April 18th, 2000
Dear diary,
Can we ever hold ourselves to the morals set by society due to times of desperation? Today, I stole some bottled water and a bag of bread because I ran out of money. I know I had no choice, but I feel like a terrible person.
I hope this doesn't become an everyday thing, but things are not looking too good. I have no cash left at all, and I almost got seen by Helen today when I was walking from the library. So far, there hasn't been any signs of them looking for me. I don't know if I should feel relieved or upset. On one hand, that means my face won't plasted everywhere with "Missing" posters, but on the other, it means they didn't even care to look for me.
I've never felt so free, but also so caged. I can go wherever I want now, but I also can't, in fear of the authorities coming after me and dragging me back. I guess I'll stick close to my hideout. Apparently some bears got out from a nearby zoo. Is this how the animals feel when they escape? Free, but also unable to truly live because they were dependent on the humans that fed them each day? I wonder if life is truly worth it if you're caged, but all you ever wanted to do was fly.
-Annabeth Chase
"At one and the same time, therefore, society is everything and society is nothing. Society is the most powerful concoction in the world and society has no existence whatsoever." -Virginia Woolf
