BPOV

No, I wouldn't be able to face him right now, but I needed to talk to him... I disconnected the video call and made the audio call!

"Hey... What's up?" He said as he answered the call.

He sounded so... cheerful? If this was a few minutes back, it would have made me so mad!

But now I didn't have any right to be mad at him!

I was just a horrible person!

"Hello?" he said.

"Hey..." My voice broke as I said that.

"Isabella?" He said, "Is everything okay?"

No, it was not okay!

"You're scaring me..." he said, "Are you okay?"

"Ummm... Edward had stopped by.." I said.

"Who?" He said, "Oh? Oh..."

How was he going to take it?

Would he be able to understand?

I had no idea... But I needed to tell him everything!

"He said he was filing for the divorce... And he said he went to therapy and got all the required help... I said I was happy he got all the help..." I said.

"I see," he said.

"Then he asked me if I could ever forgive him... And I said I wasn't sure..." I said.

"Hmmm..." he said.

"Then he... I don't know what happened after that... It just happened too quickly... He said something... Then I was in his arms... I struggled to get out of his grip... But I failed... And then I started thinking about all those painful memories... Then I felt he was kissing me... And... And I... I kissed him back..." I broke down as I said that.

"Isabella... Stop!" He said.

He was not going to forgive me, was he?

"Edward... I swear I didn't know how that happened... I swear I stopped... But... I'm... I'm so sorry..." I cried.

"Ssh... Stop... Calm down..." he said, "You don't need to tell me this."

What did he mean by that?

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"You don't owe me any explanation..." he said.

"What do you mean by that?" I said, "I've betrayed you!"

"I said... You don't owe me any explanation..." he repeated, "And no! You haven't betrayed me!"

"So you're saying that I don't owe you an explanation about the fact that I kissed someone else?" I asked, "That I already had my t-shirt off and the bra was already unhooked before I stopped... And I don't owe you an explanation about it?"

"No." he said.

"No?" I said. I suddenly realized I wasn't crying anymore.

"So you mean you don't care about the fact I just kissed someone else? So basically you don't give a damn if I kiss or sleep with anyone else?" I asked.

I wasn't sure what was worse?

The fact that I kissed someone else or the fact that he didn't give a damn about it?

He didn't say anything for some time.

"This wasn't just anybody else..." he said, "This was someone very important from your past... Someone who would have been your husband if things had happened the way they were supposed to... This was someone who had shattered your trust and heart into pieces... And now he can see what he has done..."

He was fucking kidding me right now!

He was trying to justify my horrible actions?

"I don't see what's the problem here..." he said.

Excuse me?

"You don't see any problem here?" I asked.

"No." He said.

"I just kissed someone else and I might have ended up sleeping with him... And you don't see a problem here?" I asked.

"No." he said, "As I said... he wasn't just anybody... He was someone you deeply care about..."

He got to be kidding me right now!

"What about us?" I said.

"What about us?" he repeated.

"What about... whatever we have right now?" I felt my voice breaking again.

"What about that?" he said, "It's nothing important... It had never been..."

Not important?

"We have been fooling around for a while... We never defined our boundaries..." he said, "I can understand why you think you've an obligation towards me... But you don't... We were just looking for a rebound, and that's it..."

Why was he doing this?

Why was he shattering my heart like this?

Did he even realize that?

"Maybe the problem was we let it go for so long... Maybe it's time to end it..." he said.

He wanted to end it?

Just like that?

I felt like I had lost the ability to think...

He said he wanted to end it...

So... It was going to be over?

Just like that?

Did he ever care about me?

Was I always the 'rebound'?

"You should follow your heart..." he said, "Don't ever hold back because of anything... Especially because of something that doesn't even matter..."

Follow my heart?

What if my heart wanted 'something that doesn't even matter'?

"Hmmm..." I said and disconnected the call.

I didn't want him to hear the uncontrollable sobs that followed...