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What I've Done

Chapter 13

I can hear voices arguing when I wake up, confusion filling me as I realize I'm in my bed. "Oh right…" I think, soon remembering that All Might had offered to give me his quirk before I apparently passed out. My head is spinning again from the memory, dizzied with the knowledge that I could not only possess a quirk but one that was so powerful it nearly killed Master All For One.

Would Tomura want me to accept it though? That's the real question. I'm sure he watches me whenever he can so it's possible he knows about the offer already, but with how infrequently he is able to see me I might not be able to get his guidance before I have to answer All Might.

I'd certainly be able to get into UA if I had such strength and speed, but if Tomura or Master thought I took All Might's quirk because I was considering betraying them—Something I'd NEVER do—then I'd be locked up in my room for the rest of my life and constantly disapproved of. I can't bear the thought of displeasing Tomura.

"Deku? Hey! What's wrong?"

Blinking I realize that there are tears slipping out of the corners of my eyes; I don't even remember starting to cry. Bakugo is beside me in an instant, his gaze filled with worry and a clear desire to help me in some way.

"All Might and I brought you home after you passed out," he explains quickly. "He and your parents are downstairs discussing what he offered to you… Sort of… Your mom lost her shit the moment she saw you unconscious."

I nod numbly, somewhat wishing it hadn't been offered at all. I've been given some leeway while reassimilating, but most of my life has been completely planned and dictated by Tomura... making decisions myself is almost impossible, especially this time since it revolves around All Might and his quirk.

"All Might gave me a quick rundown of this whole power transfer stuff before we got here… you should do it Deku. We could go to the UA hero course and become Pro's together, just like we talked about when we were kids!"

Bakugo's voice grates at my already fried nerves; I shouldn't need a quirk to attend the UA hero course. I roll to my side because I don't want to see his face anymore, but he simply rounds my bed and crouches in front of me to pester me again. "Deku? What's… Talk to me. Please…"

Why is he even here? It's been literally half a year and Inko hasn't let him come near me; you'd think she'd absolutely hold firm to that when I had to be brought home unconscious after somewhat getting captured by a villain who did intend to hurt me all because of Bakugo.

I don't know what to say though, so I just keep staring at him. He's actually much closer to my face than he normally is and with my lamp on it's easy to see the contours; Bakugo is arguably more handsome than Tomura is but having ideal proportions doesn't mean everything.

"Deku, hey…" He calls again, this time reaching out to rub my shoulder to get my wavering attention. I don't have my jacket on and the warmth from his palm makes me shiver slightly; it's so different from Tomura's icy fingers.

"I'm not trying to force you into doing something you don't want to or implying that you need some stupid quirk or whatever…. You're fucking amazing how you are now." Bakugo continues, his voice starting to quiver slightly. "I just… it's… You wanted a quirk so badly when we were kids. The last thing I did before you went missing was call you quirkless and hurt you with my power. I was just trying to be supportive this time… I'm sorry."

"Master said I didn't need a quirk to please him, but it's different out here. Everyone expects everyone to have one." I mumble out loud, voicing the thought that makes me believe taking All Might's power is worth potentially pissing off Tomura. "I just want to do the right thing..."

Katsuki grits his teeth and flinches slightly, though I don't know why. It doesn't particularly matter though because just hearing myself go over the facts makes me remember the unfortunate reality of my weak body… I remember that all men are not equal and that I am one of the ones at the bottom.

"I'll do whatever I can to help you get into UA, Deku… whether you end up taking All Might's quirk or not," Bakugo states with fierce determination rising in his downcast eyes. There's another louder shout from downstairs and the sound of approaching footsteps soon after, causing him to look over his shoulder with annoyance. "But I think convincing your mom is going to be difficult…"

My mind is still reeling from everything that happened earlier in the week. Unsurprisingly, Inko outright refused to even give me the option of accepting All Might's power and then ran both him and Bakugo out of the house.

Truthfully, I'm relieved that I've gotten the opportunity to think things over. I wouldn't have known what to do had I needed to make a decision that night, and honestly, I'm not sure if what I decided on is right... but I think I should seek All Might out and accept even if it goes against Inko's wishes... even if I'm not sure that Tomura won't hate me for doing this.

I try to block out the distress by reminding myself that this may be my only opportunity to truly be strong for him—to be a tool worthy of Tomura's attention. With All Might's power, there would be no one to stand in his or our Master's way anymore; I could even gift the quirk to Tomura once I complete the mission he assigned to me. I'm still not confident that this won't end badly though, so I can't help but feel dread as I neatly sit down at the kitchen table for breakfast, my heart thumping loudly in my ears while I wait to be given permission to speak.

"How'd you sleep, son?" Naomasa asks as he helps Inko set out the plates.

"I want to accept All Might's offer," I reply, bypassing his question so that I don't lose my nerve. "I want to be the next bearer of One For All and I want to go to the UA hero course."

The shattering of glass assaults my senses and I flinch back, completely twisting out of my chair and kneeling before I realize it's just from Inko dropping a dish. It's just a reflexive action at this point... or at least it was up until this moment. Maybe it's because I'm already filled with trepidation or because my 'parents' are looking at me with such horror, but something inside me snaps the moment my knees hit the ground and my heart begins thumping with frenzied anxiety.

"You're safe, Izuku… You're home…" Naomasa soothes, his voice low and calm as if he can sense the growing disquiet I feel.

"Home..." The word loops through my thoughts, leaving me with the conjured image of what terrible punishment I'll receive if Tomura takes my actions as some form of betrayal.

"Am I though?" I whisper, more to myself than him. The moment the question unexpectedly passes my lips my brain splits further and conscious thought seems to leave me. It's like my mouth takes on a life of its own... like someone else is speaking for me. I fade in and out to the point that I'm not even sure what I'm saying anymore, just that the words continue to roll off my tongue, leaving it burning like I swallowed fire.

"I'm a powerless invalid and neither of you can do anything impressive either! How am I going to protect myself if I accidentally come across another villain like I did with Kacchan? What am I supposed to do when my Master's come to take me back? They'll hurt me again! I'm going to be hurt again!"

I don't know when my voice started rising but by the time I finish my rant, I'm full-on shouting. It's all I can do to keep myself from hyperventilating, my temple dotting with sweat as I grip my pants so tightly I lose feeling in my fingers. What's happening to me? I'm not afraid of returning home to Tomura. Tomura loves me! He does... We love each other... I want to go back to him... He wouldn't hurt me unless I did something to deserve it. Tomura is the only person that cares.

The sensation of losing control grows even wilder within me despite my increasingly desperate attempts to calm down. Panic begins scraping the back of my skull, clawing divots in my increasingly muddled mind even as I try to remind myself that Tomura doesn't do anything to me unless it's for my own good.

But then I realize there's nothing but silence surrounding me.

It's so still and quiet when my voice dies out that my skin crawls with memories of being locked in my room at the hideout for punishment. Suddenly I'm there—Cold and alone in my ten-by-ten room with nothing but the sound of my own choked sobs. Fear scalds through my veins as my scars seem to reopen and burn with the sickening stench of decaying flesh; Tomura is punishing me and when he's finished, he'll leave me here to suffer alone.

I drop my head to the table and close my eyes, covering my ears to try and block out the memory of my own agony filled shrieks shattering my eardrums. My body shakes and shudders and tears begin to slip past my eyelids no matter how desperately I squeeze them shut. Why is he doing this to me? What did I do wrong?

"Pl-please! I didn't mean it! I'm a good pet… I'm a good pet… I didn't mean it… I'll be a good pet for you…" I whisper pleadingly, doing my best to appease Tomura so that he'll stop... So that my torment will finally end.

A whimper escapes my throat when two sets of arms latch onto me, dragging me out of my own dreamt hell even though I can't seem to completely return to reality either. I'm stuck in a dissociated state of limbo with nothing to ground me in the moment.

I'm lost...

Naomasa holds me close to him as I shut the door to Izuku's room, likely waiting for me to collapse as I so badly want to. Seeing Izuku fall apart like that… A mother shouldn't ever have to see her child so afraid. "They made him think he was a pet…"

Naomasa pulls me around to face him and then hugs me close, running his hand up and down my back soothingly as I continue to whimper into his chest. I know with his profession he sees some of the worst things that humans are capable of doing to one another, but to know that my baby suffered in such a way is more than I think I can bear sometimes.

"He's strong, Inko." Naomasa coos, leading me back to the living room. "It's going to take time… years even… But Izuku will be okay despite everything he's gone through. Just look at how he rushed in to save—"

"He's a child!" I nearly screech, only quieting my tone so that I don't wake Izuku. "He shouldn't have even considered running into a villain attack like that. What was he thinking! What is he thinking? He can't go to UA and be a hero! They spend every day fighting villains just like the ones that hurt him and—"

"Inko, sweetheart." Naomasa shushes, taking my frantic mood in stride as he always does. "According to bystanders, Izuku took one look at the villain and then started running; there wasn't time for him to think. He saw someone was being hurt and he didn't hesitate to help. That's just the type of person our son is and I believe we should encourage that nature."

"He's been hurt so much already, Naomasa!" I exclaim once more, doing my best to explain my hesitance. "I don't want him to suffer even one more time if I can prevent it! I can't bring myself to support a profession that puts his life in danger!"

"It's not uncommon for survivors of terrible situations to find purpose in preventing others from enduring the same thing and Izuku has always wanted to be a hero, hasn't he? If the dream to protect and help others wasn't broken after nine years of being a prisoner, then I don't think it's going to… especially not if we truly think about the fact that his body may have moved on its own… Being a hero is just who Izuku is."

"B-but…" I cry, my heart squeezing painfully. "He's m-my…I j-just…"

The very thought of losing Izuku makes my chest hurt so badly that I can't move; the fear of never seeing him again keeps me awake every night until exhaustion finally wins. When he was taken, I considered suicide so many times I became numb to the idea. I only didn't go through with it because I told myself I deserved to spend every day suffering to make up for what I'd done… for what I failed to do before he was taken.

Izuku is my whole world and there isn't a single part of me that doesn't want him to have everything he could ever want or hope for. Yet every time he steps out of our front door I think of the years he didn't come back through it. He talks about going to UA to be a hero but all I can see are the scars villains have given him already…. I remember the vibrant, smiling four-year-old child that I'd pick up at the playground years ago and then can't help but compare him to the repressed, damaged young man that stares straight through me now.

"I know, Inko…" Naomasa sighs as he pulls back to cup my face, kissing my forehead before he looks deep in my eyes. "I know you're afraid and you have every right to be, especially after losing him for so long… But at UA he'd be surrounded by the strongest Pro Hero's in the world; no one would dare try to touch him with them around. And with All Might's quirk, if anyone came near him for any reason outside of the school, he'd be able to defend himself without breaking a sweat."

I whimper even though I agree with everything he's said; it's hard to let go of something again after having lost it. Though it takes all of my willpower, I force myself to nod in agreement; if this is truly what Izuku wants, then I'll do whatever it takes to suppress my fear and support him.

"Call All Might… Tell him I've reconsidered and that Izuku wants to meet with him again…"

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Eeek... Izuku had a slight breakdown there and then we get a POV from Inko XD This chapter was depressing, but the next chapter will be a little better I think XD

Thank you to everyone who reads and comments! I absolutely love reading them and I for real get inspiration from you guys... Also, thank you to people who give me WAY more credit than I deserve XD

I honestly had no idea that there was a hero named Serum and that she was Naomasa's sister... LIKE WTF? I came up with that just kind of daydreaming and brainstorming for the story and now I feel like an accidental genius? Maybe Horikoshi and I had some cosmic connection for a minute there!