I waited two days to check the site again and now I'm back to respond to your silly reviews!
I must admit, I was expecting more. But then again, I also wasn't. I said it myself, everyone who followed the drama last year isn't listening anymore and they don't give a shit. But I think a second chapter of this is a good idea, since after all, I purposefully left out some things from the first that I would like to explain.
DianaNotDead chapter 1 . May 21
LOL
And this is, unironically, exactly the kind of review I thought you'd leave. And, you know, I quite honestly forgot which trolls do like me and which ones don't, so you might have to remind me if we're on good terms or not.
FICRAILER chapter 1 . May 21
Dr. Yappianna Yappington with a PhD in Yapology, go back to Yapford University.
I was almost hoping someone would point this out. My message was like 70 percent yapping. And I was even thinking about this yesterday. It could pretty much be shortened to just "I'm back, and I recognize the fact that people don't really give a shit anymore, and I'm just gonna do whatever the fuck I want." Should have made a TL;DR section like I did for Confession. I'll even admit that the yapping wasn't completely unintentional; I do have a tendency to get caught up on a specific point I make when I'm writing something and write 5 extra paragraphs to elaborate on it.
Arika 24 chapter 1 . May 21
Who are you, Redstripe the troll?! GO away!
Who are you, Arika the screaming and crying baby? Yeah, I'm Redstripe the troll and unfortunately I'm not thinking about leaving any time soon. Sucks to be you I guess.
So now that we're done with all that, we can move on to the things that I was hoping people would ask, but they obviously didn't, because they either saw no point in asking them or saw no point in engaging with my message at all. And I certainly don't blame them. Kinda like how there's no point in me writing this. But I feel like doing it, so I'm going to.
First question is WHY. 'Julianna, you said that trolling was a chore. You said that you had started to fade out from the site after a while and you were glad to finally start forgetting about it. You said that you don't get a dopamine rush from doing anything on here and you claim to know the result of every action you take on the site, so it's no longer interesting or exciting to you. So WHY have you come back to troll again? Couldn't you have simply made the responsible choice to continue down the path you were on at first and leave fanfiction behind forever?'
The answer is painfully simple. Did I mention in the last chapter that I had come back, yes. But did I specify exactly what I was here for? No. I lightly brushed over the topic and left the rest for everyone to infer, because I knew for a fact people would assume that I'm simply returning for yet another trolling spree and that it'll just be a repeat of last summer. I'll bet you money that at least 5 people have already blocked this account.
Thing is, I'm not here to troll. As I mentioned, I've lost sight of the line between posting something stupid and trolling. I don't really care what makes someone a troll anymore, and I'm not going to put effort into trying to be one. And that does mean that a lot of the shit I do will probably be trolling. But everything I post will simply come from me getting a funny new idea and wanting to stick it here. My goal is to make this a lot less deep. The people who would write essays in hopes of inspiring me to make a change have given up and realized that they will never see that change happen within this site. (And I'm not saying the things those people wrote were meaningless to me. Bilbz, ResX, even 878t, I have all of their messages and more saved in google docs. But the results will just never show online.) And along with this, I've also given up on writing my own essays. Really, nothing that happens on a site like this should evoke such an emotion in someone that they feel the need to write over six thousand words to discuss an issue between themself and other users on the site rather than actual fanfiction.
So, long story short (I sense a bit of yapping going on), The reason why I've come back is because this site is familiar to me and I have funny ideas that I think are best expressed here in particular. And it's also a place where I just don't care about whether my actions are helping or hurting people, because in general I've moved on the phase where I just slander someone's name or attempt to bully them off the site for fun. It's about personal fun, and it's none of my concern anymore whether that personal fun offends people or not. I'm not going to bother other people unless they bother me.
The second question is... have you really just given up on your life? Do you really not have anything better to do over the summer? And will you come back every year until you die?
No, no, and no. I mean- come on. I think that if someone had asked those questions, they would most certainly believe the answer to all three is yes. But I don't think there's anyone out there who would expect me to answer with yes.
There are a lot of times I thought about giving up on life. The school I go to does NOT fuck around when it comes to projects, deadlines, homework, etc. And the schoolwork combined with personal issues such as my tendency to procrastinate until the last minute, damn-near crippling depression and dysphoria, that's quite a bit, you know. But I'm guessing this isn't the kind of answer most people are looking for. What people likely want to know is if I just stopped caring about growing up and living a successful life and turned to things like trolling on the internet because they were easy and gave me more dopamine. And all I have to say about that is that I've seen way too much and been through way too much to genuinely believe in that sort of thing.
OH SHIT, I LEFT FOR A COUPLE HOURS... new reviews, more fun! I'll get back to my explanations in a bit. I think it's funnier to have the portion of this written in the early afternoon be left unedited, so that'll all just stay how it is.
cloudstorm10 chapter 1 . 3h ago
stop writing etc you selfish cur
Guy couldn't keep it in the pms, so I'll just copy-paste what I said to him in there. Oh, I'm blocked anyway. My bad I guess. You just gotta give up on me at some point, honestly. It's been almost TWO YEARS! Why do you keep coming back to me after I've played my betrayal game with you like four times! Good golly! This is the type of guy who would look up if you said "there's a big sign on the ceiling that says 'gullible'."
DianaNotDead chapter 1 . 1h ago
Oh look, three retards are in your reviews. LOL
Now, now, let's not call them retards. More reviews, more fun! Review response segments are usually the best part of posting a story on here, even shitty messages like these.
Guest chapter 1 . 1h ago
Welcome back! You've been so missed. I was wondering when JJ Dicklong would post another review on my stories or write a fic where I'm being raped. By the way, the name Redstripe will never go. And it's so funny that you think you can change. WE were at peace for a long time, and now it's ruined. i can't wait to see what you'll do next, redstripe. bring it! I hope it's funnier this time
Thanks for the warm welcome, whoever you are. It's good to see you too, and I hope maybe you can share what your account really is, though I won't pressure you for it. I'll ignore everything you said about JJ Dicklong and the rape fics, since those have long since faded into obscurity and I already mentioned that the pure slander and bullying doesn't really interest me anymore. I do agree that it's funny I think I can change. And that's a rather interesting point that I probably would've forgotten to discuss if it weren't for your review, so thank you. I did mention something about change in the last chapter, and it's interesting that I say something like 'I could mention all the ways I've changed' when I don't even know what I mean. I think that I have a different way of looking at this site now, but off the top of my head I couldn't think of even one way I have genuinely made a big change in my life. I guess I'm just feeling a bit better now than I was around this time last year.
Let's also discuss how the name 'Redstripe' will never die. Yeah, you're right. And I know that people are obviously thinking 'Redstripe' when they see my accounts as long as I stick around here. The only reason I included my little note on it in the last chapter was to see if people would start addressing me differently. It probably won't work, but we'll try it anyway. That last sentence was a motto I made up for a little game I was developing recently. I do not have nearly the amount of javascript knowledge required for the level of coding I was trying to do there.
'We were at peace for a long time'. This interests me. In what way was I ever at peace with anyone? Just because I was absent from the site for four months doesn't mean that everything I left behind wasn't still sitting around for people to be reminded of it. People were finding accounts of mine that were abandoned forever ago and recommending others to block them, during the time I was gone. The stain I've made on this site during the years of 2021 to 2023 will never truly go away. And I suppose that's a bit of a shame, but I can't say I really care anymore.
Well, that's all for that segment. Now let's finish up the last couple bits of question two. This is getting way too long for me to think of any other questions, so let's just wrap it up.
Do you really not have anything better to do over the summer? And will you come back every year until you die?
I think the question about having better things to do over the summer is something that I can actually say yes to. But, only to a certain degree. Because the thing is, I could certainly do many things over the summer. And I do. In fact, this summer I'll be busy in a couple photography classes at an arts center in my city. I'll also be busy with therapy once a week and a couple support groups. But the time I have to myself aside from those activities can be spent in any way, and last year I chose to spend it trolling on the internet. This year I'll probably be busy with the site as well, though not nearly as often. You can say that this is a sad way to spend my time. And you're probably right. But unfortunately this year I've decided to do what I feel like doing, and if I have time to kill, you can bet this will be one of my go-to activities. That's just the way it goes.
And will I come back every year until I die? That's generally a silly question. I will not come back every single summer until I am physically unable to, no. I'm also not going to provide an estimate for a specific year in which I believe will be the year I stop coming back. I'm going to be on this site when I think I can get some level of fulfillment out of it. Eventually I will decide that there is no more fun to be had here. But then I might decide five years later that there is some more fun to be had. I'm not worried about being consistent, not at all.
It's all like a big play, and this is the beginning of a new act.
Thanks for reading this mess, which you probably didn't. Drop some more reviews and I'll respond to them in chapter three. The real fun will start on the 7th of June when I am finally done with school.