This is another story Danse x Nora x Arthur, another different from the last one, totally different, however certain elements are used.
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-Did you summon me elder? –ask Paladin Danse knocking on the Elder quarters door
-Yes, come inside please –the door was open, so the paladin open it just to find Maxson with a bottle of whisky and two shot glasses in hand- pick up those chairs over there, lets go to the sniper post to drink something –oh no not again.
Danse loved the man as elder, as a lider and strategist, as supreme commander, as someone who will make the brotherhood expand and triumph every time but he actually never like him as much as a close friend, obviously he had to keep the appearances tho, wouldn't say in his face that he was freacking annoying some times , and every attempt to look pissed off it was like Arthur didn't catch the vibes or something, being called to spend time together was a pain, give this impression of being close was a mistake he is paying until today, now he cant break this pain in the ass friendship.
I mean it wasn't a bad thing to have a close and powerful friend but the truth is he didn't like Arthur that much tho, he wasn't someone exactly enjoyable…
They were good friends in the past its true but with time at least Danse started to find him too damn irritating, now he wanted to avoid him when he is in plan friends.
He picked up the folding white chairs and both walk to the snipers post on the top of the Citadels roofts
-Gentlemen –said Danse meeting the other brotherhood soldiers actually working with the chairs in hand- please go to patrol somewhere else until we are done
Both brotherhood soldiers look at each other with the power armor helmets and the laser rifles in hand.
-Are you sure Paladin? Did you have any gun to defend yourself in case of an attack? Fuckers tend to shoot the Citadels roofts just for fun
-Stay around in case of anything, we just wanna enjoy the breeze tonight –the elder show off the glasses and the whisky bottle, both soldiers take the hint and start walking around, away from them, giving privacy. The paladin place the chairs and when Danse sat the elder give him a glass, In his insides Danse wanna die, he didn't want to be there at all, he breathe out his nose tired without any desire-tired? Sorry if I summoned you after a long day of work
-I may eat too much in the dinning room and feeling heavy –answer Danse to pretend he is…tired.
-I wanted to talk you about something –never just drink something hu? Arthur poured the whisky into his glass and before taking any bullshit he take a quick shot of liquid-How many years since you met Sentinel Nora?
Oh shit lets better not be about
-almost 10 years
-And how many since you are in love with her? –shit not this. He didn't want to talk about this with this man
But maybe 10 years, that was the real answer.
-Im not…-gosh he didn't have the energy or even the setting to have this conversation
-Come on you don't have to lie to me –said the elder with a smile, obviously predicting that he would do that.
Gosh so tiring, he didn't feel like close friends like before to be talking about this personal subjects, the thing is that the elder is a very solitary man with very few close connections and Danse never properly cut his friend relationship with him, a mistake, keeps him on the wrong vibe. For him it was like well yeah we don't hang out often but that doesn't mean we cant chat normally about whats going on right? And for Danse its like please I don't wanna do this anymore its not the same I don't have the confidence you turned to be very awkward to be around lately and I don't actually want to keep being friends with you
But fuck it was the elder, how can he say no? if he is a yes man to his commands were he tells him to put bombs in the mouth of Mierluks queens how can he say no to something so simple like a chat with whisky and the night breeze just the two of them?
-She started as my initiate, I was her commander officer –nononot the rank bullshit, Arthur laughed.
-Yeah, maybe 9 years ago, come on, again, how many in years have you been in love with her?
He could answer he wasn't, that she was like the sister he never had, that he would spill gladly his blood to keep her by his side, that he never look at her in that way because of ranks and abuse of power but…
-Its complicated –he said annoyed, asking for more whisky, Arthur serve him and he drank again, asking for more.
-You have been behind her heels almost since the beginning, when are you going to –when the glass was full he drank again surprising the elder
-Never –this time, Danse took the entire bottle, having him the control now, surprising Arthur- I don't think I will
-But why? –Danse sighted, he didn't really want to talk about this less with him.
-Like I said its complicated –he said pouring more whisky, saw Arthur in the corner of the eye drinking his, and ask for more.
-Its from her side or…? –the elder was served but he wouldn't shut up.
-No –he just said- I do like her, but Im afraid of my feelings
Arthur blinked, confused.
-Come on, I saw you both, I caught together more than once–Danse blushed hard and look at him annoyed –in parties, not my fault you don't hide well, it wasn't my intention I was just walking and then find u…-drank again to hide himself a bit, he wasn't a stalker or anything, it just happened that he was walking around and boom, find them fucking in a dark corner, obviously he got on his back and go out of that place to give them privacy but that situation happen A LOT more than he wished to encounter.
-We were drunk…-he replied low and ashamed
-All the times? –not all the times they have sex they were drunk, more than once they did it conscious and full consensuated even planned because they were horny and really close to each other, didn't have the confidence with anyone's-look im not trying to interfere…
Now Danse smiled bitterly –really?
-Don't be like that –he chuckled.
-There's a lot of things you don't know
-Because I don't know her like you –stated Arthur- that's why I call you
-What do you mean? –Danse blinked
-What if I wanted to step on? –instantly and out of nothing Danse close a hand over his arm, Arthur got a bit nervous but it was more the surprise than anything of course such a thing wont intimidate him.
-Don't –Danse told him, looking at the view of the wastelands in the night, don't wanting to face him at all after doing that.
Arthur stood in silence, breathing, until he answers.
-Then step yourself, finally make your move
-Its not what you are thinking –the elder didn't understand.
-I saw you both together, the way she looks at you, after almost 10 years its going to be reciprocated, don't be afraid
-I already know that –the tighten on the elder arms grew stronger, that's when Arthur decided to put a stop and hold his arm, making the paladin jump in surprise and let his fingers off, taking the arm inside his own legs ashamed for his bad reaction- but its not because of that im afraid.
Arthur raise an eyebrow and asked for more whisky, the paladin serve him- then what?
-Look I love her, she is truly like my sister even we have been together more times than my hands can count, I would give my life for her, I will protect her to the end of the world, I will follow her orders and instructions until I give my last breath and…I love her, I truly do –Danse drank from his shot, then, from the bottle, surprising the elder
-Then why? You have been simping over her ass for the last 10 years –from the commonwealth to DC and more, even more and more cities and places, together- the only reason you are not already married then is because your shrimps are dead then
-That's the thing -he said looking at the man in the eyes- she is crazy, hella crazy
-I don't follow -he said asking for more whisky.
-She is capable? Yes, very. Strong? Of course. Smart? Clearly. Beautiful?
-Gorgeous –interrupted Arthur laughing- sorry
-She is a devil, a demon, a catch –Arthur nooded and Danse served him more –but has her head fucked up
-Come on
-Worst than a raider -the aclaration made the elder wink.
-You are not talking seriously –heck yeah Danse was serious, tense and trembling even.
-You don't know her like I do –the paladin breath out and poured more whisky in his glass- she had done some fucked up things, that's why im afraid of my feelings for her, I shouldn't be…attracted to someone like that, im also afraid of her sometimes
It was really that bad?
-I guess it has something to do with the death of her husband and son –the paladin nodded- but that was almost 9 years ago, I even forgot about that sometimes
-Once you are mother you are a mother forever –Danse drank again, then, copying, the elder drank- your first son its like the first love she says
-Sorry I don't think that's enough reason to keep torturing yourself –no, this chat was torture, it has him unravishing feelings he didn't have any interest to keep in the air, this feelings have to be enclosed deep down on his heart.
-Well I know what I see, and heard, and was obligated to do because she outranks me –he pointed to Arthur with his empty glass- I follow some fucked up orders, effective? Yes? Cruel? Also? Gives result? Don't doubt of it, unmoral? Heck yeah
The elder take out the bottle of his hands and serve both –So, you don't want her? –he said finally
-I love her, but not like this -the elder hummed- I don't think is part of her personality, or her persona, more about circumstances –the man keep his eyes on the dark wastelands as the other talked- she hates the world, the wastelands, the air, the water, the rain, the people, the society, the food, the buildings, the landscapes…everything…so she looks at everything like she was superior. When she talks about her past self she talks about another totally different person
-She knew better –he said frankly.
-Well I cant deal with her hatred just because she loose a baby and a husband and its resentful of the world, its more than I can handle honestly, and im not going to force myself, I know what kind of pitt it is try to change and force somebody into your point of view, its not a business im going to run –okay okay seems like a very well thought and respectable decision, clearly he took a lot of time thinking in that statement for himself, he knew himself and knew what he didn't want for his life- im going to protect her forever, but im not risking my sanity into a relationship I just know its dangerous.
Both stood in silence, looking at the wasteland night.
-And if I want to? –ask Arthur.
-I already warn you –Danse drank- this realization make the last 10 years a torture, I cannot forget this feelings or let them pass, but I will not engage any kind of romantic relationship with someone so unstable.
-Maybe ill give it a shoot –the paladin look at him bad, annoyed, in a side, jealous, that he wanted to take the love is his life out of him but in the other angry that he was being ignored about a really serious warning.
-You don't know what you are getting into if you try -said taking out the shoot of whisky from his hands maybe it was enough for the elder now, that was a bold statement.
-I just know that she is really a good option for me, with her prewar genes –truth is Nora took contraception pills, because she feared to get pregnant, not by Danse exactly but from any motherfucker that by any chance rape her, as the wastelands were a crazy place- her minutemen force, the places she claimed, her fame as an intercontinental hero –he was interrupted by Danse.
-The other elders are pressuring you to have an heir –Maxson rolled his eyes like it was the most obvious thing in the world
-Of course they are pressuring me im 32 they are afraid my milk will dry out and I need to start bearing children's, the more the better
Oh no this was bad. He wanted children's and her…
-Im sure they already have matches for you
-They do, but I know a better match so im curious–something give Danse a sharp pain.
-You don't know her
Ohohoho that upset the man.
-I could try, if you don't want to -Arthur give the other man a defying glance, who grew even more annoyed.
-Im talking serious Arthur she is a problem, she has a lot of problems –the image in his head of both together infuriates him but also he was worried about so much stuff
-Well I cant think on a better match for the elder than a sentinel, and a leader faction –it was true even he can understand it but Nora doesn't work like that.
-Im being very open and honest with you -said the man in serious shock that he was ignoring it- do you really trust your future children to someone crazy?
Truth is Arthur believe it wasn't that bad, he may be exaggerating
-I have to do it anyway, its not exactly my choice –it was true anyway, he was being pressured into finding a partner soon, if it was one of the elders daughter the better but if he finds one by his own no one will say a thing.
-Do you call me to talk because you want me to step up or because you have an interest in her? –Arthur only interest was because she was prewar and a faction leader but it was really little interest nothing else, he didn't even care that much that she was a sentinel, it was a more a thing of power…and she was beautiful yes why not he can see it but nononoon he really call him here to talk because he was curious about when the hell the paladin was going to do something with the chick that breaths out with every step near to her. Even for him it was noticeable her attraction to him, painful to see
-What do you think? –ask the elder trying to take his glass away from the paladins hands, but he didn't let him do it.
-Are you talking seriously? –I mean if the paladin keeps defying him why not, maybe, now he was considering- she isn't blond enough for your tastes
The elder stop in his place and bit his lips with force, more than he wished.
-Son of a bitch
What? He didn't wanna talk in plan friends or what? He is the one who can only tease about his romantic life? fucker
-She is not one of your blond gals –now Arthur rob him the bottle of whisky and pour it into his lips, feeling a pinch of pain on his chest.
-Shut the hell up –oh, now he touch a sensitive subject.
Both stay in silence, until Danse talk again.
-I fear
-To what?
-I don't now, I suppose everyone, Nora is not…normal, is an anxiety, I just fear –but it was selfish not letting her have a romantic life if he is purposely not corresponding to her feelings, he was aware of that. It was painful to knew he wasn't enough for how broken she was even if he desires her so much, he wanted with all his heart be enough but she needs so much more than he cant and honestly is not willing to give. If she was more like the past self she often talks about…he would correspond to her obvious all well know feelings but now…no, he cant never be with someone as sadistic and crazy like her, it make his spine shiver, all that problems will fall over his shoulders, she was a bag of problems.
The only reason she contains enough is because she still tries to win his heart fully, to make him fall on his knees, he wants to surrender and love her back but…she is too much and he can see it.
-I was honestly hoping to make you honest with your feelings for her
-I know what im purposely missing, and im not happy or neither proud of my decision, but im content knowing my limits and capacities
-I understand -he said and fill with the last of the bottle Danse shot- you also give her hopes by staying single for so long –the paladin look at his shot, paying attention to his reflection on the liquid- only letting her fuck you like you were exclusives –it was not the paladin intention, the man heart was conquered by Nora…and the brotherhood, if Nora was out he would be fully married to the brotherhood cause and nothing more, maybe getting laid by random sisters in the brotherhood like before but not with a woman around 24/7 scaring the shit out of every other pussy around
-Bold thing to say about my love life being the creepy stalker –said Danse taking his last shot of whisky, Arthur bit his lip ashamed, he never wanted to see them in the first place, it was an error.
-As elder im pretty much aware of the couples around –he let his back rest on the chair now the liquid was over- the beds are not comfortable to have fun so people sneak into some other places, its normal
-You know Nora its 45 years old right? –said the paladin calling the elders attention, also letting his back relax against the chair now there wasn't more alcohol- may not be the best option for bearing children –his protecting side was interfering, protecting her from Arthur and protecting him from the crazy sentinel
-How old are you? –ask Arthur out of place
-52, give more than half of my life to the brotherhood
-and 10 years to love her –silence, the paladin look to another side- sorry, I just wanted to ask about you two because the tension seemed almost palpable, I was always rooting for you to get together, I didn't know you feel that negative about her.
-I will follow her to the other side when the time comes, just not like her partner
-No matter if it hurts her?
-Even if it hurts her and she doesn't understand why
Maxson wonder if she was really that much a reflag for the paladin to torture himself like that until their last breath.
So…45 hu? Conceiving a pregnancy at that age could be…fun to try…