JENNIE
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"Toe socks?" Lisa asks, laughing when I scrunch my nose.
We're lounging on the couch in her living room, going through fads we went through as kids to see if anything stuck with us as adults.
It's hard to believe the weekend is almost over. I feel like I just got here and already it's Sunday morning.
"I don't know how I ever wore those." I snuggle deeper into her side where I've spent most of the weekend.
"Football cards?" I ask.
"I haven't collected them in years, but I still have them all," she admits. "Thought maybe one day I could pass them along to my son."
I suck in a sharp breath, having never heard Lisa mention kids before. I mean, I know it's typically the natural progression of life, but it's not something I've really thought much of.
Well, until now. Now all I can think about is a dark eyed, brown haired little boy toddling around, looking just like Lisa. I'd be lying if I said the thought didn't warm my heart.
"Those sour gummies you used to love so much?" Lisa cuts into my thoughts, pulling me back to the conversation.
"Nope, believe it or not, I grew out of my sour phase."
"No?" She looks at me with wide, playful eyes. "Jennie Kim who used to live on sour gummies doesn't like sour things anymore?"
"What can I say, my taste buds have matured." I giggle when she squeezes my side playfully. "Taco Bell?"
"Still love it," she answers without hesitation.
"Yuck, seriously?" I thought for sure this would be something she would have outgrown. I remember we would go there as kids. It was always Lisa's restaurant of choice, and between her and Michael, they would eat upwards of fifteen soft tacos—sometimes more.
"What can I say; I love my greasy, processed Mexican food. Though, I will say I eat it way less than I used to."
"Clearly." I trail my hand along her stomach. "God, you used to eat that like two or three days a week. So gross."
"There is nothing gross about Taco Bell." She shakes her head and looks down at me in mock horror.
"If you say so..." I roll my eyes.
"What about you? I'm pretty sure you had an unhealthy relationship with those frappe things you used to always drink."
"That is true. I did have a problem." I laugh. "And while yes, I do still indulge in one once in a while, I don't drink them nearly as much as I used to."
"Decided drinking sugar on top of sugar topped with more sugar wasn't that good for you did ya?" she teases.
"Okay, Ms. Taco Bell." I jump when she squeezes the spot right about my knee. It's my weak spot, the only place I'm ticklish.
I scramble off the couch the moment the contact is made. She throws her head back and lets out a full belly laugh. The sound of it dancing around me the most incredible thing in the world. God, how I missed her laugh.
"Still hate being tickled I see." She narrows her eyes to where I'm now standing over by the windows. "Get your ass back over here." She slides onto her back and holds her arms open for me.
I don't hesitate going to her. I denied myself the comfort of her arms far too long to pass up the chance to stay in them as long as I can.
The minute I'm snuggled on top of her—my head on her chest, her hands go to my hair, playing with the strands that have fallen out of my messy bun.
"Hair bands?" she asks, like touching my hair somehow reminded her of my lifelong obsession with eighties hair bands.
"Still love them like I did then." I giggle.
"How did I know that was going to be your answer?" Her laughter vibrates against me.
"Because hair bands are the best bands ever." I laugh, busting out a verse of "I'm the One" by Mr. Big.
She immediately covers her ears as she shifts below me. The next thing I know I'm pinned beneath her, and she starts singing a different song even louder than I'm singing mine, effectively drowning me out.
It isn't until my words give way to laughter that I realize what she's singing. Our song. Well, the song I dubbed our song after sophomore homecoming.
She smiles above me when she sees the realization on my face and then moves closer, her lips almost touching mine as she whispers the words "Forever in my heart, I've finally found the love of a lifetime" before laying a deep, toe-curling kiss to my mouth
I can feel the kiss everywhere. Like electricity it pulses through my veins, and the aftershock still lingers long after she pulls back and smiles down at me.
"That's what I wanted to do the first time I sang that song to you. Better late than never." She shrugs adorably.
"The things you remember blow me away," I admit.
"I told you earlier, I remember it all."
"You know, that's the first and last slow dance we ever shared," I observe out loud.
"Well then, it sounds like something we need to remedy—say maybe at our wedding?" She kisses the tip of my nose.
"Wedding?" I choke out. "Moving a little fast there aren't ya?" I joke.
I know it sounds crazy, but if she asked me, I'd probably marry her tomorrow. I love her that much. I've loved her that much my entire life. I know we've spent six years apart, but it's like no time has passed.
We're still Jen and Lisa, the inseparable best friends who have always shared a connection that ran deeper than what we were able to process as kids. But we're not kids anymore, and I know what I want, I've always known, but now I'm just more sure of it.
"Too soon?" Her perfect mouth is quirked up in a grin, and she looks down at me with mischievous eyes.
"Um, just a little."
"Hmph." She pouts playfully, pushing up to settle back on her knees, finally releasing my hands.
"Come back here." I reach for her, but she stays exactly where she is, looking down at me with her arms now crossed over her chest.
"Not until you agree to marry me." Her dark eyes remain locked on mine, all the playfulness now gone from her voice.
"Shut up and stop playing." I mirror her action, crossing my arms in front of myself even though I'm lying on my back.
"I'm not playing. I've already asked you to marry me and if I remember right, you said yes. So..." she draws out, "...I'm calling no take backs."
"You can't call no take backs on something I agreed to when I was twelve-years-old." I try to fight the smile threatening to take over my face.
"I can and I am," she states matter of fact.
"Why do you want to marry me, anyway?" I ask playfully.
"So you can be mine forever."
"I'm already yours. I'm here aren't I?" I gesture around the room. "Lisa Manoban, you've owned my heart since we were kids. I'll marry you today if that's what it takes to prove to you that as long as you'll have me I'm not going anywhere."
A smile instantly takes over her entire face, and she collapses back down on top of me. Her mouth is on mine before I can say another word, but it vanishes too quickly for my liking. I swear I could kiss this woman all day, every day. It's like her lips were made for mine.
Eyes still closed, I try to pull her head back down to mine, but she doesn't budge. I open my eyes to find her hovering just a couple inches above my face.
"Is it too soon to tell you that I'm crazy about you?" She smiles, rubbing her nose against mine. "I can't get enough of you." Finally I get another taste of her lips, but then she pulls back again and I whine over the loss.
She chuckles.
"You're greedy." She nips my bottom lip with her teeth. "I like this side of you."
"Then stop denying me." I pout.
"Okay," she whispers against my lips before kissing me hard and deep. "I mean, you did agree to marry me after all," she murmurs into my mouth.
She stops talking after that. We both do. I'm immediately lost to the sensation of her—the feeling of her body against mine, the way she groans my name, the way her hands knot in my hair. Every touch, every sound, every kiss is more intense, more passionate, and more terrifying than the last.
I'm scared to let myself fall back in love with Lisa. But the problem is I don't think I ever fell out of love with her. I'm scared that once I open myself completely that's when the other shoe will drop. I would lying if I said I wasn't waiting for it.
Things like this don't happen in real life.
People don't get the fairytale.
Life is messy and complicated and has a way of destroying the things you want the most. I don't know if I could bear losing Lisa now. Now that I've felt her inside me, explored her body, heard her whisper how she's loved me her whole life—I can't ever go back. I can't go back to wondering what if and dreaming what we could have been like.
I now know what we can be like, and it's so much more than I ever dreamed.
"Come on, there's somewhere I want to take you before you leave." Lisa tightens her grip on my hand and veers to the left on the sidewalk, heading in the opposite direction of her apartment.
"Where?" I ask, knowing she needs to get back to work soon.
She took off from work on Monday despite my efforts at insisting she go. We can't just put a pause on life. We have to get back to the real world no matter how much I wish I could just stay locked up in her apartment with her for the rest of my life.
"You'll see." She smiles down at me before turning her attention forward.
She tried to take off work today, too, but I insisted that she go, promising to meet her for lunch before heading home. I have to admit, there's something to be said about the professional side of Lisa. Dressed in a dark suit and blue tie, her brown hair pulled back; she's lucky she was able to get out of the apartment this morning. I was tempted to change my mind and ask her to stay home another day.
But I stood strong, no matter how much I didn't want to. I have a photo shoot first thing in the morning, and I know she has tons of work to do, so I thought it would be for the best if I headed home this afternoon. Of course, that was after she made me swear that I would be back Friday evening, which I happily did.
She didn't bring up the marriage thing again. A part of me thinks she needed to hear me say I was all in. If she's feeling anything like I am, she probably needs all the reassurance I can give her.
It's terrifying to let yourself openly love someone you've loved in secret for over half your life. It's overwhelming, the feelings that swallow you whole. I'm still trying to get a grasp on everything.
"Here we are." Lisa pulls me from my thoughts. I look up to see a tall, sleek building in front of me, Craft Perish etched into the sign above the front doors.
I look from the building to Lisa and then back to the building. It may seem like such an insignificant thing, but to me it's everything. She's bringing me into her world.
"Come on." She tugs my hand, leading me up a set of concrete stairs and through the sliding glass doors that open up as soon as we reach the landing.
The building is incredible, unlike anything I've ever seen before. Tall pillars line the lobby, a reception area on one side and a sitting area complete with a fireplace on the other.
Marble floors stretch across the expansive space, and every single detail is perfection. The lights that hang from the ceiling, the spiral staircases that are out in the open rather than tucked away like most stairwells are.
When Lisa leads me into an elevator that looks like it's made of glass, I can't believe what I'm looking at. It's like something right out of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
"Lisa, this is..." I trail off, turning around to look down at the lobby as we climb to the fifth floor where Lisa's office is located.
"Pretty amazing, huh?" I can feel her standing close behind me, her breath warm on the back of my neck.
Turning in her arms, I hug her middle tightly. I open my mouth to thank her for bringing me here but am silenced with the elevator dings and the doors slide open.
Lisa's floor opens up to large waiting area on both sides, followed by an unmanned reception desk.
She leads me through double wood doors and down to the end of the hall where two offices sit. The first is a small glass office with only a desk sitting directly in the middle of it. The second is behind a large wood door that opens up into an office ten times the size of the first.
"Welcome to my home away from home." Lisa chuckles, leading me inside.
There's a pretty good sized desk next to a large section of windows, a seating area of two chairs directly across from it. It's a pretty standard office that you'd see in any other executive building across the country except for one major thing, the large table on the far wall surrounded by boxes of what looks like building materials.
"Go ahead, check it out." Lisa gestures toward the large model building sitting on top of the table.
Unable to contain my smile, I cross the space with Lisa at my side, stopping directly in front of what looks like a sleek building you might see in a city only on a much, much smaller scale.
"Did you do this?" I run my hand along the edge of the table, taking in the structure—the details and creativity that went into making the unique elements, like the archway entrance and the twisted metal seam that runs through the middle of each window.
"I did. This is the model I just presented last week," she says.
"Lisa, this in incredible. I mean, you've even got ponds in here." I point to where the entrance is flanked with two ponds on each side.
"They need to be able to envision each and every aspect," she explains.
"But I mean, not only did you design the building, but you built this entire model?" I finally look up and instantly meet her eyes.
She nods, a small smile playing on her lips.
"I knew you were talented but wow. I had no idea," I admit.
"I'm glad you like it." She pulls me against her chest, kissing me softly.
I melt into the kiss, showing her what I'm unable to put into words. How thankful I am that she brought me here. How overjoyed I am to be learning about her life—present day. How proud I am of her.
It's all so overwhelming yet incredible at the same time.
I'm so lost in her touch, in the way her lips move against mine that I don't realize we're not alone until I hear a voice speak.
"Ms. Manoban." We instantly break apart, and I turn to see a petite woman standing in the doorway.
She's wearing a black knee-length skirt and cream colored top with a pair of black flats, her dark blonde hair pulled back into a tight up do. I'd guess her close to fifty.
"I'm so sorry to interrupt." She looks at the floor causing Lisa to chuckle lightly.
"It's okay, Charlotte. I was just showing Jennie the new model." Lisa seems completely natural like she didn't just walk in on us devouring each other.
"This is Jennie?" Her face lights up in a grin just moments before her eyes connect with mine. Before I know it she's in front of me and I'm being pulled into a tight squeeze.
"Jennie, this is Charlotte—my assistant," Lisa says, a smile in her voice.
"It's nice to meet you," I say when she finally releases me and steps back.
"You'll have to forgive me; Lisa hasn't stopped talking about you recently. I'm just so excited to meet you finally."
I try to hide what that information does to me, but I'm sure it's written in the smile now taking over my face.
"You talk about me?" I flip my gaze to Lisa who's looking at me with the same, genuine smile reserved only for me.
"I talk about almost everything with Charlotte." She shrugs like it's no big deal. "When you're with someone day in and day out for almost two years, you naturally become close."
"Not to mention I can read her like a book," Charlotte chimes in, winking at me. "I always know when something is going on." She smiles before slipping back into business mode. "Anyway, your two o'clock is here—the contractor for the Bay Bridge development."
"Thanks, Charlotte. Will you let him know I'll be with him shortly?" She nods only once before she quickly backs out of the office, throwing me one last smile before disappearing into the hallway.
"She seems really sweet." I turn back to Lisa who instantly pulls me back into her arms.
"She's become almost like a second mom to me. She's crazy as all get out sometimes, but I adore her just the same." She kisses the top of my head. "I'm not ready to let you go yet," she adds solemnly, tightening her hold on me.
"I feel the same," I admit, nuzzling my face into her suit jacket and inhaling deeply, trying to hold on to her scent.
"Friday is only three days away," she reassures, I think more for her own benefit.
"You've lived without me for a lot longer." The moment I say it I want to take it back.
"You're right,"—she grips my neck and forces my face upward—"but that was when I thought I didn't have a choice." She leans down and kisses me gently.
"I should go," I say, feeling the emotion well in my chest. If I don't leave now, I'm afraid I never will.
"Okay," she whispers, kissing me one last time before stepping back.
"I'll call you later," I say as she leads me toward the door, hand on the small of my back.
"You better," she warns, opening the door to the office before joining me in the hallway. "Come on, I'll walk you out."
"No." I spin, stopping her before she can take another step. "You have work to do, and I can see myself out. Thank you for today. For bringing me here. It means more than I can say."
"For me, too." The look in her eyes tells me she means it.
One more long look at the beautiful woman in front of me and then I'm forced to turn around and leave, my heart choosing to stay behind with her.
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