A/N: From when Katie was trying to get over Toby based on a new song introduced to me by Meowser :) Love you girl!
Stream You're Not Harry Styles by DYLAN
His love is a double-edged sword. The kind of dog that'll bite you then lick the wounds clean.
The kind of guy that'll take you to show off to his friends and make a pass on someone at the same bar that night.
The way you made me feel was familiar, but brand new all the same. Ned always felt unreachable and unattainable, while you were exciting and intoxicating.
It didn't last for too long. Now I'm truly sick of him and all of the stupid nonsense, but the sad part is girls would die for a guy like you.
At first, it's wonderful. A bliss that is unknown to the deep dark unwanted insecurities that lurk within us all.
Until that pain gnaws at you, day in and day out. Little jibes turn into fights until you submit to them and starve yourself to feel pretty enough.
All because you want him to be pleased or worse just to let you fuck them. That's all they ever want.
It's what Toby needed, and it's why he wanted me. Some check-off on his special list, but it was my loss of innocence.
He drives me crazy. Right across the hall. The biggest regret of my life that still haunts me day and night.
To you, I'm overly emotional and easily replaceable. Some crazy feminist whose in love with someone else.
He thinks he could do better running around with that god complex, but yet still lies about his height on Tinder.
After weeks now he's sorry, with flowers in his hand. But it's all a lie. You're a narcissistic maniac who never says the L-word back.
A gaslighting Harry Styles wannabe with an expensive wardrobe and short-fuse.
I just want to be left alone. But that's not your style. You think I deserve this and that you deserve me.
But no, no, no. I deserve so much better.