I have no idea where this came from. All I know is that my mind was in a bit of a funk when I woke up this morning and typed it out on my phone. Hopefully this isn't too depressive for anyone.
Sick
It's been two months since we last saw you,
Two months since your farewell,
Kai's finding his routine again
But there's something you should know
I'm sitting in the med bay
Cole is by my side
He's watching as I write this
Watching every shaky stroke I make
His eyes are full of worry
And I honestly don't blame him
He was the one who found me after all
After I collapsed in the hallway
Why did I collapse you ask
If you could see me now, you'd know
I haven't been taking care of myself
I haven't eaten a thing since the farewell
The others knew what I was doing
But stupid me refused their help
And yet none of us quite know
how I managed to hide it for so long
I did drink something, just so you know
Every now and then so I got the liquids
But it wasn't water and Zane knew
I just can't bring myself to drink what you became
I'm sorry, Nya, I really am
But I feel like I have failed you again
To know that you are gone because of me
I can't handle it twice in a row
I barely made it through the first time
And you know how big a mess that was
So I guess it's understandable
That I've taken this all so hard
Zane's back with Lloyd now
They've got the Land Bounty II ready
Said something about a cot before
And now they're taking me to the hospital
Kai's here too, standing at the door
He's packed a bag for me
But I can see in his eyes
The sadness and disappointment
They've all got something in their eyes
When they look at me
It just reminds me of my failure
And the mess I've since become
So I just want to say that I'm sorry
To them and to you
And if I don't make it out of this
Then my last wish is to be lowered to you.
- Jay Walker