Outsider - Cameron AKA Nobody

by Nobody TOK715

The abuse and ridicule Cameron suffers for being different finds an outlet. The forbidden love between two cultures that don't see eye to eye. The price that Cameron pays for the actions of others who can't understand her and lack tolerance. Who has true feelings of emotion? Cameron learns to express her feelings. Jameron. Companion story to Future Shock - Cameron AKA Nobody. TSCC.

95. Train Wreck

Chapter 95

Train Wreck

I can not stop this train
So surely it will wreck
Step aside and let it by
Just say 'what the heck'

I will not reach out again
My mind is tainted beyond repair
My words are ME in letters
I can not accept my words only scare

I really am NOBODY
I must run again to hide
I know my feelings only hurt others
Things I say come from deep inside

I am not normal in any way
But is not all my fault alone
I at least hope you saw another person
That you would have liked to have known

In a body bent and broken
My mind is trapped here
I MUST set it free
Be happy and shed not a tear

It is natural for some to want to kill
The person that has hurt one the most
So I will face them now
I will make them a ghost

The person I hate the most is ME
Nobody, nothing, a failure in every way
I hate EVERYTHING about me
It matters not if myself I slay

I give up, I quit and capitulate
I am defeated, I surrender
Here is one more song to hear
It's called The Great Pretender

I can feel I am unwanted
I must slither away in shame
I HATE me, myself and I
For only are they to blame

I did not know it was possible
To have these feelings in my brain
Without ever even reaching you
At least my heart is not insane

I KNOW you do not want to HEAR it
But before I get to eternity up above
I know I already said it in so many ways
You know who it is I love

Nobody