Here's the new chapter 5 everyone, hope you like and enjoy see the end for more updates.
December 24th 10:15pm 2018 Ireland, Dublin hospital
L-Lets d-do it!
Somehow I managed to croak out without even realizing it. The first words I've spoken before I had my accident, Lucy stops her eyes going wide with a equal shocked expression on her face. I'm not sure how I even managed to do that I guess my throat is more healed than I had expected, plus after Lucy's story and her giving me the courage to push through my insecurity's I was able to overcome that barrier. Holding my throat it feels weird speaking for the first time even if I sound like I swallowed a box of nails, I have the ability to speak again I can speak with Lucy or the doctor heck even the people down the hall from me. Hold up brit I know your excited to be able to speak but don't over strain your voice, just like with your other injuries just let your body further heal ok?
Giving her a nod I reach for my notepad deciding its rather play it safe, I write down asking her how long before I can be able to talk fully? Well brit before we can even talk about you speaking again lets keep our focus on removing your bandages first, if your speaking now than I'm curious to see how the rest of your body is? Giving her a nod I let Lucy help me take my gown off so now I'm only in the standard hospital under garment's and socks, giving me a quick pat and a smile Lucy begins with removing the bandages. Starting from my back she grabs a pair of scissors making quick cuts up to the base of my neck. Just a quick heads up brit your chest and back has 2 layers of gauge and bandages while your neck has three since it was what took the most of the flames, if anything hurts or if you may need a moment let me know and ill stop alright? Giving her a thumbs up I let her continue working on removing the bandages since there's a few layers she has to cut and slowly peel back I close my eyes as I try to keep relaxed.
I'm both nervous and excited at the same time I have no clue on what to expect from this, hopefully I wont look to bad. Lucy starts humming a small tune as she continues with the bandage's, maybe to keep herself or me calm not sure but I do apricate it. I've been thinking about what I'm going to do after I can be discharged and I think ill take Lucy up on her offer to stay at her house for a while. Once I get familiar with the streets and where I'm going I can start looking for any of my families, there's a few places Lucy suggested I can go to and ask around. My hope is someone will recognize me and I'll remember someone and they could help me. I know it sounds easier in my head than it'll be but I have to start somewhere, I still hope my family hasn't given up on me whoever they may be. More and more bandages start to pile on the ground by now Lucy's almost done with my chest and back, wait if she's fully removes my bandages than that means she's going to see me fully topless. I guess its fair she did take her own scrubs off to show me her own scars but she has her bra on while I don't, well we are both women hopefully this wont get awkward for us I hope.
Alright brit I'm about to be done with your chest are you ready? I wanna shake my head no there's no way ill ever be ready instead I look at mouthing a yes I've come this far I'm not backing out now. With a few more snips and tugs I feel the cold air hitting my sensitive's skin closing my eyes as the last bandages covering my chest now fall. Lucy goes silent which I can only assume is a bad sign, covering my chest with my arms I lower my head as I start crying I must be bad if Lucy's not speaking. B-brit its not bad its the total opposite please open your eyes for me just for a moment. Shaking my head no I keep crying all my previous confidence now is gone all I wanna do is cover up myself and hide. Please dear I promise everything is fine I'm not disquieted with you its well I'm mesmerized, use your arms and feel your chest and skin does any of it feel burnt or bring you pain? Moving my arms while still covering my breasts I don't feel any kind of pain, instead I feel soft skin it actually kind of tickles. Opening my eyes I see Lucy whos face is as red as a tomatoes looking at me but not in a gross manner, wait is she actually blushing at me?
S-see told ya no burns or anything like that let me show, pulling me up she helps me to the full length mirror in the bathroom. Instead of any signs of burns or scare tissue everything actually looks fine. I have a small scar on my shoulder besides that there's nothing, my breasts I realize are actually a little more bigger than what I thought with all the wrappings on, I slowly start feeling with my hands exploring the untouched skin. Turning around I can my back a little just like my chest no burns or anything just smooth skin. Looking back at Lucy her blush now gone gives me a really big smile, see brit I told you there was nothing to worry about. But something doesn't make sense I'm not the person to question a good thing in the face but this I there's no explanation, burns like yours don't magically heal themselves especially for a human. What does she mean by "for a human" she's acting like she isn't human, but she is right I may not now a lot about burns or hospitals but I should be badly scared. Is something wrong with me I know both the doctor and Lucy said my body heals fast but this even I can say is crazy or at least impossible. Maybe I am trying to break records or something well more like my body is.
Brit let me see your neck before we do anything further, grabbing my hand Lucy has me sit on the toilet which is a good idea since I feel my legs turning into jelly from standing so suddenly. Lucy still gentle with me starts to remove the bandages around my neck, I start shivering as a cold breeze pasts by us I wish I had something to cover myself good thing Lucy locked the door and I don't have any bedmates. Lucy makes quick work of the first two layers around my neck but by the third I can feel her fingers tremble a little, if she thinks she's nervous I winder how she thinks I'm doing? A lump forms in my throat as Lucy pulls the last of my bandages off, once again she goes wide eyed muttering a this is impossible under her breath. Needing to see for myself I grab Lucy as I stand up my legs not wanting to work me Lucy wraps her arm around my waist as we go to the mirror. Instead of being covered in burns my neck is in way better shape than what it should be, there's a jagged line going across my neck while the skin is red but its mostly has healed. Ok something is defiantly not right here I shouldn't be able to speak while having third degree burns all over me, instead it looks like I have sunburn on my neck and a scar running over my neck but that could easily be covered.
Still looking at my reflection I finally get a good look at myself for the first time, pale skin with a few freckles on my cheeks it feels like I'm looking at a whole other person. This "stranger" that's supposed to be me I realize I don't even seem familiar with my own reflection, almost like this is a whole other person that's standing in my reflection. The blonde hair doesn't seem familiar even while I run a few fingers through it the only thing that seems familiar are my eyes. My green eyes what have they seen that I cannot remember what story do they hold for me? They say the eyes are a gateway to a persons very own soul brit. Looking at Lucy I give her a questionable look as she puts her scrubs back on, what does that even mean gate way to my soul?
Its an old saying that my mom told me when I first started working here its like you can tell a lot about a person when you look at there eyes, you can see there past and all the pain sorrow and happiness that they experienced. When I look into your eyes all I see is mostly confusion. But for a split second while you was looking at your reflection you had a moment of familiarity, if its alright could you tell me what it was? Looking back at the mirror I focus on my eyes as Lucy's words play in my mind gateway to my soul those are powerful words, its my eyes Lucy everything but my eyes seem unfamiliar to me but my eyes I remember they are the same shade of green that somehow I remember. I feel like something is stuck inside my mind like whatever it is its blocking me from remembering my memory's, Lucy when I was first brought in did I hit my head or sustain any kind of head injury that may have lead to loose my memories?
No you didn't have any kind of head injurie's that would have caused your memory loss. I've been thinking about this with Dr. Andrews for a while now and I may have a theory, its possible during your accident you experienced such a shock that your subconscious couldn't handle it all and so as a way to handle the trauma it caused you to subconsciously forget everything. There's more cases in different countries all over the world each day with people forgetting themselves or what happens to them, overtime most people do regain there memory's and live normal lives. There are cases where people don't regain there memory's but with the right help can restart there lives, it all depends on the person will you be able to get your memories back I believe you can but it may not be easy brit. Lucy passes me back my hospital gown as we stand next to each other standing in front of the mirror, red and green eyes its funny both of our eye colors match this Christmas holiday thing. Will I ever be able to remember who I was I wish I had that answer it sucks not knowing who I am.
A sharp ringing sound comes from Lucy's pocket snaps me out of my thoughts, looking over Lucy has a sheepish smile as she takes out her phone the contact name says pain in my ass. Sorry brit its aqua my sister calling forget to call her back earlier give me a moment, Lucy walks out of the room leaving me by myself. Walking back to my bed I sit down waiting for Lucy to finish her call, looking at the time its almost 11:30 shit I didn't realize it was this late no wonder why aqua was calling Lucy. Feeling a little guilty I kept Lucy here this late while its Christmas eve she should be out with her family not staying here with me. I may not know remember this holiday but that doesn't mean its meant to spend it by yourself, typical Lucy always caring about other people before herself she's going to be a good doctor one day I just know it.
A few minutes went by before Lucy came back into the room a nervous smile on her face, we both tried to apologize to each other at the same time which we both found to be funny. Cleaning up Lucy explains that she was supposed to call aqua back to wish her a merry Christmas but got caught up in her helping me and forget. I tried to apologize to her about it but Lucy being Lucy wouldn't hear it instead Lucy tells me not to worry. Hey luce its almost midnight not that I don't like your company but shouldn't you have already gone home by now? Well about that brit you already know my sisters are both busy with there own things this year and my mother is going to be with her girlfriend so I really didn't have anyone to spend it with. I also didn't want you to have to spend Christmas by yourself in the hospital so I asked if I could stay the next few nights here with you, plus since Dr. Andrews is on vacation I can keep an eye on you and keep you company. If you don't want me to stay that's alright I should've asked you first but no one should be alone for Christmas, so what do you say you wanna be roommate's for a few days?
Instead of replying I give her a big hug which she kindly returns holding me close, ill take that as a yes than brit. Just let me clock out and get some stuff from my locker and ill be back and oh before I forget I know you like chocolate and my mom made some cookies for Christmas, how does some Christmas cookies with some milk sound for tonight? Giving her a squeeze we just stay like that for a few the fact that a few days I wont be by myself and ill have someone to stay with me its a great feeling. Letting Lucy go so she can go get the things she needs I lean back into bed watching her go, usually by this point I would have a sadness in my chest watching my only friend go, But this time knowing she can actually stay and keep me company I cant help but feel all giddy. Technically the first Christmas ill remember but I can be happy I wont be spending it alone hopefully things will keep getting better for me in the future.
Well everyone another chapter done sorry its not as long as the other chapters. The next chapter will be a big one not only will Brit and Lucy spend there first ever Christmas together, but also a surprise will be coming up in the next chapter so don't miss it. Again please comment and hope you enjoyed another chapter of Where do i go from here until next time good day everyone.
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