I don't own anything to Star Trek. I don't make money with it. I'm writing fanfictions because I love it. So I ask you not to sue me.

English is not my mother tongue. I don't have a beta reader. Feel free to point out mistakes to me.

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Deafening Pain

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Leonard had feared it. He had expected it. It had been obvious! That couldn't go well, of course! "Opposites attract" crap worked in cheesy love dramas, but not in real life. Nobody wanted a partner who was the complete opposite of themself.

Jim and Spock made no difference!

Jim was someone who could reach out to others. A charmer. Someone who took risks because their gut instincts were right.

Spock, on the other hand, calculated everything, was stiff as a board and didn't understand Jim's way of having fun and taking risks.

This combination could only lead to an explosion. That was inevitable!

So why did Jim put so much faith in this connection ... No! In this idea?!

He had said it wasn't serious. He had said he just enjoyed the challenge. Bullshit! Leonard had known! And he should have convinced Jim that this idiot was going to fall in love, but of course James T. Kirk knew everything better!

What happened? Very easy! Jim had fallen head over heels in love with a Vulcan and was heartbroken now. Why? Because guys like Spock don't like guys like Jim, but smart, down-to-earth women like Uhura.

And right there was the problem! Spock was in a relationship with Uhura and Jim was out of the game. That, of course, broke his heart. ... sigh! And you could say what you wanted about his buddy, but he supposedly didn't ruin a relationship. He didn't interfere there. It was a slap in the face for him when he found out that Spock only saw him as a friend.

Unfortunately, he wasn't a person who suffered quietly from lovesickness either. Not that he was sitting on the couch crying and eating a huge pack of ice cream. God! Leonard would be happy if his buddy had reacted like this, he had let out all emotions at least once.

But this was not the case. Jim didn't hear puffy music and bathed in his pain. No. That wasn't Jim's style. He preferred to walk on thin ice. On mighty thin ice. His method made Leonard's brain hurt enough so that he would go insane.

Perhaps it would have been Leonard's job as a best friend to grab his buddy and take him far away, but that wasn't so easy with Starfleet and Jim wanted to be captain. That was the only reason he was here.

Leonard sighed deeply again. He should probably just get to the point of what happened to Jim and how he coped with heartbreak.

His method: fun.

That sounded silly, but it wasn't nearly as funny as it sounded because Jim could overdo anything. He spent his nights partying wildly, numbing his ears with music, and drowning his sorrows with alcohol. That got him into trouble not just once in a lecture. Because of all the lack of sleep, he just couldn't concentrate and Leonard couldn't concentrate because his thoughts were with his best friend. It wasn't healthy to be a night owl when you had to be active during the day. But Jim didn't listen to logical arguments, instead using his charm to tow as many one-night stands as possible. ... Needless to say, as a doctor Leonard thought it was unhealthy. His buddy literally made it a hunt so he could show off what he had.

Then came the increasingly dangerous hobbies. Highlining, wingsuit flying, base jumping, big wave surfing and free climbing.

Not that Jim hasn't always loved danger, but that was too often too much. It almost tore Leonard's heart and just made him think of all the bones Jim could break. His behavior was just plain insane, but of course he found it funny.

Sometimes Leonard just wished he'd become the Hulk and tossed his buddy against the nearest wall. Then it would be over and he wouldn't have to worry anymore.

He should have been glad Jim fell in love, but as always, he had to overdo that too. Why did Armor's arrow have to be aimed at a Vulcan? Why?!

It was hopeless. Even when Leonard managed to convince Jim that they should camp again, things turned out differently than expected. Jim's other friends were too insensitive to notice his heartbreak and instead came with him to party a lot. Nothing with rest and relaxation in the forest. At that moment, Leonard wanted to toss each of them to the wolves!

All of his attempts to get Jim to talk so he could finally take his feelings seriously have always been foiled by someone or something. It was cursed! Maybe he should just put Jim in a box and send him to Alaska. That idea sounded more promising now than waiting for the ice to melt under Jim's feet and swallow him. His buddy had to let his feelings out. Somehow.

Leonard didn't know how, however. He was beginning to believe that the only thing he could do was wait for his buddy to fall and then just catch him. That would be ugly, but everything else seemed unsuccessful.

Leonard was all the more astonished when Jim came to him one day - after a night full of alcohol and a hangover in the morning - and yet actually asked to go for a walk in the woods. It was weird to be out with someone who had to stop almost every third meter to throw up, but if it helped his roommate, he wasn't going to complain. Even if the doctor wanted to prescribe him bed rest. Still, he said nothing and walked next to him in silence, rubbing his back when he had to throw up and giving him a water bottle when it was over. Leonard felt like a loyal pooch.

After a while, after Jim gradually started to keep his stomach contents, Leonard got them a small snack, since lunchtime was already up and neither of them had eaten anything. Jim didn't vomit again.

When Leonard started wondering if his buddy would even talk to him, Jim started and eventually admitted to himself that he was in love. Spock's new relationship had been like a slap in the face to him because he really believed he would have one with him. It hurt so much just being in the famous friend zone that he just wanted to numb himself. But that only helped to a limited extent. However, he was bad at dealing with such feelings.

Leonard just sat by and listened. Nothing Jim said was new to him, but that wasn't the point. His buddy finally poured his heart out to him and that was a good thing. Maybe that would help them both to calm down.

Besides, Jim was a good person. He would get to know a lot more people and maybe the love of his life too. He was sure of it. However, it worried him much more when Jim revealed after his emotional outburst that he wanted to keep Spock as a friend. He would supposedly learn to deal with the relationship with Uhura.

Leonard thought only one thing, however.

He wasn't serious, right?!

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They were all short stories that I wrote when I had an idea. That's why it's not that coherent and ended like that.
I had fun. I hope some people had fun reading it.
The old Star Trek stories have now been uploaded again. What should I write now? Mmh... good question.
I wish you all a nice day.