Hi! I'm so excited to announce that I'm finally on Tumblr! You can find me there by my username aliceparrilla18. This story is a prompt fill for "If you don't know where to go, you can always come here" created by creativepromptsforwriting. English is not my main language, so as always, I'm sorry for all mistakes. Title is from the song "Home" by Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros. Hope you'll like it! Enjoy!
Cody was on his way to his room after checking on the troopers when he saw Obi-Wan. The other man didn't notice him, too deep in his own thoughts, and, unaware of being watched, continued to slowly walk down the hall. It was already very late and he should have been sleeping instead of wandering aimlessly around the ship.
Cody sighed. He knew what day it was.
The anniversary of the death of Kenobi's master.
He didn't get to meet Qui-Gon Jinn, and Obi-Wan rarely mentioned him, but Cody knew that even though their relationship wasn't the easiest, his General was deeply affected by his master's death and never truly stopped blaming himself for it.
Cody knew his General well enough to be sure that whatever happened, he had done absolutely everything in his power to prevent it. There was no doubt in his mind about that.
Only it wasn't enough. Not today.
Cody slowly approached Obi-Wan, taking loud steps so as not to scare him by sneaking up. When he finally noticed him, Obi-Wan smiled softly at Cody. His back was slightly hunched and his shoulders were slumped as if the weight he was carrying on them was threatening to drag him down, and his eyes lacked their usual spark. He was clearly tired.
"Hello, Cody," he said. "What are you doing here at this hour?"
"I could ask you the same question." Cody smiled sympathetically as he watched Obi-Wan desperately try to hold back a yawn. "Why aren't you in your quarters? It's late. You should be resting."
Obi-Wan looked down and started playing with the sleeve of his tunic, making himself look like a child.
"I can't sleep", he answered with what Cody knew was honesty. "My quarters are painfully too quiet today."
Cody felt a pang of guilt in his chest. His duties had kept him busy throughout the day, so much so that he had no time for Obi-Wan. He knew it wasn't his fault - he was a commander, the General's second hand, and he had plenty of things to do.
This logic, however, could not drown out the thought that on a day like this Cody had left Obi-Wan completely alone with his pain and grief. On a day like this, Cody should have been by his side to share this grief and offer some much-needed comfort.
Cody grabbed Obi-Wan's hand.
"Come with me," he said. He didn't say anything else, and Obi-Wan didn't ask, he just let Cody lead him.
The Negotiator's corridors were almost empty, only a few troopers from the night watch passed them along the way. Cody held Obi-Wan's warm hand firmly in his. He really didn't care if anyone was watching them. He didn't want to pretend anything. He didn't want to hide. The war had proven to him too many times already that life was too short for such things.
When they got to his quarters, Cody opened the door and dragged Obi-Wan inside with him. He looked at the other man and squeezed his hand.
"How about you go to bed and I'll make you some tea?" He always kept a box of Kenobi's favorite tea in the cupboard just for occasions like this, although he wished they could drink it under other, better circumstances.
Obi-Wan gave him a tired smile and squeezed his hand back.
"Okay," he nodded in agreement and walked away.
While waiting for the water to boil, Cody removed his armor and placed it neatly in its usual place. By the time he had changed into much more comfortable sleeping clothes, the tea was ready. He took the cup in both hands, careful not to burn himself, and went to his microscopic bedroom.
Obi-Wan was laying on the bed, wrapped in Cody's blanket up to the tip of his nose. He wasn't asleep yet. Cody sat down next to him on the bed and handed him a steaming mug.
"Here, have a drink."
"Thank you, dear."
After taking a few sips, Obi-Wan placed the cup on the nightstand and moved closer to Cody. Cody lay down on the bed, getting comfortable on the pillows, and allowed Obi-Wan to partially lie on top of him. Obi-Wan buried his face in the crook of his neck and placed a hand on his chest to feel the beating of his heart.
"I'm sorry I wasn't there for you today," Cody said, wrapping his arms around Obi-Wan. Obi-Wan's hair tickled his chin as he shook his head.
"It's not your fault, Cody."
"Still. I know it's been hard for you today. I wanted to be there for you."
"I know and I appreciate it. I'm glad to be here with you now."
Cody looked around the room, where the only source of light was a lamp on a small desk in the corner. His quarters were small, but he was lucky to have them at all. If he weren't a commander, he would be sleeping in one room with his brothers. Not that he minded much. Obi-Wan's quarters were in a different part of the ship. They normally slept far apart.
In a perfect world, they could live together and wake up next to each other every morning.
But the world wasn't perfect, at least not yet, and until the war was over, what they had would have to be enough - stolen, little moments in Cody's too-small bedroom.
"You know," Cody ran his fingers through Obi-Wan's soft hair. "When something happens, anything, when you ever need me and I'm not around... If you don't know where to go, you can always come here. For me, this place is the closest thing to "home" and I want it to be your safe place." At least until we can build our own home together, went unsaid.
He felt Obi-Wan move and looked down to meet his gaze. His blue eyes were still filled with sadness, but in the dim light Cody could also see gratitude in them, and something much more precious, that not so long ago he would never even dare to dream could be his.
Obi-Wan leaned down and placed his warm, soft lips against Cody's in a most tender kiss. Cody closed his eyes, kissing back, and placed his hand on Obi-Wan's cheek, gently stroking his skin with his thumb.
When they pulled apart, Obi-Wan snuggled back into Cody, and Cody rolled over so he could hold him even closer.
A comfortable silence fell between them. Cody knew that if Obi-Wan wanted to talk, he would. For now, they could lie in each other's embrace.
It was all they both needed.
