Adrien has every right to ask these questions, even if they are hard for to answer. Still, when I talk about Cat a chasm opens up in my heart, making it ache. "Can we move on to lighter topics?" I ask.

Adrien sits up, standing up and offering me his hand with a gentle smile. "I know your not feeling the best, but I think we could both use a distraction." I grin, my lips still singing from his kiss. "Yeah, me too." He laughs. "No, I need to go the stationary store to pick up a few things and we can make a detour at Starbucks, if you like." His eyes twinkle with humor.

"Okay, first of all," I tell him as I spring up, "You should know about my coffee addiction and secondly, what do you need with stationary?" "Uh-uh, I'm giving away all my secrets, but I need a...ladybug's advice at what to choose."

Adrien's right, I do feel better as we head out, holding hands. Adrien buys my coffee and then is off to the stationary store.

"Oh, this is a lot of pink," Adrien looks a bit overwhelmed as he runs his hand through his tousled blonde hair when we step inside the entrance. "Coward," I tease. "Just start browsing and eventually you may end up with something you like." "Yeah," he surprises me by pulling me towards him for a kiss, "and she's standing right here." We bump noses and giggle, kissing quickly.

We decide each of us will take one half of the store, divide and conquer as it will. I love the purple pads with the little black cat with the curled tail and caption that reads "Paws and Paper". Cat.

I'm glad its a quiet time of day, because my eyes are suddenly swimming in moisture and I let the tears slide down my cheeks. I miss the sound of Cat's laugh and voice, his puns, the way he made me laugh with a twirl of his leather belt tail or the jingle of his golden bell.

If I would have just been brave and said two words, maybe he wouldn't have left. Its sad how at times couples have a hard time saying "I love you" for the first time because of shyness while my words were "Spots Off."

If I could breathe in the scent of leather, having his arms around me one more time, purring softly, I would take it and be grateful. The chasm opens further, like an angry cat that has unsheathed his claws and I clutch a arm around my middle.

"Hey, what's this, tears?" Adrien is suddenly by my side and I hold up my stationary knowing he'll understand. "Oh, honey." Adrien gathers me in his arms, and cuddles me close. "I just miss him so much," I sob, thankful Adrien's shirt is dark so he won't have to explain the growing wet patch on his shirt.

"Hey, look at me. Its going to be okay, love. Let me dry your tears," he whispers. He kisses my wet cheeks tenderly, where each dewdrop has fallen, accidentally giving me a little lick at the end. "Thank you," I whisper, our heads now close together. "Thank you for being the strong one today."

Adrien advises me to take a nap when we get home, but I feel restless even if he is just downstairs, and burst of inspiration hits me and I make my down to my desk.

Rain taps at my window,

Hiding my view of you.

But you are safe in my heart,

Darling, I love you.

Golden like the sun rising,

Your hair is mesmerizing.

In your eyes are the depths of green,

I could get lost them, for with you I am home.

Kiss me like the first kiss of springtime,

Warming the ground and melting away the snow.

In your smile like a finger of sunlight,

Set my heart and lips aglow.

After each love poem she wrote, Ladybug sealed it in a pink envelope then sealed it with a kiss.

Downstairs, Adrien was also busy writing while waiting for the tea kettle water to boil.

I call you Little Bug,

But I should also call you

Bluebell with those eyes so blue.

Oh, how I wish to swim in the depths of their beauty,

Knowing how much I love you.

You give me stolen glances and blushes, thinking I don't see.

You may think does he see me anyway, and yes, my love, I do.

I will catch and send you kisses, blown upon the wind.

I seal my envelopes with kisses,

One thought upon my mind.

My heart has sealed away my love for you,

In the vault it is safe.

You are the key to happiness, you only unlock my heart.

The kettle begin to whistle and Adrien looked up. He had always loved writing poems after all. Ladybug came downstairs, looking tired but happier, and Adrien gave her a gentle smile.

"Tea, my love?" he asked, holding up the kettle. "Yes, please. But you can't have tea with cookies," I give him a wink as I pile some on a plate.

While we wait for the tea to cool, Adrien slides a package of what looks like letters all bundled up with a string towards me. "Oh, did the mail come already?" I ask. "I wrote you some things," Adrien blushes. "Read them when I'm not here, okay?" "What, did you write me love notes?" The blush splashed across his face gives my answer. "Don't worry, I wrote you some too."

He takes my hands, stroking my thumbs softly with his own. "Feeling better?" I nod. "Yeah, the nap really helped. Also, I'm really glad your here."

We end up playing video games after our snack, and Papa challenges Adrien to a game while Mama and I make dinner.

I don't want Adrien to leave when its time for bed, though morning's not that far away. My letters! At least I could read one before bed right? Or maybe when things get tough, it will encourage me to face the day.