It's been a crazy few weeks. I can't even describe how busy I have been, then I decided I didn't like this chapter and wanted to rewrite it. Hope you like it. Hang in there with me until my schedule lightens up and I get back to posting once a week. Love ya'll!


27 Years ago

"Max, I have to go" Natalie giggles as he continues to kiss her neck and move his hands down to grip her ass and pull him close to her.

"Come on, Nat, stay a little longer" He pouts, tightening his arms around her when she tries to pull away.

"You know my mom wants us to have dinner tonight just us" She practically moans as Max continues his assault with his lips on her neck and hands roaming all over her body.

"I know, I know" Max sighs and finally pulls back, realizing he wasn't going to convince Natalie to stay that evening.

Natalie chuckles at his lip poked out and gives him a kiss.

"I'll see you at breakfast tomorrow, I want to hear from Hana about how her test went, I think I've been more nervous than she is"

"You don't think she'd leave do you?" Max asks.

Natalie shakes her head; she couldn't imagine not seeing her sister every day. There was no way she would leave Dauntless unless she got another aptitude.

"Don't worry, I'm sure everything went great" Max reassures her and then gives her a quick peck on the lips. "Hana is Dauntless, I know that. She and Reggie are probably doing the same thing we are right now."

"You're right, I don't know why I'm worrying" Natalie smiles and shakes her head at her worry.

She leans in and gives Max another kiss.

"I love you" she whispers against his lips.

"Always and Forever," he tells her in return before she leaves their special place next to the chasm.


"You're late Natalie" Connie Wright yells from the kitchen as she tosses flour on the kitchen for dinner.

"You aren't even finished with dinner yet" Natalie argues as she tosses her school back on the couch.

Connie shakes her head with a chuckle. Connie loved her girls, but Natalie was the one that gave her the most grief. She was stubborn just like her father.

"You and Max spend every moment together, you two will survive not eating dinner together tonight"

Natalie sighs as she takes off her boots to set by the door.

"Where's Hana?" Natalie asks, peeking into the kitchen to see what was for dinner.

"In her room, go wash up, it should be much longer for dinner, and tell your sister to come on,"

Natalie makes her way down the hallway. She stops and places a kiss on her fingertips and touches the picture of her father on the bookshelf as she passes by just like she did every day.

She knocks on Hana's door and frowns when she hears what she thinks is crying on the other side.

"Hana?" she calls as she opens the door slowly. She sees her sister curled up on the bed crying into her pillow.

Natalie quickly shuts the door and moves to sit on the end of the bed.

"Hana, what happened… are you okay? "

Hana wipes her face and sits up looking at her sister. Hana looked at her sister and the worry on her face.

"Are you leaving?" Natalie asks now, her voice wobbling.

"I don't know what I should do" Hana whispers.

"What faction did you get?" Natalie moves her hand to grip her sisters hoping to calm her, but she secretly needs to calm herself.

"Dauntless…."

Natalie lets out a breath, but she sees Hana still shaking.

"And Erudite…." Hana adds softly.

Natalie gasps and sees more tears fall from Hana's face.

"How?" Natalie asks after finding her voice.

"I don't know but the Abnegation woman who administered my test told me not to tell anyone my results were inconclusive, she called it being divergent. She put in a manual result of Dauntless for me"

"Are you in danger?" Natalie grabs Hana's hand.

"If I have to keep it a secret, then I guess so…" Hana sniffles. She was so confused and scared. She squeezes Natalie's hand.

"Did you tell Reggie?"

Hana shakes her head no. She and Reggie didn't keep secrets, but she had no idea who she could trust. She hadn't planned on telling her sister, but she felt better now, especially since she and Natalie told each other everything.

"You are going to be fine, I know it"

Hana smiled now; her sister had a way of making her feel like everything was going to be okay.

Natalie wraps her arm around her sister.

"Now I know why you would always have a flashlight under the sheets trying to read when we shared a room" Natalie teases as Hana lays her head on her shoulder.

"Seriously" Hana groans with an eye roll and she can't help but laugh as Natalie chuckles too.

"Girls…. Dinner!" Connie yells down the hall.

Hana sighs. She felt emotionally drained, and she really wanted to just crawl into her bed and go to sleep.

"Coming" Natalie yells back as she gets up to the door.

"Hana, you're Dauntless, I know you are, I don't care what your test says. Everything is going to be fine, Now go wash your face, Mamma's cooked all your favorite food"

Hana nods and gets up wiping her face and then goes to hug her sister.

"I love you sis" she whispers.

"Love you too"

"Natalie Marie! Hana Grace! I didn't cook all this food to eat alone!" Connie yells again.

"Coming!" Hana and Natalie both yell back at the same time and roll their eyes.

They both look at each other and burst into a fit of giggles.


25 Years ago

Natalie bites her lip as she sits on the floor of the train as it rattles along. She had taken her aptitude test earlier and she was unnerved by the results. She had received an Abnegation and Dauntless result. She hadn't said anything to Andrew when they said goodbye. She was already nervous about tomorrow. She still hadn't told her mother and her sister she was leaving.

"You okay Nat?" A voice draws her out of her thoughts. She looks up to see Max standing in front of her.

"I'm fine" She sighs and gets up to move to the other end of the car. It wouldn't be long before they got to Dauntless and had to jump.

Max sighs as he watches her. He never thought she would still be giving him the silent treatment, but he could tell something was on her mind.


"I'm sorry I'm late" Hana calls as she enters her mother's apartment.

"Finally, we can eat, your sister is in her room," Connie tells her oldest daughter.

"Is she in a mood?" Hana asks, taking off her jacket.

"Yes, ever since she and Max broke up, I can't tell what's going on with her"

Hana nods. She hated that she hadn't been able to spend more time with Natalie. After initiation, she decided to train to be a doctor to work in the Dauntless infirmary. It made sense given her shared Dauntless and Erudite aptitude and would allow her to hide better. The training was intense though, she'd barely had time to see Reggie the past six months let alone her sister. Hana and Reggie both couldn't believe that Natalie and Max still were broken up.

Hana knocks on the door, opens it up, and finds Natalie sitting on her bed holding her favorite stuffed animal.

"Hey, what's wrong…Nat…." Hana stops and quickly closes the door, remembering two years prior how Natalie found her in the same position after her aptitude test.

"Did your test…" Hana starts and Natalie nods her head in response.

"Do you think it's genetic or something?" Natalie asks.

"I don't really know…but maybe…"

"Could Mamma and Daddy have been…"

"I don't know…. What did you get?"

"Abnegation and Dauntless" Natalie whispers.

"Wow…" Hana says "Well I can help you; the fear simulation was the hardest place to get detected… "

Hana stops when she sees Natalie continue to look down and hold her bear.

"What else is wrong Nat?"

Natalie gathers all her courage, and she feels her voice crack when she tries to speak.

"Andrew and I…" She stops and wipes a tear.

Hana furrows her eyebrows in confusion as she watches her sister.

"Andrew and I have decided we are going to choose Abnegation together"

Hana gasps and stands up with a look of bewilderment on her face.

"No, Nat what are you doing…"

"It's a chance for us to start over and…"

"Start over, you are going to punish Max and leave just to spite him," Hana tells her angrily. She and Reggie both couldn't believe Natalie and Max still hadn't worked through their issues. Hana knew how stubborn her sister was but never in a million years did she think she would do this.

"This isn't about Max" Natalie snaps putting down her bear and standing up.

"Are you sure about that? Do you even love Andrew? You're going to leave your family and everything you know for what?"

Natalie pinches her nose, she didn't love Andrew, not like she loved Max, but it would come, she just needed to get away and focus on her new life.

"I know you don't understand it, but this is what I want"

"This is going to break Mamma's heart' Hana says with her voice cracking and the truth was it was breaking her heart too.

"I know, I'll still see both of you on Visting Day" Natalie promises.

"Please think about this Nat, you can't undo this" Hana begs and she wraps her arms around her sister.

Natalie sighs as she hugs her sister back, feeling her shake as she sobbed. Things were going to be fine. Maybe finding out she was divergent was a sign that Abnegation was going to be the right faction for her.


Present Day

The rankings come out and Tris is pleased that she's easily made it to the next phase of initiation. Myra makes it by one point, only because she was able to win by beating Al who everyone could tell didn't want to hit her, he never wanted to hit anyone.

Knife throwing goes smoothly for Tris, and she's thankful it was something she and her mother practiced during her training. When the final day of Stage 1 comes Tris is ranked 3rd behind Edward and Will. The only person with not enough points to progress to Stage 2. Tris didn't think she had ever been in a more awkward situation than when Al was sobbing as Amar walked him out with nothing but the small bag of things that belonged to him.

The following day Amar and Tobias are impressed when Tris and Uriah lead their team to victory in capture the flag by devising a plan on where to hide the flag.

Every day Tris and Uriah bond more, and Tris cherishes the fleeting moments she gets to spend with Tobias, her aunt, and her father. She willed herself to be patient, wishing the weeks would move by quicker so she could spend more time with them.

Uriah conveniences Tris and Christina to get tattoos after Stage 1 and it helps Tris feel even more Dauntless as she sits in the tattoo parlor and gets a flame up the side of her rib cage. She's nervous at first, seeing the woman named Tori who she recognized as the one who administered her aptitude test. Tori, however, plays it cool so Tris does the same.


Tris shivered as she woke up, she was scared and disoriented. A voice calls to her and she jumps.

"It's okay," Amar tells her gently.

Watching initiates go through the fear simulations was the hardest part of being an instructor, especially when he saw true horrors in their fears. Just like Four, Amar had a front seat to the abuse Tris experienced in Abnegation and it unsettled him.

"Sorry…I….…. Do I have to do that again?" Tris whispers wiping a tear from her eye. She had been shaken to her core watching Andrew kill Caleb, Natalie, and Max while Marcus held on to Tobias before stabbing him as Andrew started to beat her. She didn't know how she woke herself up, but her heart was still racing as she was unable to shake the sight she had seen.

"You'll practice several times before the final, it will get better" Amar tries to reassure her. She had been fast, the fastest of the day, but he wanted to talk to Four before he said anything to her.

Tris tried to still her shaking hands and Amar tells her she can leave. There was something about the way Amar looked at her that made her nervous. Did he know she was divergent now? She really needed to talk to her mom, but she had no idea how she was going to find a way to talk to her.


Uriah groans as he sits up in the fear simulation chair and rubs his neck. Zeke and Hana had tried to tell him what it was like, but he felt like what he was experiencing was different. He hadn't been prepared for the gut-wrenching fear he felt seeing his mother and brother being blown up in a train accident, the same way his father died.

He'd been nervous when his mother came in from work the day of his aptitude test and found him in his room staring at the ceiling. She could always tell when he was lying, so when he said everything went fine, she could see right through it. He was even more shocked when she guessed that his test was inconclusive. He'd always been close to his mother, especially since he could barely remember his father, but he'd felt so much closer to her knowing that she was divergent too.

Hana had a long talk with him telling him that he had to keep it a secret and how to get through Stages 2 and 3 of Initiation.

"How do you feel?" Amar asks as he watches Uriah wipe his hand across his face.

"It's hard to describe," Uriah says quietly getting up out of the chair.

"I understand, take it easy tonight, it's going to get tougher"

Uriah nodded but he had a feeling that Amar was looking at him a little differently as he went back to look at his computer screen.

Did Amar know? He'd tried to do as his mother instructed when moving through his fears. Was he in danger?


"What's going on?" Tobias asks as Tori locks the door to Amar's apartment. He and Zeke had been working long hours going over footage in the surveillance room the last week looking for anything out of place to help them find anything out of place to see how much Erudite or Factionless had infiltrated Dauntless.

"Today was the first day of fear simulations…" Amar starts.

"How many?" Tobias asks, already knowing where Amar was going with this. He wanted to tell him about everything that was going on, but he was still unsure how he would react.

"Two… and I thought you would want to talk to them," Amar says with a sigh causing Tobias to raise his eyebrows.

"Uriah and Tris…"

"I told Uriah to leave, I made sure I put in an Abnegation result for Tris, I remember her clear as day, I had two others that came up as divergent this year," Tori huffs as she crosses her arms.

"There are things happening in the city, they aren't any safer outside of Dauntless…" Tobias sighs shaking his head.

"What?" Tori asks and Amar narrows his eyes.

"Look I can't say much right now but this is bigger and more complicated than you know, and I will tell you more when I can," Tobias says.

Tori shakes her head.

"I'm going to help stop this but just trust me for right now"

Tori looks at Amar and he nods his head. He trusted Four. Whatever was happening, he hoped they could save Tris and Uriah since he couldn't save George.


Tobias knocks on Max's door wiping his hands. He was nervous but he needed to do this now. As the weeks went on and he worked closely with Max, figuring out a plan against Erudite, he'd come to get to know him and trust him. He admired Max's relationship with Zeke and Uriah, he could tell he was a good man that was trying to balance everything coming at him.

"Four, what can I do for you?" Max asks, looking at his watch. Four and Zeke weren't supposed to meet him for another hour.

"I needed to talk to you" Tobias tells him as Max lets him pass and closes the door. "It's about Tris"

Max feels his heart race. "Is she okay?"

"Yes, it's just, well, you know we started fear simulations this week and Amar knows she's divergent, and so is Uriah"

"Damn it" Max curses and walks to sit down in the chair opposite from where Tobias was standing"

"You knew?" Tobias asks, noticing Max didn't seem shocked.

"Yes, about Tris, Natalie told me, I had a feeling about Uriah, but I wasn't sure" Hana had never confided in him about being divergent but as he and Natalie had a conversation and deduced either Zeke or Uriah could be as well. Max watched Uriah and had a feeling.

"I think it's best if we help them hide it. I don't think our system has been hacked but I want her to be careful"

"And you are certain we can trust Amar?" Max asks. Considering that Max gave up George to Erudite, he wasn't willing to gamble with his daughter's life.

"Yes, he helped me hide, he told me about Tris and Uriah so we can protect them"

Max raises his eyebrows in surprise and Tobias rubs the back of his neck. Max didn't press him, but he hadn't suspected that Four was divergent. He had hidden it well. He'd been raised to think divergent was a terrible thing, to fear and distrust them, but now he found that the people he loved and trusted most in the world were all divergent.

"And you can coach Tris through this?"

"Yes, Amar and I can without a doubt. Uriah's clearly been coached by someone who's been through a fear landscape"

"Thank you for protecting my daughter and my nephew," Max tells Four.

Max fixes them both a drink and Tobias tells him about what it was like in the fear simulation and how he was going to coach Tris while they had some time before Zeke arrived. It felt good to not have to hide all the time. If they could win the war coming with Erudite, he didn't want anyone to have to hide being divergent ever again.


"Come to get another tattoo?" Tori asks Zeke as she walks from the supply room of the tattoo parlor.

"Yeah, I like the work you started on Four, I think I need a statement piece, fill up this arm" Zeke pulls off his shirt and displays his right arm which had the Dauntless symbol and three interconnected circles that symbolized bond he, Hana, and Uriah had.

"And you don't have anything specific in mind?" Tori asks pulling up her stool and cart.

"I trust you," Zeke says quietly locking eyes with her.

It's an intense moment and Tori clears her throat and spins in her chair to grab her sketch pad to break the moment.

Tori sketches out a skull with flames in the eyes and crown on the head and a rose in his mouth. Zeke leans over her, and she works and watches carefully. She really did have a talent for design work.

"How do you feel about something like this for the first one, if you want the lower half done, we can come up with some more ideas that will flow with what you already have"

"I like it, maybe we can talk about it over dinner one night this week"

"Dinner?" Tori squeaks, taken aback by his question.

"Yeah, Dinner, you do eat dinner, don't you?" Zeke grins at her surprise.

"Zeke, what is this?" Tori asks to put her sketchbook down and look him in the eye.

"I'm asking you out," Zeke tells her with confidence. That amount of confidence annoyed Tori but at the same time intrigued her. It was the confidence men like Zeke who were charming and good-looking had that she knew would have women falling all over themselves.

"Is this a game of dare? Or do you, Four, and Uriah have some kind of bet going on to see how many women you can get to go out with you or some bullshit like that?"

"Not bet I promise, I... Umm, I think you're different and interesting…" Zeke tells her feeling his cheeks heat up a little.

Tori pauses for a moment noticing he seemed to all of a sudden get a little shy and shakes her head with a smile. Damn, he was too cute for his own good.

"Aren't there plenty of girls your age to ask out" Tori challenges. When was the last time she had been on a date? She honestly couldn't remember. Zeke was handsome and charismatic, and he clearly had a body that was sinful to think about, but he was too young for her.

"Yeah, but maybe, I want to ask you out." Zeke challenges.

"Just think about it. I'll be back Thursday so we can start on that design" He flashes her a smile and gets up to make his way to meet Four and Max.