You are the hole in my head
You are the space in my bed
You are the silence in between
What I thought and what I said

"Why is a girl like you, sitting by yourself" Kol asked her the first time they met. She brushed him off walking away from but every night he walked her home. The first kiss sealed their doom as the kissed in the haven of nature and his former home. Titles were never given but the unspoken commitment hung in the air each time they met.

Bonnie wished the breeze did not remind of her of the angel of pain. He was not a miracle but a curse that had descended on her. No matter how happy she felt when she was with him, she found herself counting down the minutes in the blissful silence when she returned to reality of being the pure girl that people looked for, for being the statue of justice. He treated her like a woman to be held but he reveled in her power. He pushed her harder than anyone to be stronger because he needed that equal, at least she hoped. The attention was addiction that had crawled into her soul. The way he looked at other as if they were ants but his eyes looked at her like she was a queen.

Sometime he looked at her with wide eyes that showed the innocent that it once held. The wind reminded her how he had not felt the chill of the autumn since the Middle Ages. It reminded her of the coldness he showed at the mention of her friend. When it finally revealed her lover who appeared in his suit he wore just for her "I can at least dress classy as I slip into your room" he told her one day in the twilight. He was her obsession that she could not shake, even his flaws became weak arguments in her head.

He acted like a five years old but in the quiet moments when she asked questions he sounded like an old wise man. No one could understand what Bonnie felt in her heart, the conflict of youthfulness that he invoked but the wisdom he gave her made her more aware of the world around her. Every night she tried to punish herself for enjoying her sin. "Will you kill me if they asked you too?" He asked in hush whispers reminding her of the secrets that she has racked up. Tonight was different from every other day. A single tear went down her face as he rubbed her freezing face. The answer was supposed to be same but her lips moved to reveal her heart's desires.

"No, I can't" Bonnie confessed in the cold forest. She looked into his emotionless begging for a reponse to make her feel less like a sacrifice to his love.

"Then I will leave so they will have no temptation, perhaps the South Americas. It has been awhile" He said causally. "Could she see his heart behind his globes?" He asked himself

"Please don't leave me!" Bonnie screamed before she could stop herself. Love had taken her as its puppet. She clutched his jacket squeezing it so hard it burned her knuckles, tonight love had taken hold. One night before the destruction of all extra vampire races, she showed her heart's content.

His dark globes scanned her grief stricken face before turning around to leave again. His face revealed his pain expression to the dark night unable to face her. He cleared his throat and hoped for the words he imagined to grace her lips.

Bonnie fell to the ground as he began to walk away. Her sobs overtook her as the realization of his departure hit her. Nothing she could do would protect him from her friends' plans. All of her strength slipped away from her. No matter what she pulled from her memory invetopry, nothing compared to the encouragement of his word. He spoke of her beauty as if it was fact. In her classes she thought of who would compare to him, who could be as powerful her that she could share her life with.

"What do you want me to say?" She begged as she gripped the soil she was pledge by magic to always protect. The tears fell making the soil dotted underneath her. Her eyes were unable to look at the turned figure.

"You know what I want, you have two days to make your decision" He declared without looking back. A part of his mind wanted to take her into his arms and make her tears disappear yet to be another one of her so called friend disgusted him. She was his queen for the rest of his life but she need to become on first. The pain would help so he spirited away before his heart took over .In an instant he was gone leaving behind a broken girl.

Bonnie gasped as the figure disappeared from her but the thoughts she pushed deep inside of her came to the surface. Elena gave up things for love, maybe one thing wouldn't matter. She got up and walked alone back to her house and planned her escape.

No light, no light in your bright blue eyes
I never knew daylight could be so violent

A revelation in the light of day,
You can choose what stays and what fades away
And I'd do anything to make you stay

~Florence And The Machine-No Light No Light