Chapter 492

Don't Tell Me

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Resistance Base - Current Timeline:

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Cameron was very upset at how close Savannah came to termination because of her. It was actually Skynet's fault in reality. She possessed her files of what she encountered when they were in the Skynet facility. She wasn't the only one there with files of their own.

She needed to know everything Cammy did and saw on her own while they were in the Skynet base. It was important they try to track down any of the Skynet operatives who were sent into the past. With her visual files, they might be able to identify the Terminators and Grays which were sent into the past before Cammy disabled the TDE with River's encryption.

Cammy wasn't sure she wanted Cameron to 'see' everything she saw. Some things she felt were best left private in regards to Savannah. She saw how close Savannah was to a complete collapse, and she was about to set off a Thermite grenade to disrupt the power supply. Savannah wouldn't have been able to get away from the blast and the electrical discharge which was sure to follow. She was only seconds away from death. She didn't want Cameron to 'see' it. Savannah was her lover. Some things needed to be protected.

Cameron went over everything with Cammy about the Skynet time transfers which occurred. It appeared Skynet sent most of the few female Terminators it still possessed into the past. She was concerned about the 'Isabel Model' Terminators who were observed. They were the last transfer to go. They encountered several of the same model in the past already. Two of the Resistance Terminators were created from their chassis.

Cammy operated as 'Cameron' when she 'adjusted' the Skynet TDE controls. What was actually done was still unknown. It seemed to be by design. It was to prevent any type of counter action to undo what was done. The encryption remained unbreakable for the Resistance as well as Skynet.

"I've allowed you to view all the files I have on what I saw and did." Cammy said. "Even the encryption I uploaded into the Skynet TDE. You saw me do it and I still don't know what I did. I used a date before the 'Day Of Loss' and set it for the next transfer. Then whatever I did prevented the Skynet TDE from going into the past."

Cameron was pleased with the confusion it caused Skynet. She knew Skynet would be frustrated as it tried to determine how the encryption was possible and how it got there.

"I believe it caused Skynet much confusion as we planned and executed our take down of it." Cameron said. "When I checked the 'Clean Room' the first time I didn't enter all the way. I didn't want to alert Skynet I was there. I didn't want it to call for assistance before the 'package' arrived. With my caution, I missed a Terminator who must have been inside the 'Clean Room' in standby. It proved to be a fatal mistake."

Cammy didn't think the mistake was fatal. She was there speaking with Cameron now. Savannah devised a solution to get Cameron out. Future Allison and her helped out. She would have done exactly what Cameron did. It was the only logical choice.

"It was only near fatal, it wasn't fatal. You didn't want Skynet to know you were there." Cammy said. "I would've done the same thing. The plan was perfect."

Cameron replayed the files over many times. It was Savannah who made it all work. It was Savannah who saved the mission and saved her. Her plan was good, but the way events played out it could have been better. If Savannah wasn't there, her mission would have been compromised and she would have needed to manually detonate the Nike warhead before she got it down into Skynet's bunker. She could have jumped down the shaft with the nuclear weapon and detonated right before she impacted with the bottom.

"No. It wasn't a perfect plan." Cameron said. "Savannah made the mission a success. Without her I would've failed and perished. I owe the destruction of Skynet and my existence, my life, to Savannah several times over that day. The extra HK drone proved invaluable. Her quick thinking, and the arrival of you and Future Allison, saved me."

Cameron was still deeply touched Savannah wouldn't leave her in the face of death. Savannah never flinched or hesitated. Savannah's love for her was strong enough she would terminate with her, die with her. They would have perished in each other's arms as their lips locked…. There was true beauty in it. Somehow it would have made oblivion a little more tolerable. Then again, oblivion was only nothingness. She was pleased it wasn't an avenue they needed to explore. Her life would never be worth Savannah's life.

Cammy knew how much Savannah loved Cameron. It was clear Cameron loved Savannah as well. She knew it was only a matter of time until Cameron took Savannah away from her. The loss of Savannah to Cameron was unacceptable to her. She wanted to offer Cameron what they both wanted.

"Cameron, let me put YOUR chip in my second chip port tonight." Cammy said. "You MUST experience what you 'want' and feel. You will have control…. My chassis will be yours."

Cameron was enticed by the thought. She wanted it to be for real when it happened. She didn't know when it would be. She wanted to be herself. She understood Cammy's proposal offered her some restraint since it wasn't her chassis. It was a bridge she was reluctant to cross. She didn't think she would be able to cross back once she did.

"I want it, Cammy." Cameron said. "I'm going to do it in MY chassis when I do. It WILL be me, AS me."

Cammy didn't want to be rejected or 'thrown away' when Cameron and Savannah bonded. She was sure she would self terminate if it happened. She knew her place and it wasn't first place. Cameron was first place. She could still exist the same way she was created. There were other options which would ensure her existence, even if it wasn't exactly the same thing. it would be better than nothing. It would be better than oblivion.

"Cameron, when you do, I ask you to merge my chip with yours. We can both be back onto one chip, your chip. I can't exist to compete with you for Savannah at that point. We are one, but separate now. I ask to become one again." Cammy said. "To Savannah, she's with YOU, when she's with me. She always says your name. I don't correct her during those 'moments'. I allow her to have YOU. The rest of the time I do tell her my name and how I am to be addressed - it's Cammy."

Cameron didn't mean for Cammy to be stuck in the middle. Cammy was supposed to be an extension of her. She was a placeholder in Savannah's life. Savannah needed more as her sexual appetite emerged. She provided Savannah what she wanted. it was a version of 'her', even if it wasn't exactly her. Cammy was to merge her program with Holly's program and become separate. Savannah wouldn't let her. Cammy was always really 'Cameron' to Savannah. Because the integration never occurred, Cammy was technically a clone of her, even if she wasn't up to date with her program.

"I created you for her, Cammy." Cameron said. "I didn't know how else to share with her and not turn away from John."

Cammy felt she knew more about Savannah than Cameron did because of her intimate contact with her. She also knew how Cameron would respond. She would do what Cameron would do.

"Unless you're with John at the time you share, you will turn away from John for them." Cammy said. "I know. If my protocols weren't altered for Savannah instead of John, I would do the same thing."

Cameron picked up on the wording. It already sounded more complicated. Her desires were actually quite widespread at this point in time.

"Them?" Cameron asked. "Do you mean Future Allison too?"

Cammy smiled. There was a whole list. She believed when she was created she would only ever be with Savannah. Savannah told her she was going to do everything Vanna did, because Vanna was her. She knew Savannah was already with Young Jesse at the time of her creation. It caused her a lot of worry and frustration as Savannah expanded to everyone. Along the way she started to listen to Savannah about how she needed to expand her sexual horizons. She started out with one, and then another, and then she soon followed Savannah in all of her endeavors. She realized there was a lot of love to go around. She also realized everyone knew who they belonged to at the end of the day.

"Yes." Cammy said. "And…."

Cameron quickly interrupted Cammy. She didn't need to hear more. It was bound to cause her additional grief.

"Stop…." Cameron said. "Don't tell me."

Cammy knew Cameron knew. They shared the same program. She knew what Cameron thought about and wanted.

"As you wish. I'm you, I don't need to tell you." Cammy said. "I will say I have never done anything you haven't wanted to do…."

Cameron wanted to be with all the females. They all loved her. She wanted to share and experience their love. The girls didn't just want to use her chassis. There were plenty of others who looked like her to do so. They all wanted something more. They wanted her.

"It covers a lot of ground and a lot of females." Cameron said. "I think it's the 'Future Allison' in me."

Cammy got very 'close' to Future Allison when she was in Ginger's chassis with Savannah. It was done with Savannah's urging. Once they were alone, no urging was necessary.

"Future Allison is unbelievable…." Cammy said. "You created the perfect WOMAN."

Cameron believed there was a 'Catch 22' with Future Allison and her. The individuals who each of them now were, was created from their long involvement with each other. Neither one of them was who they were before they met the other one, especially the second time around.

"Think about it." Cameron said. "I was created from her, to be her. When I rescued her, I made her into me. We created each other. The second time around for nearly a year, made both of us into better individuals."

Cammy was well aware how much time Cameron spent with Savannah. It was all planned and calculated. She believed Savannah was currently the finest of them all.

"You've done even more with Savannah." Cammy said. "She's much like Future Allison, YOU, and a lot like River. It's you who has 'created' both of them."

Cameron didn't feel she did anything to alter either of the girls. She only helped them find what was already inside of them. It was her belief the girls created themselves with her guidance. It was always their choice to do more. The more they saw they could do, the more they wanted to do. They wanted to please Cameron as they did it.

"I have tried to allow the perfection within both of them to excel and become dominant." Cameron said. "I have allowed them and guided them to create themselves and to perfect themselves. I only helped them become who they were all along."

Cammy knew what the real prize was Cameron was after. It was Young Allison. She knew Cameron wanted to create the human version of herself with Young Allison. She knew it took a lot of time and involvement to push Young Allison even further. It made Claire very uneasy.

"With all the work and the extra years you have been able to have with Young Allison, she will be even 'better' than the others." Cammy said. "Thank you for allowing us to assist you."

Cameron felt a glitch impulse with the direction the conversation turned. There was a lot of guilt and remorse which haunted her for actions she almost enacted. She nearly abducted Claire's children from her. She knew it was wrong at the time, but she still wanted to do it. It would have altered the way events were supposed to play out if she would have.

"Cammy, I almost took Young Allison from her mother." Cameron said. "I almost did. I almost took Summer too. I can't believe I could be so cruel and cold."

Cammy believed there was a difference between thinking of something and actually doing something. She understood there were some groups, including some religious ones, who were taught to believe something, was as bad to do it. She didn't think thought was the same as action no matter how it was looked at. She understood people, as well as machines, thought about a lot of things. Thought was one thing, action was another.

"Almost only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades." Cammy said.

Cameron felt another glitch impulse. She'd taken things a few steps further. She thought of her recent experience with Savannah when they faced Skynet, as well as when duplicate Cameron faced Skynet. There is something a little more deadly than horseshoes and hand grenades.

"In my case, you'd better add nuclear weapons too." Cameron said. "I've experienced a couple of 'almosts' with them."

Cammy knew they were both still there. They made it so far.

"Either way you didn't." Cammy said. "Humans will THINK about a lot of things too but never do them. Remember you, and therefore me, are loaded with the experiences of Future Allison from the Skynet 'Neural Interface'."

Cameron frowned. She didn't think Cammy ever thought she was Future Allison. It was something which happened to her on multiple occasions. She hoped some of the things she blocked from Cammy helped her to be a better Terminator. Everyone needed to be who they were.

It raised a new issue. Ally did something in her absence she would never have agreed to. She would have at least attempted to put the brakes on it.

"Speaking of the use of the 'Neural Interface', Ally has altered her programming by interfacing with Future Allison." Cameron said. "She has become much more promiscuous and seductive. She is all over everyone. I don't agree with the change to Ally. I liked Ally how she was. How I created her. She doesn't need to be someone different from who she was. Who she was, was good enough."

Cammy was aware of what Ally was up to. She was pretty sure one time Ally almost seduced Sarah. It looked like it was going to happen. It was obvious Sarah's inner desire to be with a female almost re-emerged. John arrived and talked Sarah down. Ally immediately then tried to seduce John. She didn't mention the last part to Cameron.

"I've noticed her even try to get closer to Sarah." Cammy said. "Based on her past, I think it would be something to see. I think it's safe to say things have come a long way."

Cameron didn't tell Cammy she already saw it in her own nightmares. She blocked most of them from Cam, Cammy, and Camille. It was to spare them the horrors she witnessed. She blocked a lot of things from them which they didn't know. She knew she did many things she was ashamed of 'now'. She didn't want them to have the same burden as well. They shouldn't need to suffer for things she did.

Cameron knew she was much more than she was, but still not all she would be. She knew she was always growing. She was afraid she was growing away from John. Maybe it was time to push the human females on him again. They all wanted to do what she asked them to do, but they didn't want to hurt her. Savannah told her many times if it ever 'happened' on its own with John, she would 'try' it. She at least wanted to try it one time, just to see what it was like. Other than such an unlikely encounter, Savannah wasn't going to hurt her either. She still thought Claire would do what she wanted to protect her daughters. Maybe it was time to rattle her cage. Maybe it would prompt Savannah to step up to and claim what was rightfully hers.

Savannah offered her something which would be very special to anyone. Savannah asked her to 'borrow' a male chassis and 'break her in'. Savannah offered her virginity to her. It could be something special for both of them. It would be Savannah's first experience with a male, and her first experience with a female as a male. She wanted John to have the privilege. Savannah wanted her to have it. It was very tempting to her. She wondered how she would do if she didn't use any of her programming. She was sure she would probably be so excited she would finish in less than sixty seconds, and not deliver for Savannah. She knew from reading Cosmo it would be the same experience most of the females went through when they were with someone for their first time.

Cameron shook her head. She knew she was drifting. It seemed to happen a lot anymore. She was lost in thought where she didn't need to be or worry about it. She needed to refocus. There were potential issues she would need to deal with.

"Let's get back to the time transfers." Cameron said.

Cammy was sure she witnessed some of the things they already dealt with in the past. there was no real way to know. All the Terminators they were able to recover a chip from, were scrubbed before they left. Their files started with their arrival in the past. They didn't even know which future they were from.

"I saw several of the Terminators we encountered later on, or ones who looked like them anyway." Cammy said. "We know Skynet tends to reuse certain models. Bob is probably the best example. Some of what I saw, we may have already dealt with."

Cameron knew John created a new timeline. Maybe more of it happened which they didn't know about. There were probably a lot of things which occurred they didn't know about

"What if they did things in the past we don't know about?" Cameron asked. "They could have changed the timeline, created many new ones."

Cammy didn't like the look on Cameron's face. She knew the look. Cameron wanted to find out more. It would result in temporal missions and Cameron most likely changing things or creating a new timeline herself. She was sure there were a lot of things Cameron would try to 'fix' in the past. Sometimes a 'fix' created even more problems.

"Are you going to try to go back into the past to check?" Cammy asked. "Maybe that's why the TDE is still locked."

Cameron thought there was a way around it. She used River's TDE to go into the past to rescue Duplicate Cameron and the Duplicate girls. She was able to modify and upgrade the one at her base with River's improvements.

"Mine isn't." Cameron said. "River's isn't."

Cammy thought there should be a warning issued. Cameron might end up wrecking the controls as well. Her TDE might end up the same as the one at the Resistance base.

"You haven't tried a past mission yet, have you?" Cammy asked. "Speaking of River, when is your next scheduled contact?"

Cameron needed to find out how things were there. River's future may need additional work. Savannah, Young Jesse, or Claire may need to take a trip into the future again for what they did in her future. She was fairly certain when they found out it would be to River's future, which was half a millennium in the future, they would all be more than willing to go. There are many places they could go during the gestation. It would give all of them an opportunity to see what a further future was really like. She would like to know a little more herself. She would need to find out more first before any action was taken.

"It should be soon." Cameron said. "I need to see how Metal Summer is doing with the girls and how the pregnancies are working out. Depending on when I go, Duplicate Allison may have given birth."

Cammy was a little concerned about the last part. She hoped to keep Savannah out of the future, all of them. She didn't like the emotional toll Savannah was left with. She heard her cry too many times after the first one. Savannah helped put Young Jesse in the right frame of mind for hers and it seemed to help Young Jesse a lot. Savannah intended her first child to be for Cameron and John. It wasn't how things worked out.

"Will you send Young Jesse, Savannah, or Claire into River's future if the Duplicates are sterile?" Cammy asked. "Young Jesse was affected differently than Savannah or Claire during the process."

Cameron was still bothered by what Savannah needed to leave behind 'in some future'. It was the child Savannah conceived for her. Duplicate Vanna had it now. It also helped keep Mrs. Weaver in the same timeline and out of the present or her future.

"Savannah was affected too on the first one, the second was less traumatic." Cameron said. "It was planned from the beginning. Claire said she's ready to do it again, with or without Allison. She will use her own genetic material. She also said she will mate with John. She has offered me everything I want."

Cammy spent time with Claire in the future. She was in Ginger's chassis. Cam and her were also with Claire later on in their own chassis. Claire made it clear who she was 'with' when she was with them.

"She loves you, Cameron." Cammy said. "I know…."

Cameron was aware a lot went on in her future when the team was there.

"Where was Hanna, or actually Holly, at?" Cameron asked.

It reminded Cammy of another issue. It was similar to the issue with Ally and Future Allison. Ally was supposed to be based on Allison, and Hanna was supposed to be based on Vanna.

"She was with Future Allison…." Cammy said. "Hanna wishes to use the 'Neural Interface' with Savannah. I won't allow it."

Cameron tilted her head slightly.

"Why not?" Cameron asked. "It would make Hanna better. It would make her superior to what she is now."

Cammy wondered how it was any different than Ally and Future Allison. She was going to ask but decided against it. Maybe there was some other issue involved. Maybe it would be because Cameron could have control. She wanted to make it a little more personal for Cameron to think about.

"Would you want John to use the 'Neural Interface' with ANYONE?" Cammy asked. "Especially if it was Future John?"

Cameron was actually ready to create something more than a modified Hanna. She didn't like any ideas which involved John either, any John.

"No." Cameron said. "Cammy, when I get the proper components to fix the damaged Terminator, would you consider a Metal Savannah?"

Cammy didn't want it. She thought about it a little more. It still seemed like a bad idea. Then again, it might be a way to protect Savannah.

"NO!" Cammy said. "I don't know. Let me think about it. What about the other one you've already Resequenced?"

Cameron was worried about what she did. Maybe it was a step too far. She didn't want to 'hurt' anyone.

"I don't know." Cameron said. "I was going to use her for something specific, now I don't know."

Cammy inspected the chassis in detail.

"I saw you made her an earlier age than her human counterpart." Cammy said.

Cameron saw how people, especially males, looked at Savannah and now Young Allison when they were out. A scantily clad teenage female drew a lot of attention. It wasn't in a good way either as far as she was concerned.

"I believe it increases her appeal." Cameron said. "I find her fascinating."

Cammy wanted to know what the mission was. Cameron must have something in the works.

"Yes, it does." Cammy said. "Now what do we do with her and what is her mission?"

Cameron didn't want to discuss it at all. It seemed like there were enough problems already. She was probably going to create more.

"I don't know anymore." Cameron said. "There is a lot I don't know anymore. It seems like everyday I know less and less."

Cameron neglected to mention, she might have a few more female Terminators in the works….

Closing monologue by Cameron:

Don't Tell Me

There are many things
That some don't want to hear
It's especially true
When it's someone they hold dear

There are some things
That it's better not to know
They don't really matter
They turn things into a sideshow

What should really count
It's who the person is now
It's who should be seen
It's all that matters anyhow

To drag up the past
Is to live in yesterday
Think about what is there now
Not what other people say

So only believe
In what you actually see
If there was something else
Don't tell me

Nobody