"Remember, ask me anything. No holding back." I reminded him.
"Alright, I always thought about this, but what was your real name?" He asked.
I thought about it for a second, then I answered.
"I… don't really know… All my life I was called Jinx. I never knew my parents, only they knew my real name, but I didn't even remember who they were. I had one brief memory about my supposed name. When I was in foster care. The housekeeper who I was close with that worked where I stayed, called me Jezebel a few times. I never really thought that was significant and thought most of the times she had mistaken me for someone else. Now that I think about it, she wasn't that old to forget anyone. She memorized every child's name that ever lived there including their faces. It could be possible that it's my birth name, but I was never too sure of it."
"Jezebel eh? Cute, but I prefer Jinxy better. It seems more you." He teased.
"Ruining the moment, Flash." I joked.
"Ahhh sorry." Wally softly screamed.
Wally continued to ask me,"Jinx, remember that guy we ran into with his sister? Kid Kold? Who was he and what happened between you guys?"
I paused, his question struck a chord in me. When others asked me about him. I had no trouble telling them. But I had trouble this time, this was Wally I was telling this to. I can't back out now. I started this and I'm determined to finish telling him.
"Kid Kold was my ex-boyfriend, his real name was Leo and we dated for roughly about a year and a half. We attended the H.I.V.E Academy together. During the first six months of our relationship, it was great he was kind and we did pretty much everything together."
*FLASHBACK*
*February 25, 2004| H.I.V.E Academy| 12:15 P.M.*
"That stinking gut-muncher ruined my jetpack!" Gizmo complained.
"I did nawt, you left it there! How was I s'posed to know it was on the floor?" See-more asked in defense.
"Could've looked you scattered brain! It doesn't take a genius to look where they're going." Gizmo yelled
"And it doesn't take a genius to not leave it on the floor!" See-more argued back.
"Guys! Enough!" I yelled at my teammates.
Both of them looked at me for a moment before going back to scream at each other once again.
"Can we get lunch now?" Mammoth interrupted
"My god." I sighed while rubbing my temples to relieve my headache from the screaming.
My eyes suddenly landed on someone. A boy. He was 5 feet and six inches tall. He wore a light blue beanie and round opaque glasses. Dark long sleeved shirt with two yellow buttons on the side, light blue gloves and boots. To top it all off he wore a distinct yellow scarf and belt. He had on long shaggy orange hair and an unshaven face. I'm not usually the one to like guys with hair on their face, but he looked alright. Cute even. He glanced over to my table and saw me looking at him. He gave me a smile and waved at me. I waved back. I saw he was alone and decided to go up and talk to him.
"Hey guys, I'll be right back." I notified my teammates.
My teammates looked at me with question, but I didn't want to answer so I got up and left and walked towards him. They all stared at me as I made my way across the lunchroom.
"You've got it bad for her, don't ya." Billy Numerous quietly asked See-more.
"I don't know what you're talking about." See-more stammered.
"We both know what I'm talking about." Billy pointed out.
Mammoth and Gizmo looked at See-more
See-more responded by his cheeks turning deep red.
I reached the end of the lunchroom and was standing in front of him. He was intriguing and mysterious. Something that attracted me to guys during my H.I.V.E days.
"I never really talk to guys who just hang around staring at strangers." I initiated the conversation.
"Well then today's my lucky day." He replied back.
"Name's Kid Kold, but you can call me just Leo. Your name?"
"Well then just Leo, name's Jinx." I sarcastically introduced myself.
"Jinx?" He questioned.
"Yeah, my powers make misfortunes and bad luck happen. Kinda fits with the circumstance." I explained.
"Lucky." He blurted out.
"What?" I asked him.
"You don't seem like a Jinx, I should say you're the luckiest thing to come across my path so far. So I'll call you Lucky." He slyly commented.
"Well then Leo. I think we're going to get along just fine." I responded
"Leo!" A stomach curdling scream echoed throughout the lunchroom.
"Leo! We've got to get going. Our training session with the headmaster starts in five minutes!" A blond girl scolded him.
"Fine Kate, I'll be there in a minute. Just stop bugging me and I'll come." He annoyingly responded.
"You better. I know you're my brother and all, but you've got to get it together. I'll see you at the training base." She said
Leo looked irritated as he looked at me and said.
"Sorry about my sister, she could get very controlling sometimes."
"It's okay, siblings am I right?" I answered lightening the mood.
"Haha yeah, I've got to get going, duty calls. It was nice meeting you Lucky. We should catch up sometime." He flirtatiously remarked.
"Yea we should." I smilingly agreed.
He gave me one last smile before walking out the lunchroom. That was the moment I knew my world was about to be turned upside down.
We did pretty much almost everything together. We would party every weekend, hang out, make out whenever we had the chance to get our hands on each other. We did almost everything you can name even drugs. We mostly did weed and did other narcotics to get high. We were on top of the world. It felt like us against the world. It felt like nothing could stop us, but something did. He did.
"March 12, 2005*
"Hey Leo, there's this rave that's happening downtown Jump. Wanna go?" I asked him.
"Sure whatever." He disinterestedly replied while looking at banks and stores he could potentially rob.
"That's it?" I questioned.
"Well what the fuck do you want me to say? Yay, a party?" He snapped.
"No, but it would be cool if you show a little bit enthusiasm spending time with your girlfriend." I argued back.
"Well Jinx, doesn't it occur to you I really don't care? I got better things to do." He rudely responded.
"Of course it's the same old shit." I muttered.
"Nevermind, I'll just go by myself." I told him
"K." He answered back.
I rolled my eyes and walked out the door. I can't lie, but it did hurt my feelings on how easy he shot me down like that. I thought he was having an off day, but little did I know it was just the beginning.
There were days when he was really nice. I fell for it everytime. It wasn't genuine, he was only nice when he wanted something from me. Knowing he would go back to his old self. I couldn't help but gravitate towards his supposed kindness. So I gave in everytime.
*March 27, 2005| Leo's Room| 4:50 P.M.*
"Lucky?" He softly asked.
"Hm?" I answered back into his chest.
"I love you, you know that right? I know I haven't shown that lately, but I do." He started to say in my hair.
"Yeah, I know Leo."
We stayed silent for ten minutes until he cut off the silence.
"I think we should take our relationship to the next level Lucky." Leo suggested.
"In what way?" I curiously asked.
"I think we should have sex." He quickly added.
I gave him a shocked look and started to say.
"Leo, I don't know if I can do that. I haven't done it with anyone before and I don't think you have either." I added.
"I know Lucky, but don't you get it? Our first time could be with each other. I love you and you love me? Isn't that what matters?" He persuasively commented.
"I mean yeah, but anything could happen you don't know." I shyly responded.
"If anything happens Lucky, I'll be here for you. I love you." He reassured me.
"I love you too Leo." I answered.
Upon saying that, Leo took it upon himself to kiss me hard. His hands roamed everywhere around my body to unzip all of my clothes and I did the same for him. That night, he made me feel special and lifted me up, but only to destroy back into nothingness once again.
*March 29, 2005| H.I.V.E Common Room| 9:22 A.M*
I saw Leo across the hallway with his sister Kate. I smiled and was on cloud nine. I went towards them to talk to Leo about our night.
"Hey Leo." I said.
"Oh, hey Jinx." He said with monotone.
That's funny, he never called me by my real name for a while. I didn't think of it much back then, so I just brushed it off.
"Kate?" He sternly said.
"Okay, okay. I'm going. I know my queue." She raised both of her hands up and turned to walk away.
"Wow that's weird, what's going on with her?" I asked Leo.
Leo didn't answer me and stared out into space and bluntly said,
"I don't think, this is going to work out anymore Jinx. I think we should break up."
When he said that, my heart split into two.
"What...? Why? I thought things were going well between us." I tearfully asked.
"I just don't think it can work out. I mean we fight so much now. I don't see the chemistry between us anymore." He responded in monotone.
"We can fix it Leo, that's what relationships do. We stay and fix our problems because we care for each other. Don't forget about what you said to me too. How if anything happens, you'll be there." I argued back.
"Yeah well, things change." He rudely replied.
"In a matter of two fucking days? After we had sex? You gotta be fucking kidding me." I scoffed.
I couldn't grasp about what just happened. My heart started to hurt and tears were slowly forming within my eyes.
"Look I got to go okay? We're over. What's so hard about that to understand? You're great and everything really. But like I said, it's not working out anymore." He said one last sentence before turning to leave.
"Fuck you Leo, fuck you. You lied to me. Don't talk to me ever again asshole!" I yelled to him as the hallway cleared.
He looked at me and went into his classroom. As the hallway was empty I broke down. I didn't care if I was late or didn't even show up at all. My whole world came crashing down the exact moment when I felt like my life was taking a turn for the better.
I sobbed and sobbed until class was over. I spent several weeks in despair and was a walking travesty.
*May 13, 2005| Lunch room| 12:25 P.M.*
Before I knew it, it was already lunchtime. I walked to the lunchroom and towards the table where my teammates were sitting. They talked, but I stayed silent the whole time. I stayed like that until they eventually noticed.
"Jinx, are you okay?" See-more asked with worry.
"Yeah, what's got your panties in a twist? It's the time of the month already?" Gizmo questioned.
"Watch your mouth, not today Gizmo. Today is not the day." I angrily shot back.
When I said that. Gizmo knew to shut up. He knows that when I'm having a bad day. It does not get pretty for anyone.
"Geez, butt-muncher." Gizmo muttered under his breath.
Upon hearing that, pink electricity radiated around Gizmo's mashed potatoes and exploded all over his face. I ran off crying back to my dorm.
"Jinx, wait!" See-more called after me.
I ran and ran and didn't stop until I got to my dorm. I slammed the door and sat on my bed. The tears kept coming. If this is what heartbreak feels like. I do not wish this sort of pain on anyone. Any other type of pain is fine. But physical and mental pain from loving someone. That's the only type of pain I would not condone towards anyone.
Suddenly, I heard a knock on my door.
I dried up my tears and cleared my voice, "Yeah, who is it?"
"Jinx, you feeling okay? You just sort of ran off." See-more brought up.
I opened the door and it revealed to be See-more. His face was flushed with worry.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Everything is great." I tried sounding happy as I could.
See-more raised his eyebrow not being convinced by my answer.
"Jinx, I know you're not fine. Is it because of him?" See-more proceeded to question me.
The moment See-more asked me that question. I started to cry non-stop.
"Hey Jinx, shhh shhh it's okay." See-more said comfortingly. He hugged and held me as I cried into his shoulder.
"Why does it hurt so much?" I asked See-more.
"Because you're in the stage of grieving. It's going to be okay. This pain will pass and you will be okay." See-more whispered.
"Why did he leave? Am I not good enough?" I continued.
"He's an idiot, he left a diamond for rubbles. And Jinx don't ever ask that question, you're the most beautiful girl I laid eyes on. Don't cry over someone who's a one out of a scale of ten." See-more stated.
I looked at See-more for a brief moment before asking.
"See-more, why are you so nice to me? I thought you always hated me since I'm not always the nicest person or leader to you guys?"
"Jinx, I always liked you. When everyone else on our team is acting dumb. You made me laugh and cheered me up most of the time. I think... I think I have feelings for you." See-more blurted out.
My head snapped up and I looked at him with confusion.
"Jinx, I'm sorry... I -I didn't mean to shout that out. I'll leave if you like." He stuttered.
I didn't know what came over me, but I did it on instinct. I felt numb within that moment and I wanted to feel something. Anything. I kissed See-more. It took him a second to kiss me back. I don't think he was really expected that kiss as my reaction.
"Jinx..." He gasped my name.
I began to pull him towards my bed and I got on top of him. We made out profusely and my lips began to attack his neck. He moaned in pleasure. I took off my shirt to reveal my bra and I began to feel him up on his leg. He shivered and flipped me over so he could be on top. That day See-more made me forget, but yet I still felt numb.
After our exchange, we both fell asleep for a while. I woke up seeing See-more still asleep. A sudden pang of guilt and confusion washed over me. I got dressed quickly and tried leave my room, but then See-more woke up.
"Jinx, where you going." See-more asked me with desperation.
"I'm sorry See-more, but I have to go. I'm really sorry." I sadly replied.
*FLASHBACK ENDS*
The hurting look on his face was the last thing I saw before I left him. We never really spoken about that day. We just avoided eye contact and interaction. Even if we did interact, we pretended that day never happened. We didn't really know what to say to each other or at least I didn't know what to say to him.
"Jinx... I'm so fucking sorry." Wally apologized.
"No Wally, it's okay. I got over my ex and found someone who's not an asshole. But the one thing that haunts me till this day was not giving See-more an answer. Instead I just left him like that with no explanation to why I did that. I feel like such a hypocrite, someone broke my heart into two and I turned around doing the same thing to someone else. I felt disgust and hatred for myself. I couldn't even look him in the eye. I don't know what to say to See-more. Even, if I did have something. I don't even know if he would want to hear me out." I anxiously explained.
Wally took a second to think about my situation. He then offered a solution.
"Jinx I think you should talk this out with See-more the next time you guys see each other. He needs an answer and I truly believe, he would want to hear you out. You guys have the strongest bond out of all of your H.I.V.E teammates. He would try to understand from your point of view of why you choose what you did. It would just hurt him more everyday if he was left unanswered."
I thought about what Wally said and took a second to process the information I gave him and the information he was giving back.
"You're right, Wally. I need to face my problems. I'm so used to running away from them. I had trouble knowing where to start and mending it." I responded.
"Well with that, I think you should start with this one." Wally said while giving his side smile.
"Yeah, I think I will." I thought deeply about it. This is a new start.