BPOV
"No... No, it's not okay..." he said desperately, "Isabella, I swear... I didn't want to hide it... But when you mentioned her yesterday, I thought I shouldn't mention it... We have barely started talking and I didn't want to spoil it because of the stupid hook-up I had with her once..."
"Edward... I'm not under any impression that you didn't have any relationships or hook-ups in the past decade... Of course, you had and that's okay..." I said, "I've had hook-ups too..."
Even if they were just pathetic attempts of 'trying to move on' and nothing else!
"Yes... But this is someone you know... And you should know about it..." he said, "It happened during our first college break.. Do you remember I texted you if you were coming to Eric's party?"
Yeah... I remembered that...
That was the last time we talked...
"Yes..." I said, "And I said that I've moved on after going to college, and I really don't want to do anything with my school friends or past..." I sighed.
Why was I so stupid and adamant?
"And that had made me so upset..." he said, "I still had hopes... But when you said that... It hit me that we were actually over... There was no scope for reconciliation! It made me realize that 'distance makes hearts grow fonder' was just bullshit and we were actually... over!"
There was so much pain in his voice... As if he went back there and he was reliving those moments...
"Edward..." I said, "I'm... I'm really sorry... I was really stupid! I didn't want to face you when you weren't mine... I thought it'd be better if I never meet you again... I thought it'd make everything easy..."
"And I didn't even try to think about it from your perspective..." he said, "I was hurt... And when Jessica made the move... I... I gave in eventually... I'm sorry..."
"You don't have to be." I said.
Why did it hurt so much when I said that?
What if I had acted a bit differently?
Would we have not lost so much time then?
Would we have made it work?
There were so many questions... of which probably I would never get the answers!