Diary of Haruno Sakura
Dear diary,
I have a confession to make.
Today marked the beginning of another mission with my team, led by none other than Kakashi-sensei. He's always been an enigma to me, with his mysterious demeanor and effortless charm. But today, I saw a side of him that I never expected.
During our reconnaissance of the enemy's territory, I noticed Kakashi-sensei engaging in casual conversation with a young woman from the village we were tasked to protect. They spoke with ease, sharing laughter and smiles as if they were old friends.
Watching them together stirred something within me, a longing I couldn't quite put into words. I found myself wishing I could be that girl, the one who could make Kakashi-sensei smile so genuinely. But I quickly brushed off those thoughts, reminding myself of the boundaries that exist between us.
Kakashi-sensei is my teacher, my superior in rank and experience. It would be foolish to entertain such fantasies, especially considering our age difference and the difference in our positions within the village.
As the mission progresses, I find myself unable to shake the image of Kakashi-sensei and that girl from my mind. Their easy rapport, the way they effortlessly connected with each other—it's like a constant reminder of everything I can never have.
I tried to focus on the task at hand, but every time Kakashi-sensei glanced in my direction or spoke to me, my heart skipped a beat. It's both exhilarating and terrifying to be in his presence, knowing that my feelings for him are so strong and yet so forbidden.
I know that pursuing anything beyond our student-teacher relationship would be futile and foolish. Kakashi-sensei is a respected leader within our village, and I am just a young ninja still finding my place in the world. Any romantic feelings I may have for him must remain buried deep within my heart, never to see the light of day.
As our mission comes to an end, I can't help but feel a sense of relief mixed with sadness. Relief that we were able to accomplish our objective without any major setbacks. Sadness because it means I'll have to face the reality of my feelings for Kakashi-sensei once again, feelings that will go by unexpressed.
I know that I can never act on these feelings, no matter how much they may consume me. Kakashi-sensei is my teacher, my mentor, and I am just his student. Our relationship will always be defined by these roles, no matter how much my heart may long for something more.
So, for now, I'll continue to admire Kakashi-sensei from afar, cherishing the moments we share as teacher and student. And perhaps one day, when the time is right and our paths align in a different way, I'll find the courage to tell him how I feel. But until then, I'll keep my feelings hidden away, locked deep within my heart where they can't cause any harm.
Fuck it. Maybe, just maybe, I will tear this page from my diary. Burn it… or stash it away somewhere where he can find it.