On the sixth day of school, I no longer felt physically ill when I saw the school building. I was able to look at the building and even the classrooms without feeling sadness any longer. Instead, I looked at them numbly, feeling no emotion at all. It was worse than feeling sad, this numbness. It was completely encompassing, as if it has swallowed me whole. The same numbness enveloped me at home. I went from feeling depressed to feeling literally nothing at all. Charlie could see it in my eyes too I thought, that lack of emotion. That lack of life.