Chapter 119
Painful Reflections
Seeing and hearing
Yet so deaf and blind
Expressing my shortcomings
Painful reflections of my mind
The devastation of rejection
The endless agony of defeat
Are my own painful reflections
Not yours, you are so sweet
Painful reflections wherever I look
Have blinded my shaky sight
As my perpetual failure radiates
It causes anger, fear and fright
The scathing mirror of life
Ruminates painful reflections
Sending hurtful wounding signals
Which have no coherent corrections
My warped twisted mind exploding
In many conflicting damaging directions
Will forever be "not good enough"
Torment always with painful reflections
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