JENNIE
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Lisa's kiss is fire; electric. Every inch of her touch is like taking a torch to my skin, but the burn isn't painful—it's anything but.
Her hand trails down the side of my neck. Goose bumps erupt across my flesh as her fingers find my hair, twisting around the length before giving it one swift jerk; not hard, but hard enough that my mouth falls open on a small yelp.
And then she's there, swallowing up the sound, making me open up fully to her. I've never felt anything like the way Lisa kisses. She leaves no part of my mouth untouched, no part of my body unfeeling. She winds me up so tightly I feel like when she finally lets go I'm just going to spin out of control.
"You know,"—she pulls back and whispers against my mouth—"we could always skip the store and stay here."
"But I was promised waffles," I tease, wrapping my hands around the back of her head and pulling her back to my lips.
She groans, tightening the grip she has on my hair.
"Fuck waffles." She spins me around, her mouth never leaving mine as she guides me backward.
The back of my legs collide with the side of her bed moments before I tumble onto the mattress, Lisa coming down directly on top of me.
This is not what I planned on happening ten minutes after showing up unannounced at her door. But I guess when you have as many years of pent-up sexual frustration as we do, there's no reason to dance around it.
I want her. I've always wanted her.
Lisa pulls away from my lips, pushing my hair away from my face as she stares down at me. Seconds turn to what feels like minutes, and yet all she does is stare. I shrink a bit under her gaze, feeling suddenly self-conscious.
"What?" I finally ask, feeling like I might explode if she doesn't say something already.
"I'm just taking it all in," she says, tracing my cheek, along my jaw, and then back up to my forehead. "I can't tell you how many times I've imagined this. Even in my dreams you were never this damn beautiful."
Words fail me, but thank God I end up not needing them because with that, her mouth comes back down over mine.
Lisa Manoban. I'm kissing Lisa Manoban. I'm in her bed. In her arms. Oh my God, I have to be dreaming.
My heart beats like a cannon firing inside my chest. My body trembles under her touch. And even though I'm terrified, I've never wanted anything more.
Lisa Manoban, the girl I've loved almost my whole life. I never dreamed she'd kiss me this way, touch me this way, whisper the things she does as she slides my shirt from my body, touching every inch of my skin as it's exposed.
She strips me bare and not just of clothing, of everything. Her eyes roam over my body like she's memorizing every piece and part of me. She kisses my stomach, my collarbone, and the spot behind my ear that always makes me shiver.
And when she finally buries herself deep inside me, I swear to God I see stars. Nothing in this entire world has ever felt more perfect.
I don't know what to do with myself. My hands are everywhere—her back, across her ass, nails digging into her shoulders as she moves against me. I can't get enough and yet it's all too much at the same time.
Then I'm falling, falling like I never have before, giving myself wholly to someone who now knows every single part of me, inside and out.
I've never known passion like this. Love like this. Want and need like this. And when she finally stills inside of me, I want to lock my arms and legs around her and never let her leave.
"Fuck, Jen," she pants, her chest heaving against mine. "That's what I've been missing all these years?" She pushes up on her elbow to look down at me, a slow grin tipping up her lips.
"My thoughts exactly." I smile, pushing her hair away from her face to admire how incredible she looks hovering over me—face red, lips slightly swollen, and completely and utterly satisfied.
"Now I know why no one has ever lived up to you," she says, the small smile on her mouth falling away as she becomes serious for a moment. "Even before I had you I knew—fuck, you were worth the wait." The smile is back, and this time it's turned mischievous. "Let's do it again." She raises her eyebrows up and down.
I laugh beneath her, loving how she can be all woman, walking sex one minute and then the playful girl I remember the next.
She kisses the side of my mouth, the tip of my nose, and each eyelid before landing directly on my lips. She lingers there for a long moment and then pulls back.
"How are you here right now?" She shakes her head like she can't believe what her eyes are seeing.
"I'm wondering the exact same thing about you," I admit.
"I hope you know I'm officially never letting you leave?"
"Never?" I ask playfully.
"Like handcuffing your ass to my bed never letting you leave."
"Is that so?" I lean up and kiss her jaw before whispering, "I think I like the way you think."
She groans in my ear.
"Keep talking like that and you might not see the light of day for a very, very long time." Her lips brush against mine before the kiss deepens, and her weight sinks fully down on top of me.
"I'm right here," I breathe against her lips. "And I think I'm ready to hold you to it."
My words seem to be her undoing. Just like that we slip back into the abyss, neither of us in any rush to resurface anytime soon.
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There are no windows in Lisa's bedroom, so when I wake bathed in total blackness I have no idea if it's morning, noon, or night. All I know is that the bed next to me is empty, and I can smell bacon in the air.
The scent has me sitting up in bed, stretching my deliciously sore limbs as I'm accosted by the memories of last night. The way Lisa moved inside me. The way her body felt flush against mine. The words she whispered and promises she spoke.
It felt like there was never a time that we were absent from each other's lives, the way we slipped so easily into the comfort that we've always found in each other. And while things moved way faster than I expected them to, I don't regret one single second of it.
I can't wipe the smile off my face as I climb out of bed and feel around for the light switch on the wall. I find it rather quickly, considering I paid no attention to where it was when I actually had the chance to look.
The minute the bright light fills the room I have to cover my eyes. They feel like they've been in the dark for days, the thing Lisa said about seeing the light of day sounding in my head.
As my eyes start to adjust, I blink into the room, not surprised to find its current state.
The bed wasn't the only place we visited last night, and the room shows just how much we took advantage of the space. The top of the dresser is cleared, everything Lisa shoved off it scattered across the floor.
Clothes are all over the place, causing me to laugh to myself as I remember how when Lisa left to use the restroom I hid in her closet, and not only did she find me, but she took me right then and there. I guess we pulled a few things down in the midst of our romp.
I locate my panties and bra next to the bed and my jeans and top on different sides of the room. Instead of getting fully dressed, knowing I'll want a shower soon, I slide on my panties and grab the t-shirt Lisa was wearing yesterday, then slide it on. It's big, hitting me about mid-thigh, and is so freaking soft it's no wonder Lisa has kept it all these years.
She confirmed last night that it's the same shirt she had in high school; I knew it looked familiar. Lifting it to my nose, I inhale deeply, completely intoxicated by how much it smells like her.
God, none of this seems real.
When I turn and exit her bedroom, I duck into the bathroom first. Locking myself inside, the first thing I see is my reflection in the mirror. And trust me when I say I look like a hot mess. My hair is wild and looks like it hasn't seen a hairbrush in days. My eyes are lined with traces of smeared mascara. The area around my mouth is red. But more than anything, I look happy. Really happy.
I take a few minutes to freshen up, using some of Lisa's toothpaste to brush my teeth with my finger and splashing my face with water, officially ridding myself of the small trace of makeup that managed to stay on through the night. I do my best to tame my hair with my fingers, but knowing it's going to take a lot more than that to get the knots out, I use the hair tie on my wrist to tie it up in a loose, messy bun.
When I step out into the hall just moments later, I immediately catch sight of Lisa in the kitchen. Her hair is tied back in its usual knot, and she's only wearing sports bra and the gym shorts from yesterday; her perfect body on full display.
I walk slowly toward her, watching as she pulls a finished waffle from the iron and drops it on the plate next to her before filling it with more batter and then snapping it closed. Turning her attention to the stove, she flips the bacon I smelled earlier, humming lightly to herself.
She's so concentrated on the matter at hand that it takes her several seconds before she realizes I'm watching her.
A wide smile crosses her face the moment she spots me.
"Hey," I say, stepping up next to her.
"Hey." She sets down the spatula and turns to face me. "Fuck, you look beautiful first thing in the morning." She leans down and murmurs against my mouth before pressing her lips to mine.
Even after everything that happened last night, I can still feel the heat creep up my neck at how she kisses me. She behaves like it's any other morning, and here I feel like my world is completely upside down, in the best possible way, of course.
"You've seen me first thing in the morning more times than I could ever count," I remind her.
"But never like this," she says. "Never after I've had you in my bed," she whispers into my ear. "I think this is my new favorite look." She pulls back and drags her eyes down my body. "And I love the t-shirt, by the way. Pretty sure it's never looked that fucking good on me."
"You won't mind when I steal it then?" I swat at her ass playfully and then dip underneath her arm to where a plate of fresh bacon sits.
I snatch a piece up and take a bite, smiling when Lisa's arms come down around my stomach from behind and she drops her chin to my shoulder.
"Consider it yours." She kisses the side of my head and then releases me to turn back to the food she's cooking.
"Is there anything I can do to help?" I ask, finishing off my piece of bacon.
I don't mention that I know she cooked the bacon extra crispy just for me. She prefers her bacon just cooked where it's still soft and gooey—yuck. I want to see what else she remembers before I start calling things out.
I love learning all the things she still knows about me and introducing her to the things she doesn't—i.e., what we spent all last night doing.
"Nope. There's juice on the table, and I'm finishing up here. Can you grab the syrup right there"—she points to the bottle on the island—"and I'll meet you over there in a minute."
"Okay." I try to keep my giddiness in check as I grab the syrup and cross the room, sliding into one of the two place settings she has set out on the table.
I can't tear my eyes away from her back as she takes the last waffle out of the iron and unplugs it from the wall, her muscles flexing with each movement. I like to think she was always this sexy, but if I'm being truthful, it's like being with a completely different person, physically anyway.
I can still see parts of the girl I knew, of course.
Her brown hair—though much longer now, is still the same shade.
Her dark eyes—while a bit harder than I remember, still cut right through me, maybe more so now than ever before.
Her smile—the way her dimples make their appearance.
Her laughter—the way she still holds her stomach when she laughs really hard and the sound of it when it fills my ears.
But then there's Lisa of today, the woman she's grown into. And what a woman she is. God, just thinking about some of the things that girl can do behind closed doors has my stomach tightening in anticipation of experiencing it all over again. Maybe if I'm lucky, we'll make use of this beautiful table once breakfast is over.
I blush at the thought. I don't know what's come over me. With Kai it was nice but never something I chased after—craved. But with Lisa, I feel like an animal, wild with desire.
Then again, Lisa's always affected me on a greater level than anyone else ever has. I guess I shouldn't be surprised that this fact carries over most prominently in the sex department. I spent years dreaming about sleeping with her and now that I have, I don't think I'll ever get enough.
"Breakfast is served." Lisa pulls me out of my thoughts, and I look up just in time to see her set a plate full of waffles and a separate plate of bacon on the table in front of me.
Taking the seat across from me, she immediately tangles her legs around mine like she wants to be close to me. The thought sends my heart soaring, and I flash her a wide smile.
"This looks amazing," I say, pouring me a glass of orange juice.
"I promised my lady waffles; waffles she gets," she says, taking the pitcher of O.J. from my hand when I extend it to her.
Did she just say 'my lady'? Can you say swoon much?
"Wait, how did you get all this stuff? I thought you said you didn't have anything here," I ask, remembering we never made it to the store last night. Hell, we didn't even make it out of her bedroom long enough except to get something to drink.
"I got up and went this morning." She smiles, forking a waffle and dropping it on my plate before doing the same for herself.
"Seriously? Wait, what time is it?" I look around, noticing the clock on the stove says it's nearly one o'clock.
"Is it really almost one?" I ask in disbelief. I haven't slept this late since I was a teenager.
"You were so peaceful this morning I couldn't bear to wake you. Besides, considering I kept you awake until after the sun was up, I thought you could use the rest."
"What time did you wake up?"
"Just after ten. My body has an internal alarm clock. I swear it doesn't matter how late I stay up, I never sleep past ten or ten thirty."
"Woman Lisa," I say to myself and I guess a little too loudly because Lisa stops with the fork halfway to her mouth and cocks her head to the side.
"What did you say?" She eyes me playfully.
"I have this running tally in my head," I explain, pouring syrup on my waffle. "Of what I remember from when we were kids and the things that are new. Girl Lisa and Woman Lisa." I laugh. "Sorry, it sounds way better in my head."
"No, I like it. Tell me more."
"You'll have to wait until I've collected more data; then I can give you a side by side comparison of how much you have or haven't changed in the past six years." I cut my waffle and stuff a bite in my mouth, practically moaning when it hits my tongue.
Lisa's eyes instantly lock mine. "Moan like that again and that will be all you get." She gestures to the waffles in front of me.
"What, why?" I ask after I've chewed and swallowed my bite, her eyes not leaving mine the entire time.
"Because I'm going to push all this shit on the floor and take you right across this table," she warns, complete seriousness lacing her words.
My god where did this woman come from?
Obviously, I've never been with her on this level, but I find it hard to imagine Lisa as a teenager saying something to a girl like she just said to me.
I'd be lying if I said a part of me didn't wish she'd do just that, but then the other part of me, the hungry part, really wants to finish eating first.
"I'm sorry, but if you're gonna make waffles that taste this good, I'm going to moan. I mean, have you tasted these?" I ask, taking another big bite, careful not to moan out loud this time.
"You didn't moan the first time I made you waffles," she says, one side of her mouth quirked up in a grin.
"Would you have noticed if I had?" I challenge.
"Fuck yes, I would have. I'd never forget a Jennie Kim moan. You were all I thought about for years."
"What?" I'm confused by her comment, and I do a shit job at hiding it.
"Don't look at me like that. You had to have known it. Jesus, the first time I beat off it was to a picture of you in a bathing suit."
Now this gets my attention.
"You're joking." I stuff a piece of bacon in my mouth to keep it from falling open.
Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God!
"Do I look like I'm joking to you? I don't joke about matters like my first orgasm, okay. To me that shit is serious."
I burst out laughing; I don't know what else to do. This girl can't be serious. Yet then again, she looks like she's very, very serious.
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