Jessica's Point of View

The following day, on my mission, Xigbar informed me that Xemnas gave me permission to do whatever I wanted after my missions regardless of who was with me. I was glad I didn't need a babysitter to go off-world after my missions anymore. The first place I went after my mission was castle oblivion. I missed my grandfather terribly and wanted to see him. When I went into the room, he wasn't there. "Hello? Grandfather?" Nothing. "Where are you? Why aren't you answering?" No response. "Is anyone here?!" There was no answer. I went to the basement where Zexion, Lexaeus, and my father had been stationed. I half hoped that they would still be there. "Hey, you guys, I'm home!" There was still nothing. "Please! Daddy! Zexion! Uncle Lexaeus! Grandfather! Somebody! Please be alive!" Silence. I hadn't been expecting much, but my glimmer of hope was snuffed out. I leaned against the wall and sunk to the floor in defeat. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw something out of place behind a pedestal holding a vase of fake white flowers. It was a book with the Nobody symbol on the cover. I quickly grabbed it and read the first page.

A new diary. How many of these have I filled over the years? I lost count. I have made an intriguing discovery about myself. My memories from my previous lives are growing stronger as every day passes. Initially, it was a glimpse of my past, but those glimpses have grown stronger and less fragmented. It's hard to believe that I was once a king and married to Neo Queen Serenity, and yet, that seems to be reality.

I once wondered why she looked so much like Jess, but I have recently discovered the truth. I overheard a female voice that was not Jessica's in her room and went to see who it was, but Jess was by herself. Upon seeing her toy, whom she calls Luna, I realized that this Luna and the Luna from our previous lives were one and the same, which would mean that Jessica is Usagi reborn. There were a great many things I wanted to tell her, but I didn't want her to find out while I'm like this. She deserves someone who can feel emotions with her. Not someone who can only pretend. I will tell her when I am recompleted.

I realized that it must have belonged to Zexion and flipped to the last entry, hoping to find a clue about what happened. When I was at the last entry, I began with the one before it.

I'm grateful that Jess is safe in Atlantica. Not only has Vexen died, but Lexaeus has been added to the list. He was struck down by Riku. I know I must make it out of this alive for Jess's sake. I will do everything in my power to survive. I don't know how to tell her about their lack of existence, but I will find a way. I must. She deserves to know what has become of them. It was my hope to stay away from her until I could regain my heart, but she'll likely need me frequently for a while. I will do what I can to console her.

I wonder if more of us will fade away into nothing on this trip to Castle Oblivion. There are multiple possible scenarios, and I don't like any of them. I spoke with Jessica's grandfather, Eraqus. He has shared with me that he will disappear soon, using the part of Riku that Ansem resides in as a host. I don't understand why he would do such a thing and tried to convince him to leave things as they are, but he refused, saying he needed to rectify his past mistakes. While it is unclear exactly what he meant, I have my suspicions that nothing I say or do would stop him. All I can do is let Jessica know what has happened here, which is even more reason for me to make it out of this alive.

I won't let her down. I must do everything I can to protect her, no matter what. I cannot fail her. Even so, the chances of my death increase with every member struck down. I have to make my moves carefully.

I didn't know what my grandfather had planned, but I trusted him. I was relieved that he wasn't gone altogether. The only thing I could do was assume that he had succeeded in whatever he was doing. I moved on to the last entry.

I just had an extremely close call. I fought Riku, and his final blow was nearly the end of me. I had to retreat. I'm hoping that he'll think I'm finished. I can't risk fighting him again. It wouldn't take much to eliminate me now. One more hit and I might

There was a line after the last word, almost as if he had been startled or scared by something and his hand slipped. I bit my lip as I wondered what it could have been that made him stop mid-sentence. The very fact that he hadn't finished his entry was proof that he was gone. Gone forever. When I had first discovered that the members had died, I didn't think I would ever feel more alone. With my grandfather gone, I had discovered that I was wrong. I couldn't bear to look at Zexion's diary anymore, but I promised myself I would read every part of it as time went by. Words could not express how sad I was, and no amount of tears could heal me. I wondered if Zexion had died in the room I was in. "Zexion, Mamoru, Endymion, it's all the same to me. The man I have and always will love. I know you wanted to be here to help me through this. I forgive you. I know you must have done your best to be here. It still wasn't enough. I will find out who did this to you, and I will avenge you. I promise."

I wanted to find a way for Eraqus to be inside Terra like in Kingdom Hearts III. Basically, he will be able to do this since Ansem is part of Terra. I hope that makes some amount of sense. When I started this, Kingdom Hearts III wasn't out yet, so I was just trying to get this on track for Kingdom Hearts III to play out. It's not like I've done anything that seriously messes with the timeline, so it should be achievable.