"Dreams...what..."
"Sst... Appa...sleep."
The vague discussion of a twins slowly disturbs Changbin's dream. He woke up, positioning his head towards the wall clock, ignoring two toddlers who were looking at their father.
The twins wear a white short-sleeve shirts combined with black knee-length pants, suspenders and a bow ties.
"Good morning, Appa!" Junior poked at his twin brother's elbow. "Bokkie, doesn't greet?"
"Morning, Pa." Yongbok perforce to greet his Appa.
Changbin didn't respond to their greetings. He stretched out his body, took a towel, and immediately went into the bathroom across Felix's room.
Remaining twins in the room, Junior sits on the end of his daddy's bed. "Bokkie, sit down."
Yongbok occupies the side of the bed that Junior patted. The two identical toddlers then communicate using their secret language while swinging their legs. For a dozen of minutes, Junior jumped out of bed, towards the door moved down by someone.
"Appa!"
The man dressed in all black went through Junior, tidying his hair in front of the hanging mirror. He's not responding neither looking at them, as if the twins weren't there with him.
"Changbin-hyung." Jisung called from the ground floor. "Bring Junior and Yongbok for breakfast."
Not saying a word, Changbin followed by two chicks go down to the kitchen, filling their hungry stomachs.
At ten past forty-two minutes, Felix's body was buried at Waverley Public Cemetery in the eastern suburbs of Sydney. Not many people visited the 17 hectare cemetery, considering that Felix's funeral was held on weekdays. The funeral was brief and closed, attended by the core family and a pastor to pray for the departed soul.
In front of Felix's children, Minho and Jisung agree not to shed their tears, unlike Changbin who openly shows his sadness. No matter how disappointed he is, the pain of Felix's death beats his anger towards his beloved's affair.
"Appa." A subtle touch felt in one of the palms of the man surnamed Seo. "Why is Appa crying?"
The man wipes water droplets in the corners of his eyes without answering the twins' question.
"Your appa is crying happily because your daddy is waiting for his prince in such a beautiful place." Minho pointed at the sea behind his brother's grave. "Look at that view, isn't the sea look so beautiful?"
The blue sea, almost identical to the color of the sky, is bounded by a horizon and cumulus clouds. The sound of the waves roared, hitting the rocks at the edge of the cemetery. A swirl of wind mimics the waves, crashing through the skin of all humans present there.
"Uncle's right, the sea is beautiful." Yongbok confirmed Minho's words.
"By, Father Matthew wants to talk to you," said Jisung.
"What is it, Father Matt?" Minho joined in a light conversation between her husband and the pastor who presided over Felix's funeral.
"Appa, Junior wants to pee." Junior grabbed his appa's pants.
"Hyung, take Junior to the restroom. Our conversation is still ongoing." Jisung gave an ultimatum to his brother-in-law's ex lover.
Changbin was forced to accompany Junior to a the restroom located far from Felix's grave. During the journey across the Coastal walk, misleading whispers scuttled Changbin's ears.
"Leave them here, they're not your flesh and blood!"
"F*ck Felix's regret, he betrayed you!"
"Leave, leave them, leave the bastard, Seo Chaangbiinnn!"
The Devil's whispers brainwashed Changbin, urging him to complete the plan at this second.
"Junior, would you like to look around the area?"
Junior was so happy, his father talked to him first. He dumped his need, didn't sniff out Changbin's evil intentions.
"As long as it's with Appa, wherever it is, Junior wants to go!"
Changbin took Junior's hand, down to the bottom of Coastal Walk. There was no one around them, he freed Junior's hand, turned away leaving him there.
"Appa? Wait." The older twin followed his father. Unfortunately, his appa's footsteps are longer than his.
Tuk. He tripped over the stairs because he was rushing after his father.
The opportunity didn't come twice, Changbin ran away with all his might.
"Hue! It hurts." Junior rose independently, forcing his injured leg to chase after his father.
"Appa! Wait for Junior!"
The father didn't stop walking, no mercy with the husky cry of his son that was drowned by the roar of the waves.
Junior fell again, tripped over his own leg. His bruised arm hit the wooden floor, red fluid colored his two knees. He shouted at his father's diminishing figure, "APPAAA!"
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Changbin's breath hunts, tens of minutes he's spent running under the sun heat. Without feeling guilty, he neutralizes his heartbeat, walks quietly to Felix's grave.
"Leave the other twin."
Devil's whispers begin to incite Changbin when he finds his target standing alone in front of Felix's tomb.
"Pa, where is Junior going?" Yongbok rumblings, unable to find his twin brother's figure.
"Leave him here, leave him, leave him!"
"Why Appa fall silent? " The younger twin observed his father who seems to be in deep thought.
"What are you waiting for? Leave him!"
"Yongbok, do you want to see-"
"Hyung- gosh- Changbin-hyung!" Their pairs of eyes are pointed at Jisung and Minho.
"Hiks..." Junior cried in his uncle Minho's arms. "Why didn't Appa wait for Junior?"
Her facial skin is burning hot. The bow tie is gone, the suspender are loose, the shirts are moist and dirty. Scratches of wounds were engraved on his knees, arms, and forehead, no matter how many times his body has kissed the ground.
"If Junior does something wrong, Junior say sorry. Hiks."
Neither Junior's appearance nor apology was able to completely spread Changbin's hatred.
"Seo Changbin. Can you treat my little Felix more gently next time?" Minho emphasized his sentence.
Jleb. Minho's words punched his old friend's common sense. My little Felix, as Minho calls his only brother.
Desperate by his hatred, Changbin forgets Minho who also feels deep sorrow for his brother's dead. He forgot their uncles who sincere love the twins!
"Yongbok, let's go home." Jisung threw a disappointed glance before they turned their backs on Changbin.
He followed Lee's family to where they parked their cars. Everyone surnamed Lee got in Minho's car. He carried out the turquoise car without throwing a signal on the person surnamed Seo.
Changbin's entered his black metallic black car. He put on his seat belt, squeezed the steering wheel tightly.
"Those kids aren't guilty, you're ultra-fool, Seo Changbin!"
The voice of conscience cursed him who was tempted by the devil's whisper.
"Kill them-"
"SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP, BITCH!
He fights the devil's whispers, banging his forehead against the steering wheel repeatedly. He's not mentally okay. A variety of emotions raged, fighting over each other, trying to overpowering one another.