Chapter One

Kara's POV

Ever since Reign was defeated and The Children of Liberty gained power in the media, I've had nightmares. Some were about fighting The World Killers, losing, and them killing everyone I cared for or The Children of Liberty killing all aliens and everyone who helped aliens. Either way, everybody I loved or cared about ended up dying and there was nothing I could do to stop it.

The only way I could go back to sleep was making a cup of tea and wrapping myself in the blanket Lena had left after a movie night. Sipping the warm liquid, I thought about the last few months. Things are so messed up. Lena and Supergirl are at odds because of kryptonite and she doesn't know the truth. It's been too long. It won't end well when I tell Lena who Kara Danvers really is.

Flipping through Netflix, I put on a comfort show and let it play in the background. Lena still made me the kryptonite armor even after our fight. And she gave Mom the recipe to make more Harun-El. I'm so confused.

Desperately needing sleep, I rinsed my mug and went back to bed. Since the blanket still smelled like Lena's apartment, I brought it to bed with me. Nuzzling my face into it, I inhaled the calming scent.

Waking in my bed, I heard a knock on my door. Rushing to answer it, Brainy stood before me. "Brainy? What are you doing here?"

"You're talking to me. And you know who I am." His brow creased. "Supergirl is-,"

"You can't say that! " Pulling him inside, I closed the door quickly. "It's dangerous to walk around without your image inducer turned on."

"Do we know each other? I am Brainiac 5. A 12th level intellect. The Legionnaires call me Brainy." He walked around my apartment aimlessly looking around.

"Yes, we know each other. Mon-El sent you." Why does this feel so familiar?

"Yes. To make sure your neuro pathways are intact." Brainy picked up a plant and examined it. "Your brain is in remarkable health for someone languishing in a coma."

Oh, Rao. "The coma dream palace thing I was in," I sighed. Not this dream again. "Yes, you think I'm in a coma. I was, but I'm not anymore."

"Did I bury the lead?" His head tilted. "You've been in a coma for two days."

"I know. My subconscious feels most at ease here and so on."

"Yes, you've been in a coma."

No matter what I say, it's still going to play out. Rubbing my face, I went along with it. "I'm in my loft."

"Oh! This is just where your subconscious feels most comfortable. We're not really in your loft."

This can't be happening. "If I'm in a coma, how are you here?" I watched as the man continued to walk around my apartment.

"Mon-El woke me from hyper sleep to communicate with you on behalf of him and your D.E.O. patriates. 31st century technology. It's also what's keeping you alive."

"Alive?"

"Reign defeated you," he spoke curiously. "Don't you remember?"

Flashes of the fight and Alex finding me in the rubble flashed through my mind. Dread filled me. "No. This…Reign is still out there. People are dying. I need to wake up." Rushing to my door, I tried to open it to no avail.

"I don't think you're listening to me." I tried pulling harder but the door wouldn't give. "Could we maybe try relaxing for a bit?"

After finally giving up on the door, I paced the loft. "This is torture," I huffed. Sitting on the couch, I watched as Brainy inspected my kitchen. "What are you looking for?"

"Any sign of decay or damage. In a simulation like this, it can show up in any type of fashion. I want to make sure there's nothing that will harm your reality reentry."

"Reality reentry?" I held a pillow to my chest.

"If you're not properly prepared, you could go into shock. Some people die instantly."

"Wait, does that mean I'm ready to wake up?" Getting to my feet, I tossed the pillow. "Is there anything I need to do?" I made my way towards the door again.

"This is the manifest of your subconscious and that's the only way in or out. Logic says you need to walk through it."

Trying the door again, it wouldn't budge. "It's not opening." I continued to pull. "Why isn't it opening?"

"We drained the tank and you've suffered no ill effects of hibernation." Boiling water, Brainy sipped a cup of tea. I bit my lip realizing he used some of Lena's favorite tea. "Everything is physically fine. There must be a different reason your mind is keeping you here."

"You're saying I'm keeping myself here?" I scoffed. "That doesn't make any sense. I'm the one who wants out of here." I tried punching through the door but was only knocked back.

"Is there a reason your subconscious wants you to stay here? Self preservation perhaps? You were badly beaten." He sipped more tea as he sat on the couch. "Fear can be powerful."

"I am not afraid." I tried using my heat vision until everything around us was destroyed. Frustrated, I started to clean.

"Is there something different about this version of your loft? Something that stands out."

Placing some items on my coffee table, I looked around. My stomach dropped seeing coats, shoes, and other little things that weren't mine. A lot of Lena's things are here. Things that aren't actually in my loft. This is new. The dream has never taken this path before. Turning my gaze to the picture in hand, it was one I took of us. We were cheek to cheek and smiling.

"You've noticed something," Brainy's voice trailed. "Who is this brunette woman?" He picked up a nearby picture I kept on the side table. "Your mate? Mon-El said you were single."

"No. She's…just a friend." My stomach fell. I don't want her to be just a friend.

The man studied me. "You want her to be your mate." His head tilted. "You could be stuck because you're scared."

"I've not told her that I'm Supergirl. She'll hate me." I swallowed hard seeing the brunette in question appear sitting in my armchair. Walking towards her, I wrapped Lena in my arms. "I miss you."

"I'm right here, Kara," Lena nuzzled her face in my neck, holding me tightly.

"She appeared to you for a reason," he coaxed. "What is it?"

Releasing the shorter woman, I turned towards Brainy. "Possibly because I have to face the fact that I've had feelings for her?"

His brow creased. "But you love Mon-El."

"You can love more than one person at a time, I think." I took the safer option, falling for Mon-El. Loving him was easier than loving Lena. He was a certain thing. She's not.

"And now?" Brainy's attention shifted.

Turning back to dream Lena, I cupped her face. The action caused a warm smile to appear. "To get out of here I have to admit to myself that I love her…." That thought terrifies me.

My alarm woke me from my Lena, Brainy, coma dream. Staring at the ceiling, I thought about Lena and my feelings for her. I am so screwed. I need to bite the figurative bullet and tell her. I'd rather bite a real one.

Xxx

After returning the amulet to Amadei, I needed to talk to Alex about my dreams. Ordering food, I invited her over for a sister night. I knew she would need to vent about Hailey and everything going on at the D.E.O. so it would be good for both of us.

"I desperately needed this," Alex took a swig of beer as she sat on the couch. "You said you needed to talk to me about something?"

"Yeah," I sipped my wine. "I had a coma dream again."

"The one with Brainy in it?" I nodded. "What kept you locked in your mind this time?"

"My feelings for Lena…" My voice trailed. "I had to come to terms with my feelings for her. How scared I am of telling her the truth."

Something flashed across Alex's face. "Do you love her?" I nodded, taking a bite of food. "Are you going to tell her?"

"I really need to. The guilt is eating away at me," I sighed. "It just sucks because Lena and James are dating now."

"Yeeeaaahhh," Alex smirked. "I really didn't see that coming."

"Same," I frowned. Leaning my head back, I rolled it to the side. "What am I going to do if I tell her and she hates me for it?"

"If you're meant to be in each other's life, it will happen. You have to trust the process."

"People only say that when chaos is about to begin," I smirked.

"Sorry," Alex chuckled. "It's the truth."

"Supergirl, would you come by please? I need to speak with you."

My attention moved towards the open window. "Well, maybe the universe is giving me a chance to talk to her now."

Alex's brow creased. "Do you always listen for Lena?"

"Not all the time." I finished my glass of wine. "Just when I'm anxious."

Alex snorted. "So, all the time then?"

"Leave me alone." I stuck my tongue out.

"How adult of you," she deadpanned. "Do you mind if I stay?"

"Stay as long as you need. I'll keep you updated." Changing quickly, I flew out my window and made my way towards Lena's.

Touching down, I kept my distance. "Miss Luthor." Her heart is hammering.

"Thank you for coming." She folded her arms to protect herself. "I'll cut right to it, why have you been so upset since you found out James and I are together? You're friends with him and Kara so you must have known we were dating. With everything going on, I've not had the chance to ask." Lena paused, studying me. "There's always a look in your eyes when you see us together."

Clasping my hands together in front of me, I looked away. "I was told, on Earth, that in a group of friends, if it's clear that one friend has feelings for a girl, woman in this case, that no one dates her until the original friend either tries or gives their blessing for the second friend to try."

"Are you seriously quoting boy code to me right now?" Lena scoffed. "Wait, you have feelings for me?" Dark brows creased. "You've never said anything. Why?" Taking a step closer, Lena's head tilted. "Does a third person have feelings for me?"

Always putting pieces together so quickly. "Yes," I nodded. "I've never said anything because you're safer with her than me. And I want you to be as safe as possible."

"Her?" Lena blinked.

This is where I tell her the truth. I just hope she can forgive me. "You already know who she is. She's just scared that she'll lose you once you find out the truth."

Realization flashed across Lena's face. "If you'll excuse me, I need to make a phone call." Pulling out her phone, the brunette entered her living room. "Supergirl, I'd like you to leave."

"She won't mind." My heart is pounding. Lena's call came through on my earpiece. Tapping it, I bit the inside of my cheek.

Lena's back was towards me. "Kara, hi. We need to talk."

"We really do," I whispered.

Turning on her heel, Lena dropped the phone. "K-Kara? You're Supergirl?"

"And I have feelings for you." Cautiously, I stepped inside the apartment. "I'm sorry. I know I've lied to you about my true identity. But know that everything I've said as Kara Danvers, everything I did, was true." I trembled.

"You lied to me," Lena stepped towards me, voice shaking. "For years!"

"I know," I choked. "I betrayed your trust." With each step I took closer, Lena stepped back. "I wanted to keep you safe. Then when you were angry with Supergirl but still loved Kara…"

"You made me trust people! You made me open up again! I told you everything and you lied to me!" Stormy green eyes glistened with tears. "I opened my heart to you!"

Seeing Lena cry broke me. "I know!" I hung my head.

"If I had known it was Kara, my Kara, out there fighting…I would have helped more. I would have brought you in on all Kryptonite related things. I thought you knew me better than that."

My Kara? "I…I see red when kryptonite is mentioned, by anyone. I have the weight of the world on my shoulders and the thought of the one substance that can kill me getting into the wrong hands is terrifying. Almost as terrifying as this conversation and losing you."

"Then you should have thought about that years ago," Lena's voice became cold. "You can leave the same way you came in." Turning, Lena went into her kitchen. I couldn't move. "Leave, Miss Danvers."

I winced at the formalness. "I'm sorry," I whispered. "I'll go."