Chapter One: Intro
(DO NOT READ THIS If you do not like Midsommar, or are not comfortable with cults. This is based on a movie called Midsommar. It is about a Swedish Cult. All foreign languages are from google translate! There are trigger warnings as well! Triggers are: Self harm. Su!c!de. Sacr!f!cing. Brainwashing. Cult. Homophobia. Foul Language! THIS IS A VERY MATURE FANFIC! Read at your own risk! This story is from a third person's point of view. My character; Alessia. I will be adding a lot more to the story. This will be an Alternate Universe story as the movie as a guide. I do not own anything! Just my character!)
New York City. Many believe it's the place to live when going to college. One of the busiest places to live as well. The storm outside made it gloomy. It was also in the middle of winter. Standing in the bathroom as her laptop was opened. Hearing the email instant messenger go off as she sighed. Looking in the mirror as a mid height woman looked back at her. Long back hair and blue eyes. Her cheeks gave her a high cheekbone look. She sighed while pulling the sweater over herself while looking at the messages and smiled as she was replying. She had time before class. She picked up her laptop and went to the small bedroom. She was sharing a small apartment with her best friend who was in class already. She had made an online friend a while back. A while back. She had grown attached to this person. No idea who she is or even if she was a she. Though, for some reason, she was able to open up to her. This woman knew her hopes and dreams for the future. Her fears and that she didn't like to be touched at all. Taking a deep breath as she pushed her feelings to the side to ignore them. Her friend needed her and that's what she was going to do.
MayQueen14: "Did you sleep well?"
ArtisticFlower: "I did. Not much but just enough."
MayQueen14: "You need to take care of yourself."
ArtisticFlower: "I do!"
MayQueen14: "Are you sure? Drink water at least."
ArtisticFlower: "I will! I have to head to class."
MayQueen14: "Talk to you later?"
ArtisticFlower: "Of course!"
MayQueen14: "Until then, stay safe."
Flipping through her sketchbook as she sighed. Resting her head on her hand while tabbing the clean page.
"Any idea what you want to draw?" A male's voice spoke. She looked up to see a man smiling at her. He looked young regardless of his beard.
"Not really. I know we have an art final coming up and I have been more focused on that." The girl spoke. Watching the man sit down and set his book on the table in front of him while still smiling.
"I'm Pelle." He spoke as he held his hand out to her.
"Alessia." She spoke as she took his hand. She smiled again. He had a charm to him and she couldn't put a finger on it. "You have an accent. Are you new?" She asked as he chuckled and shook his head.
"No. I am from Sweden. I am in my final year." Pelle spoke. Alessia raised a brow but shrugged it off.
"I'm in my final year as well. I was wondering because I have never seen you in art classes before." She spoke. They were after all in an Advanced art class. Her phone was going off as she looked at it.
"Everything alright?" He asked. She nodded her head and put her phone on vibrate.
"Yes. My friend is going through a hard time at the moment." Alessia spoke as the professor came into the room with his laptop and an apple in his mouth.
"What's her name?" Pelle asked. Alessia raised a brow again.
"Um. Dani." She spoke.
"Ardor?" He asked.
"How did you know?" She was now getting suspicious.
"She's dating my friend." He spoke.
"Christian?" Alessia asked as Pelle nodded his head. "How come we never meet?" She asked.
"I heard that you are the busiest friend in the group." Pelle spoke. Alessia chuckled a little. He was not wrong. She was always on the go. Never getting a moment's peace.
"Well what can I say, I'm always there for them." She spoke with a smile. He smiled and opened his book. Seeing the still life drawings he made. She smiled at them before looking back to the board.
"Alright! For your weekly drawing! Draw a dream you do not mind sharing." He spoke as he wrote on the white board on the wall. Alessia pulled out some paper and began to write. She was brainstorming ideas from any dream she had. Frowning at this when she realized she had not any dreams recently.
"That is all we have for today." Her professor spoke as he sat down at his desk.
"Hey, we are having pizza for dinner. Want to come?" Pelle asked. Alessia smiled and nodded her head.
"Sure! Pizza sounds good." She spoke as she packed her things and followed him out.
Snow was falling all over the place. Streets, cars, even benches were covered with snow. She shivered while holding her jacket tighter around her body while making sure she had her wallet and phone. Holding the door opened as she followed Pelle into the building. It was warm inside as she unzipped her jacket. Seeing her other three friends and waving at them.
"Hey! Glad you could make time from your busy schedule." A male voice spoke.
"Shut up Mark. You know she's graduating soon." Another spoke.
"You keep track, Josh?" Mark asked. His voice sounded like he was teasing.
"How's Dani?" Pelle asked.
"She's alright." Christian spoke. Alessia frowned at this. Dani was not alright. She was going through another panic attack from an email. Alessia sat down between Christian and Mark. Feeling her phone vibrate as she opened it to look.
MayQueen14 "Drink water today?"
Alessia smiled at the message. For some reason, she always smiled at the messages from this person.
"Still talking to that creep?" Mark asked.
"Creep?" Pelle then asked.
"She's not a creep." Alessia spoke as she was defending the unknown person.
"All you ever do is talk to that man who lives in his parents' basement." Mark spoke. Alessia rolled her eyes at this.
"She is not a creep nor lives in a basement. She's Swedish." Alessia spoke as she sighed. Putting her phone away.
"So he says." Mark spoke. Alessia didn't like Mark. She tolerated him because of her other two friends and now Pelle.
"Anyways, what pizza are we ordering?" Pelle asked.
"I'll take pineapple with ham." Alessia spoke. Hearing a gagging voice came from Mark as he put an arm around Alessia's shoulder. She removed his arm.
"Stop touching me. You know better!" She hissed at him.
"You don't like being touched. I should be able to touch you." He spoke back.
"You are not my partner." Alessia replied.
"Boyfriend." Mark spoke.
"I don't like you in that way." Alessia sighed as she stood up and sat by Josh.
"What are you? Gay?" Mark asked as he laughed and nudged Pelle's arm. Pelle however did not look amused. "Oh, you're serious?" Mark asked as Alessia nodded.
"As long as you don't steal my girl." Christian spoke. Alessia rolled her eyes yet again at this. She wondered how she was still friends with them. Her phone went off again as she looked at it. Dani was texting her.
Dani: Are you busy?
Alessia: About to eat pizza. What's up?
Dani: Got an email from my sister. It's ominous.
Hearing another phone go off as she looked up and saw Christian looking at his phone and answered it.
"Is that Dani?" Alessia asked as he nodded.
"She said hi. Hi Alessia." Christian spoke. Alessia smiled as their pizza arrived. Alessia grabbed her piece and began to eat. "Not much. Just smoked resin at Mark's and about to eat pizza." Christian spoke as Alessia started her second piece while drinking some water as well. "Oh, did we talk about doing something tonight?" He asked. Alessia felt her phone buzz again. She looked at it as it made her smile.
MayQueen14: "Well?"
ArtisticFlower: "I did! Sorry. Went to dinner with a new friend!"
MayQueen14: "Tell me about your friend?"
ArtisticFlower: "He is from Sweden! You Swedish have lovely charms!"
MayQueen14: "I have charm?"
ArtisticFlower: "You do! I've been wanting to tell you something."
MayQueen14: "You can tell me anything."
ArtisticFlower: "I'm having feelings."
MayQueen14: "For someone?"
ArtisticFlower: "Yes."
MayQueen14: "Want to tell me?"
"Oh my god, it's not her again is it?" Mark's voice came. Alessia frowned as she put her phone away. Looking up. She hated her friend's relationship. She had never seen such a toxic relationship before.
"You need to stop sitting on the fence with this." Mark spoke. Alessia raised a brow at this. What was he talking about?
"What if I end up regretting and wanting her back and can't get her back?" Christian asked. Oh. He wanted to break up with her. Alessia sighed softly as her phone buzzed again. It was MayQueen asking questions again.
"Going to answer that?" Pelle asked as he nudged her. Alessia put her phone back up.
"So then you can bitch to us for that day about how much you regret it, and we'll remind you that you've been wanting out of this stupid relationship for the last year, and then you can find some new chick who actually likes sex and who doesn't drag you through a million hoops a day." Mark spoke. Alessia scoffed at this. They were sex driven and it was frustrating. "What? Not our fault you're a virgin." Mark replied while looking at her. Alessia rolled her eyes and looked away. She had pulled out cash to pay for her food.
"Do you think this drama is making you not do what actually needs to be done?" Josh then asked.
"What work?" Christian then asked.
"Your thesis?" Josh asked back.
"When you are ready." The waitress asked as she locked eyes with Christian longer than normal.
"See! You could be getting her pregnant!" Mark spoke in a hushed voice. What is with this guy wanting to get women pregnant?! Alessia thought and shook her head. Her phone buzzed in her pocket again.
"And all the Swedish women you can impregnate in June." Pelle spoke. Alessia gave him a glare.
"Yeah, don't forget about the Swedish milkmaids!" Mark added. A phone vibrated on the phone.
"Dude, is that her again? Seriously?" Mark asked. "She needs a therapist."
"She has one." Christian replied.
"Then she should call him. Not you! It's insane, she's using you." Mark spoke. He was clearly upset. Alessia shook her head at this. Christian hadn't really been there for Dani like she was. His phone went off again. He sighed and picked it up.
"Move." He spoke.
"No. Uh uh." Mark shook his head and crossed his arms. Alessia stood up with Pelle and Josh as Christian went to the side while talking on the phone. Hearing a hush voice, Alessia looked over her shoulder with a frown.
"We need to go. Now." Christian spoke while looking at Alessia.
"Why?" She asked as she grabbed her car keys and followed him.
"What's happened?" Alessia asked as she was driving slowly in the snow lit night. The road was slippery and she was trying to be careful but something was screaming inside of her to hurry up.
"It's Dani. Her parents and sister were found dead." Christian spoke as he dropped the bomb.
"What?!" Alessia spoke as she pulled over into a parking spot on the edge of a sidewalk. She zipped up her jacket and turned her car off and locked it up as they left. Seeing her apartment not far as she was running. Slipping and sliding as she went. Hearing a loud wail as her heart dropped to her stomach. Dani was crying and they could hear it. She ran after Christian and made their way inside. Seeing the door opened as she was the last one inside. Closing the door as Dani was now crying in Christian's lap.
"No no no no no!" Dani screamed while crying. Alessia felt her own eyes sting from this. Being an empath that she was, she could feel Dani's pain as if it was her own. She pushed it back and walked over. Kneeling down and she was petting Dani's head to comfort her. Feeling her wrist grabbed as she jumped. She was extremely uncomfortable but knew her friend needed her. She put her comfort aside as Dani was crying. Holding onto her wrist tightly. It seemed they were sitting here for hours as Dani was finally asleep.
"Get some rest. I'll take her to bed." Christian spoke. Alessia frowned and nodded. Kissing her friend's head as she left to her own room. Taking her jacket off as her phone went off again. She could barely make out the message as she passed out on her bed.
A loud ring of a bell was heard as it echoed across the meadow. A different location. She was not in New York anymore. There was nothing but calmness surrounding her. Alessia looked up and closed her eyes. Inhaling the fresh air as the sun was warm against her face. It was the summer sun and she liked it. She looked around herself. She was alone in the field. Feeling the grass with her bare feet. She was wearing a blouse tucked into a skirt. All white clothes. She smiled and raised her arms up and let out a breath of air. Dropping her arms as she could feel nature all around her as she smiled. She felt at peace. Sitting down and then she laid down. Closing her eyes as she just listened. She felt like she belonged here. In nature. The wind made the trees dance. Smiling as she stood back up and began to dance with the trees. Flowers were starting to bloom everywhere. Smiling as she knelt down and picked one. Smelling the scent from the flower as it filled her mind. Humming softly as she placed the flower into her hair, behind her ear. Hearing a loud beep from nearby. She frowned and looked around. Another beep. This time louder. She stepped back to be closer to the trees only for the beeping to get louder. It surrounded her now as she let out a scream but nothing came.
Sitting up quickly and sighed. Rubbing her face as she hit her alarm clock. Frowning as it was the first dream she had in a long time. She looked at her phone to see a few missed notifications. It was from MayQueen asking if she was alright. Alessia frowned. She felt bad for leaving her on read.
ArtisticFlower: "I'm sorry."
MayQueen14: "Oh! I was worried about you! I thought I said something wrong."
ArtisticFlower: "No. Just, something happened and my friend needed me."
MayQueen14: "Is she alright?"
ArtisticFlower: "No. Her parents and sister died last night."
MayQueen14: "That's horrible! I am sorry. Is she resting and getting the love she needs?"
ArtisticFlower: "From me, yes. I am not sure about her boyfriend."
MayQueen14: "What do you mean?"
ArtisticFlower: "I don't think he loves her."
MAyQueen14: "That's a shame. Love should be unconditional."
ArtisticFlower: "Unfortunately here, it's not."
MayQueen14: "How do you love?"
ArtisticFlower: "I've never been in love but I love with my all."
MayQueen14: "That's beautiful. How did you feel when you heard the news?"
ArtisticFlower: "As if I could feel her pain. Then again, I could."
MayQueen14: "What do you mean?"
ArtisticFlower: "I lost my family in a car accident when I was younger."
MayQueen14: "At least you had another family for you to lean on."
ArtisticFlower: "I didn't. I ended up in the system. Always moving around. I closed myself off and just never let anyone in."
MayQueen14: "You deserve a family."
ArtisticFlower: "I have one. My friends."
MayQueen14: "Are you loved by them?"
ArtisticFlower: "Of course. They are taken care of by me."
MayQueen14: "Who takes care of you?"
ArtisticFlower: "I do."
She frowned at this. What did she mean by that? Of course she takes care of herself. As she does for her friends. She was always there for them.
MayQueen14: "Will you answer my question from last night? Your feelings."
ArtisticFlower: "Well. I know we never met but we have been talking for a little over a year now. I think I have feelings for you."
She held her breath at this when she sent it. Covering her face as she sighed. 'Why are you so stupid?!' She shouted at herself.
MayQueen14: "I have feelings for you too."
That message. It made her heart beat fast against her chest. She blushed and covered her cheeks with her hands. How could someone she never met make her stomach tingle with butterflies? Make her speechless and blush.
MayQueen14: "Are you there?"
ArtisticFlower: "Yes. Sorry. I was speechless. I wish I could meet you. I don't even know your name. I'm Alessia."
MayQueen14: "That's a pretty name my vacker blomma."
ArtisticFlower: "What does that mean?"
MayQueen14: "I won't tell you. It's my special nickname for you."
Alessia was now smiling stupidly and sighed a little.
ArtisticFlower: "I had a dream last night. First time in a while."
MayQueen14: "I remember you telling me you have dreamless nights. Tell me about your dream?"
ArtisticFlower: "I was dancing in a meadow. The summer sun was warm. I could feel nature around me. There was a rainbow of flowers all over the meadow. The trees were dancing. I felt free."
MayQueen14: "Sounds beautiful. Why not dance where you live?"
ArtisticFlower: "I don't feel like I fit in where I live. As if I am out of place."
MayQueen14: "Maybe your home is somewhere else. Your heart aches for a place you haven't been to or maybe it's aching from a past life."
This woman was definitely wise. Her words remained in her mind.
ArtisticFlower: "Perhaps you are right. I do feel out of place here."
MayQueen14: "Well, maybe someday we'll meet and you'll love it here."
ArtisticFlower: "Where do you live in Sweden?"
MayQueen14: "North is all I can tell you. I live in a very small community."
ArtisticFlower: "Tell me about your community? Is it beautiful?"
MayQueen14: "It is. Everyone here loves each other. We lift each other up. We feel at peace with nature. I cannot tell you much about it, but I think you would like it."
ArtisticFlower: "Sounds like I already love it. I wish to meet you someday. You make my heart flutter when I hear from you."
MayQueen14: "I feel the same. I have to go. Everyone is going to sleep. Talk to you soon my vacker blomma."
She sighed softly as she rested her hand on her chest. Feeling her heart beating rather fast as she laid back down. Her head was spinning. She then frowned. She caught feelings for someone in another country. Feeling her eyes sting and sat up. Rubbing her face as she pushed her feelings back. She needed to focus. Hearing Dani's cries again as she stood up and quickly left her room. It seemed Christian had left. She shook her head at this and walked into her friend's room.
"I thought you left!" Dani spoke on her pillow. Alessia frowned and crawled into Dani's bed and laid next to her. Seeing her friend's face made her frown. She wanted to cry as well but pushed it back. Gently trying to touch Dani's shoulder.
"It's okay. You being here helps. I know touching isn't your thing." Dani managed to say.
"I'm sorry." She spoke. She pushed it through and grunted. Touching Dani's shoulder. Her friend then hugged her. Alessia grunted again and sighed a little. Rubbing Dani's back. This was a huge step for her. Her friend needed her and she would be there for her no matter what.
"Christian leave?" Alessia asked. Feeling Dani nod against her chest.
"Asshole." Alessia spoke.
"He is good to me." Dani spoke. Alessia didn't argue. She couldn't. She just nodded her head while rubbing her back.
"Need me to make you some food?" Alessia asked. Dani sniffled and laughed a little and nodded her head.
"Can you make your chocolate chip pancakes?" She asked.
"Of course." Alessia spoke. She sat up and crawled off the bed and headed towards the kitchen. Stretching as she went. Getting the things she needed to make the pancakes. Hearing footsteps not long after as she started mixing the ingredients as she turned the stove on.
"Hey." Dani's voice came.
"Hey." Alessia spoke while smiling at her friend before pouring the batter into the pan. She pulled the orange juice from the fridge and sat it on the table as Dani poured two glasses. She went back to the stove and flipped the pancakes. Making a few each. She set them on the center of the table. Dani helped herself as Alessia sat down. Seeing her friend's eyes water again before wiping them away. She sat down across from Dani and waited with a frown.
"I'm okay. I have to be." Dani spoke.
"It's okay to not be okay." Alessia spoke.
"You are always the wise one." Dani spoke with a weak smile before finishing her food rather quickly.
"I'll take care of the dishes. You go get some rest." Alessia spoke. Dani nodded.
"You work today?" She asked.
"I can call out." Alessia spoke.
"No. I'll call Christian." Dani spoke. Alessia sighed. Wondering if he would actually come over to watch over Dani.
"Call me as soon as you need me okay?" Alessia asked. She wanted to stay so Dani didn't feel alone. Watching her friend nod her head when she left. Alessia cleared the table and did the dishes before heading back to her room. Changing into her work clothes as she felt her phone vibrate against her jean pockets. It made her heart flutter.
MayQueen14: "Thinking about you. Be safe and talk later."
Entering the coffee shop as it was now getting busy. She went to the back to clock in while putting her apron on. Hearing footsteps rushing about.
"Alessia. Be a dear and take the register up front?" Her boss' voice spoke.
"Sure thing boss! Oh, also, I have my phone on for my friend. She lost family last night." Alessia spoke.
"Dani? Maybe you should head home then. Be with her." Her boss spoke.
"She wanted me to come in and she would call if anything happens." Alessia spoke.
"Alright. Let me know." He spoke. She nodded her head and watched her boss take his leave as she went to the front of the shop. Taking orders while smiling. It was her fake customer smile.
"Hello! What can I get you?" She asked while taking orders. Her feet were a little sore as she sighed. Turning to help her co-worker make the coffee that needed to be made. She had now been on the clock for hours now. She was still worried about her friend. She hadn't heard anything so hoping that Christian was there. She turned back around and stopped.
"Hey." Pelle spoke as Alessia actually smiled.
"Hey!" Alessia replied back.
"So, this is where you work?" Pelle asked while looking around. The coffee shop was in the busiest part of the city. She nodded her head.
"Yes. What can I get you?" She asked.
"Well, I'll take one medium cappuccino and one small vanilla bean Frappuccino." He spoke. Alessia raised a brow at him and nodded. "You're on break here in a minute. I wanted to talk to you." He spoke.
"Oh! Yeah, no problem!" She smiled while putting the order in. "Alright, your total is three dollars." She spoke.
"That's cheap." He smiled.
"Friend discount." She spoke. Hearing a chuckle as he paid for his order. Alessia had clocked out for her break and sat down. Pelle came to the table with the drinks. Handing her the vanilla one. She smiled and took a sip.
"How did you know?" She asked.
"Well. Josh told me you work here and you usually go on breaks this time." Pelle spoke. She nodded her head to show she understood.
"Josh usually comes here almost everyday. I suppose he is busy today. Also, you wanted to talk?" Alessia asked.
"Ah yes. I've noticed you enjoy drawing as well. I invited the guys this summer to visit my home village." Pelle spoke.
"That's kind of you." Alessia spoke.
"Yes. I would love for you to come visit as well. There is a lot of nature around the area to draw." He replied.
"Oh Pelle. I would love to but I'm not sure." Alessia frowned. She would love to visit Sweden. Feeling her heart against her chest. It would increase her chances of meeting MayQueen.
"May I ask why?" Pelle asked.
"Because of my sexuality." Alessia replied. Holding onto her drink.
"Alessia. My village. We do not care who you love. We celebrate love. Not hate. If you fall in love with a woman, we celebrate that." Pelle spoke with a smile. Alessia couldn't help but smile at this.
"Tell me more about your village?" Alessia asked. Pelle pulled out a phone and showed her pictures of women around her age all dressed in white with some hint of colors. Wearing flower crowns as well. They were sitting in the grass with smiles. They looked so peaceful. "It looks peaceful. There are runes?" She asked while pointing at a girl's dress.
"Yes, we learn about the runic alphabet." Pelle spoke as he swiped on the phone.
"Who are they?" Alessia asked as a photo caught her attention. It was a tall woman in red and white. Her hair was being held up by some sort of hat she had never seen. There was another woman standing next to her. She was a little shorter. Her hair was in a bun and had very short bangs. She had her hands behind her back. She has a handsome face. She looked very serious. She was also wearing all white with blue runes on her outfit.
"That's Siv. Our uh religious leader. The short one is Lillen. Our pilgrimage leader." Pelle spoke.
"She's beautiful." Alessia whispered to herself. Hoping no one heard.
"She's looking for her soulmate." Pelle spoke. Alessia blushed and took another drink. Hoping he didn't hear her.
"Well, I guess I could visit. It looks beautiful." Alessia spoke while looking at the other pictures Pelle was showing her.
"You'll fall in love there." Pelle spoke. She had no idea what he meant by that but finished her drink.
"I should head back. Chat at dinner?" Alessia asked. Pelle smiled and nodded. Alessia stood up and went to the back. She forgot her phone and went back but stopped. She could hear Pelle talking on the phone.
"Yes, tell Lillen I found her astrological match and she's coming." Pelle spoke. Alessia rose her brow at this. "I'll have five coming from my end. Her and Dani are the perfect ones." Pelle spoke. Alessia was confused but decided to push it to the back of her mind as she went back to work.
-Notes-
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