Chapter 4: Disapointment

The day after, they were at Bueno Nacho after a hard day at

school.

"Now tell me, Kim," Ron began at Bueno Nacho as he happily devoured a burrito and Rufus wallowed in the cheese sauce. "Tell me who she is? Is it someone I know?"

"Yes, you know her," Kim replied. She knew she had to tell him the truth.

"And who is it? Is it Monique?"
"No".
"Is it Bonnie?"
Kim choked on her drink and coughed. "No! Of course not!" "Then who is it?"

Kim knew she couldn't keep him on torture any longer. "It's Shego."

Now it was Ron's turn to choke on his burrito and cough in shock.

Rufus just looked at Kim confused.

"Shego? Really your nemesis who is always trying to get you down. So I really doubt whether you're still sane Kim".

"Why is that? I know we have a checkered past but..."

"But wouldn't it be better if you fell in love with someone with whom you could build a healthier relationship. Above all, do you really think that Shego will ever return your feelings? Honestly, I don't think that's possible. You're fighting a losing battle Kim."

"Now for a Possible anything is possible". "Yes but really Kim I mean.."

"Well, okay Ron, I haven't told you about my meeting with Shego yesterday," she had actually planned to keep it to herself, but now she thought she could put an end to Ron's doubts.

"Well, what's there to say? After all, you fought like you always did, didn't you?"

"Yes, but something else happened. Shego brought me to the ground. She was on top of me. She could have ended it right away but instead she kissed me. And you know what, I liked it. Shego had seen that, she knows Ron. She knows what I feel for her."

Ron remained skeptical. "Now are you sure? Shego is quite unpredictable. How do you know she's serious?"

"I know it, Ron. I know it. It's my intuition," Kim said confidently.

"Aha, your intuition," said Ron. "Or just your imagination, your wishful thinking and Shego's manipulation. I implore you, Kim, to keep your hands off this woman. This is not the right path for you."

Kim got angry. "What do you know?! I can still choose who I have feelings for and who I don't."

"KP has sense.."
"No Ron, I've had enough of this, I'm going home."

She threw the rest of her salad into a trash can near her table and walked away.

It was already evening when she walked through the dark streets of Middleton.

Angry and sad about what Ron had said, she went to her room. It was already dark.

She had dinner with her family. Kim gave a dutiful smile. Nobody should notice how bad she was feeling. She was afraid if even Ron didn't understand her, no one could.

She had never felt so abandoned and empty as she did today. She ended up crying herself to sleep and dreaming of Shego.

She dreamed of Shego and they were fighting again as they often did, but suddenly Shego was on top of her. She just stared at them.

"Well, Princess, you probably think there's something going on between us. You thought wrong, sweetie."

With those words and her ice cold smile, she knew her feelings were wrong.

Suddenly she was tied up and Shego was torturing her. Cut into her flesh with her sharp nails, hit her chest, her head. Kim spat blood. Shego laughed as she continued to torture Kim. Kim screamed, but Shego's laughter only grew louder.

Kim woke up in horror.

Maybe she was mistaken after all? What if Shego was just manipulating her like Ron said? Could she really not trust her feelings?

She looked at her alarm clock. It was three in the morning. She stayed awake the rest of the night and couldn't get back to sleep. Yes, she didn't dare do that anymore.

The next day, a sad and tired Kim Possible was at school. She had difficulty following the class as she was still thinking about the nightmare she had about Shego.

During the break her friend Monique came to her.

"Ron told me what's been going on with you lately and don't tell me it's not a big deal," she said coldly.

"Well, I was hoping to be able to tell you myself," she said frustrated.

"Kim he's worried about you and honestly you're my best friend of course I'm worried too when you're acting so strange and seem to have lost your mind."

"I haven't lost my mind. Definitely not!" Kim said angrily.

"Really?! I really mean that you're falling in love with Shego. Shego Kim of all people! Your archenemy Kim! Your archenemy of all people! Do I have to remind you that this woman is a criminal who has tried to kill you often enough? Especially you should know better?"

"I know that sounds strange, but believe me, I have everything under control!"

"No Kim, you don't have anything under control anymore."

"Well I know what happened between Shego and I in the last fight. I think she feels the same way about me as I do about her. She kissed me Monique."

"That's what you're telling yourself. The woman isn't to be trusted and she's playing with your feelings. She's manipulating you. Why don't you recognize that or don't you want to recognize that?"

Kim wanted to yell at her, but she suppressed her anger and then said angrily: "What kind of friends are you if you don't want to understand what's going on with me and don't support me?"

"I accept that you like women, okay. With anyone else I would support you. But with Shego... Kim you really went too far with that. Your feelings blind you to the fact that your crush is doomed to fail. I had Hoped to bring you to your senses. But unfortunately I see that I am not able to do that. See you! I hope you come to your senses as soon as possible."

And with those cold words, Monique left Kim standing and walked away.

Kim wanted to call after her, angry as she was. But she refrained from doing so. It just wouldn't do anything.

After school, Kim went home angry that her best friends Ron and Monique had stabbed her in the back. How could they? How could she be so mistaken about people who were close to her?

Full of disappointment, she went up to her room.

Again she couldn't hold back her tears and cried in her bed. Finally, a ringing sound came from her Kimmiununicator, which brought her out of her thoughts.

She wiped her tears from her face with a tissue and greeted Wade.

"Hey Wade, what's up?"

"Kim, I see you're not feeling well. Ron already told me what happened. And let me tell you this: Forget Shego. You won't achieve anything with your crush," Wade said with a cold expression.

Kim was angry. Why were her best friends so mean to her? "Oh Wade I.."

"Kim, we are your friends and we are worried about you. Don't forget that."
After the conversation with Wade ended, Kim felt even more miserable. Was she really lying, was she really deluded and couldn't she win Shego's heart? Was she just kidding her with the kiss? Or were her friends wrong?

It was already late at night when she decided that she couldn't

sleep, her thoughts were constantly circling about Shego and maybe a walk would help her.

She walked around Middleton busy with her thoughts. When she suddenly heard a familiar voice that caught her attention, "Hello Princess, what's up?"
Startled, she turned around and got into a fighting position. "Shego!"