Sorry for the delay in this chapter. Things have been a little crazy in my personal life lately, as well as Canadian holiday for Family Day and a short vacation. I am back and hope to get some more chapters out for everyone.

Warning – chapter is adult only.

Our days continued. Me learning to fight and the others bringing me animals to drain so I did not have to stop long. The few times I did pause, was to work on understanding my shield and how it affected me and others. At first, it was strange to me that I did not need to sleep and could keep going.

However, by the fifth day, it had lost its appeal.

"Lower your stance!"

"Loosen your shoulders!"

"Watch your back!"

"AHHHHHHHHHH!" I growled out, raising my face to the sky, eyes closed, and fists gripped so tightly that my knuckles felt like they were cracking.

A loud boom resounded and the three vampires I was sparring against went flying into the trees surrounding us. We had moved farther afield to protect the barns and homestead on the second day of my training. Now, we had an extremely healthy expanse of cleared forest in which we were training.

Seeing Char, Rose and Emmett plastered against trees and rocks several hundred metres away, cracks across their faces I gasped out and fell to my knees.

I am hurting my friends. My family.

Family.

Dad.

I closed my eyes, willing the vision of my dad's lifeless body to dissipate, however, my now perfect memory kept it on repeat. In all its gruesome details.

"Darlin', let's take a break." The quiet southern drawl ghosted across my right ear as he leaned into me, his arms surrounding me.

Turning my head to focus on Jasper, my lower lip trembled. Thumps echoed back to us as the three vampires I had held in my shield dropped to the ground. I closed my eyes as I whispered back, "It is too much. I am going to fail my family."

His strong arms surrounded me and held me close, tucking my head into his neck as he soothed me. "You are not failing. Most vampires take weeks or months to learn what we are trying to do in only a few days. There is nothing wrong with needing a break."

I could hear Rose whispering to Emmett before he whooped out, "Hell, yes woman!" I turned to look at them as he grabbed her ass and then they left, hand in hand.

Char spoke out as she walked back towards the homestead, "I need to check on the livestock."

Soon, it was just Jasper and myself, sitting in the field. The field I had created with my shield and with my training. His fingers were trailing circular patterns across my back. Focusing on that sensation, I closed my eyes and just existed.

The light caresses continued, spreading from my back to my shoulders, butt, legs, stomach, and breasts. I bit my lip and moaned out, "Oh Jasper."

"Yes, Darlin'. Let me provide you release." His mouth then attacked my neck, nibbling and sucking next to the faint scar from the first transition bite.

I shivered and clawed at his back, tearing his shirt into strips of useless rags. He answered back with a growl as he pulled my shirt over my head, throwing it away. He took less care with my pants, and they tore, leaving me naked (as I had not yet managed to get undergarments on without tearing yet). Wanting us to be on even ground, I slid my fingers into his waistband and his pants disappeared just as quickly.

"God, you are sexy." I purred out at Jasper, his full body on display for me now.

A chuckle and murmuring reached my ears. The sounds were coming from the barns where Char had gone – likely joined by Peter who had completed some perimeter checks while we were sparring. But, if we could hear them, they could hear us.

I bit my lip and closed my eyes, focusing on wrapping this section of the forest into a private zone – protected by my shield. The sounds around us ceased and I opened my eyes, seeing the shimmering of my shield around us.

"There, now we have privacy."

Growling, Jasper flipped and positioned us, me on my back and my hair splayed around me. He hovered over me, settled between my legs. "I think I could get used to having privacy again. No one will be able to hear you scream my name."

He leaned in and bit my lip, pulling it between his teeth. I gasped and wrapped my legs around his waist, pulling him close. His member there at my entrance, teasing, had me grinding my hips up, seeking more contact. His mouth left my lower lip and trailed down into my neck.

"Are you ready for me, Isabella? Can I make you mine – for eternity?"

Gasping and moaning, I began kissing his neck as he kept at mine. "Jasper, I am already yours. From the moment I opened my eyes as a vampire, I knew I love you."

He pulled back just enough to look into my eyes. His normally golden globes were deep black, thick with his lust. "Isabella, I have loved you since you allowed me to carry you out from Edward's bedroom window when he tried to contain you. Your fire, spirit and beauty have always called to me. You see what others do not. You love and care for those around you. Even those who do not deserve it. You are my mate."

"Jasper . . ."

No more words were needed. My thoughts and feelings were always running faster than I knew what to do with as a vampire, but this. This felt right. This was right. He was the reason I had a future, and I would do anything to protect my future with him.

As he entered me, we both growled out – lustful moans echoing within my shield. His emotions were being projected and the love and bliss was compounding our state to heights we had not achieved previously when I was still a human.

We kept up a steady and fast rhythm, changing positions every twenty minutes of so. It was overwhelming not getting tired, knowing that as a vampire, I didn't need sleep or anything to keep going. No matter how much we gave and took from each other, it wasn't enough. I needed more.

On the tenth orgasm, I yelled out. "God! Jasper, I'm yours!" I then sunk my teeth deep into the crook of his neck.

"Fuck, Isabella!"

A sharp jolt vibrated from my neck throughout my body and we both convulsed, our teeth at each other's neck. After a few minutes, we both detached, gasping. Looking over at Jasper, I could see a new crescent mark on his neck, still glistening with venom. This one stood out brighter and starker then the thousands of others that littered his body.

As I traced others on his arm with my fingers, I began to sob. Fear, anger, and sadness overwhelmed me – flipping back and forth and not settling on any. I placed my hand on the ones around his neck and anger, jealousy and lust clouded my brain.

"Isabella, what's wrong? Easy now. Love, talk to me."

My lower lip was trembling with the tumultuous flow of emotions running through my brain. I moved my fingers to the new, raw bite I placed on his skin and love settled around me.

"I am so sorry. I added to your scars."

He rested his forehead against mine. "Isabella, I will gladly wear your mating mark with pride. It really does not hurt. The others are distant memories. Yours shows me the love we share."

"Love? How could I have hurt you?"

"Darlin'. It didn't hurt. In fact, that was the best orgasm of my life. All I had felt was love. None of the others had me feel anything close. Does yours hurt?"

I reached my other hand up to my neck, where Jasper's teeth had plunged just as deep as mine had in him. It tingled as I touched it, but there was no pain. Shaking my head, I focused on him. "No. It feels good."

He kissed me deeply. "Let's see if we can find us some clothes, shall we. Then, perhaps a hunting trip is in order. You have not been able to properly hunt in days. Not since you first awoke."

Rising to our feet, we gathered the scraps of clothe laying around and started walking back towards the homestead. My shield had held throughout our activities, and it easily fell away as I sighed. We walked, hand in hand, back at a human pace. A pile of clothes had been left at the back of the barn and none of the others were in sight.

Jasper helped me dressed before he pulled on pants for himself. Once we were decent enough, we took off into the forest, Jasper leading me towards areas he knew I could find a meal.