A/N: A few different things about Katie just after graduation and the beginning of her time in New York City. Stream Changes by Cam. It was the inspiration for this one :) Enjoy xx Mariah
7/27
I lie awake in bed with thoughts swarming around in my head.
The memories come flooding in, of old times with my family and friends;
I can't believe I am graduating from four years of stress and finally moving on, but those years were something.
Ups and downs. It's my time now, and no one can stop me. I'm graduated and set for NYU in the fall.
I'll have obstacles, no doubt, but whatever gets in my way I must simply be the best I can be.
When I leave... I only hope you won't forget me. We've known each other our entire lives, and yet I'm still invisible.
My feelings run deep and how I wish you only knew... but how? How could I tell you, Ned?
I believed you and that you cared, and yet you didn't. I was a fool.
I believed your lies. That you could ever love me as anything more than little Katie Clancy.
8/10
Nothing will ever change about Ned Banks. He makes me feel empty and as though I have lost everything I might've once had.
I'm sick of this life and these tears. I'm sick of the trip you've put on me for years and years.
Now I'm going to live my life as I choose at the school of my dreams.
I'm no longer going to cry tears and tear at myself for you until I fall apart at the seams.
I'm not going to feel guilty for the things that you did because I'm no longer a kid.
So, I'll go... cause I don't wanna feel like I don't know you anymore.
8/20
Classes have yet to start and it's all so exciting. New York City.
I miss home and everyone there. Except for you.
A new job and a couple of friends, and I'll be able to forget all about you.
Maybe I'll even be lucky enough to fall in love. It's what I deserve.
You treat me like I'm some little kid who can't do anything for herself.
Everyone here is brand new. They don't know me. It's the start of something brand new.
Everything is always changing in the city that never sleeps. Who knows what changes tomorrow will bring?