"You were supposed to be there for me! How could you do this to me over the phone?! You've been doing WHAT?!" You screamed over the phone, your heart was broken completely and utterly broken... almost beyond repair at this point, how could he do this to you?! After everything you had been through together... you were supposed to be getting married in two months for fuck sake.
"You've been fucking my best friend for the last 3 years? How could you!!" Tears well in your eyes and you shut down, completely and utterly. You're well aware of everyone staring at you and at this point you don't know what to do, you just want it all to stop hurting... how could they both betray you in this way! You'd had your suspicions that he'd been cheating on you and had confided in her, she'd spent all those nights comforting you when all along it was her! Hearing him try and justify it was making you more angry and you throw your phone at the wall. It shatters completely and you burst into tears, your whole world was collapsing around you. You're so upset that you miss the way Nick gets up and grabs Olivia from her office, knowing how much you need your safe place right now after everything you'd been through. You sit on the floor and rock back and forth, you're in such a state that you don't even register Olivia who's now bent down next to you.
"Y/N.. Y/N.." she coos and rests a hand on your shoulder, trying to provide you with some comfort. You're sat there for around 15 minutes or so, getting yourself so worked up that Olivia begins to get worried. She moves herself so that she's in front of you and gently holds your hands which seems to snap you out of the fog that you're currently in.
"Help me... can't breathe!" You say tearfully and Olivia recognises the signs instantly; you're having a panic attack. She pulls you onto her lap and cuddles you tight to her body, allowing your head to rest against her chest. She rubs your back and presses a gentle kiss to your forehead, wiping at your tears with her thumb.
"What's happened?" She asks the other Detectives and some shrug, others just stare dumbfounded at the two of you and Nick bites his lip. He glances at Olivia and begins to speak, recoiling slightly at the maternal fire in her eyes.
"It's something to do with her fiancé... I think he cheated on her!" He said softly, only piecing together what he had heard as he'd not heard the entire conversation. She nods her head and delegates jobs to them so that she can talk to you on her own. Once it's just the two of you, she untangles herself from you and picks you up.
"Shhh you're safe... it's ok. Take some deep breaths, sweet girl. I've got you... yeah that's right... I got you!" She cooed and gently held your head to her shoulder, allowing you to just sob and bury your tear soaked face into her neck. You're in such a mess that you don't register her taking you to her office and sitting you on her lap, leaning herself back so that you can lay on her chest. Olivia just rubs your back and twirls your hair around her fingers in a way that she knew you liked and waited until you'd stopped panicking to ask you questions.
"Can you tell me what's happened, love? You can talk to me about anything! You know that don't you? I'm here... you're safe! It's just us..." Olivia cooed and you hiccup anxiously, clinging onto the closest person you had to a Mom.
"Safe... I'm safe?" You reiterate and she tilts your chin up so that she can kiss every inch of your face, it's as though you're her own baby and you hiccup softly. All you want is for her to keep you safe and make it all ok again... she's the only person that you trust implicitly.
"Yes, little one. You're safe! You can tell me anything... it's ok honey!" Olivia cupped your cheek and rubbed her thumb against it, soothing all the tears that fell down them.
"H/N broke up with me and then he told me that he cheated on me with my best friend! For three years that prick has been fucking my best friend! We're meant to be getting married in two months..." You start to sob all over again and she hugs you so tight that you let out a squeak.
"Oh honey... I am so sorry! Just let it all out... that's it sweetheart. You can tell me, I'm listening..." Olivia whispered and you laid your head on her chest, surprising both her and yourself by what you said next. You don't know whether it's because you're in shock or the fact that you feel so safe in her arms but you just blurt out something that will change the whole dynamic of your relationship.
"He rang me up just after I finished my paperwork. He just said it so nonchalantly... almost like he was asking me about the weather or something. I then started to cry and that's when he told me that he'd been having an affair with her! Mom it hurts..." You hiccup against her chest and she freezes slightly; she's in shock that you've just called her Mom and you're in shock as well. You're not just shocked, you're mortified!
"I'm sorry! I didn't mean to..." You start off and Olivia presses a kiss to both of your cheeks and then she kisses your lips, allowing you to nuzzle your nose against hers. She rocked you back and forth in her lap and she's grinning so much that it puts every doubt that you have to rest. She loves it; she knows that she's always been the Squad 'Mom' but no one had actually verbalised it before until now.
"It's ok, little one. I'm here... Mama's here! You can tell Mama all about it... that's it, sweetie. You tell me all about it!" She cooed and gently shifted you on her lap so that you were both comfortable, her heart melting when your small hand slips into hers. She lets you fiddle with the bracelet on her wrist and twist the ring on her finger that Elliot had bought her for their anniversary, she was healing parts of you that you had no idea needed healing.
"Things haven't been good for about 6 months or so, I suspected that he was having an affair. He started leaving early and coming home late, I found bank statements that had expensive restaurants on there... he said that he was taking clients out for dinner! How stupid am I... then he started wearing expensive aftershave! The sad part is..." You hiccup and Olivia hugs you tight, rubbing her hand up and down your back.
"Shhh little one, Mommy's here!" She cooed and that made you sob, she was being the Mom that you had always wanted and needed growing up. She was healing that little girl inside of you who'd had to be strong, who had never had a Mom to protect them and who'd had to swallow all of their problems down.
"Come on sweetheart, you're coming home with me. Let me just text Elliot and let him know what's going on, he can run the Precinct for today. I think we'll have a duvet day today! What do you think?" She spoke softly to you and you nodded, that sounded like a great idea. She sent Elliot a quick text and stood up, allowing you to slip your hand into hers.
"Let's go home kiddo!" She whispered and you didn't need to be told twice, all you wanted was to be with her and never let her out of your sight!
Two hours had gone past and you were curled up on Olivia's sofa wrapped up in her duvet, your hair freshly washed and braided into two neat plaits by Olivia. You brush the fabric of your sweatshirt against your nose and inhale deeply; it smelled of Olivia's perfume and that always made you feel safe. You felt even safer when Olivia sat next to you and pulled you close, putting a large pint of cookie dough ice cream between you both and handing you a spoon. You both ate some ice cream and you glance up at her, debating whether or not to continue talking about what had happened. Olivia looked down at you and flicked some ice cream onto your nose which made you laugh and broke some of the tension that you were feeling. She dabbed your nose clean and you snuggled into her.
"I spoke to my friend about all my concerns... I would ring her at all hours crying my eyes out about him. She would tell me that I was being silly... that he loved me and was probably just stressed about the wedding. He began to snap at me and would come home smelling of perfume... why was I so stupid? I believed him every time!" You climb back onto Olivia's lap and she cuddled you tight, the smell of Olivia's perfume made you feel safe, warm and loved! It made you feel like you were home in her arms, especially when she rocked you back and forth.
"Y/N... honey! You are not stupid... sometimes we all just need to believe that the ones we love aren't capable of hurting us. Before I married El, I had dated some right assholes who hurt me... I made excuse after excuse for them! You will find your person, sweetheart. You're still so young..." She cooed and kissed the top of your head.
"Mommy... I'm 25! I should have my life sorted now... I'm a grown up!" You mumble and contradict yourself by playing with her hair as though you're a child. You glance up every now and then expecting her to be disgusted by you and how babyish you're being! Instead, she smiles down at you with so much love and understanding.
"Exactly young lady! You're only 25... you're only a baby really... well you are to me anyway! You'll always be Mommy's baby!" She cooed and you felt so loved that you continue to talk to her, once you start you can't stop!
"Being cheated on sucks anyway but why did he have to cheat on me with her? He was so nonchalant about it as well! My heart is broken into a million pieces it feels like... how do I fix it Mama? How do I make the pain go away?" You whisper and she presses a big kiss to your forehead and frowns; she hates what your 'friend' has done to you.
"Well first of all if you need to cry baby then just cry it all out, your heart shouldn't have to hold onto all this pain! Then you eat ice cream, chocolate and chips... that's what helps me when I'm hurt or upset and then you just talk about it... don't hold anything in. I am so proud of you for telling me all of this; I know how much you struggle to talk about your feelings but you're doing so well, little one. You know that you can always come to me for a chat or a cuddle if you need to!" She said soothingly and you snuggle in her arms, this felt nice and you felt a little better already.
"Also, time is a great healer. Day by day it will hurt less and less, then when you least expect it you will find a man who deserves you! Who makes you his priority, who would rather die than hurt you! Who will never pressure you to do anything that you don't wanna do... but for now just live your life, do what you like and what makes you happy!" She kept you both wrapped up warm and you close your eyes a little.
"Get some rest, sweetie! I'll be right here the whole time!" She cooed and bit back a laugh when your eyes open and you mumble sleepily to her, it made her heart melt!
"I'm just resting my eyes Mama, I'm not tired!" You say and she stroked your hair softly, pressing a kiss to your forehead whilst you try to keep your eyes open, which is proving difficult when she keeps stroking your hair.
"Of course you're not tired, baby!" She placates you with a smirk and within a few minutes, you're asleep. You're wrapped up safe and secure within Olivia's arms where nothing bad can ever hurt you; she would never let anything hurt you!
You awake with a start and nearly fall out of Olivia's lap, she makes quick work of catching you and holding you close to her. You realise that you had been scared because the front door had been unlocked, you calm down when you hear Elliot's voice.
"Liv... Y/N I'm home!" He called out and stepped into the lounge. Immediately Olivia frowns; Elliot's hands are bruised and there are specks of blood on his shirt. She puts two and two together and so do you, there's not a mark on him aside from that and Olivia internally rolls her eyes; she'd told him exactly what had happened in that text message so that he knew why you were both leaving early.
"Elliot please tell me that you didn't..." Olivia rolled her eyes at the look of guilt on his face and you couldn't help but grin slightly; all you'd wanted was a Mom and Dad to protect you and now you had that and it made you feel all warm and safe.
"I'm sorry Liv! But there's no way that I'm going to let my little girl get hurt in that way! Besides, he deserved it!" Elliot said protectively and sat down, pressing a kiss to Olivia's lips... she was still fuming! Then he bent down and pressed a kiss to your cheek, treating you like one of his own children.
"Elliot!!" Olivia chided half heartedly, whilst she understood why he did it she was worried that he'd make a complaint and with his record with IAB... God, he'd probably end up with his badge taken away.
"How are you doing, sweetheart?" He whispered and took you from Olivia's grasp, letting you snuggle within his chest. You cling to him as though he's a lifeline, letting out a small hiccup when he kisses your cheek again.
"Better now that you're here too! I guess I should be lucky right? At least he told me before the wedding!" You laugh and cry at the same time, bordering on hysterical at this point and Elliot rocks you back and forth. He whispers sweet nothings to you and tells you that everything would be ok, that he wouldn't let him come near you again.
"He's lucky I didn't break his legs!" Elliot fumed, ignoring Olivia's scream of 'Elliot are you serious?!!' And just focused on you and how you were feeling, he was so kind, gentle and loving to you that it knocked all the anger out of Olivia and just left her smiling indulgently; this was the man who she'd fallen in love with! The gentle giant who would do anything for the people who he loved.
"You're safe kiddo, you're safe and so loved! We're here alright? We aren't leaving you!" He smoothed the hair back from your face and gently bounced you on his knee like you were a toddler, he hated that your heart was broken and that you'd been hurt. He felt even more protective when he heard your next words, it made him love you all the more.
"Daddy it hurts!" You hiccuped and they both hugged you tight, wishing that they could take this pain away from you immediately. They hated to see you like this and to know that they had to just ride this out with you, that they couldn't fix it.
"I know, honey. Daddy's here and so is Mommy, we're going to be here every step of the way! We are so proud of you..." Elliot cooed and you snuggle between them both, finally you feel a bit better and Olivia switches on the TV. She puts on a series that you like and they both check on you every so often, making sure that you're ok. By the end of the night, it was already starting to hurt less just like Olivia had said! You didn't know whether it was because you knew that you had a lucky escape or because the two most important people in your life were hugging and kissing the pain away but, you knew for certain that with them by your side that you'd get through this one day at a time.