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*POV ALICE*
Jasper doesn't say anything the whole ride home. Nor does he say anything when we get there. He exits out the house and heads for the woods. I run up to my room, ignoring Esme who ask how my day went. I put on some music and sit down to draw. A simple drawing of simple times. I get a vision of Jasper deciding to leave. I jet off to find him. Following his scent, I didn't consider that all this was truly too much for him. I quickly find him, sitting on a rock with his back facing me. I know he senses me, but he doesn't say anything.
Alice: you can't leave Jasper. It would hurt the family.
Jasper: it wouldn't hurt the family. They only care for you.
Alice: that's not true. Jasper, it would hurt me.
Jasper: would it really? I'm sure you'll be ok. You have Bella.
Alice: Jasper, it would hurt me if you left. Bella is just my friend…
Jasper: you keep saying she's just your friend but it sure doesn't feel that way, she damn sure doesn't see you that way Alice. And let's be honest Alice, you cannot even stay away from her.
Alice: Jasper…
Jasper: if I asked you to choose, would you choose me?
Alice: don't make me do that Jasper.
Jasper: because it would be Bella?
Alice: because that's not fair to me. You know about my vision. She's important in my life.
Jasper: I thought I was important in your life? If you want me to stay. I want you to stay away from Bella. You can be her friend from afar.
Alice: Jasper…
Jasper: I won't change my mind. If you want me to stay, I want some distance between you and your little friend.
I slowly walk up to him. Tired of having a conversation with his back. I sit down beside him.
Alice: ok Jasper.
He doesn't say anything, he doesn't even turn to face me. He just holds my hand and we both sit in our thoughts. I think about what I have to do and if I could I would vomit. But I can't lose Jasper. I can't lose Bella either but at least she's not threatening to leave. It would just be a while. Once Jasper is secure again, I can be her friend again. After about an hour we head back to the house. I return to my room and he heads out for a drive. I hear the others arrive and I decide to leave. I don't need Edward hearing my thoughts. I run, as fast as I can to my hill. The one place I can think freely. With no one hearing my thoughts or feeling my emotion. With no one in my face asking me if everything is ok. I stay till I see the sun come up. Taking my time heading back home. I see Jasper outside waiting for me. He has anger written all over his face and I know he thinks I was with Bella. I walk up for him to be able to smell that I wasn't. He finally smiles. The pretty boy smile that I've always loved to see.
Alice: I meant what I said. I'll keep my word to you. I have to go do something. I know you won't like it but it's something I have to do. I have to shower before I go. But I'll see you at school.
I don't wait for him to speak. I just head up to my room to get what I need. I already know what I'll say. It hurts that it has to be this way but it's what I have to do. When I walk up to the house, I see Charlie leaving. I slowly walk up to her car. Smelling her scent right away. I take a deep breath before putting the note on her car. It's almost heart breaking to walk away. I feel the air choking up in my throat. Air that I don't even need, yet here I am trying to breathe it in. If I could, I think I would be hyperventilating. I shake my head clear and run back home. Everyone but Esme is gone. When I cross the doorway into the living room, Esme takes one look at me and rushes to wrap her arms around me. I break, everything hits me. I try to turn off my brain and feelings, but everything hits me like a brick wall. She soothes me but she's not the arms I want around me. After what feels like forever, we break and I start to head for the stairs.
Esme: Alice, love isn't suppose to hurt.
Her words make me pause but I don't reply. I head for my shower. When I come back, Esme is gone. School awaits and I'm already late. I know the teacher won't care but I'm sure Jasper is waiting for me. Sure enough, he's waiting by Rose's car. I notice that Bella's car isn't there and a part of me breaks, thinking about her reaction to the letter. I don't sit in my thoughts for long, Jasper is at my door with a smile on his face. I can't help but to smile back, feeling all the love. All his sorrow from yesterday, gone. We slowly walk to class and he gives me a long hug before leaving me. I take a deep breath knowing what's about to happen. Edward heard Jasper's thoughts. And I'm sure Jasper did that on purpose.
Edward: what the hell Alice? Why would you do that?
I see the anger and hurt all over his face.
Edward: do you know what you just did? And for what? For the big man baby that can't stop being jealous.
Alice: Edward…
Edward: no, don't bother.
He doesn't say anything else. He doesn't even look at me. I don't expect anything different. I look for Bella, hoping she's ok.
Edward: stop looking for her, you don't get that right anymore.
I don't reply but I stop looking. After class I run back to my car. I still don't see Bella's car. I fight the urge to go to her house. To look for her. I know Edward will tell the others and I know their anger will be just the same. I text Jasper, telling him that Esme asked me to come back home. Instead, I drive to Seattle, hoping some shopping will help. I ask Esme to cover for me with Jasper. She replies of course.
*POV BELLA*
I decide to take Jess to a restaurant right outside of town. It's a restaurant I use to go with Lauren, but I don't bring her up. Which isn't too hard because Jess never liked her anyways. She doesn't bring up Alice and I am thankful for it. Instead, we make plans for the weekend double date. I let her know that Rosalie is suppose to be working on my car. Not sure how long it would take but if anything, we can ask Angela for a ride. She says that she'll let Angela know. We make plans to hang out at the Res with the others. Do some surfing before it gets cold. I don't hear from Alice at all and honestly, I'm not surprised. Not sure if it was my comment or if there was another issue with Jasper. Probably both. After dropping her off, I head home and take a long shower. I check my phone again when I get out. Still not a word. Instead of dwelling on it, I lay down and try to sleep but nothing comes. It doesn't help because I end up debating if I should text her. I told her I wouldn't want to cause more issues for her though. Instead, I call Leah and let her know what's happen. Thankfully, our conversation tires my brain out and I knock out.
The bright ass sun wakes me before my alarm goes off. I had a couple of nightmares but luckily was able to go back to sleep quickly. I get dress and come into the kitchen smelling bacon. Charlie left a plate of pancakes and bacon for me. I take my time eating since I woke up earlier than normal. Also, not wanting to rush Jess. I check my phone again and still nothing. A ping of sadness enters my heart, but I shake it off. Grabbing my bag, I head out the house and rush to my car, realizing I'm not running a little late. I notice the note on my car, the writing and scent is Alice's.
My Dearest Wolfie,
Please forgive me for what I have to do. I have to save my relationship and I hope that when everything is ok, you'll still want to be my friend. If not, I understand. This is all on me Bella, please don't hold this against my siblings. They don't agree with it. In face they aren't even talking to me right now. I wanted to say this in person, but I knew I wouldn't be able to look you in the face. And it feels too personal to send you a text. Plus, in my time, we wrote letters. Again, I'm truly sorry Bella. Please don't be mad.
Much love, Pixie
I read and reread the letter. Taking in her scent and hold back the tears I feel. My wolf feels numb. A hurting numb. A part of me wants to just tell her she's my imprint. But I don't want her out of force.
Jess: hey did you forget about me?
Crap. I take a deep breath and jump in my car. Racing to Jess' house. She takes one look at me and I can't hold it anymore. The tears break. Slowly running down my face. I look away, not wanting her to see me like this. She quickly pulls me into her arms, holding me tight.
Jess: what happen?
I hand over the letter and I see the tears form in her eyes. Her face drops with hurt. Hurt for me. She truly does care for me.
Jess: fuck Bella, I'm so sorry. Hey, let's skip. Go down to the Res. I think we both need a little beach time.
Bella: I don't want to get you in trouble Jess.
Jess: trust my parents aren't worried about me right now. And I'm worried about you. After Lauren. I don't want to see you like that again. So I'ma go get my stuff and change. Then we'll go to your house for you.
I appreciate Jess more than she'll ever know. She's back in less than 5 minutes. I race to my house, run upstairs to change and send Charlie a text that I needed to go down to the Res. No need to tell him anything else. When I get back to the car, Jess already has some music playing and I'm glad it's not a love song. I text Leah and Jake that I'm coming down. They both reply with excitement and I can't help but laugh. The ride to the Res is smooth. We pull up to the beach and I see them already in the water. I grab Jess' hand as we walk down and again, I feel like she's my anchor. Holding me down when my body just wants to float away from here. Jake and Leah come out the water and jog over to us.
Jake: Bella what happen?
Jess hands over the letter to Jake. I completely forgot she still had it. I guess my heart didn't want to hold the letter that broke it. His face falls and he hands it over to Leah. I see the anger in her eyes but when she looks at me, it drops. Replaced with hurt for her best friend. I wonder if I'm holding the same face she had when Sam broke her heart. She moves to hug me, but I step back putting my hand up.
Bella: if you hug me, we'll never get to the water. And right now, I need the water.
Leah: fine but turn off your phone. We're having a phone free day!
They both say ok and we all head back down. The day goes by smoothly and we don't talk about it anymore. We surf, we swim, we make a bon fire and we talk about everything. No one mentions Alice but she's not far from my mind. She's never far from my mind. I wonder how she's doing. I shouldn't care but I do. Leah takes Jess to her house to get us some food. And I appreciate it. We're unable to speak freely with Jess around.
Jake: I'm sorry Bella. I wish there was something I could do.
Bella: what's going to happen? Has an imprint ever rejected the wolf like this?
Jake: I honestly don't know Bella. You'd have to speak to the Elders. Maybe they know something.
Bella: I can't speak to them without telling them about Alice.
Jake: you can probably talk to just Billy.
Bella: out of everyone, Billy hates the Cullens the most.
Jake: yeah, but he loves you more Bella.
Bella: I'll consider it.
Jake: she'll come around Bella. One way or another. She has to. Every imprint feels the pull. Sooner or later.
We don't speak on it anymore. He starts telling me about the guys and the girls join us soon. Jess invites Jake and Leah with us this weekend. They both say they'll go. And I can't help but appreciate Jess even more. Angela is her best friend, but she knows these 2 are mine. I catch her looking at me here and there. She's probably worried I'll break down again. But I won't do that. This is a happy day. They're all working hard to make me smile and I appreciate them for it. I won't be a Debbie downer. Had they left me to my own devices, I would've been in bed drowning in my sorrows.
Jess: I hate to cut this short, but I have to head home Bella. Can't wait to see you guys this weekend!
Bella: I'll see you guys later. Jake, hold it down.
We talk and joke around on our way to her house. She still doesn't bring up Alice and I'm thankful. She gives me a hug and tells me she'll see me tomorrow. I head home jamming to some music. I decide I'll make dinner and do a workout, maybe go for a run. Cooking has always made me feel better. By the time I hear Charlie's car, I realize I've been cooking all afternoon.
Charlie: did you lose your phone?
Bella: crap, sorry dad. I turned it off and forgot to turn it back on.
Charlie: Bella, what's going on?
Bella: guess I should tell you. I imprinted on Alice. But she just wants to be my friend. Honestly, I don't even know what we are. She's with Jasper and he doesn't want her to be my friend. She wants to save her relationship so we're currently not speaking.
Charlie: the imprint thing I figured. Her spending the night and all. I'm sorry she doesn't return the feelings. Wait what does that mean for your wolf?
Bella: that we don't know. Jake suggested we talk to Billy. But you know he hates the Cullens. Hell, we don't even know what it means for a wolf to imprint on a vampire. It's never happened.
Charlie: if he knows something that might help. We need to speak to him. I'll be there so don't worry. I'll call him tomorrow.
I just nod at him, not really looking forward to the talk. He goes upstairs to change and I grab my phone to turn it back on. 16 calls and 10 messages. Besides Charlie, Edward, Rosalie and Emmett.
Rose: now look who's skipping class or are you late?
Edward: Rose wants to know if you're skipping or just ignoring her.
Edward: I saw what happen. I'm sorry Bella. I didn't know she was going to do that.
Rose: Edward told me. Want me to kill her?
Emmett: miss you buddy. Here if you need me.
Rose: Bella please answer us. We're all pissed and worried about you.
Charlie: you good kid?
Edward: please answer us. Let us know you're ok.
Jess: I enjoyed today. Though it started on a bad note, I hope we helped. Let me know if you need anything. See you tomorrow good looking.
Rose: I'm sorry you're hurting. I know there's nothing any of us can say. But please don't shut us out because of things between you two. Just let us know you're ok. I hope to see you tomorrow.
I sigh and consider what to say. I'm glad I didn't see these while I was out today. It would've ruined the day. Guess I should reply. I text Jess a thank you and that it helped more than words can say. Let her know I'll see her tomorrow and we will be going to school. I decide to text all 3 together.
Bella: I needed a personal day, but I appreciate all you guys. Please don't fight with her. I don't want to come between your family. I'll see you guys tomorrow. Good night.
Rose: you're lucky you answered. I was about to show up at your house.
Edward: you're very lucky. She was planning many ways to hurt you.
Bella: I hope you were going to save me if she did.
When Charlie comes back down, I put my phone up. We enjoyed a nice dinner. He tells me about the things going on at the station and I tell him about my day. The rest of the night is pretty chill, we catch the last 2 quarters of the game before heading up to bed. I tell Charlie I need to go for a run and he tells me not to stay out too late. I nod and head upstairs to change.