Jessica's Point of View
It wasn't too long before it was Xigbar's turn to take care of me. Everyone has been helping out with me except Marluxia and Larxene. Xemnas gave me that at least.
"Hey, aren't you a clever little sneak." He said. He didn't look mad, which is good.
"You slipped up." I smiled. "As if. I never slip up." Xigbar stated. "But you did. You hinted that you know about Xehanort's origins. I'm surprised that I didn't figure it out sooner." I explained. "Like I said before. I never slip up." He mentioned. Wait, why did he want me to know? That doesn't make any sense.
"You... wanted me to know?" I gasped. "Well sure. Jess, I wanted you to know that you can talk to me about anything. Even stuff about your past." Xigbar explained. "I see. Thank you Xigbar. I guess... I am very relieved that I finally have someone I can talk to about it. It hurts me a lot. He ruined my life." I sighed. "What about Xemnas then? Xemnas is half Xehanort and you seem to be quite attached to him." Xigbar asked. "Xemnas is... different. He's not Xehanort. He's mixed with someone else." I said. "Whatever helps you sleep at night." Xigbar laughed. A Dusk came in with my food. Xigbar took it. I'm still too week to lift my hands to my mouth, so I can't feed myself yet.
"Looks like it's time for your breakfast." Xigbar said, taking the food. It was a nasty concoction of elixer and I don't want to know what. Daddy says that it will help me get better, but I can't stand it. You would think that elixer would taste good, right? Wrong! It's disgusting and very potent. I don't want it. He looked at it.
"I can't believe he's making you eat this stuff. I guess that's what you get for picking a fight with Xemnas. You really need to learn when to just go home." Xigbar said. "This place isn't home, it's a prison." I growled. "I'm sure you'll change your mind once you're better and doing missions again." He assured me. I want to tell him. I want to say that I was running away for good... but I know that I shouldn't. As far as I know, Xemnas is the only one who knows why he had to electrocute me. Xigbar went to feed the disgusting mixture to me, but I turned my head so that he couldn't. I don't want to eat anymore of that slop.
"Oh, come on. I know it doesn't taste good, but it will help you get better." Xigbar tried. I didn't say anything just in case he would try to shove that nasty stuff down my throat. He set the bowl down.
"Okay, you can throw your little tantrum, but it's not going to work once I drag your dad back early from his mission so he can become infuriated with you and lecture you for the rest of the day." He smirked. "Okay." I replied. He's bluffing. He laughed as he left my room.
"Jessica, you need to eat. It will help." Luna said. "No way! It's disgusting!" I huffed. Luna sighed and walked into her space in the closet. I turned my closet into a makeshift bed a few years ago. It's very helpful at times. It gives us some privacy.
Hours later, Dad came in my room. He didn't look angry, but he did look tired. Dad didn't say anything and I didn't either. We stared at each other. Dad grabbed the bowl with my elixer slop. As gross as it is, I allowed him to feed me, cringing all the way. I might not like it, but there's no way I'm going to put up a fight against him.
"Xemnas told me that the reason that you're like this is because you were in Castle Oblivion and trying to leave the Organization. Is this true?" Dad asked. So Xemnas told him. Just what I needed. I nodded.
"Have you nothing to say for yourself?" He questioned. I turned away.
"Jessica, look at me." Dad pleaded. When I didn't, his hand gently guided my face so that it was facing him. A single tear fell down my face.
"You wouldn't understand. No one does. No one sees the big picture. Not like I do. And even then, it's not at it's fullest." I said. "Then show me Jessica. I want to be there for you. I truly do. I wish I could, but you always close off from me. Please let me in. I want to understand." Dad tried. "I'm sorry, but I'm afraid that I can't do that." I stated. "Why not? Why must you always insist on shutting me out?" Dad wondered. "Because I'm trying to keep you safe! This isn't a game!" I shrieked.
"Jessica, calm down. Keep me safe from what?" Dad demanded. "From knowing to much! From getting caught up in things you shouldn't! From-" I stopped myself and took a deep breath. "From me." I whispered. Tears escaped me. Suddenly, my body didn't hurt so much I sat up and hugged him.
"Jessica, doesn't that hurt?" Dad gasped. "Right now, the only pain I feel is knowing that everything falls apart no matter where I am." I sobbed. "Don't talk like that! None of this is your fault!" Dad shouted. I stood up and made my way to Xemnas' office. Dad tried to follow me, but I ran too quickly for him. Dad's right. It's not my fault. It's Xehanort. Everything is Xehanort. I swing the door open without even knocking. Xigbar is there.
"Well, looks like the princess is back on her feet." Xigbar smirked. "Can it!" I snapped. I slapped Xemnas' face as hard as I could. I don't even care if it's more Terra or Xemnas at this point.
"Yeah, I'm just going to be... somewhere doing... something. See ya." Xigbar mentioned. I heard Xigbar teleport away. Tears streaked my cheeks. "I look back on everything wrong with my life. Every little thing, and you know what? There's a pattern in all this. It's one person. In one form or another, it's always you!" I shrieked. "Obviously, you're delusional from lack of fresh air. I'll do us both a favor and leave it at that." Xemnas sighed. He got up from his chair. He's probably trying to intimidate me with his height, but it's not working. He tried to leave, but I blocked his path.
"Excuse me young lady, but I have more pressing issues to attend to than a child throwing a tantrum." Xemnas stated coldly. I moved out of his way and opened a dark corridor for myself and started to go inside. Xemnas' hand roughly grabbed my shoulder. Now I have his attention. I looked directly into his eyes and he stared back into mine.
"What is it that you want?" Xemnas groaned. What do I want? I'm so torn. I want him to pay. I want his love. I want to make him grovel at my feet and beg for mercy. I want him to comfort me and tell me that everything will be alright.
"I want you to talk to me! You hardly say a word to me anymore unless I pull off crazy stunts like running away!" I screamed. "Well maybe if you just tell me that you want to talk, I would make time for you!" He shouted. "Like you just did?!" I huffed. "That wasn't saying anything! You slapped me and accused me of being behind every problem in your life!" Xemnas argued. I opened my mouth to say something, but he had a fair point. I force myself to calm down.
"This is hard. Everything here is so complicated. I am so tired of living like this." I sighed. "Perhaps a break would be for the best." Xemnas decided. "But I'm already on a break. I've been on a break." I reminded. He kissed the top of my head.
"I know. Don't worry about it for now. You should go see Zexion. I'm sure he's eager to see you." Xemnas suggested. "Can I... go with him to Castle Oblivion? I... I want to go there to grieve... but I could use some support from a friend right now." I asked. What I really wanted to do was to visit Master Eraqus with him.
"Why are you asking me? Isn't Castle Oblivion your castle? You said so yourself. It was your grandfather's and now that he's gone, it's yours." Xemnas smirked. "But you said-" Xemnas placed a finger on my lips, silencing me. "You're worth much more to me than a castle. I love you Jessica." Xemnas explained. "I love you too." I whispered.
Not sure whether or not I should really be posting this, but here goes. This has so many ups and downs. Maybe I should have split this up into a few different chapters. Oh well.
Thank you Samantha for your review.