"I don't think we should do this." he immobilizes me. One of my long brown hair strand falls onto his chest. He looks up searching into my eyes. Looking for something. Consent? Addiction? Possession?
His pupils are black, it's almost scary. But beautiful brown golden flecks give them their alien beauty.
"Don't you want to?" I ask a bit embarrassed. I can feel my cheeks running red. His face is blank. I am unable to read it. Does he even have emotions? His mask-like face gives no emotion away. But his stare is intimidating. Seconds pass by while I sit on top of him, looking down at him. Not able to move between his two hands firmly gripping me by my upper arm.
"I want to. Yes." he says finally. Hesitantly. He whispered it so low, I almost didn't hear it. His grip is tightening around my arms. It's almost a bit painful. "But this is your first time, am I right?" he doesn't really ask. He knows.
"So? I want this." I lean down to touch his lips with mine. Claiming him. In this moment I feel power, absolute mindblowing power. It's almost maddening. I am possessed and no one can stop me. Not even Ryo. I barely notice that objects around me start to tremble, I hear glass break. The bed is squeeking loudly. But I don't care. Ryo is mine. Only mine. I almost want to sit straight up and laugh. I claw my nails into his flesh, pleasure ripples through me when I hear him moan. He lets me do what I want. And what I want is to touch him. Everywhere. Feel every muscle in his body. My hand wanders from his biceps all the way to his sixpack, and finally I wrap my hand around his thick shaft. It's a strange feeling to hold it, but I like it. It feels powerful. Ryo has his eyes closed, his breath is heavy. His chest rising and falling rhythmically. I follow that rhythm while moving my hand up and down. My mouth finds his mouth again. Kissing him almost desperately. Is this what love is? Or is it obsession? I don't want this moment to ever stop. Having him so close, his body between my legs is intoxicating. I can't get enough and I don't want it to stop. I feel in the now like I have never felt before. Nothing else matters. The outside world has all but disappeared. There is only Ryo and me and his hard erection, that I am fully exploring with my hand. But now what? What happens next? I feel the desire building between my legs, but am clueless to how to proceed. I look at his milky skin, the blue veins are well defined on his arms. He rises, steadying me ontop of him. One hand holding me firmly while the other starts exploring me. Right between my legs.
"How does it feel?" he whispers into my ear. But I am no longer in the present. I am somewhere else. In another world. A parallel universe filled with infinite pleasure. The movements of his fingers drives me up to unimaginable heights, I loose my balance. But he steadies me while never breaking the rhythmic pleasures his long fingers are giving my body. How he does what he is doing I have no idea. But I can't take it anymore, I feel a tide rising inside of me, a pressure so strong, I can't help but to dig my nails into his shoulder, this time drawing blood. I cry out when I finally find my release. My eyes are closed when my body collapses onto him. I am all sweaty and a hot mess but he gently wraps the sheets around my shoulders and lets me rest on his chest, where I immediately fall asleep.