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Super Hero
When you think about it, this world is strange... Of the millions of men on this planet, why does it have to be Toy, my ex-lover, who broke up with me during college for a simple reason of
"Toy broke up with Chris because she wouldn't let him do it. That's why he cheated on her. End of story."
Nat said that during our video conference call. I didn't know who to talk to, so my friends are my best outlets.
"Does this mean that Aontakarn lets him do it? Is that why they were lovers?"
I glance at Meen, frustrated. I'm the imaginative type. I can picture it clearly. Yes... right now, an image of Toy and Aontakarn doing it in a condominium somewhere is in my head.
"Idiot."
"Ouch. Damned. Why are you cursing me'?"
"How can you say such things? They haven't done it... probably." I bit my lips with uncertainty as I said that. I don't know why my heart aches when I say it. It aches so much that I have to put my hand over my left chest. My action is under the watchful eyes of everyone on the screen. It makes Ern smile.
"Who are you possessive of? Toy or Aontakarn?"
"Who's possessive?" I bare my teeth at the screen. "I'm just frustrated."
"Who makes you frustrated? Toy or Aontakarn?"
Of course, I'm frustrated that Aontakarn was with Toy. But it's not possessiveness because I don't have any good impressions of Toy. We were together for a short period of time. I didn't even cry. I just lost my confidence a bit that he was with a girl from another faculty without even breaking up with me properly.
Bastard...
But aside from that, I'm also surprised that my new phone has his number.
"I'm concerned about Karn. Though they broke up... Toy buying an ad must be partially because of 1Carn. I don't want Awww Awww to go soft on him."
"Ah... you're concerned about Aontakarn." Meen crosses her arms across her chest and winks at me through the screen. "You're openly concerned about her these days. And what was that... Awww Awww?"
that."
"Hey... Toy is a womanizer. I'm not okay with
"But its none of your business, no?"
"Why do you think Batman, Superman, and Marvel heroes have to save the world, though it's none of their business? It's because people hope that..."
"Those heroes like to butt into others' businesses. Nat is munching mangoes and talking without regard for the good in the world. "If you butt into her business, you will be one of those who like to stick their noses into others business."
"I just care."
"Sure./Sure./Sure."
Everyone looks as if they ate some poisoned seafood. It frustrates me that no one follows my train of thought, so in the end, I hang up and walk over to lie down on my bed to think of the old days...
when I was with Toy.
I was in the communication arts faculty, while Toy was in business administration, majoring in marketing. We met during the hazing activity and talked for a bit. Toy was a good-looking guy. He was a smooth talker, while I was very naive. When he was praising me left and right, I easily agreed to be his girlfriend.
Ah... I was young then.
For me, being a lover meant that he was a male friend who was a bit more special than just a friend. He can hold my hand, and we can do things my other male friends can't, such as lie on my lap, go to a movie, eat out, and confess our loves. My naiveté probably frustrated my ex-lover a lot. So in the second week,
Let me stress on that... second week.
Toy told me frankly on the phone, like someone who can't wait,
"Let's go to the beach."
"Good idea. I like the beach. Let's do a day trip. My parents don't allow me to spend the night elsewhere." I also told him this outright. But Toy was more direct. He immediately objected.
"No. We will spend the night, and... you will have to sleep with me."
"Huh?"
"I won't beat around the bush. We're adults now. Going to the beach and doing it is normal."
Normal, my ass. I strongly object because I was not raised to be that free-spirited.
"So you're inviting me to the beach so that we can do it?"
"Yes. Everyone does it. Even if we don't do it now, we will in the future anyway. What's the difference?"
"Of course, there's a difference. I'm not ready, and we just met. Are you crazy?"
"Fine... you can use your mouth."
"Son of..." I lost my voice at the end of that cursing. So, I then say, "No."
"Then that's it."
I wasn't sure what "that's it" meant. Was it the end of the discussion or our relationship? Until a few days later, I saw him with his arms around the waist of a girl from another faculty, acting like we didn't know each other. So that's why I'm concerned about Aontakarn getting back with that guy.
I have to get in the way. I must!
After I'd given it a lot of thought the entire night, I decided that I had to talk to Aontakarn about Toy. We are shooting another review clip at Tho's house. And yes... Aontakarn, the key person, will be there.
And she is...
I, who waited for her, don't know what to do. Yet I've already crafted my opening greeting, which would allow me to get right to the point. So when she shows up, I immediately walk toward her to start a conversation, which is a rare occasion unless it's something very important.
Yes... this is important.
"Kam... Can I have a moment of your time?"
"Yes?"
I sweep my hand in the direction of the outdoor area of the house. The sweet-faced woman seems surprised, but she walks after me willingly. Our confrontation today is kind of awkward.
"What is it? Why does it seem so secretive?"
"It's about our sponsor."
When I say that, Aontakarn doesn't look so good.
"What about it?"
"I don't agree with your ex-lover being our sponsor just to try to make up with you. Honestly, it's disappointing..." I try not to make it personal. I cannot simply refuse the deal on the grounds that he is a womanizer who enjoys having sexual relations with women. That's too silly. "We all work hard. Therefore, it's not ideal if our first major sponsor is someone who wants to reconcile with a woman... You understand how I feel?"
"Yes... I understand."
"So, I think it's better if we turn the offer down."
"I'm trying to talk to Tho, Jeth, and Puth, but they don't want to pass up on the huge amount of money."
"That's okay. I'll talk to them. It's better if we don't mix personal with professional issues."
"Yes."
Aontakarn acknowledges it and is about to walk into the house. I can't help but wonder about something. It's what's been on my mind since I talked to my friends last night. So I blurted out a stupid question.
"Do you love him?"
The sweet-faced woman's feet come to a halt. She turns to look me in the eye...
"Is that important?"
"Of course it is. If you do, he will not go away easily. You should put out the fire before it spreads... Don't contact him, and stop paying attention to him." I say that with determination. It makes Aontakarn make a noise in her throat.
"Aren't you butting into my personal business too much?"
"What?"
"Even if I still have feelings for him and want to get back together with him, it has nothing to do with my job here. And maybe getting a sponsor means that our content is really good, not because he has a hidden agenda of wanting to reconcile with me."
"So you will get back together with Toy."
I start to become frustrated because the conversation doesn't go as expected. When Aontakarn hears the name 'Toy,' she turns back to stare at me furiously.
"How did you know that his name is Toy?"
"What?"
"How did you know that my ex's name is Toy?"
"Ah... Puth told me." I scratch my head and try to change the topic. "You already broke up with him.
Why are you getting back together? Don't you feel anything about going back on your word?"
"You..."
"Why are women like this? He just made a modest effort to by to make up with you, and you go soft. So easy."
"Chris!"
Aontakarn's scream stuns me as I'm lashing out. But I don't want to lose, and I really want Aontakarn to smart up and no longer get involved with that bastard.
Yet, Aontakarn's neutral stance, as if she's hesitating, stresses me out. It surely means she will reconcile with him. Does she know that he's a womanizer? His aim is to destroy every woman on this planet, except for his mother.
No! I can't let this cute woman, Awww Awww, who's an obedient child, be harmed.
"You have to break up with him."
"Stop butting into my business. It's none of your business..."
"Why can't you do this simple thing? Or is it because you..." I say this in agony as an image flashes in my head. "You already slept with him!"
Slap!
My face turns due to the force of Aontakarn's slap. It shocks me. I started to realize that I had crossed the line. The petite one, who slapped me, appears as shocked as I am.
"This is my personal business. Stay out of it!"
Aontakarn quickly puts her hand down and walks into the house after saying that. She leaves me standing here with tears in my eyes because I'm grieving.
Why is a super hero who only has good intentions always hated...
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