BPOV
"Yeah!" Carlie said to him, and he smiled back.
I couldn't believe this was happening!
I had always been so afraid of this... And now this was happening, and I had no idea what I was feeling right now...
I had spent the last month fighting with myself over whether to let him meet Carlie or not...
He was an asshole, but he was her father...
I hated him, and he hated me, but he might not hate Carlie...
He had a right to meet her.
They had a right to know each other...
Finally, I gathered the strength and called him before either of us lost our cool again and change our minds...
And this was real!
I felt like smiling... I felt like crying... I felt like hugging them... I felt like kissing them...
Stop!
Stop!
Just... Stop!
I shouldn't be feeling all these emotions!
It was just a co-parenting... We just had to figure out a way to make this easier for everyone...
But... What if I had told him right on that day?
Things might have been so different!
I said, stop!
Just stop!
I needed to talk to him.
I needed to tell him.
But how was he going to react?
He hadn't even called me back in a month.
Usually he'd call, but this time he didn't...
But we broke up, right?
But was that it?
Were we done?
Did he get tired of me?
Maybe I was at fault too?
But he was not willing to understand me!
But I needed to tell him!
And I was finding it really hard to live without him with each passing day!
No, I needed to go to him!
I needed to apologize to him!
I went to his home the next day, and to my utter shock, a woman opened his door. She looked completely disheveled.
I felt someone stabbed me in the stomach!
How could he do this to me?
Didn't he say he loved me?
He was such a liar!
I stormed inside the house and I couldn't believe it! He was in his shorts and he was sleeping peacefully! He was literally snoring!
"Edward...Edward... Get up! I said, get up!" I shook him.
Like, our relationship and our future were at stake, and he was sleeping!
To my surprise, he grabbed my hand and pulled me on top of him.
"What are you doing? Just let me go." I said.
"Hmmm..." He said as he kissed my hair.
What the fuck was wrong with him! He just fucked someone and now he was kissing my hair!
"Edward... You're disgusting!" I said as I tried to free myself from his grip.
"I was right about you! I should have never trusted you!" I said as I got up. "How can you sleep with someone else?"
"What do you mean?" He said as he opened his eyes, "We broke up a month ago. And what are you doing here?"
Really?
"And you're just moving on? Just like that?" I asked, "I was right about you! Everyone was right about you!"
"Look..." he said, "Don't talk to me in that tone."
"Who is she?" I asked.
"That's none of your business." he said.
Really? It was not my business?
"I... I need to talk about something important." I said, "Ask her to leave."
I wasn't even sure why she was still standing there!
"No, she's not going anywhere," he said.
Really?
"I'm going, guys." she said.
"No, you're not going anywhere, Jessica." he said.
Jessica! Who was this Jessica?
"My name is Lauren," she said.
What?
You gotta be kidding me!
Why had I fallen for him! He was an asshole!
"I can't... with you!" I shook my head, "You're disgusting."
"Look..." he said.
"Bye. I had a great time." Lauren said as she left.
I felt like grabbing her by pulling her hair and slapping her! I wasn't sure what was wrong with me!
"Look..." he said.
"You're disgusting." I said.
"You've no right to shout at me. We broke up!" He snapped.
"You're an asshole!" I said.
"Anyway, just tell me whatever the fuck you wanted to say!" He said.
No!
I couldn't say that to him now!
No!
I needed to know if he ever cared about me or not!
"Can you tell me something before that?" I said, "It's really important for me to know."
"What?" He said.
"Did you ever love me?" I asked.
I needed to know this.
It was important.
"What sort of bullshit question is this?" He said angrily.
"I need to know." I said.
He had told me that he loved me, but... I wasn't sure!
"Well, I might have loved you at some point," he said, "But I regret every single moment of it. You're an insecure woman, and I'm better off without you."
He could have stabbed me, and that might have hurt less than this!
"Thank you." I said, "That's all I wanted to know."
"What did you want to discuss?" He asked.
"It's not required now." I said.
"Look... I've told you plenty of times... You don't have an ounce of trust in me."I said, "And with this type of trust, I don't think we can make a long distance relationship work."
"Because it takes an effort to make a relationship work." I said.
I felt my voice had become so low now.
I felt like crying!
But I didn't want to cry in front of him!
"And what kind of efforts I didn't put in?" He said, "I came to spend time with you whenever I could."
"You had been lying to me." I said, "You..."
"Because you don't trust me!" He snapped, "You think I fuck the every single woman I meet."
"And that's what you do." I said, "I just saw that!"
"Because we fucking broke up." he shouted.
"And... You just moved on." I said.
"Yes, I did." He said, "And I'm glad I did."
"Alright then..." I said, "Good bye."
"Bye." He said.
I stormed off from there, and he ran after me.
"Bella... What did you want to discuss?" he asked.
"Nothing." I said.
"Bella, please..." He said.
"Just... Don't." I said, "It's over."
This time, I meant it.