NCIS: LOS ANGELES...
NOT THAT DIFFERENT
DISCLAIMER:
NCIS: Los Angeles and charaters do not belong to me.
Not That Different sung by Collin Raye does not belong to me.
SUMMARY:
Kensi and Deeks are having a movie night at his apartment, he tells her something before she leaves. What does Deeks tell her and what will happen?
CHAPTER 12: CONVERSATIONS...
When Marty returned, his first stop was the kitchen where he thoughgt about grabbing a couple of beers, but decided against it in case one thing led to another.
He grabbed a couple of bottles of water instead and went back to the living room sitting down next to Kensi.
MARTY'S LIVING ROOM...
"So...you want to talk?" Marty asked handing her a bottle of water. "Water...seriously."Kensi asked accepting the water from him. "Yeah, I thought it would be best to have this conversation sober." Marty replied with a shrug. "That doesen't have anything to do with the fact that you might be hoping for something else?" Kensi asked raising an eyebrow.
"Maybe, but I want us to talk." Marty said and Kensi was taken aback at how serious he was being.
"Marty, you said in the car that...
'We've been on two dates and we've told each other I love you.'
...I never said I love you. So where did you get that from?" Kensi asked and Marty smiled for a second, before becoming serious again.
"Do you remember what you said when you turned up at my door a week ago yesterday?" Marty inquired and Kensi thought back to that night.
FLASHBACK *
"What are you doing here?" Deeks asked with sadness in his voice, he noticed she was crying and wanted to wipe the tears away.
What held him back is the fact that she had rejected him two months ago.
He couldn't decide if he really wanted to know or if he wanted to just close the door.
"I laugh, i love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear I cry and I know you do the same things to. So we're really not that different me and you.
I'm sorry, Deeks. I should've listened to my heart, but I'm scared of losing you if something happened. These last two months of us not talking have been toture. There is no one that can compare to you." Kensi stated, letting her eyes fall to the ground afraid he would now reject her.
* END FLASHBACK
"The words you said to me...
I laugh, i love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry and I know you do the same things to. So we're really not that different me and you.
...Kens, those words I told you that night you said you couldn't give us a chance, because you were scared. When you said thoes words to me. I heard you saying I love you and I trust you. I know we've only been on two dates, but I want to know how you think of us." Marty explained.
"I-I'm not sure...I know something has changed and I guess I'm still getting used to it..."
Kensi admitted as she looked down at her hands, because she was unsure right now that she could look him in the eyes.
...You want us together and not just as best friends or work partners." Kensi stated and this time she did look at him.
"Yeah, the day you came into my life at that MMA gym...everything changed for me." Marty told her, putting his hands on either side of her face and leaning forward to kiss her.
At first Kensi was surprised, but then felt herself kissing him back.
Pretty soon Kensi was lying on her back on the couch as Marty hovered over her and started kissing down the side of her neck until he reached her collarbone, it was then Kensi let out a moan.
Marty pulled back as he realized where they were headed and looked into her eyes.
"You changed my life the day I met you...you gave me hope of something I thought I had give up on after being hurt in the past." Kensi said her voice just above a whisper.
"Kens..." Marty began, but couldn't seem to think what to say next.
"Marty, we've both been hurt in the past, but maybe that's what makes us work the way we do. I didn't mean to imply earlier today that you liked me abusing you and...I-I'm sorry." Kensi said still looking into his ocean blue eyes and Marty sat up as Kensi sat up beside him.
"It wasn't your fault, Kensi. I guess I should've said something sooner, but I swore I would never be like my dad. No matter how much any woman hit me or hurt me...I knew I would never hit her back. Because if I did I would be the same monster he was.
I-I never understood how he could do that or how any man could think of hurting someone so much. He was supposed to love my mom and me, protect us and take care of us. So what happened to make him the way he was?" Marty asked looking away from Kensi feeling the tears in his eyes.
"Hey, look at me..."
Kensi said taking Marty's hand, but he didn't look up.
"...Marty look at me." Kensi repeated. "What if deep down I am like him and I end up hurting you? I love you, but..." Marty stopped as the tears started to roll down his face.
"Marty, I know that you love me and what you dad did was not love. I can tell you and so can a lot of people that you are nothing like him. You are one of the best men I know, you can't let that man win by thinking you are like him in any way." Kensi said taking his hands in hers and when Marty finally did look at her with tears falling down her face, she reached up to wipe his tears away.
"I-I guess you're right, Princess." Marty said with a watery small smile and Kensi smiled back.
"Are you good now?" Kensi asked. "I'm a little better...thanks." Marty replied before leaning over to kiss her once more.
Kensi kissed him back and felt the kiss becoming more heated by the second.