Bo

The brunette turned her phone off. Kenzi had been texting her nonsense and she had her fill of it. Bo come home. Bo let me help. Bo we are out of liquor.

Going home to Kenzi and throwing back liquor is not going to get Bo anywhere. Anywhere near Lauren. So, here she sat at a rental house she paid top dollar for. She stared out at the large backyard. It was quiet and quiet is what she needs most. To figure out what she is going to do, and how she is going to do it. She closed her eyes. She took a deep breath and kept her mouth shut. Think Bo think. She shook when she thought of the train. Not because of Rainer, but because of the sound of it. She had seen plenty of trains in her day, but none of them ever ran and ran like Rainer's train did.

She thought of that moment in his bed. She did not think of Lauren, and now she struggled to figure out why. Think Bo think. Kenzi. Check. Dyson check. No thought of Trick. No thought of Lauren. Only Kenzi and Dyson.

She stood up to pace the yard. She put her hands behind her back and joined them together. Bowing her head, she circled the same spot. Kenzi and Dyson. What do they mean to Bo and her existence? Kenzi and Dyson are her friends. Dyson more like friends with benefits. She slapped herself at that thought. Hours passed and she was coming up blank. She walked into the house and collapsed on the bed. Closing her eyes, sleep took her.

Hours passed again and Bo shot up in bed. Sweating and crying at the same time. She now knew why she did not think of Lauren on the train. Lauren did not exist in Bo and Rainer's world. Only Dyson and Kenzi.

Bo was never meant to meet the Doctor. Her sadness in Rainer's arms meant she was coming to terms of Rainer being her destiny. Her destiny of allowing him to pick her friends, and family. It also explained why Trick was not thought of too. Trick is Bo's blood. His relationship with Bo was to be severed for the good of their union.

Bo shook her head and thought of never meeting Lauren. She shuddered at the thought. Not talking to the woman. Not meeting her. Not touching her. Lauren not touching Bo's back or body.

How would that have worked? Saving Kenzi in the elevator. Being hauled in front of the Ash by Dyson and Hale. But never meet Lauren? Who would have had the stones to tell Bo she is a Succubus? The Ash did not even tell her. Nor did he look like he ever would tell her. She drank some water and slammed the glass into the fireplace. No Lauren? Bullshit. Lauren does exist. In every part of Bo's body. Bo would have been a cold-blooded killer if it were not for Lauren and Kenzi. Her humans.

She thought of her dream. She and Rainer had bonded to free him of Trick's curse. Then Dyson and Kenzi met them to celebrate. But Bo wanted to scream at the thought. She wanted to scream at every thought.

She was back in the real world and she still had no clue how she was going to proceed. Her Succubus will not allow her to pulse Lauren, but that does not mean she will not help her find the blonde again. But did Bo want to find her? To disturb the life, she was leading now. Even if part of it is a lie. Could she hurt Lauren by forcing her to remember who they are to each other? That dark moment when Lauren made herself forget Bo. Who Bo hoped they still were to each other. Remind the Doctor that she loves the Succubus? Remind her that Bo loves her? Hurt this Crystal woman?

Bo knows Lauren. She would want to know everything. She deserves to know everything. Bo just does not know if she has the heart to tell her. To remind Lauren of a complete misunderstanding that now made sense to Bo.

Crystal and Lauren

Crystal internally sighed in their latest bed. She had been up since Lauren's latest nightmare. She has had them for weeks, but the woman never talked to the Doctor about them. Lauren never had one nightmare. Not once during their entire relationship, until they ran into that brunette. Crystal does not know her name or who she really is, but something about her bothers Lauren. Interests her subconscious. She rolled over to face the opposite wall and closed her eyes.

Lauren faced the opposite wall. She had not moved at all. She learned this technique in the military. How to lay next to someone and not move or allow your eyelids to make a sound as you blink. The guilt of motel and hotel hopping was starting to get to her. Crystal does not deserve a life like this. This is teenage stuff. Like a two-person sleepover. But what could Lauren do? She is powerless against the Fae. That Succubus is dangerous. All that Lauren ever heard, was how she killed some Elders. But what became of her, nobody knew. She must be back and in the Fae's good graces for them to send her after Lauren.

The Doctor has nothing the woman could want from her, except her life. She is shocked they have not sent Dyson for her. A wolf could find her anywhere. A normal wolf that is. Dyson's arrogance about Fae and humans is likely why he stayed home. Lauren would not be worth his time. But in case Dyson would come after her, she changes her scent every day and night. It is no way to live. But at least they are still alive. It is the most Lauren could do at the moment. Even if it is a shitty way to live. She sighed hard thinking of Crystal. The woman is kind, warm and thoughtful. Everything that Nadia was. She listens to Lauren ramble on and on about anything for hours at a time. She really loves it when Lauren goes into Doctor mode expressing everything down to a science. She closed her eyes and waited for her mind to stop so her body could rest.

The Dal

"I don't know what to tell you. I haven't heard from her". Dyson shrugged.

"Bo doesn't do this Dyson. Not to me. She answers my texts and my calls. Something must be wrong". Kenzi ranted as she paced back and forth.

"She will call or respond when she's ready. Go with that. That's what I am doing". Dyson followed her with his head and eyes.

"What do you mean? Kenzi stopped and turned to him.

"Let her find Lauren. Then they can sort out their problems. Lauren won't live forever, I just need to wait it out". Dyson smiled softly.

"That's bullshit Dyson. I did not get your love back for you, for you to give in like a coward. If they are not in a relationship, why are you waiting? Kenzi scoffed. After that nasty thing she had on her arm after leaving the Norn's, she would never let Dyson belittle her efforts for him.

"I won't deny that I want Bo. But I know it is best to wait. Wait for her to come to me and she will. I will have hundreds of years with Bo. I can wait". Dyson bowed.

"Uhh, no you can't". Kenzi replied.

"What do you mean? Dyson cocked his head to the side.

"Dude we were all right here when Bo brought you back. You can die at any minute. So those hundreds of years started right then". Kenzi pointed to the floor.

"Kenzi I am not going to look for Bo. I will stay here and wait for her to return. Either to me or with Lauren. I will wait". Dyson sighed.

"I need a drink". Kenzi sighed hard.

"He's right Kenzi. Bo will be his soon enough. He will live as long as I will. We can and will take care of Bo". Trick patted her hand softly.

"He was my choice for her. But this puppy love bullshit he is got going on is going to make me regret my choice. Bo fears her Succubus. I need someone around after I am gone to make sure Bo lives forever". Kenzi slammed her shot and her glass on the counter waiting for another one.

"Bo has to come back anyway, Trick is her blood". Dyson patted Kenzi on the back.

"And we all know how the blood king treats his blood". Aife stood coldly behind them.

"Aife please. Now is not the time". Trick waved her back.

"Aife please my ass. If you are plotting against my daughter, it is always the time for me to be here". The Succubus stomped over to them.

"We are not plotting against Bo. We are just worried about her". Dyson growled. The woman still makes him anxious. She had dominated his wolf and he took that as a personal insult.

"She's gone. That is what is pissing in your doggie bowl. She's not under you". Aife patted Dyson on the cheek and he growled.

"Does she have to be here? Kenzi asked. Dyson's eyes went wide as he pulled Kenzi to the other side of him.

Trick rubbed his beard. He did not want to be in his bar right now but leaving these three alone would and could wind up with one of them dead. "Get her out of here Dyson".

Dyson nodded.

"Good now we can get back to our private conversation". Kenzi settled comfortably on her barstool.

"He meant you fool". Aife laughed.

"What? Me? I was here first! I was the first to find Bo. That should allow me priority over you". Kenzi scoffed.

"You mean Isabeau found you first in that elevator. Picked the wrong pocket did you? Aife laughed. "Besides if we are picking firsts, I saw her first."

"She's got you there Kenz". Dyson shrugged.

"Dyson! Trick screamed.

"We're going". Dyson easily scooped Kenzi up and carried her out, kicking and screaming obscenities.

Trick closed his eyes. Getting rid of his daughter Succubus was not going to be easy. She had never listened to him, only her mother.

"All alone. What shall we do? Aife laughed.

"Aife please. I really do not have the time for this". Trick gestured around his bar.

"That's the last thing you said to me just before handing me over to the Dark." Aife never blinked. Trick was a slick bastard. She really noted where he put his hands. He could use his blood at any second and make something happen. Make something happen to her. Make something happen to Bo.

"I don't know what you want from me? I have no plots against Bo going on. She is my granddaughter". Trick turned around and grabbed a stack of glasses.

"And I am your daughter. Which makes all the women in your life expendable at any given moment". Aife spoke. She laughed knowing the very thought of her, makes the hairs on the back of Trick's neck stand up.

"Go home Aife or wherever you sleep". Trick turned back around.

"I am home. For now". The Succubus took her seat and slapped the counter for a drink.

Trick exhaled. He was not going to get rid of her as easily as he did Kenzi. There really was not a reason to pawn her off on Dyson. Even Aife would not hurt Bo's human.

"She's more concerned about her other human". Aife winked at Trick.

"How did you escape Taft's anyway? I heard you had died". Trick rolled his eyes.

"I'm a Succubus. Any food near, and we will feed, and heal. Unlike mother, I had that option". Aife seethed. She knew that last dig would haunt Trick, even after she left him be. But that would not be for hours to come yet.

Bo

The brunette cursed her current predicament. She cursed Trick. She cursed Tamsin. She cursed Taft. Everyone she had let come between her relationship. She would have still had one had it not been for her bullshit Dawning. Those damn tests. Why couldn't the all-powerful Blood King write her Dawning out of existence for another hundred years? Why couldn't he see the signs and warn her? But Trick is a walking stick of secrets.

She shuddered thinking of Lauren looking at her that way. Like she had been bent on keeping Lauren out of her life as much as possible. But Lauren should have been her life. She was her girlfriend. She had her and lost her. Now she has a new one. A walking, talking and breathing on her own, girlfriend.

Bo laughed at the irony of feeling like Dyson must have felt when she chose Lauren. But Lauren does not know she is Bo's choice. She never officially told her yet. She thought her actions would show the brilliant Doctor, but all her actions did was show Lauren that she was her last thought. Her last priority. You can never be last when you are always first on someone's mind.

She even tried to step back so Lauren could go forward with Nadia. At least the Nadia Lauren thought she had back. Bo should have sensed the Garuda. But she was not thinking of her Fae, she was thinking of his. She cannot lay all of the blame at Trick's feet, when she was a walking stick of secrets too. Her Fae. They had all seen what her Succubus can do, and Bo feared her so much that she never thought of using her Fae like she could. Like she should.

The Succubus usually surfaced when Bo was scared. The Lich did not know who he was screwing with, with her. Lauren was close to death, so she surfaced before the blade touched her. Dyson died in her Dawning by her own hands. The Succubus surfaced because Bo was in hysterics having killed him. She brought him back out of guilt and fear of taking his life as she did Kyle's.

Lauren was for love. Dyson was for guilt. There is a huge difference in the two. Once Lauren died that would be it. Bo would never see the earth again because her succubus would be too distraught and kill everyone in her rage.

She could see herself drowning from years with Dyson. He would be like another Rainer. Fighting for the little woman. What little woman? That is stone age shit. Her Succubus would likely be considering kowtowing to a man's will as bullshit and they would both drown from boredom. Lauren is the lighthouse for the both of them. She keeps one at bay and the other one safe from her darkest moments.

Get the fuck out of your head. Use your words for once. Bo lashed out at herself. She was done with the wondering. It was time for doing.

Bo will gladly enter another triangle. Allow herself to be the rejected or the accepted but she wants Lauren to have full control of both. If she accepts her and takes her back, she will be ecstatic. If she rejects her, she will be sad but leave the doctor to her choice. She would find a way to protect Lauren from the Fae and Kenzi if she needs to. Scratch that, she would do that anyway. Since she never truly did it before.

If I am going to do this, I need your help Bo spoke softly. She felt her insides shake but she knew the Succubus had agreed.

Bo showered and threw everything that was hers inside of her Hummer. Once she was sure she had everything she threw the house keys and some cash in the mailbox and called the realtor to let her know she was leaving earlier than expected. She thought of Crystal and how successful she was. She could probably buy that house ten times over and still be richer than Bo. So could Lauren, anytime she wants to.

She mentally slapped herself for thinking Lauren would only love her again for how much money she has. Lauren loved her when she was living in the clubhouse. She must have found some worth in Bo. Something money cannot buy. She suddenly thought of that kiss Lauren initiated just before Bo went off to fight Aife. She had learned early how her Succubus like to be kissed. It was short but long enough to know they both wanted another one. Hell, they want thousands of kisses like that.

Bo was startled when the Hummer stopped. She tried to start it again, but it failed. What the hell? Not now! She laughed when she turned her head and saw a nice looking house to her right. She felt a soft stirring inside and knew her Succubus was silently telling her that they had arrived at their destination.

Bo quietly climbed into the back seat and pulled a blanket over her, as she settled in. She noticed the time and knew there was no way Lauren would be up this early. She breathed freely for the first time in days. She had hope everything was going to be ok. But she knew she was not going to be able to wing it. She needed to be smarter than she has ever been before. Remind Lauren of why she fell for her. Remind Lauren of why Bo loves her, even though she never once told her why.

She assumed her kisses and the way they made love showed the Doctor all of it. But Lauren asked for a break, so there was something lacking in Bo that the Doctor no longer wanted to be her girlfriend. The gall of expecting Lauren to show up for her Dawning when Bo had blown her off with lies over her awards banquet. She cringed at the thought.

She has probably been to every one of Crystal's engagements. She cringed at that word wondering if Crystal had proposed to Lauren yet. It would likely be very elaborate and well thought out. She probably knows things about Lauren that Bo does not know or sat still long enough to find out.

She jumped when there was tapping on her window. Her eyes went wide. She was face to face with Crystal. Clearing her throat, she rolled down her window.

"Are you going to stay in there all day? Crystal asked.

Bo was thrown by the question. She shook her head and rolled the window back up. She grabbed some towelettes and freshened up before climbing out of the vehicle.

"How did you know it was me? Bo asked.

"You weren't here when we've gone to bed these last few nights. Nobody has bothered knocking on our door, so I came out to check you out". Crystal replied. She looked a little taller than Lauren, but she did not look as threatening as Lauren had been scared about.

"Look I can explain". Bo said.

"No, I will explain something to you. I told Lauren she should talk to you and find out what you want. But you will not be talking to her alone anytime soon. If she agrees to speak to you, great. If she does not, then you will leave us alone. Understood? Crystal gently made a fist.

"Get away from her Crystal! Lauren screamed behind them. "She's dangerous! The Doctor was next to Crystal in a matter of seconds. She was barefoot and shivering.

"We can go inside". Bo stepped forward.

"Lauren? Crystal asked.

"No. She is not welcome in there. Not where we sleep". Lauren gritted her teeth.

Bo shook the thought of them in bed out of her head. "We can talk out here then. I just thought you would be more comfortable inside than standing on the hot concrete out here".

"I'm fine". Lauren spat.

"Let's get this over with, then she will leave us alone". Crystal grabbed Lauren's hand and squeezed it tight.

"Start talking". Lauren gestured to Bo.

Bo swallowed hard. She was standing in the shadows of their mutual pasts, and the sun had not risen yet.

TBC

A/N Lauren really doesn't remember Bo and only knows of Aife as a Succubus.