.

"You might be right, but Justin will be in London next week." For the rest of the summer.

"You have other friends like Monique. I'm pretty sure she's the reason why Jody couldn't even get bail until tomorrow."

"Busy with Antonella and finding a therapist for her." Marc is not giving Monique another thing to deal with.

"What about Hilda?" Cliff asked. "She was the one who went with you for your first meeting with Jade. She's going to understand the situation better than a lot of people." Except that her ex never actually wanted to be involved.

"I guess I could schedule coffee or even lunch with her Monday when I get back. She is the new in-house hair stylus at Meade." She will mostly be doing Mode but occasionally working on shoots for some of the other magazines when necessary.

"You should schedule lunch with her. We have some time to decide, at least a week. Although I am going to have to bring Jade over for a play date Saturday." Cliff told him. Marc was not happy about that for many reasons.

"You agree to that time just so you don't have to pack." The movers that Cliff convinced Matt to pay for would be there Saturday to put everything into storage.

"We will go over Friday to get everything ready for the movers. Besides, it's better for everyone if a baby is not there. Jade always needs a bottle or diaper at the absolute worst time."

"She's special." He said, snuggling his baby girl. "Cliff, do you really want to deal with baby bottles and dirty diapers for the duration?"

"We can begin potty training between 18 months and two years. Diapers won't be forever. Also, we can start solid food as a compliment in another two months. As part of the deal, Jody would be allowed to express milk. At least we won't have to deal with switching her to formula." That made Marc thanks the fact there was a freezer full of breastmilk Jade right now. Jody must've of knew the arrest was coming.

"I don't mean just the dirty diapers or the bottles but being a full-time parent, not just taking care of a friend's kid while Jody is in jail. Do you want to become Jade's other dad and be in this with me? Because I feel like that's what this really is. Maybe Jody chose you because she thinks I will be so uncomfortable with the situation that I wouldn't even consider co-parenting with my ex. Maybe she's expecting me to walk away without fighting?" Not that he would stop fighting for Jade. But Jody obviously didn't know that. She didn't know him.

"But, you're not uncomfortable with the idea of us being co-parents?" Cliff asked.

"Not really. We already have worked out the perfect system for 3 AM feedings." Marc joked.

"This is true."

"Is it weird that outside of Amanda, you're the only person I can see myself raising a kid with?" Because he could picture it. Lunches with cute little notes and family movie nights. Marc realized he really wanted that.

"I don't think that's weird at all. Maybe it's some sort of instinct to know who could be a good co-parent with you. I couldn't see myself even considering adopting with my last boyfriend." Cliff confessed. "I think it's part of the reason I wasn't as upset as I should've been when things fell apart. I knew it wasn't ever going to be something long term."

"Well, he was a prick. The one before that was a prick as well, but at least he's aware he's a prick."

Marc is very aware of his many faults. Maybe there's this part of him that believes that with Cliff there, maybe Marc won't completely screw this up. The world doesn't need another version of him or a Nikko. Perhaps with Cliff, he can get another Betty. The world needs more Bettys.

"Maybe not a prick, just a little commitment-phobic." Cliff smiled at him.

"I'm working on that. Jade is the biggest commitment of my life, and I'm all in." He wasn't going to be his dad or Justin's dad, for that matter.

"I know that. But I don't think Jody does. She might be worried you're not all in. Which is why she wants this arrangement. She wants Jade to have a backup plan while she's incarcerated." Cliff explained.

"I'm fine with you being that plan. It should be you because Amanda has the twins, and Wilhelmina seems to be doing great with grandmotherhood, but parenthood resulted in Nikko." And Renée but he doesn't tell Cliff that. That truth won't be public knowledge until next month.

"But where did Jody get the idea that I wouldn't be completely committed to Jade?"

"You never called her back after she left a message for you," Cliff told him pointedly.

"I think Amanda may have accidentally on purpose lost that message. Once I knew, you know I wanted to be part of Jade's life."

.

"I know that. We spent a lot of time at baby boutiques in DC. I think her point of view might be my fault. I may have told her everything about why we broke up."Cliff confessed.

"Everything? Including the ill-advised neighbor blowjob?"

"Yes," Cliff confirmed.

"Jody thinks I'm going to freak out and leave my own child because I freaked out at the prospect of moving in with you?" and screw things up in the most spectacular way possible.

"Possibly, but I don't think you're going to do that to Jade." Cliff squeezed his hand in reassurance. "You're never going to leave Jade, not voluntarily."

"I didn't think I was going to do that to you either, but I did."

"I forgive you, though. I also don't think you'll do that again because you understand more of what's going on now."

'I don't forgive myself.' Marc thought to himself.

"That's true. Also, Children are different. Children have to be put first, which is why my best friend ran away when things went spectacularly awful with Matt."

"You're still upset about that?" Cliff asked.

"Yes. Amanda hasn't written me back yet."

"Amanda will get in contact with you when she's ready." Cliff tried to reassure him. "Maybe just give her a few more days."

"Maybe you're right about that."

"Now have some quality baby time. I need to go rearrange some jobs. I can't exactly go to Puerto Rico right now."

"I guess accepting this is going to change things for you. Do you want to raise a kid with me?" Marc realized that Cliff never really answered him before.

"I wish the circumstances were different, but yes. I didn't correct Terry Saturday for a reason. I like the idea of us having a kid together. I think we can be much better than my parents."

"Definitely better than my parents." Marc's mom tried to call him again. He deleted her voicemail without even listening. He doesn't need her. He has Wilhelmina, who has already been a better mom. She's been over twice this week to see Jade. She's actually filling in for him at Mode so he could be with Jade. Monique told him that she actually volunteered so he could have the week off.

"Just think about it. Your lawyers are going to send you the agreement, but if you're in, I'm in." Cliff said as he placed a kiss on Jade's forehead. A part of Marc really wished Cliff was kissing him.

Xxxxx

From: Fashionista_Marc

To: Mandy_cakes

Time sent: 6/21/2010 22:21:12

Subject: How is London?

Dear Amanda:

How is London? I hope you're not actually living with the happy couple. Also, never tell me if you've introduced Betty to the concept of polyandry. I don't need to know ever.

I know you're there 100% for sure now because Hilda said something during lunch today. She may have had a little too much wine. Or maybe a lot of wine. I may have had to defend Daniel multiple times during lunch. Which would've seemed very bizarre a year ago, but the man is paying for my lawyers.

I don't even know why Hilda is angry. Daniel wasn't even with Betty when you guys slept together.

Actually, she went back to Matt. Which was so utterly ridiculous and should have been the first sign that you shouldn't have slept with him. Thankfully, Daniel has super sperm. Maybe just maybe, you were also a victim of old condoms as well.

I am personally not that upset about that because Jade is just the best baby ever. This week has been magical, 3 AM feedings notwithstanding.

I don't want this to end. Although we have to turn Jade back over to Jodi for a couple of days tomorrow per the lawyers. I'm not happy about that. She managed to make bail Friday. I think Monique may have paid on the condition that she let up on the custody thing. Or at least propose a way forward that can work for everyone. Which she did. I'm just not sure if I should take that path.

I was planning to talk to Hilda about it, but she needed to rant about her dad moving to LA and her sister marrying the guy who got you pregnant.

Jody is offering me a deal. I keep quiet about the actual circumstances of Jade's conception, and she turns over custody of Jade permanently to Cliff. Even when Jody gets out of jail, she won't fight for sole custody. At present, she's looking at 4 years even with the deal. However, other things have been coming to light.

I hope I'm the only yeti person that she "convinced" to sleep with her, but she was always manipulative. I'm worried it wasn't just me. I think others are going to come out of the woodwork. I believe that's why she doesn't want me to talk about it.

Everyone's telling me that I should consider what happened rape, but I don't. I wanted the job. So, I did what Jody asked me to do, and I was willing to do it. I don't want Jade to think that I didn't want her, that she was a mistake, or that she exists because I was forced to do something. I heard that way too much growing up. My parents were only together because the condom broke. That's a lot for a child to deal with.

Cliff is willing to do it, for us to be co-parents together. Cliff is even willing for us to live in the same house. He has always been way too good for me.

However, I am not sure. I want my daughter, and I think if I say no, then Cliff will just end up being Jade's only parent. I'm not walking away from my daughter, but at the same time, I am terrified of what that means for us.

So far, we've gotten along well despite my prior stupidity. But this is a permanent commitment to each other. It's even more permanent than marriage because you can always divorce your partner, but you can't divorce your kids. The weird thing is I'm not terrified of raising a child with Cliff. Actually, I like that idea. I'm afraid it will all fall apart. I'm worried that I'm going to do something to sabotage things again. I can't do that, not with Jade being the one who would suffer most of the fallout.

I feel like Cliff would be a good dad, better than me. I know he would do anything for Jade. He loves her too, and that's the most important thing. I know he would bend over backward to protect my daughter even from me. Cliff is so good with her. She already loves him. I love him.

I don't think I ever stopped loving Cliff, which is why this is also confusing because I can't screw up our relationship again. I need Cliff, not just because I need him to help me with Jade. I need him to be there for me. He's been back in my life for less than a month, and I know I don't want to be without him again. I love talking to him and feeling like there's somebody who understands me. I love laughing together. Or having somebody to help me through this. I don't want him to not be here.

I'm just so confused because I don't know where this is going to go. I don't know where it should go. What should I do? I think I already know. Do what I have to do for my daughter because this is not about me anymore. It's about what's best for Jane.

I really wish you were here for this conversation because you understand. I have to make a decision by Wednesday. But I think I already know what I'm going to do.

Today was my first official day back at Mode. Work is weird without you. Good news, everybody is on our side against Matt. It's probably for the best that Matt is far away at the parenting magazine. Even Megan is mad at him. Although Antonella, Justin, and Austin are his special helpers for the black and white ball. Justin has plans.

Tamika is working as both mine and Monique's assistant until we can hire someone else. Mo decided her intern babies need something more stimulating than keeping her schedule.

Also, I think I should look for a nanny at least part-time. I want this with Cliff. I really want it. I'm scared because this has to work.

Anyway, what do you think I am making the right choice? I don't know. Please write back when you get a chance. I miss you.

To be continued