Disclaimer Naruto is owned by the OG Kishimoto and this merely a look into the life of one of my oldest ocs
"The Loneliness seeps in"
Having been assigned guard duty this week, he could only watch from his spot above the village below with his gaze hidden behind the mask he wore, its shape in that of a wolf with the Sochi crest on it and it was merely a rain drop of color amongst the vibrant village that thrived around him, its busy and bustling streets at this time of day would normally leave him.. over whelmed.. but at this moment he was bored and only moved his gaze amongst the throng of civilians and shinobi alike until a singular one would catches his gaze.. it was her. His partner in this work, she had been given the week off whilst he had been assigned guard duty and it was clear that she was out with one of her boy friends again, a no name boy from a civilian clan it was clear she was merely playing around with the boy. Taking in a heavy breathe her eyes would seemingly draw to his own as if she had known he would be here at this time of day, on this specific vantage point and he could see her smirk as she noticed him and turned her attention to the boy with her and spoke to him in a way that his own eyes could only pick up, and her words of supposed love would leave a strange feeling of acid and burning in his chest that had his body respond in a way it hadn't before.. his sharingan would activate on their own and everything turned sharper as they focused on the boy and girl before.
Growling under his breathe, his left hand would tighten whilst he grasped onto the pants leg of his uniform.. he could clearly see now that she was telling the other male she had enjoyed their date and hope to see him again soon before leaving and disappearing within the throng of the crowd. Their disappearance had settled the acid and that had set in within his stomach and would only leave him feeling numb, lonely and darkened.. his crimson gaze quickly shot to his left as someone would appear and stand there whilst looking down to him with a snide smirk on her face " Watching me closely aren't ya?" She would state with a tease to her tone whilst lifting her right hand to cover her mouth in attempt to hide her amusement, though the male would slowly turn his vision back to the street below with the pit of darkness and numbness within slowly overcame the previous feelings she had caused " I'm merely watching the village below for any signs of suspicious activity" the male would state in a cold tone in an attempt to hide the fact that she was starting to get under his skin with her actions and attempts to rile him up " you say that Jackson, but your gaze found mine the moment I looked to you " she would state once more with mirth before dropping down to sit beside his crouched form with her feet dangling from the ledge of the three story building " you can just admit you miss me an hate being alone already, I've known you for three years now and this whole act of you being cold and heartless is getting old" she would continue with whilst raising her left hand to look at the ring on it " you've been so much more quiet since this was given to me ya know" she says looking to his form to see if it had garnered any reaction out of him and to her disappointment he had only remained stone cold still with his gaze forward. Heaving a sigh of annoyance the woman would stand to her feet and begin to walk away with her back to him only to stop a few feet away " Ya'know I can only stall them for so much longer Jake, Grand father wants me to marry this boy to secure the trade routes for the clan and to continue the family line" she says looking to the roof top beneath her feet as she could only feel disappointment in the b-, no man behind her.. it was clear to everyone that he had feelings for her and she even held some for him.. it was just he never acted upon them " just don't let yourself fall too deep Jake, there are plenty of people whom love and care for you despite everything " she would state before tilting her head up and disappearing in a shunshin, she needed to be away from him for a while…
The moment she had begun speaking about the blasted ring and the engagement he had gripped the pants leg so much harder that his knuckles had turned white and his sharingan had spun so violently that his hidden mangekyo had spun to life and tears ran from his eyes ' why, why must she be this way, why must she torture me so' he would think to himself as his teeth ground within his mouth and his cheek bled from it, he was doing his damnednest not to reveal any emotion outwardly.. but she just had to press his buttons.. call him by the name she gave him just.. damn it all, didn't she understand! Slamming his eyes shut the first silent sob would hit him like a train before he had to draw his eyes open to relieve the pressure of it tears spilling from his masked face now as his body finally let the stress flow from him and he began to cry openly and silent whilst giving his silent vigil of the street below.. no one would know of this moment, only he would ever know that he had come apart above the streets of Konoha and allowed himself to express his pain silently and away from everyone else..