Being curled up on Tony after Steve and Clint left was relaxing to say the least. He had made sure that I was comfortably laying in between his legs with my head on his chest, and that his arms were wrapped around me keeping me warm. After doing the second bonding with Clint, and the kisses I had shared and received today from all of my men, I was ready to simply relax and spend some quality time with Tony. One of the Star Wars movies was playing on his giant flat screen television in the background, and I listened to it as I also listened to his heartbeat and traced his Arc Reactor with my pointer finger. The science behind that small piece of technology fascinated me. He fascinated me.
All throughout the movie I could feel little kisses being pressed against the top of my head, the gentle brush of his facial hair against my skin, and the occasional nuzzle to the side of my neck. Not only that, but one of his hands ran up and down my back. Rubbing it in such a soothing motion, that I would have fallen asleep if it hadn't of been for the noises on the TV screen jolting me into awareness every once in a while.
Normally I wasn't this clingy or open with my affection. Not having friends growing up and only relying on my mom had made me very stingey when showing my care for other people. But something about being around the three of my men, had me wanting to stay wrapped up in their arms forever. Lavishing them with my love and kisses and being showered with it in return. Each of them made me feel something different and gave off a different vibe to me, and I couldn't get enough of it.
Tony made me feel cared for and small, like I didn't have to worry about anything as long as he was there. He would take care of everything, I just had to listen.
Steve made me feel like I was a gift. The way he looked at me, and the way he touched me. It made me feel like I was made of glass and the most precious thing in the world.
Clint made me feel safe. When in his arms, I had nothing to fear and he would take care of everything. I just had to sit back and let him guide me.
I contributed too our dynamic as well though. I made them feel something new that they had been lacking in there lives before. The subtle signs they had shown me so far made me absolutely certain of this. For Clint, I gave him something to fight for and come home to. For Steve I gave him light when before there was only work and darkness. With Tony I gave him happiness. When before there was always a hole in his chest that went unfulfilled, now there was only contentedness and the beginning stirrings of love. We balanced each other out. They matched parts of my personality that I didn't even know I had and vice versa. We were each others Yin and Yang. Perfect harmony was reached when we were together.
I wasn't a soulmate expert like the college professors who had doctorates in the subject, and when it was time to learn about "the birds and the bees" and "soulmates," I wasn't allowed to take those classes in school. The teachers and the parents of my fellow students didn't "want their children to get any ideas," or "have to explain how unnatural I was," to their children. So I didn't know if this feeling of pure serenity I was feeling was normal or not. There was more than just serenity though, I felt happiness, a sense of safety, and a sense of wholeness I had never experienced before. For goodness sake I was already calling Steve, Clint, and Tony MINE. That had to mean something right?
I know that I can't ask Steve or Clint any of my questions as they had just left on a mission and I would hate to distract them, and who knows how long they would be gone for. However I did have a third soul mate curled up with me, that happened to be a Certified Genius with multiple PhD's that I hoped would answer any questions I might have.
"Hey Tony?" I shifted a little bit so that I was looking up at him and my chin was resting just below his Arc Reactor. I didn't want to get to close to it or put any weight on it because I didn't 100% know all that it did, but I did know that it powered his Iron Man suits.
"Yeah angel?" His voice was level as he responded, but I could feel his heart rate speed up slightly through my Mark.
"What's it like for Soulmates?" I realize that that was a broad question, but I wasn't sure how else to phrase my thoughts to him.
"Well that's a loaded and diverse question." He said as he sat up and pulled me with him. "J.A.R.V.I.S. pause the movie."
"Of course sir." This time when the A.I spoke, I didn't jump from surprise.
"So back to your very heavy question." Tony said as he brushed some stray strands of my hair behind my ear. "What is it, exactly, that you want to know."
"Exactly?" Well crap. How do I break it down so that he understands exactly what it is that I want to know?
He must have seen the slight look of panic on my face because he abruptly stood up and pulled me with him. "Tell you what. Let's head on up to my lab, and you think about it while we make our way there. Okay? Okay."
As soon as those words left his mouth, he was standing up and holding out a calloused hand to me. "Want to see my Candyland?" He asked as he wiggled his eyebrows obnoxiously up and down. I couldn't contain my laughter as I took his hand and let him help me to my feet.
Once we were back in the elevator, he hit a glowing blue button, and I heard a small hissing noise. Coming out of the elevator was a small panel which Tony punched a code into, before he did a palm scan and then a retinal scan.
"Guest not authorized." J.A.R.V.I.S's voice came from the speaker at the top of the elevator and I was surprised to hear him sound so robotic. Every other time I had heard him, he had sounded almost human.
"Override. Anthony Howard Stark."
"Override granted." With those two words, the elevator began to move and Tony wrapped his arm around my shoulders.
"Not that that wasn't cool, but what was with the super spy mode Iron Man?" I smiled at him to let him know I was teasing, and he chuckled as the elevator climbed higher up in the tower.
"I'm sure when you went with Clint earlier he explained about the floors?" He paused, and when I nodded my head he continued with his explanation. "Well the penthouse is where I live, and the floor directly below that is my personal lab. Anyone can get a hold of me through J.A.R.V.I.S. so I have my own floors locked down so to speak."
"So that's what all that stuff was?"
He nodded. "Before you leave I'm going to add you to my access panel, that way you can always come to my floors to look for me, or if you even just need some space. If I'm not up here or in the common room, you can probably find me in Bruce and I's lab downstairs. That's where we work on joint projects."
The elevator doors opened, and I totally understood why Tony called this his Candyland. Not only was his lab set up in a garage that had tons of fancy model cars that I was scared I would scratch just by looking at them, it just screamed Tony. It wasn't as modern as the Common Room, but it was obviously well loved. With lots of computers for him to work on, tools covering almost every surface, and a WALL of Iron Man suits, this place looked like his home away from home.
"This place is amazing." I said in awe as I took slow measured steps into the lab.
"This is where I come when I can't sleep." Tony followed me into the room and walked over to what looked to be a mini fridge. "Water?" He turned to look at me but I was staring at a little machine about my height that was whirring and making little beeps and boops as it moved closer to me.
"That's amazing." I whispered, and as if the robot understood me, he started spinning in place while making higher pitched beeps.
"That's DUM-e. He helps make the refreshments and is in charge of fire safety." Tony said. "I don't trust him to do much else." He said while being completely honest, though this made the little robot sad. He got quiet and moved over to the other machines that were in a corner and stayed there.
"Aww poor guy. That wasn't nice Tony, you upset him!" I said as Tony handed me a water bottle.
"It's ok angel, he'll forgive me. Now have you thought about how you wanted to break your question down?"
In all honesty, no I hadn't. I had been way to distracted by everything else that had been going on around me to even think about that. Tony was waiting for me though, so I knew I had to start somewhere. "Can I sit?"
Tony looked at me like I had grown another head. "Can you sit? Do you really think I would make you stand if you wanted to sit?" He shook his perfectly styled head of hair and pulled a chair out for me to sit in as he took a seat by his computers.
"Well the best place to start would be the beginning I guess. I never got to take those soulmate classes in school so I'm a bit confused on certain things and only know the basics which my mom told me."
"How about you tell me what you know, and I'll fill in the blanks." Tony didn't so much as ask me, as he instructed, and it made it easier for me to take a breath and begin. Knowing he knew the next step was a relief to me in that moment.
"I know the three bonding steps. Touch, which all three of us have done. Giving and Receiving Pleasure, which I've done with Clint. And the last one is Becoming One. When you and your soulmate finally join together for the first time, which none of us have done yet. I'm more wondering about how I've been acting since meeting you three yesterday."
"What do you mean?" I was glad Tony was taking me seriously, because I'm not sure I could handle it if he didn't.
"I never open up to people this easily. I'm showing you guys my vulnerable sides which I didn't even show my mom." I was starting to get worked up and I raked one my hands through my hair as they began to shake. "For goodness sakes I've never been with anyone romantically, but I never second guessed or regretted what I did with Clint. Is this normal? It seems like this is going way to fast for it to be normal?!?!" By now I was almost hyperventilating, and It took me a minute to notice that Tony had gotten up and was now standing in front of me. I looked up at him helplessly as my emotions got the better of me, and he bent down and scooped me up into his arms and then sat with me across his lap.
"You're alright angel. I'm sorry you weren't prepared, but trust me. This is normal. How you're feeling, how we feel, how fast everything is going. It is normal. You have nothing to worry about." He said as he kissed my temple.
"I don't?"
"No you don't. You act the way your heart and soul tell you to act. It's the same with us. If you tell anyone I said that, I will deny it." He said semi-seriously.
"I won't tell a soul." I promised.
"Good. Now My Lady would you like a tour of my lab?" He said in an obnoxiously grandiose voice as he swept an arm out to the side in a very dramatic fashion. I was still on his lap, but I put one hand over my heart before answering him.
"Why my good sir, it would be my absolute pleasure." With a yelp I wrapped my arms around Tony's neck as he had stood up with me in his arms and laughed. Oh yes, some quality time to relax with one of my Soulmates was just what I needed.
