Chapter 518

As Your Own

Cameron went over everything with John and John Henry. They were unable to determine anything other than what her files showed. John again told her he would still like to be with her, even when she's damaged. It seemed to bother her even more. She decided to leave instead. She didn't want to be with him in less than perfect condition. She was in perfect condition the night she went to his room and spoke with him as she lay on his bed next to him. He ran off with Future Riley to Mexico after he lied to her and said he needed to get some rest. If she was less than perfect, how would he treat her?

She understood what he wanted. For his pleasure, everything would feel and work the same. He might not even feel the sutures which held everything back together down there. It wasn't the way she wanted it. There were other ways for her to pleasure him. They would all escalate. He would always want more until he could dominate and use her body. She didn't want his 'deposit' yet. It was time to go.

Cameron left the Command Center to return to her base. There were a lot of unanswered questions in her mind. She wondered where she was for two days. She hoped to find her bloody and shot up clothes at her base. She didn't have any recollection of going there either, back to her base. She wasn't even sure which vehicle she arrived in. Why were there so many blank spots?

It nagged at her about what else might have happened. Cammy quietly told her there was no strange or unknown DNA inside her private areas in the front or the back. It was a relief to know. Then again, if there was, Cammy could have lied to her. Now she wondered even more. She was sure she could only trust Savannah. She could trust Vanna too. Their love for her was strong.

She was aware she did tell Savannah what she wanted to tell her. It was what she wanted now. It was what she wanted for years. It was hard to create Cammy for Savannah. She wanted it to be her, not a clone who was with Savannah. She wanted Savannah and Future Allison. The two women she 'created' in her own image. The two human women she wished she could be. Instead she would forever be a very scary robot from the future. She could never be real. It seemed unfair.

Cameron faced a few other options. Instead of taking Young Allison into the past, she could take Young Allison and Summer into River's future and make both of them in River's image, with her same enhancements. With abilities like River's, and under her upbringing, they would be the perfect women, literally perfect for John…. She wanted nothing but the best for him. The best wasn't her. She was painfully aware of it. John made it very clear to her on several occasions. The first one was Cheri Westin in school. The second one was Future Riley in John's arms. How could he see more in either one of them, than he could in her? It was one of the reasons why she focused more on her appearance since she saw it was what motivated John.

She noticed some of the drama around Cheri Westin and Jordon Cowan. It was clear the cheerleader was targeted by someone in a very hostile and personal manner. The public nature of it would be traumatic for anyone, especially a teenage female. Whatever Cheri was involved in, it seemed to be a little deeper rooted. She saw John go through her locker once after school. She waited until he left. She went and looked herself. She saw where someone wrote 'Wichita' inside of her locker. There was a fancy car which would pick Cheri up after school as well. There were a lot of unanswered questions and something John didn't need to be distracted by.

There was a lot of mystery surrounding Cheri Westin and Jordon Cowan. It was something she was going to look into further if John would have remained in school. She was sure there was some type of remedial action necessary for whoever was behind the cheerleader's self termination. She still felt bad about not allowing John to attempt to reach Jordon. He wouldn't have had time to actually make it up to the top of the roof before she took her fateful step into eternity. If he would have tried, he would have felt better instead of being angry at her for preventing him from even attempting it.

The incident on his birthday, which she felt no responsibility for as to what happened in the aftermath, changed everything. It allowed Future Riley to step in and make her move. Her mind was drifting.

Something interrupted her thoughts. Cameron wondered why everything at her base was different. She looked around and was surprised where she was at. She remembered leaving to go back to her base. She was sure she did it. Instead she was still wandering around the Resistance base. She hadn't even left yet. For some reason she thought she left earlier and was at her base. How was it even possible? She thought about past events with John at Cahuenga High School. She wasn't even sure why she thought about them. She was somewhat indifferent at the time to private issues with females. It was no longer the case. She didn't like the way many females were treated. It was personal to her now. Maybe it was something she should still look into. She seemed way off base, quite literally. She began to run some tests. It seemed she was emotionally overwhelmed at this point. It was very disturbing.

Riley approached Cameron.

"Do you have a few minutes of free time?" Riley asked.

Cameron was surprised to see Riley there all of a sudden. She didn't realize Riley followed her around the base three times. Maybe she spotted her at some point and it's what made her think about Future Riley. As much as she wanted to put all the blame on Future Jesse and Future Riley, she knew John was just as guilty. They may have set him up, but he took the bait, hook, line, and sinker.

"Yes." Cameron said as she looked around.

She was sure she was at her base, but she wasn't. She knew she went there. How could she still be at the Resistance base? Riley was standing in front of her, so it kind of narrowed it down.

The two silently hugged and Riley led Cameron back to her room. She followed Cameron earlier. She thought Cameron was looking for something or someone but she never stopped. She just kept walking so she followed Cameron to make sure she was OK. Cameron finally stopped and it was when she approached her.

Cameron welcomed the embrace. She scanned Riley and could feel her heartbeat. It allowed her to know what was real or not. Riley was real. She could 'feel' Riley was a little apprehensive. She didn't know Riley was concerned for her as she wandered around the Resistance base several times.

She wasn't sure what was happening. Maybe she created some problem she was unaware of. If she said or did anything to Riley, she knew it was going to cause a bigger problem. She told Riley to speak up if she ever felt she treated her unjust or unfairly. Maybe this was the product of what she told Riley to do.

Cameron long ago made 'peace' with Riley in her mind. She knew Riley wasn't Future Riley, even if she was. She wasn't in this case. It was much the same way she protected Young Riley in the present. There was no contact with the family, but Young Riley was always watched over by one or more Terminators. They remained in the background. It was the same treatment afforded to Young Kyle and Young Derek. The Reese brothers didn't want their younger selves associated with the Resistance before it was necessary. They wanted them to have a 'real' life, especially Kyle.

Riley led Cameron to her room.

Cameron felt quite a bit of apprehension as she followed Riley. She was sure she must have committed some type of offense, said the wrong thing, or did the wrong thing. She didn't put herself above doing any of them to anyone. If she did, she would at least like to remember what it was so she wouldn't repeat it.

Derek waited there for them. He looked rather glum. As soon as he saw Cameron he smiled and gave her a hug as well.

Riley sat Cameron down.

Cameron was more than a little worried. There were two of them now. She briefly looked around to see if either one of them carried a Taser. If they did, she didn't spot it. If Riley wanted to bring her down, she could have done it when she was at the furthest reaches of the base. There were several blank spots in the security system. Nobody would know what happened.

Derek and Riley sat across from Cameron. They faced her as they held hands. They appeared very determined about something, even if they were uneasy about it.

Cameron was unsure what she was about to face. She was afraid she may have offended both of them in her damaged condition and retained no recollection of it. She searched her files but there was nothing. She wondered if Riley was sent to bring her to their room, because she may have been apprehensive if Derek tried to get her to go there.

She thought maybe she should apologize first. She already started to do it with the others. She figured it she might as well get it out in the open and over with. She really didn't know what was wrong with her much of the time.

"If I did something to offend, or hurt either of you, I'm sorry." Cameron said. "I was damaged…."

Riley and Derek looked at each other. They both teared up.

Cameron thought maybe she offended them worse than she thought. The thought bothered her even more.

Riley felt terrible to hear Cameron start to apologize to them. It wasn't what this was about. It was about so much more. Cameron always tried to be there for her. Cameron's act of fellowship meant a lot to her.

"No, Cameron." Riley said. "You've never done anything to offend or harm us. You've only ever shown us friendship, respect, and love."

Cameron tilted her head slightly.

She quickly reached out to scan Riley. She was afraid something was wrong. She didn't notice anything wrong when she scanned her earlier. She wanted another check in case she missed something. Maybe she wasn't back to one hundred percent yet as she thought.

Riley was used to being scanned by one of the Metal girls about every hour. She actually looked forward to the contact with them. She felt it made them closer. Sometimes she tried to have as little on as possible when she knew they would be around. A few times she was naked when one of them arrived. She liked how they looked at her. She knew they made a visual scan of her as well. She was very different from Vanna, Allison, or Jesse.

"I'm fine, Cameron." Riley said. "Cam and Cammy have both been by about once an hour. Everything checks out good."

Riley knew Cameron was worried about her. She didn't mind. She knew they all tried to help her and care for her. The attention was nice too. They all made her feel better when they interacted with her. He knew everyone kept a little bit of space between her and them, except Cameron. She hated Future Riley for it. What a Bitch.

Cameron was at a loss as to why she was there.

Riley took Cameron's hand and gently kissed the back of it and placed it on her belly.

Cameron became worried. She started to scan Riley again, everything seemed normal.

Riley could see Cameron was somewhat distressed. It wasn't her intention.

"Cameron, you have done so much for us and for everyone." Riley said. "You're the backbone of the Resistance. YOU are the one who makes everything work."

Cameron went to pull her hand away but Riley held it firm. She remembered when Sarah pulled her hand away from their next door neighbor Kacy, it was at the second house, when she held it on her belly for too long. She wanted to scan the life inside of her as much as possible. She thought it was amazing how one human could make another one.

Riley looked deep into Cameron's questioning eyes. She still held Cameron's hand firm to her belly.

"Cameron…." Riley started. "Cameron, I want you to have this baby for your own, as your own."

Cameron tilted her head slightly again.

Derek figured he better get his speech in now, in case he choked up later on and couldn't get it out at all.

"We both talked it over." Derek said. "We both agreed you should have this child as your own child, Cameron. We wanted to do something for you which showed how much you mean to us."

Cameron tilted her head slightly the other direction.

"It's what we both want for you, Cameron." Riley said. "It's a gift to you. It is OUR gift to you, so you may have your own child."

Cameron was unable to respond. It was something she never expected. She was aware it may be the only chance for Riley and Derek to have a child. They were, no, Riley was, willing to give up her only baby to her, a machine. A machine who wanted to terminate Riley in every timeline she went to. She knew she wasn't worthy or deserving of such a 'gift'. Not when she wanted to personally terminate Riley before. The sense of guilt and remorse flooded her. The very thought of the act repulsed her now. She wasn't the same Terminator anymore, even if she was.

Derek and Riley exchanged glances. Cameron seemed to have shut down. Her face was expressionless. She didn't move or say anything.

Derek thought of calling John or Savannah.

Suddenly, Cameron burst out crying….

Derek and Riley were both taken by surprise. They expected Cameron would have some type of positive reaction. The reaction they witnessed wasn't the reaction they expected.

Savannah cried after Cameron left her room. She knew what SHE wanted and she knew Cameron could only do so much. Her programming held her back. Her directives didn't allow Cameron to be who she now was. They were killing her instead. Her directives and programming were 'strangling' her. They caused her great internal conflict and stress.

She stripped and looked at herself in the mirror. Her body was almost back to 'normal'. She did have a few small stretch marks on her abdomen. The flab was gone and she was mostly fit and trim again. She worked hard to get her firm body back for Cameron and John. She wanted to make sure she was at her best when she 'shared' with them. Her breasts still hadn't returned back to their 'normal' size. She wondered if they would stay larger. She thought so the first time too. They didn't. They went back to their 'normal' size. She actually preferred the smaller size. It was her normal size. It was what she was used to looking at on Vanna, Hanna, and herself. Her clothes just seemed to fit better.

Savannah thought about the future. She wanted both Cameron and John and they both wanted her. How was all of it supposed to work? She saw it work in the future. There it needed to work. There were no other options. They all needed each other. It made the stress of the future easier to bear for all of them. It made all of their lives better. They all had several individuals they could share with and be close to when they needed someone.

She went and looked at Cameron's wedding dress. Should she wear the dress or should Cameron? She decided to put it on. Cammy asked her to try it on every now and then. She didn't know Cammy did it at Cameron's insistence. She didn't know as soon as the dress fit properly, Cameron wanted her to be married to John for real. Very seldom did she try it on, on her own. She looked at herself in the mirror. Is this who she was? Is this what she wanted? She really didn't have an answer for either question.

The first time she tried it on was when she heard people say Cameron was 'gone' and wouldn't return. She believed Cameron would come back. If Cameron didn't, she needed to be ready. She promised Cameron she would wear the wedding dress for John. It was still too big for her back then. Her body hadn't developed enough yet. She knew exactly what Vanna looked like, and it was what she would look like. At the time she just wasn't there yet. She definitely was now. She understood it wouldn't matter to comfort John. It was the function of the female body, at least parts of it. It was in her head somewhere. She knew it would happen later on anyway. There was no point to wait, if John needed her then. She was ready.

She was intelligent and knew what comfort John would seek from her. She was ready to explore the path. She was aware there would be some discomfort at first, and maybe always since she was still young. It didn't matter. She promised Cameron and she would allow John to seek pleasure with her to comfort him. She expected to be pregnant in the first few months as she offered herself to John every night to soothe him. She was sure it would cause a problem with Sarah and Vanna, but she would do it anyway. It was her duty to help protect the future.

The future was the future and it was going to happen anyway. It was something the others would need to accept. She did. They all knew how it was in Cameron's future. It wouldn't be any different in the present.

Savannah knew she needed to wait. It was OK with her, because she knew Cameron would be back anyway, even if the others didn't believe it. They didn't understand Cameron was invincible and eternal. She did. She believed it. Her love for Cameron wouldn't allow her to believe anything else.

She wondered if anyone would ever want her. Maybe they would only want what she could offer or provide to them. They still might not want her.

Savannah wanted to wear this dress for John originally, now she wanted to wear it for Cameron. She wanted to wear it for BOTH of them. She wanted to wear it for herself.

She adjusted her hair and made herself look Tight. She did everything Cameron taught her, her makeup was perfect. She knew she wasn't the one to judge, but she thought she looked presentable.

Savannah heard some talking in the hall and thought Cammy was on her way back. She would ask Cammy how she looked. She went to open the door for Cammy.

As the door opened, John stood there with his hand raised about to knock. Sarah appeared to have just walked away from John. It must have been the female voice she heard. Cammy wasn't in sight.

John and Savannah both stood there speechless. John slowly lowered his hand.

Their eyes locked. They could both feel it. It was happening. It was time….

'I Saw Her Standing There' by 'The Beatles', flashed through John's mind….

Savannah silently took John's hand as it slowly lowered and led him into her room. She closed and locked the door behind them.

John watched her lock it. He knew what IT meant. She wanted him. He sucked in his breath slightly and swallowed hard. He couldn't turn down what she offered him.

Savannah led him to the mirror and moved next to him. They both faced the mirror. Neither spoke a word. Words were unnecessary. Their bodies would do all the 'talking'.

John could feel the moment build. It was like it did with Future Riley. The tension was always in the air. The question was never asked, but the answer was always right there between them. The night in the truck it finally happened. Now it was the same thing. The wedding dress seemed to say it all.

"You're beautiful, Savannah." John said once he finally managed to speak.

Savannah smiled.

"You're very handsome, John Connor." Savannah replied.

They both turned away from the mirror and looked at each other.

Savannah glanced at her bed and John followed her gaze.

They both understood….

Savannah looked back into John's eyes.

The words just slipped out of her mouth.

"I do…." Savannah said.

John was a little confused. What did she mean? Was it what it sounded like?

"I do?" John asked.

John was unsure of what just happened. He knew the events there were rapidly spinning out of control. He knew this is what Cameron SAID she wanted. He wondered if Cameron was behind it. He still thought about his options when he realized Savannah started to remove his shirt.

Savannah slid it off his bare chest. She turned and he slipped her out of her wedding dress, his pants seemed to be removed at the same time.

They were both in their underwear. Savannah turned slightly. John unhooked her bra and slid it off. Savannah turned back and faced him again.

John took in her perfect figure and her ample breasts. He really got a good look at her super pink nipples since they were right in front of his face. He really wanted her virginity. He wanted to be her 'first'. He wasn't Future Riley's 'first' and Cameron was sure she was 'used', even if there was no proof of it. He was aware Cameron kept Savannah isolated to insure he would have her 'first'. The fact she delivered two babies didn't matter. She was never with a male before. It was what he wanted.

Savannah really couldn't stop herself. It was time to get 'popped', even if there was nothing left to 'pop' down there. Young Jesse and a dozen females took care of it. It was along with the two babies. It was time she became a woman. She was well past 'old enough' now. She was a little worried about how snug she still was. She asked Cam and Cammy to 'check' with Vanna and let her know if childbirth 'affected' her. She read in Cosmo it seemed to happen to some women. She didn't think it would matter too much on their first coupling. It would be driven by excitement, love, and lust. John would finish in less than two minutes on their first time. She didn't expect to finish herself. Ninety percent of the females didn't finish on their first time with a male. She was aware about thirty percent of females never finished at all.

She was glad she learned how to finish at an early age. She never knew it was Cameron who 'conditioned' her as she slept to begin to 'explore' herself and what her body could do for her. There was a voice in her head which always 'told' her to keep going and follow the feeling past when she thought she 'needed' to stop. It allowed her to finish. From then on she knew how to follow the feeling until its climax. Cameron wanted her to always have the 'desire' for 'more'. It worked without her ever knowing how or why. She was very promiscuous with all of the females. It was probably because every encounter was rewarding for her in the most satisfying way.

John and Savannah were being swept up in the moment. It was all happening so fast and naturally. It was the 'Natural Order' Cameron always spoke of. It was beautiful….

Each slid the other underwear off. They joined the pile of clothes on the floor.

Savannah pulled the bed covers open. It indicated to John what she wanted, what THEY wanted. There was no question about it.

It was an 'open invitation', quite literally.

Savannah held John and pulled him down with her, on top of her, as she lay on the bed. She didn't need any foreplay. She could feel her body respond. She was ready right now.

She wanted to tell John she was technically still 'unspoiled'. She wanted it to be a special moment for both of them. It could only happen once. She knew already having two children, HIS children, would have left no 'proof' of it….

Savannah briefly wondered if she was in the window to get pregnant again. She knew she should wait a few more months but it was happening and it was happening now….

Whatever happened - happened.

Savannah was ready and she could see John was too….

John couldn't stop himself at this point. He knew it was going to happen. His body responded and was ready for the coupling. He wanted to get Savannah 'warmed' up, but there was no time to do it. He could tell she wanted him now. He didn't want the moment to slip away. He wanted to be her 'first'.

He was already positioned over her. She urged him on. He was just about to the right spot. He could feel everything was working. It was clear Savannah was ready for him. He would still try to take it slow at first since she wasn't used to the same type of sexual activity. Maybe she was. He knew there were plenty of 'marital aids' out there. He also didn't want to finish in thirty seconds. It was about where he was headed right now if he didn't slow down.

John was ready for the interaction.

Savannah was ready to become a woman.

John and Savannah both knew that their bodies were about to become 'one'….

It was about to happen. Nobody could stop it now.

Closing monologue by Cameron:

As Your Own

There are many things in life
That one will collect
Not everything that is obtained
Will one be able to protect

It is the accumulation
Of many material things
That when one loses them
It hurts and stings

Some acquire another person
They treat them as a belonging
To be so cruel and callous
Will soon leave them longing

Nobody wants to be a possession
That's not a way to share
One needs to be open and caring
They need to take the dare

When two work as one
The seeds of love are sown
Through respect and trust
They treat each other as their own

Nobody