BPOV
"You are not?" A smile flickered through his face.
"I mean... I'm not thinking about it anymore..." I said.
"Oh!" He said as the smile disappeared again, "Can you ever forgive me?"
"Edward..." I sighed, "I don't know... I understand your mental state at that time, but at the same time it has been really tough on me... And you know what? Maybe it doesn't even matter whether I forgive you or not..."
"What do you mean it doesn't matter?" He said, "It does! Can you ever give me another chance? Can you ever give us a second chance?"
What was he going on about?
"I don't know what you're talking about..." I said, "But no! I can't give you another chance... That ship has sailed a long time back... I might forgive you someday, but there is never going to be any 'second chances'..."
"Bella... Please..." He tried to grab my hand, but I pulled it away.
"Look... I know I've hurt you beyond limit... But I understand and accept my mistakes! I'm going to keep apologizing until you forgive me... I'm willing to do anything it takes me to have you back in my life..." He said.
"That's never going to happen!" I said.
"Bella... I know you're shocked to see me right now... Do you want time? I'm willing to wait as much as you want me to..." He said.
"No... There is no point in this conversation!" I said, "I'm... I'm seeing someone else..."
He stared at me for a few seconds, and then he said, "Oh!"
"So... Things are serious with your boss?" He asked.
Excuse me?
What did he just say?
How did he even know about it?
"Are you keeping tabs on me?" I said with disbelief.
"Look... I've been trying to get back to you for a while now... But I was waiting for the right moment... I saw you with him last week..." he said.
"You're creeping me out right now!" I said as I stood up from the chair, "Just leave!"
"Look Bella..." He said as he also got up, "Don't get me wrong! I just want to make things right..."
"And you can't decide the definition of 'right'!" I said, "You can't leave whenever you want and you just can't ask me to get back with you whenever you want..."
I realized my eyes had begun to fill up with angry tears now.
"Bella... I'm so, so sorry..." He said as he put his hand on my shoulder, which I shrugged away, but then he put his arm around my waist and pulled me closer.
"Edward... Just leave me..." I said.
"How many times have we been through this?" He said as he looked into my eyes, "How many times did you try to go with someone else to make me jealous?
"It was when we were young and stupid..." I said as I struggled to get out of his grip, "And just leave me!"
"I fucked up..." he continued to stare into my eyes, "I've fucked up so badly this time... But please, please, please give me a chance..."
"You threw me out of your life as if I was some used couch..." I said angrily, and I wasn't able to stop my tears now.
"I'm sorry..." he said, "I'm so sorry for hurting you so much, baby..."
"Just leave me!" I said...
But my voice was getting lower now...
Suddenly all the memories were coming back...
He left me... Just like that.
I had begged him so much to stay, but he didn't.
I had told him it was not my fault...
But he cheated on me... With Irina.
"We have our whole lives ahead of us... And I want to spend the rest of my life with you..." he said, "I will fight for us... And I'll keep fighting until I earn your apology..."
I had told him it wasn't my fault...
I had told him I loved him so much...
I had begged him to stay...
I had told him that I couldn't leave without him...
But he left me!
He left me all alone...
He brushed my tears away and slowly started moving his lips on mine...
He was kissing me...
And I kissed him back...