A/N: This has been stuck in my head since I have been rewriting an old story of mine so I thought would give it a go, it will have lemons but do not hate me when you read it because I never wrote a Lemony anything ever so bear with me, I hope you enjoy! Leave a review please they are appreciated.

This story starts in Eclipse the night before the newborn battle, parts that was Stephanie Meyers writing will be bold and italicized and when the werewolves are talking through the pack mind it will be italic.

Disclaimer: Any words, characters, phrases, or locations written by Stephanie Meyers is solely hers and I do not claim any of it

Disclaimer: Punctuation is my enemy, but I am working on it!

Bella POV

THE WIND SHOOK THE TENT AGAIN, AND I SHOOK WITH IT.

The temperature was dropping. I could feel it through the down bag, through my jacket. I was fully.

dressed, my hiking boots still laced into place. It didn't make any difference. How could it be so cold?

How could it keep getting colder? It had to bottom out sometime, didn't it?

"W-w-w-w-w-what t-t-t-t-time is it?" I forced the words through my rattling teeth.

"Two," Edward answered.

Edward sat as far from me as possible in the cramped space, afraid to even breathe on me when I was.

already so cold. It was too dark to see his face, but his voice was wild with worry, indecision, and

frustration.

"Maybe . . ."

"No, I'm f-f-f-f-f-fine, r-r-r-really. I don't w-w-w-want to g-go outside."

He'd tried to talk me into making a run for it a dozen times already, but I was terrified of leaving my

shelter. If it was this cold here, protected from the raging wind, I could imagine how bad it would be if.

We were running through it.

And it would waste all our efforts this afternoon. Would we have enough time to reset ourselves when?

The storm was over. What if it didn't end? It made no sense to move now. I could shiver my way through.

one night.

I was worried that the trail I had laid would be lost, but he promised that it would still be plain to the

coming monsters.

"What can I do?" he almost begged.

I just shook my head.

Out in the snow, Jacob whined unhappily.

"G-g-g-get out of h-h-h-ere," I ordered, again.

"He's just worried about you," Edward translated. "He's fine. His body is equipped to deal with this."

"H-h-h-h-h-h." I wanted to say that he should still leave, but I couldn't get it past my teeth. I nearly bit

my tongue off trying. At least Jacob did seem to be well equipped for the snow, better even than the

others in his pack with his thicker, longer, shaggy russet fur. I wondered why that was.

Jacob whimpered, a high-pitched, grating sound of complaint.

"What do you want me to do?" Edward growled, too anxious to bother with politeness anymore. "Carry

her through that? I don't see you making yourself useful. Why don't you fetch a space heater or

something?"

"I'm ok-k-k-k-k-k-kay," I protested. Judging from Edward's groan and the muted growl outside the

tent, I hadn't convinced anyone. The wind rocked the tent roughly, and I shuddered in harmony with it.

A sudden howl ripped through the roar of the wind, and I covered my ears against the noise. Edward

scowled.

"That was hardly necessary," he muttered. "And that's the worst idea I've ever heard," he called more.

loudly.

"Better than anything you've come up with," Jacob answered, his human voice startling me. "Go fetch a

space heater," he grumbled. "I'm not a St. Bernard."

I heard the zipper around the tent door pulling swiftly down.

Jacob slid through the smallest opening he could manage, while the arctic air flowed in around him, a few

flecks of snow falling to the floor of the tent. I shivered so hard it was a convulsion.

"I don't like this," Edward hissed as Jake zipped the tent door shut. "Just give her the coat and get out."

My eyes were adjusted enough to see shapes — Jacob was carrying the parka that had been hanging on.

a tree next to the tent.

I tried to ask what they were talking about, but all that came out of my mouth was, "W-w-w-w-w-w,"

as the shivering made me stutter uncontrollably.

"The parka's for tomorrow — she's too cold to warm it up by herself. It's frozen." He dropped it by

the door. "You said she needed a space heater, and here I am." Jacob held his arms as wide as the tent.

allowed. As usual, when he'd been running around as a wolf, he'd only thrown on the bare essentials —

just a pair of sweats, no shirt, no shoes.

"J-J-J-J-J-Jake, you'll f-f-f-free-z-z-ze," I tried to complain.

"Not me," he said cheerfully. "I run at a toasty one-oh-eight point nine these days. I'll have you sweating.

in no time."

Edward snarled, but Jacob didn't even look at him. Instead, he crawled to my side and started unzipping.

my sleeping bags.

Edward's hand was suddenly hard on his shoulder, restraining, snow white against the dark skin.

Jacob's jaw clenched, his nostrils flaring, his body recoiling from the cold touch. The long muscles in his

arms flexed automatically.

"Get your hand off of me," he growled through his teeth.

"Keep your hands off of her," Edward answered blackly.

"D-d-d-don't f-f-f-f-fight," I pleaded. Another tremor rocked through me. It felt like my teeth were.

going to shatter, they were slamming together so hard.

"I'm sure she'll thank you for this when her toes turn black and drop off," Jacob snapped.

Edward hesitated, then his hand fell away, and he slid back to his position in the corner.

His voice was flat and frightening. "Watch yourself."

Jacob chuckled.

"Scoot over, Bella," he said, zipping the sleeping bag open farther.

I stared at him in outrage. No wonder Edward was reacting this way.

"N-n-n-n-n," I tried to protest.

"Don't be stupid," he said, exasperated. "Don't you like having ten toes?"

He crammed his body into the nonexistent space, forcing the zipper up behind himself. And then I couldn't object — I didn't want too anymore. He was so warm. His arms were constricted around.

me, holding me snugly against his bare chest. The heat was irresistible, like air after being underwater for

too long. He cringed when I pressed my icy fingers eagerly against his skin.

"Jeez, you're freezing, Bella," he complained.

"S-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-sorry," I stuttered.

"Try to relax," he suggested as another shiver rippled through me violently. "You'll be warm in a minute.

Of course, you'd warm up faster if you took your clothes off."

Edward growled sharply.

"That's just a simple fact," Jacob defended himself. "Survival one-oh-one."

I looked at him inquisitively wondering if he was serious, but after my slight hesitation I decided to trust my best friend wiggling against him trying to remove my boots and pants without opening the sleeping bag. As my bare skin made contact with Jacob's it felt like I was sunbathing in Florida, it felt like home, I decided to take a quick glance at Edward who now had a scowl "please" Edward hissed "control your filthy thoughts."

"Stay out of my head" Jake retorted I lightly slapped Jakes chest in protests to whatever he was thinking but couldn't find the will to pull away his woodsy musk with a hint of sandalwood was enjoyable and my shivering had slowed allowing me to relax slightly.

Edward got abruptly "I will be back my love… I am going to check on the everyone and see if Alice has any updates" he stated before quickly leaving the tent "Jake" I said looking at him "why are you teasing him, this is a difficult situation for all of us."

"he shouldn't be reading my thoughts they're private and not meant for bloodsuckers to intrude upon " he stated as he rested his cheek on my head we sat there in silence for a moment him in deep thought again and me examining him, he really was beautiful his skin was smooth, with no imperfections in sight, the grooves of his perfectly sculpted muscles were mesmerizing and I couldn't help but start to let my own thoughts wonder, my thoughts flooded with curiosity about one part of Jacob I never laid my eyes on, I felt myself slightly beginning to get turned on but quickly waved those thoughts away.

Jacobs light snoring filled the air as I couldn't help but think about the events that were going to take place, and who I might potentially loose, I was snapped out of my train of thought by Jacob's manhood poking me through his sweats I immediately began to blush, but my intrusive thoughts won and I decided to take a peek, I just had to see all of him. I wiggled one of my hands between us slightly pulling at his sweats revealing the head of his manhood he shuffled slightly and continued his slumber, there it was, and I couldn't believe it because it was perfect too bell-shaped head that was smooth and russet just like the rest of him, even though I could only see a small portion I could tell he was well endowed.

I felt a pool begin to form between my legs and I wished it didn't I shouldn't be reacting this way especially to my best friend, Jacob shuffled once more this time I looked up and he was looking back at me "Bella if I didn't know any better I'd say you were checking out my merchandise" he smirked

I smacked his chest once more in protest to try and find the right words to say "n-no Jake… I-I wasn't…I-I'm not" I stammered "if you wanted me naked all you had to do was ask, survival 101 remember?" he said as he wiggled, removing his sweats and kicking them to the bottom of the sleeping bag. "Why would you do that?" I was shocked and a little turned on, I felt the familiar pooling between my legs and tried with every fiber of my being to keep at least slight eye contact with him. Not wanting to look down and confirm his accusation.

"Because you wanted me to" he chuckled as he tapped his nose I could have dropped dead here and now I was absolutely mortified, my heart began to beat rapidly I couldn't tell if it was from pure embarrassment or pure arousal "its ok Bells, I wont do anything you don't want me to" he muttered looking down at me as he pulled himself closer pressing into me "I-" before I could say anything else he kissed me it was soft and feverish, my body and mind were in turmoil both putting up a fight to see who would be in control of my next actions.

He pulled my leg across his hip, his pulsating member resting on the thin fabric that separated us, deepening our kiss he slipped his warm hand under my shirt cupping my breast, as his fingers made their way to my nipple rolling it in between them effectively making me whimper "Is this ok?" he said breaking the kiss "y-yes" I stammered this wasn't right but everything felt so surreal, so good I didn't want it to end.

Our lips met once more the kiss was hungrier as if we were fighting for dominance, his tongue swiping across my bottom lip as if he was asking for access and I obliged, He wiggled his hand between us making it's way down to my mound, his fingers delicately playing with the worn elastic band of my underwear "please" I whimpered he took that as an invitation to continue his journey under the offending fabric, finding my swollen pearl rubbing it I quivered as he slipped a finger inside slowly pumping in and out I forgot about the world around us "uh" I moaned "Honey we have to be as quiet as possible" he whispered his lips grazing my ear effectively making me quiver even more "Bella we need to stop before we get too carried away" he said slightly pulling away from me removing his fingers, I instantly gripped him with the leg that was draped over his hips not allowing him to move further away.

"Why?" I said furrowing my eyebrows "because if we keep going, I might not be able to stop" he muttered "then don't" that's all it took for him to plunge his fingers back into me.

"Jacob please I-I need" I whimpered I wanted him inside me, I needed him inside me "what do you need?" he said now gazing into my eyes, his were dark maybe even Black with lust, his fingers never stopped pumping into me which made it hard to form a complete thought "you" I whispered trying to hold onto my composure "Bells…I've actually never had sex" he muttered stopping his motion allowing me to catch my breath

"neither have I…I trust you" I whispered he nodded never breaking our gaze " let me know if I hurt you" he said as he pulled my panties to the side his throbbing member slowly slipping into me, he stilled letting me adjust to his size the heat that radiated off of him soothed the slight discomfort, the sensation of us finally becoming one made my eyes roll to the back of my head, he began thrusting into me slowly rotating his hips "yes" I moaned he pressed his lips to mine trying to muffle my moans.

"you are mine" he grunted out as he pumped into me, the length and level of his arousal brutal, my body began to convulse as my orgasm quaked through my body "Jake" I moaned loudly into his shoulder, in that moment not caring who heard "fuck" he groaned as he thrusted into me a few more times quivering with his own release it was as hot as the rest of his body "I told you I would have you sweating in no time" he smirked.

Too fast for me to comprehend he removed himself from me, fixed my underwear and shirt, slipped his sweats back on and zipped us back up into the sleeping bag before for I could ask him what's wrong Edward unzipped the tent slipping in quickly "Are you alright my love?" Edward questioned his looks filled with concern "yes Edward I am fine" I said scared to make eye contact with him considering I was still high with lust " Alice said she heard you yell and I was afraid something happened" he said somberly " it was a bad dream" I quipped closing my eyes, I felt myself slowly begin to drift off having more questions than answers, who did I want to be with ?

Jacobs POV

When Bella finally fell into a deep sleep, I decided to patrol the area and check in with Sam, making sure I was updated on everything. As the sun moved above the mountains I decided to go check on Bella one last time before the newborn battle when I was in ear shot of the tent I couldn't help overhear Bella and the vamp talking " I can't wait until you decide to marry me and we have all of eternity" Edward murmured "Forever" she said in agreeance, my heart ached as if I was shot through it and I couldn't help but let out a pained howl "Jacob" I heard her say I turned around trying to leave I wanted to be anywhere but there "jake " she yelled following me I phased back so she could say it and deal the final blow.

"Jake please I- "she stammered.

"Just say it" I snipped she already chose hm she just needed to say it.

"You weren't supposed to hear that…" she whispered.

"I'm in a hurry Bella" I said my voice dull, I felt blank, incomplete after everything she was going to tell me she chose him she seemed to slightly wince at my passive tone "I'm sorry I hurt you, Jake. I'm sorry I continuously hurt you and I'm sorry I'm selfish… I wish you would have met and fallen in love with someone better because you deserve better" she said her voice barely louder than a whisper.

"I won't ever hurt you again, I'll leave, and you never have to see me again" she added.

The thought of never seeing her again drove the dagger deeper into my heart, the pain felt as if I might die, she didn't want me, and she never wanted to see me again.

"I have a solution for both of us during the newborn fight I won't let once of the vamps take me out of the picture" I stated. It would solve my problems at least this agonizing pain in my chest and not being able to see someone who made life worth living "jake no, please" she choked out all the color seeming to drain from her face.

"Why do you care? You have and eternity to live with someone else" I said turning around to walk away, I was ready to welcome death anything to relieve this pain "no Jacob please... Please! "She begged.

"You wanted to leave, and you wanted an eternity…so have it without me" I said turning to face her once more "I can't b-because I love you" she sobbed, seeing her in cry made the invisible pain worse, I hated that she had this power over me.

"Not enough… because I'm not him" I sneered I didn't know how much more of this I could take "I love you and I don't want you to get hurt please" she croaked "please…kiss me" her voice now a whisper. I was taken aback by the forwardness "kiss you?" I asked unsure how this conversation took such a turn "kiss me" she stated with to strides I closed the gap between us gently bringing my lips to meet her hungry ones, the pain melted wat and for a moment I felt whole again "please come back alive! I don't want to lose you" she quipped. Was this a turning point for us or did she just want to string me along, hoped more than anything that she is beginning to love me as much as I love her.

A/N: We made it and let me tell you this was one of the hardest things I ever written (speaking about the lemon)