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If they're are some more mistakes in this one than normal, please forgive me! I'll look over it later, but it's 4:30 AM I'm tired and my laptop is about it die. I wasn't actually going to post this Sunday, but you're reviews just melted my heart and I had too.
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At Esme's insistence, Carlisle keeps me home for half the day on Tuesday. He told me he wasn't too worried about my dreams sighting that I was thinking too much and mentally regressing. He said he believed in time it will stop, but Esme was having none of that, insisting I sleep in and be taken to school before lunch. In the end, Esme got her way and now both Carlisle and I are in the office, while Carlisle signs me in. He's talking to Ms. Cope, but I'm not really listening too wrapped up in my own thoughts when Carlisle rests a hand on my shoulder, I can feel how cold his hand is even through the fabric of my jacket.
"I'm going to talk to Mrs. Hammond, the bells going to ring in a few minutes, go ahead and head to lunch."
"Okay." He quickly pulls me into a side hug before gently nudging me to the door,
"I'm glad you're back sweetheart." Ms. Cope calls, I give her a smile and wave, heading to the cafeteria. I'm halfway there when the bell rings, just as I'm stepping into the cafeteria someone hugs me from behind,
"O my god, Mare!" I dislodge Cody before turning to face her, " Are you okay, my mom said you were in the hospital and were on her floor, but that you were fine. She couldn't say anything more than that, because HIPPA apparently-"
"Cody, slow down."
"You were in the hospital?" Alex stops next to us, "Is that why you were out yesterday?" Cody rolls her eyes,
"Duh?" She grabs my elbow and drags me along to our normal table, "Catch up!" She calls back to him,
"But please, are you okay?" She pushes me into my seat and sits down,
"I'm allergic to lobster," I tell her embarrassingly,
"Wait, really?" I nod, reaching into my backpack to grab the lunch Esme made for me before leaving. I pull out the contents, grapes, peanut butter and jelly sandwich, Mandarin orange, graham crackers, and a bottle of blue Gatorade.
"Is that what rich people eat for dinner?" Todd asks, school lunch in hand, "Where were you yesterday?" I'm not explaining myself again, luckily I don't have to, Cody is here.
"They're called sick days Todd."
"Sorryyyyy." He spits, shoving a piece of pizza in his mouth,
"It was a one-time treat," One time because I'll never get to eat it again,
"What a sucky thing. My brother attends the University of Maine and seafood out there is so cheap, we always get Lobster rolls and clam chowder, it's sooo good." Alex groans, "You don't know what you're missing."
"I do," I say sadly,
"What about crab?" Cody asks pulling out her own brown bagged lunch, I shake my head,
"Nope."
"What are you allergic to?" Todd asks reaching for Cody's Doritos
"Can you play catch up please?" She swats his hand away,
"I literally walked into the middle of a conversation." He defends,
"I'm allergic to all crustaceans, there now you're caught up." I pop a grape in my mouth and chew slowly,
"I'm allergic to cats," Todd adds with a shrug.
"I love cats." Cody sighs,
"Did you just find out you're allergic?" Alex asks reaching for one of my graham crackers. I reach into the package and hand one to him before grabbing one for myself.
"If the hives on my stomach are any indicator then yes."
"Ew." Cody frowns grabbing the graham cracker out of my hand, "Can I see?"
"No."
"Will you show me in gym?"
"I'm not in gym today."
"What? You're going to make me play Hockey all by myself?!" She exclaims loudly. I reach over grabbing the back of her head and bring her face closer to mine,
"Control yourself, Dakota." I hiss, she groans and leans back,
"Was it really that bad, you can't run...Did your throat close?! We're your lungs affected, Mare are you dying?"
"NO!" It's louder than I mean it to be and quickly lower my voice, "No, I'm fine, I just can't really run right now."
"Why?" Alex asks holding his hand out, I roll my eyes and place another graham cracker in it,
"Are you saying that after an allergy attack we can get out of gym, because if that's the case, I'm going out and bringing home the first stray cat I see," Todd mumbles happily through a bite of pizza,
"No, can you guys let it go?"
"No." Cody answers like it's the most obvious question in the world, I grunt and grab my graham cracker from her hand, "Hey."
"You don't get anymore." She frowns, and I hand it back, "Fine." She smiles
"But can you tell me?"
"I fell," When I don't continue she nudges me, "I cut my leg and now I can't run until the stitches come out."
"You got stitches too!" She exclaims shoving the cracker in her mouth,
"You've got bad luck, Cullen." Alex laughs, "Thanksgiving break too." I resist the urge to throw my whole book bag at him,
"Can we just eat?" Cody sighs dramatically,
"Guys, it's Tandy," Todd whispers pointing to a small group of girls passing our table,
"Great." Cody groans dropping her sandwich as if readying herself for war, I quickly grab her wrist, stopping her. She turns to look at me but I don't catch her look, because, at the same time I look at Tandy, she turns to me. Her face is almost unreadable, but she looks at me, her eyes searching my face, and then turns and continues walking to her normal table,
"What was that?" Cody asks shaking my hand off. I look at her and shrug,
"Who knows." I place a graham cracker in her hand and shove one in my mouth. Todd shoves the rest of his pizza crust in his mouth and shakes his head,
"Why are Cullens so weird?"
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"How was your day?" Edward asks, on the way home from school. We've been pretty silent this whole time, I've picked up on the vibe that Edward doesn't want to talk. It's fine most of the time I don't want to either.
"It was fine, I missed my friends."
"Friends?" Edward smirks, this is the first time I've referred to them as such, and unlike last night I don't want Edward to make a big deal about it,
"Drop it." He chuffs and turns back to the road. We fall into a comfortable pocket of silence, I'm expecting it to stay that way when Edward suddenly coughs awkwardly.
"Can I ask you something?" I yawn, the familiar tired feeling settling into my mind, I can't wait for a nap,
"You're going to ask it even if I say no." I lean the back of my head against the headrest and lift an eyebrow in Edward's direction. I pull my lips into a smile, but Edward still has a frown on his,
"Callahan?" He asks carefully and now he has my full attention, my smile falls and I sit up straighter,
"Did you hear me dreaming?" I ask, feeling the heat creep up my cheeks,
"Ya?" His response is quiet, and I turn away,
"Do you know what it means?" I rasp out before quickly clearing my throat. I turn back, Edward keeps his eyes on the road but shakes his head once.
"No, but I didn't like it." His knuckles tighten around the steering wheel, "Jasper's better at feeling things, but...I felt...still." He searches his words, "I didn't like how your dream made me feel."
"How do you think I feel."
"This isn't the first time you've had it." I turn toward him,
"It's not?"
"No," He shakes his head again, "I've noticed you dream a lot about not being able to move or being cold,"
"I remember dreaming about not being able to move my body...I don't remember being cold."
"The human brain is wired to ignore or forget dreams to prevent them from mixing with your memories." I tilt my head,
"Really?" Edward nods,
"You never seemed to be bothered with them so I never brought them up, figured you'd already forgotten them within the first five minutes of waking." For some reason I look down at my hands, they feel tingly as if I've been sitting on them,
"I guess you right." I whisper,
"Last night was different though." Edward forces me back to the present, I drop my hands and take a breath,
"Ya."
"You never told me your name...your real name." Honestly...I feel like I've almost forgotten my last name until last night...I think I'm forgetting a lot of things being here.
"Why would I tell you, there wasn't a need to. I've been Marceline Cullen since I've gotten here."
"But you've been Marceline Callahan for 14 years." I have...I used to love my last name, back in my world, it meant something...I was someone...and then my mother changed everything and it meant nothing.
"Marceline Callahan..." I say it testing my own name on my tongue, it feels like years since I've heard it let alone said it, "I wonder how she's doing?"
"Whatever it is, I hope Marceline Cullen can stay." Goosebumps prickle along my skin, and I feel shivers up my spine. I both hate and love when Edward says things like this. I shake the static feeling from my hands and lean back into my seat.
"Me too."
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"We're your teachers nice to you?" Esme asks, she's been interrogating me since I got home. Asking me about every class and every person I talked to today, I nod biting into my granola bar,
"Yes, I turned in all my homework from last week and yesterday, no one was mad I promise." Esme nods, flipping through my homework folder,
"This seems like a lot more work than they normally give you." I shrug,
"I can handle it." She looks up with a soft smile on her lips,
"I know you can." She closes it and passes it back to me. She never usually goes through my homework, but she's been a little more close to me since last night. I was so freaked out babbling to Carlisle with tears down my eyes that something was wrong but I couldn't explain why I felt that way. Esme ended up taking over, forcing me to take a hot shower and then have dinner in bed. Carlisle had to go to work not long after and Esme ended up sitting with me until I fell asleep. I dreamt but it was nothing like the one I had before, in this one I just felt still and closed off...honestly it didn't feel any different than not dreaming.
"I had a good day." I smile at her with a reassuring smile. Carlisle back on the afternoon/evening shift so it's just Esme on parental duty tonight, and anything I can do to make her feel better I will.
"I'm glad sweetheart." She turns around grabbing something off the counter and turns back, "I bought this at the store today, I thought I could make this for dinner, it's not Campbell's but all the ingredients are on the back." She pushes the container of tomato soup towards me. I pick it up reading the back, before pushing it over to her,
"Ya, I think that's okay." She smiles,
"Grilled cheese okay with it?" I nod watching her turn back around and fiddle with something. I reach up feeling like I want to cry, but my eyes feel dry it's a weird feeling, and shiver when cold rushes through my ear. I reach up to rub it when Esme turns back around,
"Are you okay, honey?" I nod,
"I just got the shivers." Her eyes are concerned, it seems she looks at me like that a lot lately,
"Are you cold?"
"No, it's just the shivers it goes away quickly." I smile at her, but she keeps her frown on,
"Let me turn up the heat anyway." She walks out from behind the kitchen island and past me to the thermostat. I grab her wrist before she's completely out of reach. She turns with a tilt of her head, "Mare?"
"Esme-" I don't why I grabbed her hand, but as Esme looks me over with worry lacing her eyes, it hits me... "I love you." I've never said it first and I never thought I would, but I can't let this woman who's done nothing but take care of me and worry for me go another minute without hearing it. Her frown changes and she smiles with both her mouth and eyes,
"I love you too." She shakes out of my grasp and pulls me into a tight cold hug and squeezes me tightly. I don't want to let go and it seems neither does she because our hug lasts longer than any I've ever had and I'm content to let it go on when suddenly a bigger arm settles on my back
"Emmett?" Esme questions annoyed,
"I heard we're hugging from the living room and thought I would join you." His goofy voice hits my ears and I can't help but smile. Esme chuckles and wiggles out of the hug until it's just Emmett's large arms around me,
"Do you love me too?" He asks, theres a playfulness to his question. It sounds almost like a challenge. Usually, I challenge him back or purposefully say something to show him I'm not as soft as he is, but this time, I'm going to let him win,
"Yes."
….
November turns to December and the week passes by quickly and things seem to stay the same. Carlisle goes to work, the others and I go to school, and Esme takes care of the rest. Everything I eat is still prepackaged and processed and the dreams don't go away, and I remember every single one of them. One night, I feel like I can't move, the next I feel like I'm being moved involuntarily. I always feel cold and one morning I even wake with a headache. I've been keeping them to myself, not wanting to worry Carlisle or Esme, but it seems they're worried nonetheless. The tired feeling is always there and it's beginning to show. Thursday morning I woke and noticed the dark circles, that's that same morning I came down for breakfast, and there were two glasses in front of my normal bowl of fruit and cereal.
"What is it?" I asked,
"Coffee with some milk and sugar and Kiwi Berry Mist Pedialyte, Mellissa tells me the children on the pediatric ward find this one to be the best flavor." I raised an eyebrow remembering Carlisle telling me when I first got here I wasn't allowed coffee anymore. All he did was kiss my forehead and tell me to enjoy.
…
On Saturday morning when Edward was supposed to take me to get a passport photo, I begged to sleep in and Carlisle gave in, instead later that night, he had me stand in front of one of the white walls in the hall and took my picture.
"Can you do that?" I asked,
"Normally, no." He answered looking down at the digital camera, "But we have our ways." He smiled and took another picture, deeming this one, the one! I smiled, ate dinner watched TV, and fell asleep on Emmett's shoulder. This morning Carlisle woke me at 10 with a frown,
"I'm worried about how lethargic you are this week."
"Sorry." His hand brushes my forehead, something he's been doing every day this week, "I think I'm fine."
"You shouldn't be this tired,"
"Maybe I'm epileptic," I joke with a grin, when Carlisle didn't match it, I sat up, "I'm not epileptic."
"This could be serious."
"I'm a teen we're lazy."
"You're exhausted, there's a difference." I groan flopping back onto my pillows, "Has anything felt out of the normal, this last week?" Dry eyes, not being able to take a full breath, tingling and numb hands,
"No,"
"I'm not trying to scare you, but just make you aware that if I don't see an improvement this week I'm going to make an appointment to see the pediatrician." I groan, "I'd check you over myself, but I can't tamper with your records to much or someone will notice."
"No." Carlisle pulls the covers up to my shoulders,
"Yes," He stands "Esme said you could stay in bed for however long you want," He grabs something from my nightstand and holds it up, "When you're feeling more awake drink this, it's just a protein shake, vanilla." He sets it back down,
"Very bossy today." He smiles and sits down again,
"I've heard you've been pretty affectionate lately." I shrug pulling the covers closer,
"Maybe." I have. I've been in a hugging mood, luckily Esme, Alice, and Emmett are always open for a good hug, and I've made sure to tell Esme I love her before going to school every morning. I've also let Rose drive me to school and Edward to drive me home, while Alice and Jasper switch between Rose and Edward car every day. I've even been more affectionate with Carlisle not shrinking away or stiffening when he places a kiss on my forehead or pulls me into his side. Even now when he pushes my bangs back I don't move away, "I'm trying."
"I appreciate it, but my sweet girl you don't have to. We're willing to give you all the time you need, so one day you don't have to try, it will just be natural."
"I'm sorry."
"There's no need to be."
"I'm sorry for making you work for it, you shouldn't have to." Carlisle eyes soften,
"Love is constant. Love is patient, and my sweet girl, I am a very patient man." He pats my leg and stands, heading for the door,
"Thank you." He turns in the doorway, "For being patient."
"You never, ever have to thank me."
"Patient enough to not need a doctor's appointment." Carlisle raises a brow,
"Nice try," He points to my nightstand table, "Drink your protein shake." I wait until the door closes to smile,
"I love you too," I mumble into my blankets before reaching forward to drink the protein shake, it's grainy and awful, but for Carlisle, I'll finish it.
…
Breaking glass, blaring horns, sirens, pain, needles, lights. Everything swirls around me. White shoes running down a white tile, bags of clear liquid, and the snapping of latex gloves. I feel my body moving, but I'm standing still...how can that be? The sound of an electric razor, frantic voices, blue lights, and wires attached to sticky pads. Now I feel like I'm sitting up, something tight around my head,
"Marceline Callahan." There it is again my name,
"Marcleine Callahan!" They say it louder as if that matters,
"MARCELINE CALLAHAN!" What!? repeating it doesn't change it!
Pain bursts behind my eyelids as something cuts into my head, first skin, then skull, it's unbearable. This amount of pain should have me passed out, but I'm wide awake, and...god it hurts.. please stop it.. PLEASE!
"Marceline Callahan."
…
I wake screaming. My body hurts and feels numb all at the same time, as if theirs a thousand tiny pin pricks entering my skin at the same time only to be pulled out and reinserted. It hurts, but it doesn't and I feel hot tears run down my face. Cold hands grab my wrist and voices call my name. I open my eyes finding Carlisle in front of me, Esme behind him, and shadowy figures standing at my door,
"Car...Car..Carl-"
"Breathe." Carlisle encourages, his voice steady. I shake my head rapidly, he doesn't understand,
"S..some..thi...things...wrong." I force between breaths, my chest burns and my head feels so full of pressure, I start screaming again just praying it will stop,
"MARCELINE," Carlisle shouts above me, but I don't care I don't stop until I have to, because I'm going to pass out, that's when I feel it. A rift. I open my eyes finding the world in front of me fuzzy.
"Carlisle!" I push out in one breath. His eyes are wide and he opens his mouth, but whatever he says I can't hear it. Oh God, what's happening? I feel the world around me lighten, turning a bright white as my room begins to disappear, even the feeling of Carlisle's hands on my wrist is gone, the cold being replaced with nothing,
"Marceline." I hear Carlisle shout, but it's so far away...the world..my room...my family..it's gone, there's only bright white... there is only me, and I'm alone,
"NOOOOO!"