THANKS EVERYONE FOR THE FOLLOWS AND LIKES! GLAD YOU'RE LIKING MY "WHAT IF"S.
*POV BELLA*
The week goes by quickly, it's honestly almost back to normal. The way it was before her note. Well, without Jasper glaring at me every 20 minutes. Alice walked with me to every class and I ate lunch with the Cullens. Occasionally Jess and Angela would join us. Evenings after Res duties were spent either at my house or at hers. Mainly because Esme would want to make dinner for me and Charlie. And Alice would sneak in my room at night, making breakfast for Charlie and me in the morning. She's been trying hard to make up for everything. And while I'm enjoying every second with her, my heart can't blame her. Her loyalty just made me love her even more. All week, I waited for the question I knew was in the back of her mind. Surprisingly Eddie and Rosalie beat her to the point, but I asked them both to drop it. By Wednesday I thought she might have decided not to ask. But on Thursday night, she broke and asked while I was studying and she laid lazily on my bed.
Alice: hey wolfie?
Bella: yes pixie?
Alice: soo… the other day, Jess mentioned a girl.
Bella: I'm 100% sure you know the name Alice.
Alice: Lauren… she mentioned a girl name Lauren. And how she broke your heart really bad….
Bella: yeah…
Alice: want to talk about it?
Bella: no not really. I actually don't talk about it. Anyways, any word from Jasper?
I don't really care to know, I just wanted to change the subject quickly. I see the look on her face and instantly regret it. But anything to not talk about Lauren. She says there hasn't been much communication, but she knows he's still with his friend Peter. I don't say anything just nod my head. The longer he's away the better for me. My wolf grins at the information. I want to ask if she misses him but at the same time afraid of the answer. I turn back to my book and she goes back to playing with the maze toy I have. Eventually the silence gets to her and she ask if she can play some music. I questionably look at her because I know what that means. Taylor. But it's hard not to give her what she wants especially when she pouts. So, I just wave my hand at my wireless speaker. Watching her happily skip over to turn it on. For the next hour, I watch her sing and dance to "Blank Space", "Bad Blood", "The Man", "22" and I don't know how many others.
Friday morning, I wake up alone in my bed, slightly sad thinking Alice left during the night. But my mood lifts when I smell the bacon coming from downstairs. I lift my head out of my pillow and can hear Alice and Charlie laughing downstairs. I listen for another second before I hear the story Charlie is telling her, when I hear him get up to get the photo album. I jet down the stairs to stop him before he shows her the picture of me taking off my diaper, ass out to get into the ocean. I make it right in time to grab the photo album from him and jet back up the stairs to hide it. Hearing them laughing after me, I hop in the shower to get ready. While I love every night with her, mainly because the nightmares are non-existing. Mornings are harder. Literally harder. I wake up every morning with a hard on. Luckily, she doesn't sleep under the cover or cuddles with me. And she's always downstairs with Charlie in the morning. I don't dare to take care of it in the shower while she's downstairs, so it's been cold showers all week. Bonus is after my showers, I come out to my outfit already laid out for me. I walk back downstairs while buttoning up the dress shirt she picked out for me.
Bella: when did I get this shirt?
Alice: ummmm…
Bella: Alice?
Alice: well, you know how I can't sleep but you can. I decided to do a little online shopping the other night and I saw some cute shirts. So, I got them!
Bella: you know you don't have to buy me clothes.
Alice: I know but I want to. Besides I buy clothes for all my family so don't feel special or anything. You all don't have a fashion sense.
Bella: gee thanks lol. So, you running home to get ready or can I give you a ride?
Alice: I'll run home, besides you have to pick up Jess.
There's a tone to her answer but I don't ask. If she wants to tell me, she would. There are times when we fall in so well together that I think we're making progress but then she reminds me of how happy she is to have her best friend back. She gives me a kiss on my cheek and is out the door quicker than I can say bye. I take a deep breath, taking in her linger scent, before getting my jacket and book bag. The house is starting to have a permeant Alice scent which makes my wolf happy. I head out the door and race over to Jess'.
Jess: hey good looking!
Bella: someone's in a good mood… sleep well?
Jess: I actually did. What about you?
Bella: I've been sleeping better.
Jess: I bet. You've been better with Alice. So, are her and Jasper done? He's been gone all week.
Bella: I honestly don't know; we don't talk about it. We talk about everything else.
Jess: soooo should we do a big breakup, so she knows you're available?
Bella: uh, well I think she already does.
Jess: why are you still picking me up and taking me home?! You should be offering her that.
Bella: lol I have. She rather drive her car. Something about it being fast. But Rosalie has offered to fix my car up. So, we'll see after that.
We ride in silence the rest of the way just letting the radio play. When we get to school, I don't see the Cullens' cars, a part of me panics but Jess pulls my attention back to getting to class. Rosalie walks into class 20 minutes late, which is surprising. I raise my eyebrow at her as she comes to sit down and she just whispers "tell you later". I nod my head and focus back on the lesson. She jets out when the bell rings, so I don't even get a chance to ask her. I don't see Alice in the hallway before or after 2nd period. When I get to 3rd, Eddie is stone face. I ask him what's up and he says it's just been a long morning. Before he hesitatingly adds I need to talk to Alice. My heart drops at all the possibilities. The main one being Jasper coming back.
*POV ALICE*
This past week has been great. Yeah, I miss Jasper here and there. But being able to spend time with Bella without worrying about a fight after, is the best thing. We freely talk at school; our evenings are either spent at my house or her house. And my nights are spent next to her. Listening to her say my name and telling me to "stay". It makes my un-beating heart, beat each time. Doesn't help that twice so far, I feel her member harden when she turns to face me and cuddles next to my body. I've come too accustomed to her scent that I can smell her miles away. Only time it bothers me is when she comes back from being with her pack. We don't talk about Jasper and we don't talk about Jess. She still takes her to and from school. And they still text and talk here and there. I've seen her grin many times when texting her. I won't lie, sometimes I think I get jealous. Why exactly, I don't know but I know it's not my place to question their friendship. I did however ask her about Lauren. She shut it down quickly and brought up Jasper so we both changed the subject. She shut down my siblings too so I don't feel so bad.
I was waiting for Bella to get out the shower when I get the vision. Fuck. I text my family letting them know. I also tell them I'll be on my way once I say bye to Bella. I hear her getting dress and the slight sigh when she notices the clothes on her bed. When she walks into the kitchen, I can't help the big smile I get. She looks damn good and I know I picked out some great outfits. The outfit fits her just right. After telling her I'll see her at school, I jet out and run home as quick as I can. Hoping I make it on time. I quickly jump in my window and shower before rushing downstairs. My family is already waiting and I see the tension rolling off of them. We heard him running from a couple of miles away. He jumps over the patio and through the living room window. I see him take a deep breath and make a face, I'm sure at the linger scent of Bella's from when she was here yesterday. I see Edward's slight nod.
Alice: hello Peter, it's been a while…
Peter: yes, it has Alice. Hope all of you are well. Even though I don't see how, with this reeking scent.
Carlisle: considering you don't live in this house; I don't see why it matters to you. If you plan to be rude to my home, you can just leave Peter.
Peter: I'll respect your home.
Alice: why are you here Peter? Is Jasper ok?
Peter: don't pretend like you care Alice. Given the scent, I know you've ran to the "problem" that causes Jasper's pain.
Emmett, Rose and Edward growl at Peter. He looks at all three of them as if he's deciding who he can take on first.
Rose: his pain? How about Alice's pain after how he treated her? Now he's being a coward and sending an errand boy? Did he tell you he left on his own because he couldn't be man enough and apologize for his behavior?
Esme: Rose…
Rose: No Esme, first Jasper and his bullshit. Now this… they both can go suck….
Peter: I didn't come to start a fight. Whatever happen with Jasper and Alice is between them. I just came to get a couple of Jasper's things.
Alice: he's not coming back?
Peter: not right now. One day, maybe. He's still working through some things. If you'll let me, I just need to get some things from his room and his car.
I don't say anything I just nod. He rushes off and we can hear him packing some things and some of Jasper's clothes. I'm guessing his favorite jackets. When he comes back down, he has 2 of Jasper's suitcases. He walks by the others before coming to a stop next to me.
Peter: he asks that you don't look into his future. Given everything that's happen, I think he has a right to ask that. When he's ready to come back he will. Just know he's ok and he's just processing. Now if you'll excuse me, I'll be going.
Nobody says anything, Rose tosses him Jasper's keys and he turns to walk out the door. I hear the low purr of his car and the dirt road as he zooms off. Edward pulls me into a hug and we just stand there. I hear the others walk off to their rooms.
Alice: he's not coming back and it's my fault.
Edward: Peter said he is. He just needs time. And no, it's not your fault. It's not your fault to want happiness. It's not your fault to want Bella.
I don't reply, I just let him hold me. After a while Rosalie comes down, letting us know we're already late. I detach myself from Edward and slowly walk out to my car. I debate where I should go… I can make it to Peter's by nightfall or school halfway through 1st period or shopping. I'll figure it out once I get there. I speed out the driveway, getting away from Forks. A good drive always helps. I'm get halfway to Port Angeles when I hear my phone alert.
Edward: if you decide to go to Peter's please let me come with you. I know you feel you need to do this, but we need you to be safe.
Rosalie: please let Bella know you're leaving. She'll be worried if she doesn't see you.
With Rose's text, I know exactly where I want to be. I turn my car around, racing back to Forks. I can make a quick hunt and get to school right before 3rd period.
Thankfully I'm not a messy eater. I dust myself off and walk back to the school. I make it just in time for the 3rd period bell. I spot Edward and he wraps me into another hug. I squeeze him tight before letting him go and walking into class. By the time class ends, I want to leave again. Walking to the cafeteria, I'm clocking the minutes till school ends. Clocking the exits and what will the others say if I leave. Before I can walk out the door, someone grabs my arm and I feel the tingles that touch always gives.
Bella: Hey, Eddie said…. Come on let's go.
She walks me out to her car and opens the door for me to get in.
Alice: Bella…
Bella: you trust me, right?
I just nod and get in her car.
